Heavenly World...

2:09 AM
Friday, June 02, 2006

haiz...my mood been bad...real bad...i juz feel tat alot pple dun understand me at all...since ydae...i hear almost the same things fr my pals...make mi feel so moody.....

starting fr mi gd pal...he quotes....."duno if its u bz or wat...i feel tat theres a distance betw u n mi..u n e rest..."

then i cont to tok to another sec sch fren.....she mentions...."ya i do feel theres a gap betw u n us...u shld try to do something mah...i feel tat u nvr put in effort..u shld make effort n try let e other party feel it...in a grp..u muz try to tok to all of them mah..."

2dae noon time...another close gal pal sms 2 mi sayin..."im nt hapi wif u n v.disappointed in u...cos is always so hard to communicate wif u...cant even haf 10 sentences in a few mins in msn..i noe u r busy..so i rather dun disturb you.."

later evening...my godsis complains too...."y are u always so busy...y u keep sayin u busy...when can u mit mi...y always u haf alot of things to do...how bout e others? y cant ask e others to do...y my work like endless one..yyyyy..."

why liddat??...it seem like alot of my frens dun understand e job tat im doin now...haiz....its family biz...i can say...tat theres no working hrs...not 8 to 5pm or 12 to 9pm etc etc...normal i start work ard 12pm...but fr there on...its endless...alot of things to do..to settle...esp e biz is 24hr..7days a week...non stop running....

every morn i wake up...i haf to online to check mails...oni afew mins available to chat on msn...then im off to work...and from ard 12pm+ start..till 8pm liddat...i reali reali busy...i haf to gif instructions..do accounts...do inspections..do ordering...handle calls...handle events..handle complaints...non stop i can say....at times i hardly got time to eat...or drink..or even go toilet...dun even nid to mention contacting my frens...

everydae rch home..i nid to do quotations for clients cos i dun haf internet in office...then fri i haf to preapre all e things 4 events...weekend mostly is taken up by events....off days are hard n rare 4 mi...cos at times other than fishing area..i still haf to help out at seafood n drinks side...n even macpherson...how u all wan me 2 dig out time?? ya..i noe things can be arranged...but i nid time to settle down in tis new job..new environment...esp i veri veri new to tis line...somemore my dad juz took over the biz...so things seem endless 4 mi....cos if i dun help...who would help my dad then?

i hope my frens can understand e fact tat im workin in family biz...something no one around me is doin...my workin hrs doesnt juz stop at 5pm then can go home or go out...nooo...mine is not fixed...at times i can spend more than 14hrs at prp...things haf to be done....who would wan to work non stop? who doesnt wan an off day? who dunwan to relax n enjoy?? or go holis?? not mi...i wish to relax..to enjoy...to play...to go shopping..to go overseas....but now..i cant...i need time u see...cos i promise myself b4 to chiong all e way 4 my future...plus my studies...i haf alot of goals in life...and i feel i at least can hit one by end of tis year....

my best pal probably understand tis when he read my blog...so distance betw mi n him soon waived i guess...as 4 e other sec sch pals...i reali dun get it...y shld i be e one doin things esp when im so busy?? those who always so free...nutin to do...dun even contact mi...i so busy...yet still expect me to take e 1st step...im not using BUSY as excuse but to tink logically..i not wrong...some people reali doesnt haf things to tok to me...so no matter who take e 1st step oso no use wat....

as 4 e other close pal...i noe her temper...her mindset...but juz hope she realise tat im oni free at nite to chat at msn...noon time i reali not free to chat...esp i nid to prepare to go work...but im free to sms mah...y dun try sms ing mi??

my dear little godsis...i noe u been tryin hard to mit up wif mi...i apologise 4 some last min changes but i do hope u understand my job...i nid to get things done 1st b4 i go off...gif mi some time to settle down ba...aniwae...i met up wif u afew times liao wor...more than some of mi gd pals liao leh...so dun angry le hor.....

i not tryin to argue anitin...i noe at times i reali busy...but i do haf time 4 sms...n even chattin on phone...juz ask shuyi...i chat wif her afew times on phone...juz make sure u get mi at e rite time can le...my sms reply might be slow at times...cos at times i 4get to reply...but i still do reply mah...if sms no use...then juz call mi loh...aiyo...but hor...i still contact afew pple 1st de wor...u noe who u are...well...tis post like gg no where liddat....juz hope some frens can understand my job better and my lifestyle now better....

seriously...i reali cant stand people who use lame reasons to argue wif mi...like..."u so busy..no nid call u mah...u so busy..dunwan to disturb u mah...u u u u u...." craps....i got time to watch 3movies for e past 3weeks...i can even play soccer on sun morn n wed evening...i can go out dinner wif afew frens...go play billard n pool afew times...wats about mi being so busy??....stop using ME so busy as an excuse to cover watever stupid reasons about cant getting me to go out or do anitin...

no offence to anyone in tis post...juz wan ask for more understanding and more time for mi to settle down in tis new job...i juz tryin to do my best for my future...those who wanna fly high wif mi...i sure help...but those who dunwan do anitin yet complain all sort of things bout mi...sry..i dun wish to entertain...be it selfish or anitin...im doin for my future...i dunwan to be lazy like i used to be...its time 4 mi to do something for my own future le...

More understanding of me life n job pls...thanks....

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