Heavenly World...

3:15 AM
Monday, April 28, 2008

I took ard 6months to finish this post...duno y...suddenli feel like blogging this post out....i shall not disturb e flow of my post...i juz cont from where i stop...

6mths ago, i started this post....

-oct 2007-

~~~ As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility...I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me ~~~~~

Akon - Sorry, Blame It On me

I reali agree with this sentence veri veri much....hmm...so much has hapen over e yrs...for me..i felt tat somehow..i reali do get abit more mature...not much..but still enuff to make mi realise more things..heee...

was tokin to gf few days back...when she suddenli ask mi y i stop blogging..as in..i stop posting le..hmm...well...i did explain to her....maybe is part of growing up in me ba...i juz feel tat...since im attached le...alot of things have bcum so sensitive...

in e past..i used to blog almost everyday about my life..things i do..pple i met or go out with..but now...deb is always in my life...i reali cant blog out everytin about mi n her ba...i feel...so i decide to keep my blog private...and hor...last time i used to blog about gals, guys..anyone i met or i go out with...now...i feel..i cant do it ba...cos...very sensitive wor i feel..later create gossips..or misunderstanding...then its real bad..given my past reputation..i tink i better keep things private...haha...

-somewhere in nov 2007-

hmmm....another topic i wanna say is about poly clinics...i reali cant help but to complain about this...i rem my last post is about sgeans...now is about gov le...lol....i went poly clinic...cos i nid a letter from gov doc about my ankle mah...i injure 1mth ago..now still injure...nid to show to my army camp cos i miss IPPT...

i rch yis poly clinic ard 11am...super heavy rainy day..sux...ok...then wait...wait...wait...2hrs 5mins later!!! then is my turn....go into e rm..a indian doc...he looks reali reali blur...he started by anyhow twist my ankle..ask mi pain here or there....then tell mi.."u have no dislocation or fracture..cos if you have...you would have feel veri pain.."....i reali feel like killing him...even no dislocation or fracture..i still feel pain cos my ligaments hurts~~! i wonder if hes blind..cos he didnt see my ankle so damn swollen loh...and if theres reali dislocation, i wonder how i DRIVE to the polyclinic..or even how i can tahan 1mth b4 i see a doc..zzzz...

then i ask him for letter to excuse army boot...he say he not army medical officer..cannot excuse me..he can only INFORM the army that i nid to go specialist...everytin NO NO NO..reali sux...then still nvm...i see the way he types...'praying mantis' style..dotz...i wasnt reali lookin down on him...but hes a doc...shldnt he be more 'educated' in our modern computers era...i see him keep finding those LETTERing at e keyboard and keep typing wrongly...i guess..most of e time he throws everytin to his nurse to type...now tat his nurse nt ard..he has to do it himself...zzzz.....reali not a veri gd impression of him...

move on...to xray...took le...they say 2hrs later..then can tk...zzzzzzz....i go hm again..then 2hrs later return...and then they have to bandage my ankle...i duno 4 wat...cos they say...'u can take it out anitime u wish'...reali waste of resources sia..they give mi so mani things...bandage etc..everytin done..including collecting medications...near 5pm le...faint..i spend almost like half a day at e poly clinic....i wonder...if tat day, one reali sick...go poly clinic take mc..wait for 4 or 5 hrs...reali waste of time...tat ONE day mc is spend in the poly clinic itself...reali is sux...

-2008-

My 1st posting of e year....hmmm...yet again...cant help it but to ask qns on our gov again....reali feel so pissed by e escape of Mas.Selamat...i appreciate the gov for making SG so safe and strong..but its reali slap in e face for the proud proud pple we have in SG...for once...im reali luffing at the gov......this escape creates so much nonsense...waste pple efforts...pity those police and army pple...who have to 'walk' thru every forest of SG...and those polices standing at e roadside..lookin into the forest....SG police n army force...made to look like clowns loh...

worse of all...the escape...being under investigations...details will be kept away from e public...oni certain details are released....covering up....again...same move...even e investigation team is set up by the very own people who let HIM escape...faint.....no nid to say more le.........in addition...taxi fares up..bus fares up..rice price up...GST up..soon again...will hit 10%...petrol price up...and now...my beloved soccer...KO...singtel won e bid to AIR c.league matches...THANKS...now i nid to apply for singtel mio if i wan watch c.league...heck...i wont pay for it....i doubt many will do so too.....so unfair....dun care about e gov issue le...living in SG is reali so stressful...no wonder so mani pple left..to other countries......

back to my own life....updates...

hmmm...my left ankle..reali KO sia...tink ligament reali jialat...just went for my specialist appt...if u still rem my post at e top..i went poly clinic in NOV 2007...my appt is in APRIL 2008...near 5mths waiting time!!! great rite....i tink my leg gotten worse le loh....reali sux...i wonder...if other pple w broken or fracture limbs...5mths waiting time..i tink they can just CHOP off their limbs lah...if got more worse case hor...tink haven see doc alrdy die le...stupid rite...ask e pple running hosp loh....sianz....mi now waitin for MRI scan...duno when then e scanning....now i cant do anitin..no sports at all..haiz...at most oni swim.....reali sad.......

hmm...my work....gettin more busy le...now im workin at the seafood side le..i still doing events for fishing but not daily operation of e ponds le...i oso doing sales for our bun and dim sum making outlet...hehee...tryin to reali chiong in my job...

sch..as usual...so busy..taking 3 subj again...hope to grad by when of e yr....reali tiring...i have 7 assignments due in the nex 14days....more than 10 000words to write....reali KO sia...

bgr...hmm...hit e rock somehow....i duno how to say nor i reali wish to say it out here....but things still look bright...let see how things go ba....

frens..morel in contact w liang, jason and meng oni...others not reali le...juz feel tat thinking not match leh....i cannot stand pple with their stupid stubborn thinkings...once i have conflicts with them, i will start to walk away le...pointless in arguing...

listening to 933 now...haven done tat for veri long le..seldom listen to FM in my room de...heard alot of old songs...bringing me so many memories.....hmmm.....its time to slp le...gg to chiong my assignment tml le...

will try to update my blog often...but wonder...who actuli read it...haha...doesnt matter lah..lol...its a place for me to vent out my thoughts.....slp......

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2:37 AM
Wednesday, September 26, 2007

i wonder how mani of us actuli bother about small little things..

recently..Singtel has this campaign for charity..anyone just have to cut out the page from TODAY newspaper..fold it into a heart n drop it into any post box...and Singtel will donate $1 for every heart collected..

i reali wonder...how mani of us actuli bother to do so...well..i did..7 pieces of them so far...which mean im doin tat for e past one week...hmm...i not tryin to show off sumtin i did...but i juz wonder...hw mani SGeans actuli reali bother to do sumtin about tat page..

u see..TODAY is a FREE newspaper...e donation is free too as Singtel is e one paying for it...puting into e postbox is also free as well..no stamp needed...but juz how mani of us...reali do sumtin??...

e reason i say this..is tat i saw people..who basically juz skip tat page and read on e other news...and in e end...juz dump away e TODAY...haiz...this is reali so sad....everytin alreadi FOC le yet people dun care about it...WHY? bcos theres no prize money or free gifts to be won...u see how NKF get their donations thru TV shows...they juz offer lots of free gifts...and everyone start calling them...tats reali craps....it reali show e ugly side of life...so sickening...

If u are reading this...its time for u to do sumtin...well...i did my part alreadi...

Small little help goes a long long way...help others...

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11:58 PM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007

for e 1st time in so many months..i feel like making this post public...wonder hows life for most of my frens...most of whom i reali lost contacts these few months...do update me if u got time..hee..

well..wat i busy with? hmm...actuli reali nutin much...school ba....hmmm..im attached le..ya..sure alot have known tat...well..being attached now is reali reali different from e past le...last time i used to play so much..cant even tell whos reali e gal tat i wan...now i found le..and i had settled down so well until that some close frens dun actuli believe...

yes..i reali have been v.guai since e day i decide to settle down with her...gone are e days of free spending, clubbing, hanging out late..and those little bad habits like betting n swearing...change of living styles and habits..and even intake of food...if u ask me...i reali feel tat im reali enjoying this peaceful life...at least i seem to be more healthy in this sense wor...

seriously..at times..i cant believe i had settled down so well...is it juz temp? or long lasting? well..got to let time tell then...for now..i still tink shes e one for me..and im good n hapi with her..will continue this lifestyle..hehee...

as for work...hmm..workin under my dad..make mi realise so much..till e fact tat i reali feel so angry with myself so much...i feel tat im been v.lazy..n i lack alot of skills..in fact..i feel tat im good in nutin...i dun reali have any skills...not even cooking or fishing...haiz...to tink tat im working for a fishing company n restuarant...tats reali sad...ya..i promise my dad to work hard..one day...i juz hope i can make it..wan to show e world tat i can do it...

of cos..i learn e ugly side of life...see e recent court issue...guess most people would have read e news..and of cos..i appear on e newspaper...u see..once again..clearly shown how sg gov works...e gov sector will help one another..push e blame to a commerical company...then put to e news n newspaper..show e whole republic tat e gov has taken action against those "deserving" companies..actuli..im used to it..i reali take it in my stride le..but juz to share with my frens..

