10:17 PM
Monday, March 14, 2005

sun morn soccer reali burn mi out..so tired tat mi slp e whole noon..hmm..stil feel tat mi haven fully recover wor..stil feel abit sick..weather these daes reali sux..

aniwae..was watchin tv juz nw..mtv showing avril lavigne..one of mi idol..hmm..her actions..her hair..her behaviour..remind mi of lan lan..yes..finali i admit..i do miz her at times..we didnt speak to each other for mths alreadi..duno y too..cos of sumtin reali stupid? i wonder..

well..shes e 3rd ever "gan jie jie" (elder godsis) i haf..e closest among e 3..was reali reali close to her specially e last sem in poly..cos mi became single at e last sem..n she did helped mi alot after tat breakup..goshh..beta dun tok bout e breakup..hmmm..as 4 lanlan..i stil can rem e times we spent 2gether..we were always 2gether..in class, lab, lecture..eat play sports..yeah..then alot pple started puting mi n her 2gether..basically i was linked wif any gals tat im close wif..so im quite used to it..hehehe..im like a "celebrity" n my frens r like "reporters"..chasing mi 4 pics n stories n luv to bomb mi wif lots of qns which obviously i dun gif them ani real info..lol~~ at times..i wonder y my frens r so gan chiong bout whether i haf a gf or nt wor..like wan to chase mi away liddat..dun care arh..i'll stick to all my frens..wont let go de..dun ever tink of kickin out song hor..hahaha..after sayin myself so gd..muz oso "po" my frens abit.. :P

eh..so mani things interrupt mi blogging..1hr+ liao mi haven binish wor..
hmm..back to lan lan..mi stil rem hw she tk care of mi when mi fell sick..everydae remind mi to tk pills..k..i admit i reali hate takin medication..n e 1st ever panadol i took was forced down my throat by yp in poly times lo..hehee..hmm..lan oso wil br mi to c chinese physician when i injured mi leg..i rem i had lots injuries in poly..always "pai ka" de..ankle sprain ar..knee ar..then she always scold mi de..aiya she nag mi at everytin de wor..4 my own gd she wil defend herself..after poly binish..i stil mit up wif her..even when im in army..i stil mit her..stil tat close..mit her often 4 swim 4 movies 4 chat 4 shoppin..we were so close..like real di n jie..but things start to go wrong since mi 21st bdae..

she fell out wif our own poly frens..n then now..mi..cant imagine tat..one stupid event changed everytin..i told her once..tat i would reali hate her if she ignore mi again..n now she dd tis again..n im e one who take e 1st step again..wats wrong wif her..i reali duno..ego? pride? well..i let go mine again 4 sumone whom i treasure..cos of wat she did 4 mi in e past..btw..i did msg u..lan lan..doubt she would ever read my blog..aniwae..i did msg her on her bdae 2004..no one noe bout tis k..but after tat then i realise tat she changed her hp..gosshh..tok bout hw much i miz her..hw bout her..shrugg...aniwae..im signing off b4 i get too emotional again..my mental state these daes stil not tat stable..nid time..at least my hehe n haha r back..waitin 4 e real smile on mi face to appear....stil waitin...

where are u when i nid help e most..probably e most diffcult period of my life i faced since tat breakup wif yp..dun force mi to hate u..

posted by Pr|nce @ 10:17 PM  

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