yet again..we see how these gov sectors organisations cover their ass so well...but..more amazing is e fact that some gov-operated organisations..are reported by strait times to have missing accounts and more n more gov organisations are being punished by auditing firms due to e lack of proper documents to account for their money...this reali make mi wan to luff..isnt that reali seem to be some kinds of retribution??...

when gov keep telling us to report watever money that we handle..n pay all kinds of taxes...then how come some gov organisations are running away with those unknown $$?? u see e NKF issues..millions involved..years later then discover..tat few people would already have enjoyed their lifes so much already...wats e use then..hmmm..we guys go thru army..we all noe hw crap e system is inside..we guys noe clearly how ugly e army life can get..e abuse..e $$..well..of cos all these all kept at e minium..not to e public...

of cos..i do agree we have a veri gd n organised gov who rule e country so well over e years...setting veri high standards n bringing reali good economic for us..however..all these came with some "sacrifices"...and all these "sacrifices" are deem to make e public feel safe and good while living in sg...craps it may sound but its so true...even one family member of a minister...choose to be a whistle blower in the army..well..some agree on wat he has done...some (including e army) choose to say hes wrong as he nvr go thru e chain of command..u seee..life..welcome to sg policies...

to those who dun understand these few paragraphs..i suggest tat u should start reading up some news to find out wat are e issues happening ard e world..esp in sg..e very country we have been staying in for our whole life...

hmm...life..so simple as it may seem...at times reali gets so hard...have u ever thought of how much have u learnt from e bitter lessons tat u had been thru? how much do we noe? and wat can we do..?

at times..we reali LL have to live it thru...life...it juz gets more complicated with age...to earn $$ to feed ownself alreadi so hard..yet we have to face those ugly sides of life...humans can be kind hearted..but sad to say...humans are still e most cruel creatures in e world...

do u agree with me...or juz tink tat im bull shitting....well..i juz wanna share my thoughts...have to continue to work hard le...jiayou ba all my frens..gd luck to u all in ur careers n love life..do keep in contact k...if u hapen to rem who i am..hahaa...

Life so short..so ugly..so stress..so hard...yet..i will live on..to fight...to find e happy moments..

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2:55 AM
Thursday, April 12, 2007

yo..my 1st post of e year...hehee...well...im reali busy these months...hmmm...alot pple ask mi to blog again...hmm...im waitin 4 a chance to post actuli...now...got chance to do it le...i shall make it a nice n long post...hehee...i try....

well..actuli...mood now abit not reali gd...oni at tis moment ba...duno y...maybe juz abit tired...tired of e things giving mi so much stress...my sch...my job...but who doesnt get stress...duno wat reali bothering mi now...but aniwae....juz make tis post a hapi one....

hmm..i mention i went korea rite...still rem tat last post...i was packing my stuffs...then i blog...juz b4 i fly off e nex dae...hee...time flies...now 4mths over le...hmm...had a reali nice time in korea....can view some pics at my friendster...http://www.friendster.com/prince07 ...i rem mi liang duck j zhao n debbie went 2tgt...hmm...got some news to share...shall slowly blog..hehee...

i rem...we rch airport at nite...then im like e leader there...settling everytin...then go into transit..walk ard...chat...took some pics...then up e plane...reali excited...1st time travelling to such a far country with them...n quite long since i last took e plane le...sat with deb..of cos...hahaa....7hrs to korea...here we go~~~~

quite cold when we rch...e wind is blowing~~korea is nice...quite clean actuli....we went indoor n outdoor theme parks, outdoor zoo, shoppin malls, shops, cafes, restuarants....hehee...food reali nice...esp those roadside stalls...i got pics in friendster...hehe...then korean food reali healthy actuli...veggie arh...though i dun reali eat...kimchi everydae..hehehe...

i rem we did kimchi makings, eat flowers, climb mountains...also went to temples, palaces etc for sight seeing....took alot alot of pics...hahaa...e best is ski ing le...hahaa...fell down alot times but reali nice...1st time try...shiok....1st time see snow oso...1st time been to such low temperature...at one point is minus 10deg~~~ freeezeeeee.....

i rem we walk ard e streets...see how korean live their lifes...their meals, habits etc...i rem e weather reali cold everywher..haha...cos we wear quite afew layers wor...korea reali fun..i recommend my frens to go n enjoy...hehe....hmmm...i still rem how i try to "protect" deb when we were in korea...hee...she always so cold de...yeah...my tactics...tats hw i won her i guess...heeee...

well...those reading most likely alreadi noe im attached now...yesss....after so mani yrs of singlehood...so mani yrs of playing....finally i settle down le...my gf? hahaa...obvious rite....yes...its her...dun ask mi y her...i duno...fate? heee...so...e gal i been tokin about in my posts in nov n dec is her loh...heheee....

for those who duno or 4got who she is...hmm...i reali mention about her alot times in my blog b4 de...shes fr my poly...used to be my godsis...now shes my gf...hehee...rem le mah?? well...i cant xplain e things betw us...its like so amazing...we knew each other since year 2000...about 7yrs later then we got 2tgt...one big round...fate...i believe it....and i reali do...

for these 4mths...my blog bcum private le...hehee...cos i been spending most of my time with her..work...sching...n family...nutin much le...veri guai le...heee...well..i noe she dun read my blog...but still wanna say tat i reali treasure her...i will strive my veri best to give and provide her with e best and also bring her hapiness..heheee...

phew...near 3am le wor...abit tired le...shall do another post again nex time...wan slp le...hmm...will update about all my frens in e nex blog de...hehee..nite...i hope my little post will bring smilesz to everyone who reads it....lifes short...enjoy while u can...jiayou~~

Flooded in Sea of Love~~~~~~~~~

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2:46 AM
Thursday, December 21, 2006

phew...busy day at work...haf to reali settle alot of things b4 flying off....so mani things to settle...my boss lah...give mi so much last min work to do...aiyo...heng i manage to finish all e things...if nt molo reali no nid to fly off liao le...

went off ard 8pm to meet her...we gg 4 movie at tamp....watching jay new show...hmm..walk ard 1st cos stil early...ate bread while we shop...hmmm....show was alrite...afew nice scenes here n there....well...went off after movie...quite tired le...went to her place 1st...she got a pair of boots 4 mi fr her fren...gdgd...juz nice...i wearing tat to korea...

near 3am le...almost done with my packing...packed 4 zhao oso...nice kor hor mi...hehee...zhao went zouk n i pack 4 him loh...so fast...now reali flyin off liao...hmm...so tired...wanna slp le...still long day ahead 2molo...zzz....

holis~~ gonna spend my xmas in korea...hehee..

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11:26 AM
Wednesday, December 20, 2006

mon...went to fetch her ard 8pm...i bringing her n her sis to go macp eat...my dad giving back macp to e owner at e end of e mth liao le...so bring them go eat b4 handover loh...hmm...order crabs and other food 4 them...i didnt eat much cos everyday got to eat..hmm...see e way her sis eat n ask qns reali funny....her sis say seldom get to eat crabs de so she duno hw to eat..haha...

wanted to leave...but super heavy rain...so cold...so wet...drove them back ard 10pm...so big e rain...can hardly see wor...drove slowly to her place....rain stopped when we rch...hmm...we 3 sit in e car n chat...haha..duno y oso...then took pics n send songs in e car...so funny...hmm..went up her place awhile then go pp fetch parents...rain again...haiz...so sux...

tue...rain rain rain...everyday e same...work oso difficult...hmm...noon time went e new ikea wif my kor n mum....reali big...walk ard...my kor nid to buy things 4 work mah...i push e trolley...hahaa..so fun...oh ya...went courts as well...side by side oni...oso veri big wor...but...nutin 4 mi oso...mi juz go ther see see oni de...

hmm...spend e whole day at pasir ris....settle most of e things liao....gg holis soon le...so great feeling...hmm...went her place at 10+...her sis wanna do some renovating works at home so i br my dad go see see loh...

my mum rem her wor...they started chatting...about e pray pray thingy...im shocked...i didnt even noe my mum actuli prayed e same thing as her 20+yrs ago....my mum actuli tell her everytin sia...faint...even me tis son...duno loh....hahaha...so funny...my mum say she thin soo much le...hahaa...ya..gd...she dun believe..now even my mum says tat liao....hehee...left ard 11pm...go home...rain again...aiyo.....rch home...pack bag...i haven touch anitin yet...flyin off reali soon liao wor...hahaa...

pleased....holis coming soon 4 mi....

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2:50 AM
Sunday, December 17, 2006

15th dec..fri..reali nice day wor...went facial at orchard...heehee...foc de..cos i joined a new membership recently mah...e facial place is at e same building as my sch in orchard...hahaa..went in...reali blur at 1st...1st time go facial...went into e room and e lady do e treatment 4 mi...so shiok...but abit pain at times arh..hahaa...hmm...1hr+ wor e facial....after tat face reali reali v.shiok..smooth~~ hahaa..

went body massage after tat...foc oso..at cuppage area...oso 1st time go body massage...duno wat they tokin..i juz go in..and e lady start massaging my whole body...pain sia...hahaha...but after tat reali shiok...skin so nice...cos they got rub oil de...hehee..hmmm...after tat took mrt to work...

left work ard 6pm...took mrt to mit j...we gg novena sq to dye hair...hehee...whole day i relaxing...rch ard 7.30pm...start to dye hair liao...j oso dye....reali tired...wanna wan fall aslp during e hair treatment...phew...done at 9pm...hair diff colour again liao..hehee...went off to amk to eat..wat a day...so fun to try new things..hehee...

16th dec sat...send mi dad to pasir ris...then went her place...she still doin hsework...so i wait at her place...hmm...went to bugis 1st...to pray...cos gg overseas liao mah...pray 4 safetly...then go shop ard...see got any other stuff to buy 4 e trip not...went parco too..manage to see e 2million dollar xmas tree....so big...quite nice wor...veri shiny..haha...

pei her buy hair clips and shampoo...then decide to go vivocity...cos i haven been there yet..hahaa...hmm..wanted to watch show de but reali too packed...so we go eat..carls jr...mi n her shared a meal cos e burger reali too big liao le....hahaa...

shop ard after tat...see see winter stuff again...hoping to find heat pads....hmm..vivo reali reali veri big place wor...can reali get lost inside...haha...walk ard for a hour plus...still cant reali finish...but we decide to go off...went lido...wanna catch show...hmm...manage to get tix for e show.."flyboys"...not bad...quite cute e show..hehee...

went to e newly opened mac at amk for a drink...reali nice place...24hr somemore and oso easy to park cars...hmm...bought drinks and we sit down and read newspaper...hahaa...chat chat awhile...send her home le...near 2am liao...both reali tired liao...mi 9am wake le....cant tk it...wan slp liao...zzzz...so tired...

hard to describe wat im feeling...

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9:06 AM
Friday, December 15, 2006

mit my tamp xiao mei on wed nite...noe tis xiao mei veri veri long liao...hardly got time to mit her these days...since i free i go find her loh...she super violent one...always beat me...hahaa...cos i always like to bully her....hehee...mit her go tamp walk walk n drink loh...went back to pick my parents ard 12am...been raining these days...so sianz...always get wet...reali cold wor...

thur...reali bad day...stupid heavy rain...so big...flood e whole work place...pumps n stuffs all failed to work...haiz...headache...mi got drenched too...haiz...so messy e whole place...reali sux...so mani things to settle cos of tat rain....hate it....

went off to amk to meet meng n slow at nite...ate wif them at s11 amk...played one round of billard then go pick janice...she finished work and wanna eat mah...went her office pick her...then go near kovan there...e HK cafe...eat drink n chat..haha..janice veri funny loh...still e same...always wanna argue wif me...haha...

went home ard 11pm...rch my room..on lights...gooshh!! i saw...a frog on my bed!!!! faint~~~ no idea hw it got into my room...but i reali reali fedup liao...chase it out of my room...then i took out my bedsheet..pillow case..tshirts..blanket...everytin on my bed i throw to wash...arghh...so fedup...so dirty...nex time i cfm close my door liao...so fedup~!! stupid day...so sux...manage to talk to her, slow n sen..if not i cfm blow up de...phew....cool cool...

cant get to slp...haiz...losing slp everyday...

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1:36 AM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006

woke up at 9am on sun 4 soccer..reali tiring...super hot weather...didnt wear shirt to play on sun...30mins oni reali cant tk it liao...sweat like mad...hmm...rch home i KO liao...slp slp slp...4pm wake up...send my parents to pasir ris...

went for my class after tat...then go macp see see...biz still alrite...went back pasir ris again...settle my things then go shawn place...wanna borrow winter stuffs fr him...my trip cuming soon..hehee...hmm...haven been to his place since sec sch wor...lucky i still rem where he stay...hmm...got afew things from him le...tink more or less im done wif e preparation liao...

haiz...went back to pasir ris to fetch my parents...so stupid...rch yishun liao still haf to go back fetch them and then go home again...so fedup...duno y me always haf to be e one doing all tis...reali not fair...well...nvm...dun complain...

mon...work work...my boss sack e day manager already...now my job is 2times liao...sianz...reali bo bian loh...juz do...no matter wat it takes..i gonna work reali reali hard...wan to prove tat i can make it...no complains.....

went to meet her at 7pm+...her sis came down wif her...i driving my kor car...her sis say she nvr sit in M3 b4..haha...oh ya...her sis say tat i looks better now with my hair...hehe...ya loh...alot of my workers n colleagues all say i reali look better in short hair...more yandao...hahaaa..hmm...drop her sis at compass point...then i go bedok...we gg dental appt...

rch ard 8...alot pple...wait loh...chat wif her outside e clinic...30mins later then her turn...went in wif her...my fren oso say i looked gd in my new hair style...diaoo...then she so "proud"~~ hahaa...she says muz tks her...if not where so mani pple say i looked better in tis hair...hahaa...cannot tahan her...of cos..credits to her..if not 4 her..i cfm wont cut short hair one loh~~ hahaa...so hapi wif my hair now liao..heee...

went shop ard after e appt..lookin for some products for e trip....hmm...went her place after tat...still earli so i stay awhile...help her in some research online...then chat wif meng online after tat...i kajiao meng..haha...meng almost played me back instead...sweat...hehee..aniwae..i left ard 11pm..wan her to slp mah...mi went back to pick my kor..n go home~~

tue..another busy day at work...rush here n there...so busy...haiz..im tired...but...my holis drawing near liao...so hapi...so faster finish my stuff then can enjoy my holis liao...hehee...oh ya...she called me at 12pm+...im stunned...i haven got her call in sooo mani years...cos we always sms or msn de...hardly call...reali surprised...

she called to share some gd news wif me....can hear tat she reali hapi...im hapi 4 her too....hmmm..i promise not to disclose de...well...so long nvr hear tat she so hapi liao...reali hope tis is e turning pt of her life...hope her life juz get better n better from now on...chat wif her for 20mins+...then she start work..mi oso start work liao...oh ya...evening time got rainbow...she saw n msg mi...i saw e rainbow too...so nice...wat a day 4 her...even e sky treats her so well...mi reali so hapi 4 her wor...

went to mit her at 8+...my boss lend mi his car...jaguar~~! hahaha..so hapi...finali i get to drive his new car...so cool...nvr drove a jaguar b4....reali power...step on accelator...can reali run sia...hehee..oophs...she noe she sure scold me de...lol...but...gd car mah...muz ram ram abit..hee...and 1st time drive..muz try mah...

went to her place 1st...chat wif her sis..cos she wan me to help her in sumtin...hmmm...can see tat shes hapi...cos she mentions afew times...hahaa...so gd...hmm...she "scolds" mi again 4 eating heaty food...haha...as usual lah...hmm...decide to br her go 4 drink...her sis oso go wif us...cos her sis wanna sit jaguar mah...haha...

her sis say jaguar seats not nice to sit wor...haha..drove them to eat -tou hua- at paya lebra area...hmm...she suggest e place de...mi 1st time there...eat n chat wif them...share wif them about my work...about my life...her sis reali funny loh...ask so mani qns de...cos she say i crazy one...cos my hp keep ringing n ringing de..sms arh..call arh...aiya...work mah...bo bian...

phew...duno wat to say...at times reali busy...veri tired...at times i feel hapi about e life i having now...reali mixed feelings...aniwae...lets see how things goes for me in 2007 ba...wish me lucks...hehee....

my prayers are answered...so hapi 4 her 2dae...hope things will cont to get better 4 her..

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4:08 AM
Sunday, December 10, 2006

woke at 7am...haf to go work...got events 2dae...drove to work...rch ard 8am+..then start to prepare everytin...till noon time then stop working....then send my dad to golf club...he goin to play golf mah...

went to her place ard 1pm..she still preparing...drove to rocher road area...her sis in my car oso...they nid to buy sumtin fr there...went far east after tat...eat 1st...ate LJS...then cut hair wif her...at THat's salon in far east..her sis recommend de..

mi promise to cut mi hair reali short if i go wif her...n tat she will decide my hair style...she wan me to cut my hair short n neat...faint...mi so long no short hair liao le...but shes hapi wif it wor...even her sis says gd...cos i look neat...hmm...nvm lah...new hairstyle...cooling wor...hehe..

left far east ard 5pm...e carpark so exp loh...near $7 for 2hrs...faint...hmm..went to fetch her cousin at toa payoh..then drop her cousin n sis to hougang cos they nid to do sumtin...mi n her went back to her place...she nid to pray...mi clean up myself at her place...wash face..style my hair nice nice..haha...she cannot tahan...cos i reali too vain liao le...heee...

went back to pick her cousin n sis...and then go to her auntie hse..she ask mi go in sit sit..mi 1st time go there wor..private housing in hougang area...she intro mi ard...some of them i noe de..ohh..hapen to be her cousin bdae...they cut cake n tk pics...so cute...hehee..mi eat wif her after cutting cake..we sit at kitchen area to eat..then she tells mi..."tis is my family"...hmm...noe more n more about her things le...shes reali cute...heee....

hmm...we decide not to go MOS..though zhao got free tix 4 mi..but i guess shld be reali packed...so we dun wan go...haha...heng zhao nvr scold me...hmm..went movie wif her after tat at J8...buy tix 1st..we watching "The holidays"...

walk ard in J8..hoping to find some useful stuff 4 e korea trip...hmm...went coffee bean 4 drink cos reali still early 4 e show...she treat mi..then chat wif her...hmmm...realise i reali noe alot bout her le...n she noe it too...so gd...

show started at 11.20pm...quite nice show..i like cos its reali about lifes experiences...oh..halfway thru meng msg mi..haha..Dlb O full hse...MOS oso full hse..heng i nvr go sia...cfm queue up till veri sian one..hehee....after tat...we went 4 drink n chat...b4 gg home...mi rch home 3.30am sia...one whole day outside le...somemore oni slp 4hr...later morn still playin soccer...reali power liao mi...wau...4am le...cant tk it liao...wanna orh orh le....

Growing up 2gether....

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2:22 AM
Saturday, December 09, 2006

thur noon...went to mit rose at orchard...she ask mi go mit her de...pei her shopping loh...since i able to take out some time so i went...mit her at taka ard 12pm...shop ard...she wanna look 4 xmas gifts mah...and she oni wan to shop ard in taka...aiyoo...

shop ard awhile...nutin much...decide to sit down 4 snacks...we went to a cafe in taka...cant rem e name of e cafe le...hmm...had a chat wif rose...tink i abit lost leh...duno y...maybe too stressed up by work le...haiz...abit not myself on tat day...so sux...hmm...near 2pm rose went off to work...

mi go find eve...she workin in taka mah..i always go kajiao her when im in taka de..heee...then went to find yh...she oso workin in orchard...at wheellock there...went into Zara to mit her..she workin inside...long time no see her le..she thin liao...hmm...went to find liang after tat..haha..he workin at lido...gd sia...go orchard can find so mani pple...heee...chat wif liang awhile then i go work liao le...oh ya...da jie jie came fishing...soo long nvr see her...but im there late so nvr go eat wif her..but still veri hapi to see her....heee...

fri...mit her at 8pm...i pei her go dentist..my fren's clinic...hmm...so fast e appt...still early..so we went tamp mall shop shop...she wanna look 4 sumtin for e trip...hmm..wanted to buy heat packs de...but cant reali find leh....then she choose a new facial foam 4 mi...cos i complain my face too oily these days...reali hate oily face...cos more pimples liao...soobbb...

went off at 9.30pm...send her to cousin hse at toa payoh...she needs to settle sumtin 4 her cousin...i rem i sent her to tat place b4...afew years back...she oso rem sia...time flies...rch there ard 10...she ask mi go up wif her....so i pei her loh..

things settled in afew mins oni...then chat her cousin..i noe her cousin de...but im stunned tat she noe my full name sia...her cousin reali veri funi...veri blur blur type...haha...reali same as her...see e way they two talk reali funny...

12am liddat left her cousin place...send her home...then i go pasir ris fetch my parents...saw ah qi..my godsis at pasir ris....she came down to buy rods mah...chat wif her awhile then i go off le..wauu...2am+ le...molo 7am haf to wake...sianz....

Let nature takes its course...peace...

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1:04 AM
Wednesday, December 06, 2006

tiring day at work...under e stupid hot sun again...went c.town to pay e balance of e trip...heavy rain loh...big till hard to see e road...so sian...went back work again...jam somemore..reali super tired...

went to her place again 2day at 8pm....she say she cook sumtin 4 mi to eat...hee...cos i always eat e wrong food at work...sumore i still not well....she abit "fedup" liao...she say she cook healthy food 4 mi...hehee...hmm..she prepare 4 mi e food when i rch...i guai guai eat loh...she sit beside mi n watch me eat...then she oso prepare red bean soup...diaooo...she noe i dun like de...but..she still put infront of me...i haf to finish it loh~~ heee...i noe its gd 4 mi...

pei her chat..update her my work thingy...chat wif her sis oso...n play with their hamster...so cute...hee...hmm...discuss wif her about e preparation for e korea trip...trip drawing near le...mi like haven reali buy all e necessary thingy wor...too busy le...hmm...pei her watch tv after tat...then i left ard 11pm...same thing mah..i wan her go slp...heee...mi went pasir ris to fetch my parents n go hm...

feel so hapi...cant rem e last time got pple cook 4 mi to eat when im sick...other than my mum..heee...after a day of work...i juz wan a place to relax...hmm...small little things is enuff to make mi hapi le...simple....heee....im glad....tks her alot....

enjoyed e peaceful time...

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1:18 AM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006

phew..sun reali busy..soccer in e morn...work after tat..5pm got briefing for e korea trip in town...mit up wif j n duck 4 e briefing...noe quite afew things le..hmm...went to eat after tat...then go macp look look...biz not bad wor...then i went to pasir ris...so tired..wasnt reali feeling well le...rch home...12am+...vomit...faint...reali sick le...so terrible feeling...haiz...took pills then ko liao le..

mon morn..wake up for work...reali dun feel like workin but no choice...haiz...under e sun again...super dry...hmm...msg her...got her reply...glad shes back safely le...went to her place at 9pm+..tk sumtin fr her...

she saw mi..1st qns ask mi if im sick...i told her everytin...she ask mi go home straight...but i cant..cos need to fetch my parents at 12am+...so she ask mi rest at her place 1st...hmm...she poured water 4 mi..n we started chatting n watch tv loh~~

she ask mi if i eaten...ya~~ 5pm i last ate...reali no appetite...but she insist i muz eat sumtin..so she make bread 4 mi to eat...bo bian de...she say eat...cfm haf to eat de...mi look at her as she prepare e bread...she ask if i wanna add sugar to e butter, i say..."its sweet enuff cos its u prepare de"...heee...she cant stand my words...

she got mi a cap fr her trip...i gg korea mah...she got mi a cap 4 korea...hee...white coloured de...veri cute...she noe i v.mafan one...heng she got sumtin i like..hehee...hmm..mi reali stress up e whole wkend...she ask y i nvr sms her wor...hmm...duno y oso...dun wan disturb her ba...aniwae...nvm lah...i still can tk it...hmm...left ard 11pm+...mi wan her to go slp mah..n i haf to go pick my parents le....so tired...wan slp liao le....

sick..yet hapi...felt so sweettt...

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3:29 AM
Sunday, December 03, 2006

fri..work work work..busy preparing for an event on sat...evening time went expo wif zhao..go sitex see see...saw meng there too..nutin much there wor..quite boring...left after an hour...went pa pool again at amk at nite...win win win..hehee..

sat..work..got event...so tired...manage to settle everytin quick n fast...fell aslp awhile on e sofa in office...too tired le...wake up...work again...went off ard 8pm...go ala bdae party 1st..zhao's fren...mi go there show face...cos he oso been to my bdae b4 mah...

went to ck hse after tat...got steamboat session...prepare to welcome qiang back de...mi soo hungry..didnt eat much e whole day...food reali nice...hmm...took pics wif them...n had cake too...cos jing n eunice bdae drawing near le..

played board games..left ard 2am...mi send qiang eunice n sen home...about to rch qiang hse...tio road block...mi faster put on safety belt...abit late i tink..haha..still tio police check...then all alight e car..police wan our IC n oso check my car...faint...cant rem if i ever tio police check b4 loh...stupid qiang...so suai...tink muz buy my car num le..hahaa...

hmm..so tired now...but still cant get to slp....been tinkin of afew things...i might appear hapi at times...but..deep now..i not reali tat hapi...wan say out...but duno how...duno wats reali affecting me too...so stressed up...i need a break.....can i..??~~

dun wanna fall further....vexed....

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11:41 AM
Friday, December 01, 2006

my boss bdae..28th nov...bought a cake 4 him...hes so hapi..heee...cake not i buy de..e accountant did it...i juz be there oni..hahaa...hmm...work whole day again...so tired...mi whole body muscle ache...

got a call from my godsis..ah qi..reali reali shocked to get her call...mi haven heard from her since last yr july...she say she suddenli tink of me so she try callin me..hahaa...mi so hapi to hear fr her...i rem..i noe her when im 16...n shes 15yrs old...tats like..7 or 8yrs ago le...faint...sooo long ago...i rem tat time i studyin for O levels when i get to noe her...haahaa..shes actuli my fren's sis...so small world...

was veri free...so decide to mit up wif ah qi..went to toa payoh..cant believe she stay juz opp e block where my grandma used to stay...i stood at e carpark n look at e block..e very block tat i used to go often when im like 5 or 6yrs old...faint...10+ yrs nvr go there le me...reali old liao...

went toa payoh central...manage to intro ah qi to ah lian jie..hehe..oh ya..ah qi got a kid le..a gal..4mths old...so cute...i show to ah lian jie..hahaa...mi manage to see my godson too...so hapi...hmm...went to find ah qi sis..shes workin at central too...i noe her since pri 5....faint...yrs nvr see her le...hahaa...

went to eat MOS burger....chat wif e two sis...aiyo...elder one i noe in Pri 5...then sec sch get to noe e younger one...i more closer to e younger de...cos shes my godsis..hehee...both of them married liao loh..so fast..aiyo...so mani old memories...feel old liao le....

went prata shop after tat...qiang back fr aust mah...mit e whole grp of sec sch frens...qiang hair so long liao sia...so thick oso...hahaa..nvr see him in tat kind of stupid hair style since sec sch le wor...lol....qiang got us a gift each..haha..he still e same crappy shit...we chat n eat..till ard 2am then hm...tired...out whole day le....

wed...work...spend 4hrs under e freaking hot sun...reali cant tk it..at times reali tired...but still haf to work...no matter wat kind of weather oso haf to work..."hao lei wor"..hmm..went to her place to tk sumtin at 9pm...she packin her bag...hmm...chat wif her, her sis n her cousin...she say i dark le...sobb...juz afew days no see her oni...i dark even more...sianz...i dun like..hmm...chat awhile...then i went off le...

went to mit meng at liquid kitchen...drove quite fast..hee...oophs...later she noe sure scold mi de...hee...meng n daniel alreadi rch there le...drink beer n haf snacks...got some updates fr meng..hahaa..useful info...hmm...had reali gd luff there...so nice to relax after a day at work..rch home near 3am le...slp slp slp....

thur...try to avoid e hot sun at work...drove to hougang to buy things oso..so sianz..every drive to buy things..reali tired...hmm...then 9pm...went amk to pa pool..wif meng j duck..hmm..lose at 1st...lucky manage to win alot after tat..i dun like to lose de...esp at things which i do best in...hee...tats me....hmm...eat after tat...hungry le...home ard 1am...slp....

my life...so tied up with work now...so tired...so stress...cannot imagine when i start sch in jan..haiz...can anyone understand??...i duno hw i wan things to be in my life now...l0st...wat to i wan...wo bu zhi dao le....

shes not ard...feel so empty tis wkend...nothing to look 4ward to...

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2:57 AM
Monday, November 27, 2006

work work work...so tiring...been workin for more than 12hrs a day for mon n tue...tue even stay till 2am...so tiring...sumore e weather reali bad...super hot....mi reali burnt...so dry...but no choice...my work is outdoor de...tired...

wed 22th nov..went work 1st...then go orchard mit bin..she ask mi go watch movie...hahaa..shes zhao godsis...i noe her for mani yrs le...treat her as my small small sis...she wan pple pei her watch movie...since im free i go loh....walk ard 1st...then eat dinner at another Hong Kong Cafe at cineleisure...so mani different types of HK cafe ard now....not bad...i got to eat wat i wan..pork chop noodles...heheee...

chat wif bin..hmm..she noe afew things bout zhao...now i noe zhao oso talks about me..haha..my xiao di...muz teach him more things le...hmm...went lvl 9 for e show...movie end at 9pm...disgusting show...oni bin likes it.....haha...walk to taka after tat...when on way...3 jap gals approach me...they ask mi 4 directions..haha...mi showed them e way...they so hapi...so cute..hahaa...

drop bin at yck mrt....then i go pick her...at town...she got dinner...shes shocked to see i drive a different car...heee...i told her tat i got lots of cars to drive...juz tat none is mine...hehee...chat wif her about afew things...hmm...cant disclose much...heee....rch her place...then i send her up...shes looked so tired...hope she can get some gd rest....

me go ser.gardens after sending her home...miting some frens...at a pub there...rch ard 11.30pm...quite packed....was intro to some other frens...they all heard my names b4 i noe them sia...scary...played pool n drink abit...hmm..was smsing wif her all e way...i promise her tat i drink abit oni...cos i driving mah...heee...hmm...left ard 1am...went to mit sen at prata shop..chit chat awhile and oso tk sumtin fr him...rch 2am plus le...tired...

thur 23 nov..mit slow to tk sumtin...decide to go haf a drink..we went liquid kitchen at thomson area...order some snacks n drinks...tok alot things wif slow..hee..we always tok about poly times de...at times tok about mi n her..heee...slow reaction reali funny whenever i tok about her..haha...was sms-ing wif her all e times...slow cant tk it...haha..hmm...oni mi n slow noe wat hapen...dunwan to say much..heheee...

fri 24th nov...went work 1st...then 4pm+ i went expo alone...cos i heard fr sen got adidas sales...hmm..rch le..reali packed..walk ard see see..wanted to buy shoes de...but no size le..e clothings not veri nice wor..so sianz...left ard an hour later....went to mit meng at amk for billard at 8pm...zhao oso went...hahaa..i won most of e games..so shiok..one of my fav past times~~

left ard 11pm...mi n zhao temple...my dad ask mi go tk sumtin...then decide to go ktv after tat...mi zhao sen n pi..haha..rch yis safra ard 11pm+...sing sing sing..so shiok..long time no sing le...heee...rch home 2am+ le...wat a day...heee...

sat 25th nov....mi n her..whole day outing....mi woke ard 12pm...went to pick her fr her place...hmm...gg to kaki butik to buy e winter clothings again...cos tat time oni go check prices...now cfm le..so go e cheapest place to buy...we bought thermal wear, gloves n caps...mi oso got 4 zhao...my di mah...cfm help him de...hee...

went off tat time...rain...faint...mi ran to car...drove to shelter to pick her...shes sick mah..cannot let her tio rain de...hmm..she wanted to eat congee...so we went J8 to eat....mi haven eat anitin...alreadi 3pm...kena "scold" by her loh...expected...heee...park car le...we go food court eat...bought congee 4 her...she almost finish e whole bowl sia...hmm...i tot she will waste food de...heeheee...heng she guai guai eat...

walk ard after tat...she wanna shop 4 present...so i pei her walk walk loh...in e end she shortlist 3items and ask mi to choose sia...aiyo...i hate tis kind of testing qns...hahaa...but then in e end she no buy anitin...hmm...we went off to find clinic...shes not feeling well since thur..see her so pale...mi reali xin tong arh...so i insist she muz see doc...for once...shes allow mi to br her see doc...manage to find one clinic at bis area...tink she went ther b4 de...finali got pills 4 her to eat..if not i cant stop worrying bout her....

drove her home after tat...she needs to pray mah...hmm...she asked me go her place since mi nutin to do...so i went up wif her...her sis at home watchin vcd...at times they two reali veri cute loh...e way they argue...haha...mi juz sit there watch them...lol....started watching vcd wif her...e korea show "gong"....she so crazy over e show...and lucky i manage to get e vcd to lend her...

ard 8pm...we go off..to toa payoh...she wanna go her sis bf's shop to look for gifts...while driving..i discover sumtin...hmmm...i observe so long le...and im rite...lucky im smart enuff...but...hmm...nvm...dun touch on tat topic...heee...

rch toa payoh...she say wanna watch show...so we go buy tix 1st...e andy lau new movie..."A Battle of Wits"...went to eat...mi hungry loh~~ ate LJS...soo long nvr eat le...she no eat wor...aiyoo...aniwae....mi bypass ah lian jie shop...too bad she not tat...wanna intro her..ah lian jie n my godson de...heee...hmm...went to her sis bf's shop...he intro her afew items...e bluetooth set not bad..i oso like it...hahaa...

bought bread 4 her to eat....n oso water 4 her to tk her pills....then we went movie...2hrs show...11pm+ finish...show alrite oni wor....war show...hahaa...drove her back....on e way to her place...we decide to go 4 drinks...so i turn in to jalan kayu...carpark full...all e prata shops veri packed...hmm...then she say she wanna go upper thomson there de...e prata place...

i stil rem e last time i go there...oso wif her...then i tio summon...$70...for illegal parking...she oso rem...tats was like 3, 4yrs ago le...hmm...manage to park car nicely at e private estate...cfm wont tio summon one..hahaa...hmm..e prata place expand le wor...bigger place...more seatings...we ordered drinks n one prata to share...hahaa...e prata still e same...veri crispy....

chat wif her after tat...start to noe more n more things about her...hmm..actuli most of her things i alreadi noe le loh...lol...juz tat...tat 1yr of no contact...affect abit...but...everytin still gg well...im smart...i haf my ways de...heee...we reali tok about alot of things...so glad to see her in relax mood....we at ther for nearly 3hrs wor...2am liddat then went off...sent her home..mi rch home 3am le...slp~~

sun 27th nov..9am wake...play soccer..heee...so long nvr play le...heng still manage to score some goals..and of cos got miss alot chances too..hahaa...went home n slp for awhile...then wake...to go work...mi n dad 2gether...went to dad fren hse 1st to tk winter clothings..dad borrow fr his fren mah....his fren stay veri near our hse de...veri rich...got BM 7 series n 3 series...so shiok...

rch work place ard 5pm...see see look look awhile...then 6pm go off le....dropby her place 1st...take sumtin fr her mah...went into her hse....1st qns she shoot me le.."haf u eaten?"...hehee..heng i eat wif my family at p.ris le...if not sure kena fr her de...heee...then mi pei her watch vcd awhile...make sure she eats dinner n medi...then i went off 4 my music cls...so hapi tat shes alrite...heee....wow...3am le...tired...better slp le...dunwan cont le...hehee..nitez...

someone says...my "xin lin zhan shu" veri strong...hmm..tink about it...wats e real meaning..

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1:47 AM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006

sun 19th nov...woke up at 7am...got events...dad sent mi there and he went to play golf...mi started to host everytin loh...prepare everytin 4 e organisers..9am+ start le..mi more relax...tahan till 12pm...cant tk it...weather reali super hot...mi fell aslp awhile on e chairs...

woke up 30mins later...sweating...reali hot...hmm..start to close e events...cos e family day of e company oni half day..till 1pm...everytin done at 2pm...went home wif my dad...rch home...cant tk it...my head reali wan burst le...super bad headache....slp~~

5pm wake..go back pasir ris again...to check everytin is alrite...hmm...got "scolding" from her..hmm..i understand wat shes tryin to say...but im good...im old enuff to tink...if i dun even noe hw to tk care of myself..how can i tk care of others...heee...but...juz tat im still human after all...at times oso nid some pampering de...hehehee....

hmmm..at times..reali feel like saying out sumtin...but...some context reali too...i duno hw say...juz cant say out too much de...haf to consider alot other factors as well...hmm...so far...im still hapi..heee...

mon...20th....got a sms fr rose at 3am...faint...read e msg at 5am...then at 11am...cfm tat sms not 4 mi de...mi called her to ask her...hahaa...im rite...she send to someone else..and oso forward to me...cos she oso wanna let mi noe tat she sms e other person...hmm..chat wif her for 30mins...told her my stuffs...she say fate always play tricks on me...faint...she still can luff...not funny nor~~ diao....aniwae...i juz dunwan to feel regret in future...so i did it...heee...

lifes so fragile...duno wat will hapen nex...do treasure life..

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1:38 AM
Sunday, November 19, 2006

woke at 12pm...hmm...went to mit her...pick her at her place...we go look ard to look for cheap winter clothings...1st stop...kaki bukit...its a warehouse...things are quite cheap...mi play ard while she ask e staff afew qns...haha...hmm..try glooves...see jackets...duno wat to buy...in e end..we go another place...at macpherson...another sales gg on...manage to buy socks..wool de...she say gd de...and its cheap...mi get 4 my didi too...

went to my "bun" shop after tat...mi haf to pass sumtin to e staff...1st time she been there...so now...she been to all my dad biz place le...shall show her more n more in future...hmm...went to chinatown...she say got shops there oso...

park near people's park complex...stupid loh...fatimah!! e carpark attendance...ya..i call them all by e name of "fatimah"...so stupid...they always there to AIM my car...no matter where n when i park...they juz simply love giving me summons....told her everytin about my past experiences...she luff loh...faint...aniwae...i put carpark coupons nice nice le loh for tat fatimah to see...heng i saw her 1st...if not i cfm tio one...haha...hmm..walked into people's park complex...walk ard for winter clothings...hmm...nutin much...

went to buy sugar cane juice...cos i reali reali damn thirsty...sumtin hapen wor....she said to e staff...about dun add sweetner into e juice cos she dunwan too sweet stuff...n e staff said sumtin back...say their juice is 100% pure n no other etc etc things added...i pulled her away...i noe she dun like it de..and i entertain e staff wor...lol~~ ya..its reali amazing...if its mi in e past..i would haf walk away le...cos i hate tat kind of attitude...but nw..i actuli pulled her away 1st...then i tok..n even joke wif e staff...e auntie staff so hapi loh...she say i handsome boi..she wan treat mi drink free juice..and ask mi go back to her stall again..lol~~ damn funny...didnt expect myself to have such nice temper n patience..if e old me hor..i sure curse n swear n walked off w.o buying fr e stall de loh..hahahaa...

aniwae...went into OG for a walk..nutin much oso...quite exp in there...mi reali reali veri long nvr go chinatown le..so much changes wor...walk ard awhile...b4 heading back to car...she says go queensway there...got one more big warehouse...drove again...fr c.town to queensway area...

hmm...discover tat...she oso will lose abit of way at times..hee...cos she cant rem where i park my car..i rem~~ hehee..shes e oni gal i noe so far whos not a road idiot...and noe alot alot places n roads...she says i noe alot too...ya but at times i act blur de..heee...juz let her lead e way loh..i noe she likes it...oophs...say out le duno gd or not wor...haha..nvm lah...

rch e warehse at queensway area...reali big...we started to look around again...tried afew jackets...she looks cute in one of those big big jacket..haha..so small frame of hers in e big jacket...mi oso tried...reali gian to buy...but..still abit exp wor...hmm..see how ba...aniwae we got e pricing le...shall decide again...send her home ard 6pm+...she got to pray...hmm...she fell aslp in my car again...see her so tired...cant take it...hope she can get some gd slp at nite..i noe shes been thru alot...hope her life can be better....

mi went pasir ris after tat....ate wif family...then settle abit of work issues...ard 9pm+ i went home le...drove again...soo tired...10pm+ rch home le...so early...so long nvr so early rch hm le...watched man u match...then zhao frens came...ate sumtin wif them...hmm...sooo tired...i blogging wif my eyes half closed le...molo still got events...7am+ haf to wake...haiz...sianz...sometimes im reali stressed up...better go slp le...zzzz.....

"..i dunwan u to be alone.."...one of e sms tat touched my heart 2dae...im affected...

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5:07 AM
Saturday, November 18, 2006

fri...work work..super hot day...haiz...work till reali wan slp sia...mi slp oni 6hrs...cos been busy preparing things 4 her...her bdae...hmm...went home after work...i did something amazing..i washed my car...sumtin i nvr did for mths le..lol...duno leh...cos maybe wanna br her out then dunwan car to be so dirty...so i clean e car up loh...fell aslp awhile on my bed..maybe reali too tired..woke up when she msg mi..tink im late~~ rush~~

picked her up at her place...she looks great...so mature...hmm...bring her to...mount faber...yeah...after afew months of selection...i chose mount faber as e place...i even went up alone for a site inspection...everytin..i alreadi planned nicely le...shall slowli disclose everytin...

rch ard...8.45pm..juz rite e timing...parked my car wif e valet...and went up...sat down at e table i haf chosen..heee...then start to browse thru e menu...after ordering...started tokin to her...got live band there...i noe she enjoys it...hmm...food arrived shortly...started eating...hmm...tink food oni alrite oni wor...tats wat she felt..but anyway...food isnt e main thing i brought her there wor...

at 9.30pm...theres some small performance...theres man-made "snow" blown out by e machine and some lightings show...veri nice...hee...she oso find it nice...mi alreadi noe about e thing...wasnt part of me plan till i went 4 e site inspection...then e manager told mi about it..haha...lucky i went up to meet e manager...

after e small performance...e manager passed mi my guitar...yeah..i brought my own guitar...kept in my car boot..e manager took 4 mi de...heee...part of my plan...actuli e manager wanted me to sing on stage de..wif e live band..but i decline...cos i noe she wont like it de..she wan sumtin simple...hmm...wanted to sing a bdae song 4 her...but she dunwan..i understand....but lucky i came prepared...hehee..pluck n sang part of e song.."~~cant help falling in love~~" ...reali reali lucky i have prepared an additional song...i didnt wanted to sing tis song de..hahaa..but nvm..it helps...tink she reali touched wor...hee...duno...oni she herself noe de...

passed e guitar to e manager...and i started tokin to her...alot things i said...from e planning to e actual day of her bdae..from wat i said to her b4 in msn...reali alot...and then came e cake..another special planning...hehee..e cake is a heart-shaped cake with her name n my name on it...e cake is specially made de..i told them i dunwan to see a similiar one in e market...so it means tat e cake is one n only one in tis world...heee...took pics of e cake n e wordings...will upload to friendster soon..slowly she cut e cake..n we started eating...

chat wif her again while we eat...i realise more things le..and oso made known alot of things to her...i tink she clearly understands...in e meanwhile..e manager passed mi e flowers secretly...yup..one more small surprise..heee..and i passed it to her...tink she reali shocked le..one thing followed by another...i gave her..3 blue roses with other small flowers....veri nice...i like e flowers...i tell her...tat...i noe she not tat interested in flowers...but i still gif her cos...blue means her...n roses mean my sincerity...heee...

chat wif her again...i reali mean everytin i said...hope she will tink thru...i understand wat shes tryin to tell mi too...will keep those things in mind de....ard 11.30pm...got e snow thingy again...hahaa...so nice n sweet...then we went off ard 11.45pm...ya...her bdae over soon le...

drove downhill tat time..i stopped awhile...went to my car boot...took a bag out...one last surprise 4 her....its a bear...wif a necklaces on it...i put e necklaces on e bear bear de...heee...e necklaces and e bear cannot be bought fr anywhere de...esp e necklaces...heee...i got tis 2 gd gifts somehow...hehee...cannot say..lala...hmm...e necklaces come with 2 pendants and chain...e pendants is like...one ring on e other layer...and a heart-shaped one in e inner layer...supposed to be 2 chains...e ring is 4 e guy...e heart-shaped is 4 e gal...veri nice de..cannot buy fr outside retail shop de hor....hehee..and....she looks so cute when holding e bear bear...saw her smilez...heee...so sweettt...oh ya...still got a bdae card n a "magic" wallet 4 her...ya..tats e wallet which i shop ard for 4hrs+ in orchard alone on wed noon de...phew...my job is done...

mi dropped her at harbour front at 12am+...she miting her fren...mi hor...went MOS...hahaa..find zhao n his frens...not much queue...but...still super packed in e R&B....dance ard awhile...then went to drink..didnt drink much cos she ask mi dun drink too much cos i driving de...oh...then hapen to see sen's sis..lingna...and one more gal call yiling...hahaa..i noe them de...started tokin to them...hmm...mi went off at 2.30am to eat...wif sen sis n her frenz..so hungry...after eating..i sent sen sis home...cos zhao wanna cont to play...so i went off 1st...mi reali veri tired le mah...

hmmm....tink shes hapi...im reali glad tat everytin turns up well...ya...im hapi...heee...after all e planning and preparation and everytin...juz hope tat she enjoys herself...hope to have bring some happyness into her life....wow...5am+ le...mi reali super tired le...slping time...zzz...

shes hapi...im hapi...hope she has a nice bdae...

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2:15 AM
Friday, November 17, 2006

~~Happy BdaY to U~~

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12:54 AM

sat 11th nov...went work..rain again...so sux...almost everydae rain...hmm...evening time..went liang bdae dinner at paradiz centre...eat jap steamboat..e food all comes in boat one...super big wor...quite cheap actuli e food...but liang pay mah...so nvm lah..hahaa...eat eat eat...

went off to chy bdae at katib after liang bdae..manage to rch in time to pei him cut cake...phew...heng loh...cos last time i nvr turn up for his sis 21st bdae...now at least manage to turn up 4 his...haa...to tink tat i actuli noe his sis but i turn up 4 his bdae instead..lol~~ did chat wif his sis awhile if nt she reali will kill mi nor~~ hahaa...

went to mit her...she wanna go seletar...she looks so diff...she went dinner with her colleagues b4 tat...hmm...tink im a class diff...pressure? tink im ............well nvm arh...dunwan say much...juz see how things go...--keep everytin to myself--

mon..da jie come again...she treat mi eat swenson again wor..ate new flavour thingy...she so nice..treat mi eat everytin she comes fishing...hahaa...my new found da jie jie...shall treat her e nex time round....

evening time mit her..took her go dental checkup..mi army officer...mi went in 1st..then her..found out afew things...actuli i reali dental expert wor..juz tat i dun say out oni..hee....walk ard..shop in seng siong...she buy groceries...hmm...learn afew things too...seriously...i reali dun see myself walking in a supermarket if not 4 her...hahaa...

took her to siglap area after tat...she wanna intro a new place to me..call hkcafe..nice food..shocked to noe theres such a place...nice food...veri unqiue place...she reali noe alot places wor...mi so paiseh....muz learn more diff places le....drove her back after e meal..she fell aslp in my car...see her so tired...mi felt pain wor...zzz...

tue..drove to loyang..to changi...drove to c.town...settle things..back to pasir ris...haiz..drive drive drive...sometimes reali get veri tired n oso sick of driving...so sux...but at times reali no choice...

wed...mit liang n sen for lunch..went taka to eat...then i shop alone..cos they both went back to work...as 4 mi..duno wor...juz suddenli feel like shoppin alone..shop fr taka to wisma to far east and hereen...tink hundreds of dollars i spent wor..haha...mi buy 3tees..2jeans...and also glad tat i got sumtin 4 her le..other things all i prepared le..left one small things to complete e whole set..hehe...went pasir ris work...

nite time...went to mit rose n sen go "lao ba sa" to eat..crabs...rose treat...chat chat chat..rose comment afew things about me n sen..haha..of cos more affected is sen nor..lalala..rose went off to mit her fren..mi n sen went off too...hmm...went to prata shop wif sen to tok about some issues..realise alot things too...--tink positively-- tats wat i rem wat rose says..and i felt tat it reali make sense...

thur..work again...hmm...went off at 7pm...to mit up wif my clsmates...they having a bbq session at one of my clsmates house...he stay near ser.gardens...i tell u...im reali reali shocked when i rch his place...super super big...its like a apartment...veri traditional....its 3 storey high...e design reali veri nice...veri unqiue.....

i went up to e top level...most of them rch le...im still shocked to see how big his place is...he told mi tat they have 23rooms...faint...23~! oh my god...so big..e whole place...his carpark can park at least 10cars loh...hmm...went into his room...reali power...his bed...super big...juz like those ancient days where e Emperor slp...his toilet floor...make of stones and tiles...u have to step onto e stones de...n always dry...got bathtub..n e toilet bowl is special design too...so amazing...he uses super thin and big plasma tv as his pc monitor...faint...its like twice e size of e monitor im using now loh...

started eatin n chatting wif them...then started drinking...beer wine etc...everytin he has wor...played games with them awhile...took pics...and went off at 10.30pm...went to toa payoh to mit ah lian jie awhile...saw my godson~~ so cute...he bigger n bigger le...3mths nvr see him liao...manage to carry him...reali veri cute...heee...hope he will call mi soon..haha..chat wif ah lian jie awhile...send her to toa payoh central....then i went home le...tired....

...Hapi Bdae to u...Bless u...

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2:58 AM
Saturday, November 11, 2006

woke at 12pm...went work...alot things to settle...my lecturer, whom also e chairman of my deg sch, coming down with his department..around 12pax...done wif my preparations..4pm..they rch...intro myself to them...one of me clsmate oso came wor..she working under my lecturer mah..e tour agency...

showed them ard e place...then start to get them involved in fishing and prawning...30mins later...gooosshh...heavy rain...faint...i faster run to get umbrellas 4 them...diao..realise tat rain getting too big..they stopped...but me super drenched liao loh...my jeans wet all e way to my knee loh...sux~~ shoes oso wet...so sian...summore i wearing jersey...so colddd man...shivers~~ my hair style gone...faint..i wanted to go out de...sux...wat a stupid day...

anyway..they chose to haf dinner 1st...after they ordered e food..i sat down wif them...afew qns are being directed at me...e best one is..."song, are u attached??" faint.."nope..im single"...i ans them...then all like start to luff and say who who who at table also single loh...faint...so stresss...theres 7gals there loh...i cant tk it sia...so paiseh..hahaa..

had chit chat session with them over dinner...tink tis visit reali helps mi alot...guess Robin, my lecturer reali can do alot 4 my place...gdgd...started fishing again after dinner..took some pics too..and chat ard with e people...mi made afew new frens again le..heee..ard 8.30pm end...mi reali damn tired le...after tat...start to haf my dinner...or lunch? cant rem le...felt so tired n dizzy...tink maybe e stupid rain lah~~ aiyo..

aniwae..my day juz doesnt get better...msg her at 8pm...she no reply...till 9.30pm then i realise e sms didnt got thru...msg her again...got her reply...haiz...mi a step too late...she juz agree to go out wif her fren...argghhhh...tats when i got reali reali reali fedup...not wif her...but wif myself...haiz...im so disappointed cos we suppose to mit de...but i screw everytin up...

i curse and swear e whole nite...e thing is...with my standard and experience...i SHOULD NOT be making tis kind of stupid mistake~~!!...arghh...shiit...wat e fuk is e msg not sent...y didnt i check...tats reali craps loh...i cant ever believe i make tat stupid mistake...reali fedup wif myself...im not being proud..but e thing is..i set a standard..a protocol 4 myself..juz like an indicator..i expect myself to perform up to tat very level that i shld be performing from my own standard..i ask alot of from myself..i always wan to perform at e highest lvl if i can...but...for once...im way way way too disappointed wif me..in making such a ridiculous small silly stupid mistake...arghh..i reali feel like slapping myself for tat...even some of mi frens admit its stupid..ya...so craps...im reali fedup wif myself for tat...

i was so bloody angry wif myself...went off wif my kor...he drop me off at katib and i took mrt to amk to mit zhao sen n chy...cant help but i cont to blame myself again...its like..after such a sucky day...i juz expect to mit her n relax...but...didnt expect me to be so careless in tat...arghh..i juz keep boiling n boiling...was sms-ing wif her all along...she dun blame me but i do blame myself...haiz..i duno wat to say...juz so sux...to people...might be a small issue...but to me..nooo..i expect myself to meet my very own expectation of my performance which i didnt...so tats reali reali bad 4 me...hate it...ya...luckily she understands...but still...points drop in my performance...haf to work hard again..haiz...a mountain to climb again...

im juz so disappointed in myself...so stupid of me...arghh...

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2:23 AM
Friday, November 10, 2006

mon...study at sem. shoppin centre BK alone...cant believe i did tat loh..heee...then at nite eat at home wif zhao..mum prepare mini steamboat 4 us..heee....then i online chat wif her..awhile later..i cont to study till 2am then slp...so tired..

tue..7th nov...exam day...6am wake...left home at 7.30am...sooo early...took bus to sem mrt..aiyo..i super long nvr take bus at tis timing le..mrt oso..haha..got onto e train..all reading TODAY...reali remind mi when im in poly...tk mrt to sch earli in e morn...haha...those were e days le...bypass nyp...cant control but took a look at e sch..3yrs of my life there...ups n downs..so mani twists of my lifes hapen there...

8.30am rch sch..got her msg..."give you all my good luck"..see le i so hapi...heee..i waited so long...mi was so nervous loh~~ 1st time exam since poly...lucky got her other smses to calm mi down..hehehee...2hr paper...tink i can pass ba..hahaa...11.3am finish...msg her le..hee...

after exam...chat ard wif my clsmates...then go swenson to eat wif them...my clsmates..reali super on one..way b4 exam alreadi plan 4 e lunch thingy..scary sia..alot go wor..tink ard 17 sia..haha..after tat..left 6 of us...we go pa pool...one of e gal damn gd..lost e 1st round to her...she left handed and veri zhun wor...scare mi sia...but of cos after tat i start winning le lo..hahaa..give face oni me...heheheee...play 3hrs liddat...then all go off le...

mi went to find eve..she treat mi drink again...hahaa...walk to project shop..e sales gal rem me sia..hehee...chat wif her 4 awhile...then i go off le...mi lookin ard 4 a gift...shop ard taka..wisma..nutin wor...went off...went yishun to find new specs...took bus to 200+...to do new specs...and mit danny awhile about bank issues...took bus back to yis interchange n change bus home...cant imagine i did tat..took public transport e whole day...all alone sumore..fell aslp in bus..and fell aslp awhile when i rch home...

woke up and started chatting wif her...ya...im glad..i open my mouth le...cant imagine i did tat...but at least i did...had a veri long chat wif her...i hope she understand...i reali reali hope she understand my words...its impt to me...took pills after tat...didnt tell her i wasnt tat well..reali sleepy...went to slp at ard 2am...

wed 8th nov....sux sux sux...got drenched when i left home...rch work there...hot sun...faint...fell aslp awhile at e table..then go macp...slp again...was reali reali weak...fever i tink..5pm+..drove to raffles place...then to china town to settle e trip...everytin was done le..e trip...drove back to pasir ris...settle everytin...haiz..."understand me pls...my work reali veri veri stressful"...tats e cry in me....drove again...to pick my dad fr macp to pasir ris...

was smsing wif her e whole day...i noe shes wori..but im reali too held up at work...still im glad to noe tat she wori about me soo much...she did sms sumtin veri "fierce" wor..haha..i luff cos i find it veri sweeet but she show it e other way de..im reali hapi..hee...went home after seeing tat sms of hers...rch home...chat wif her at msn...heee...i juz simply enjoyed chatting wif her...took pills and went to slp b4 she offline...cos she say whole day ask mi slp le but nvr once i did..haa..so i faster go slp...aiya..wan pei her mah...but aniwae...she promise me sumtin so i faster go slp de..hehee..

9th nov...thur..mit her...drove mi kor car..ya..so hard to get car from him nor..hmm...she in skirt 2dae...so cutee...she bring barley water n a coconut 4 me to drink..hee...she say mi body heaty..gif mi drink de..so touched...i like e feeling of being looked after when im sick..e barley she made ydae de but i was too sicked to mit her le..so she pass me 2dae lo cos she promise to meet mi if i recovered 2day..so sweettt...n of cos..i got well 2dae...hehee..if not she sure "scold" mi de..

while driving...something nice hapen again..heee...mi burnt a cd 4 her days ago...so we started tokin about jay new song...tok awhile..suddenli..e radio air tat song~~ peng...wat a timing...mi so stunned...then she say e radio can feel wat we chatting..haha..cant take it..sometimes in my life..alot of these incidents..reali lost at words wat to say...at times reali too coincidence le..

bring her go hougang mall...she need to shop ard for gifts...so long nvr walk ard with her le...my 1st time to hougang mall sia...hahaa..so jialat...hmm...see her shop 4 things veri funny wor...shop shop ard..then pei her go supermarket...she choose bananas...i tell u arh..i seriously no idea how to choose lo...e way she look at e bananas..so cute..i juz stand there n watch her loh...then she oso wan buy rice..i carried 4 her...heee..duno y i feel so funi oso...i seldom go supermarket de loh..to tink tat i pei her...aiyo...hmm...share carrot cake wif her after tat...cos i say if she dun eat..i dun eat too..heee...i win~~

chat wif her when eating...i told everytin about my work n family...i hope she understand my life...at times...i cant control..esp in terms of working...send her home...hmm..rch her place downstair...we tok again in car...update her further...so relax toking to her...heee...oh..got her e vcd le...hope she likes it..hee...send her up after tat...then i went pasir ris...settle my things at there can go hm wif parents...rch home...chat wif her at msn...some parts of e conversation reali makes mi so hapi..heee...cant disclose much arh...hehee...wow..didnt realise so fast 2am+ le...muz orh orh le..another busy day 2molo...nite nite...

i call for more understanding..and i tink im getting it...like to be understood...actions speak louder than words...

my msn nick...--i'll be there to lead u-- ...who do u tink e U can be...heee...

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11:32 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006

wed 31th oct..mi went to pray alone at bugis..drove there....super heavy rain...can hardly seee....after pray...i went to orchard for hair cut...trim abit...too messy liao...heee...quite pleased with e new hair cut....mit mx at tamp to eat..eat ajisen again..hehee..my fav...treat her eat...cos i didnt buy any gift 4 her bdae mah...hmm...mit my tamp god sis after tat for drink...chat wif her for 2hrs...finali she realise hw stressful my job is..haha..

anway...sometimes amazing things do hapen...i do believe in fate...its like...hmm..theres a moment i had afew days back...suddenli feel like msging someone...so i smsed her..n at e same time i got a sms fr her...telling mi wat i juz ask her....faint...so zhun wor...i was like wanting to ask her sumtin...then she was sending me e ans at e same time...heeee...sooo sweeetttt~~~

thur...drove toyota camry to macp..haha..fren's car...took it 4 a spin since i nid to go take sumtin...shiok man...went seletar at nite...mit meng n syi chat...alot things was mentioned wor...shhh...top secrets...hahaa..poly group de..careful hor...all names are mentioned...hahaha...rch home...then ah ting msg mi at msn...wow...reali reali veri long nvr chat wif her le...used to rem e time we spend at pasir ris...now she attached le...bf veri jialat...now not much contact wif her le..aniwae...she msn mi tis... "" i lend u my shoulder to rest..lend u my ears to listen...lend u my mouth to argue..lend u my hand to beat ..lend u my head to help u think...lend u my leg to walk around... "" ....faint man...tink she read my previous post...so she send mi tat...hahaha....veri funny...

fri...meng drove...eat wif him..special food..haha...then i choose to drive though meng came down to pick mi..cos i wanted to pick her...go ser.gardens...drink coffee...she suddenli left halfway..diaoo...im sooo stunned...hmmm..dun say much le...heng she got msg mi after tat...realise wat hapen le...so mi quite hapi..hehee...then i drove back to pasir ris to leave car 4 my parents...j drove his kangoo...follow mi there...then fetch me to seletar...seriously...j nid more driving experience...sit his car reali reali super scary loh...oh ya...to me close pals...i wan say sumtin..."" pls...try to understand mi..dun scold mi...sori to trouble u all at times... but e thing is...sometimes i cant help it...im hopeless i tink...haiz...i hope u all understand....""

sat...slept oni 3hrs...rch work at 8am...got event...wat a day....work until 7pm then drove home to bath....went to pick her at 8pm...took her to a nice cafe at Arab Street...its call blu jaz...a place i came across when i went there to mit client...i did mention b4 tat i wan to bring someone go de...n i did...heheee...i noe her style de..always wan people to take e 1st step...n suggest places to her...phew...lucky i was prepared...heheee...passed e test tis time...lala~~

anyway...we took seats outside e cafe...veri nice atmosphere...e deco..e settings..even she agree its quite a nice place...ohh...got live band as well...so shiok...she enjoys live band de..hehee..lucky i br her to a gd place...hmm...then we chat n eat for ard 2hrs...

she wanted to watch show...so we decide to go M.Square to see still got movie slots not...parked at pan pac...she chose to watch sinking of japan...walked ard ms 1st...since we got time to spare...actuli all e shops are closed le..but we juz walk ard lo...then i took her outside to see see..veri nice wor...sg scenery at nite..hehee...we tok about something..haha...cannot disclose...but im so hapi about it...cos i reali meant it de...i will prove to her de...hmph...

went into e cinema 10mins early...e show quite dragging..but was quite emotional at some parts..i scare she cant take it..but still alrite..reali super cold inside..somemore oni afew pple watching...lucky i got my jacket 4 her...she was like so tightly tug under e jacket...so cute...mi was like freezing liao loh...reali trembling sia...but of cos i nvr say anitin arh...let her use e jacket can le..hehe..after e show...she say i veri stubborn cos i dunwan to use e jacket...diao...its 4 her then i do it de nor...faint...hmm...2am+ e show finish...town was reali windy loh...send her home after tat...mi rch home bath...near 4am le...faint...i been awake for 24hrs liao...cant take it sia....soooo tired....

5th nov...sun...spend whole afternoon preparing notes....then send mi dad to pasir ris...rainy day again...went to sengkang to pass something...then...decide not to go home...so anyhow find one macdonald...sit down...study!! ya...study...i noe i cant study at home de...and with alot frens ard de...so i find one mac...sit down alone to do my things...cant imagine i actuli did tat...i haven study for years liao wor...for 4 long hours i sit there...lucky still got some fruitful results...heee...drove back alone...listening to cao ge new song...e peaceful moment...reali enjoy...hehehe...im juz a simple boi after all...smilez...

..u're not a burden...u're a treasure i wanna safeguard...sound familiar??...ya..tis sentence is for u...u noe who u are de....

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2:29 AM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006

ehhh...my previous post...is it too confusing?? or too misunderstanding..?? i tink create some sort of unnecessary attention which i reali dun wan...i got afew people contacting me to ask mi about my blog...well....i wish to clear some misunderstanding...

1stly...i dun disclose e people who are close to me does not mean EVERY gal close to me is involved...im just talking about one or two person in my life oni...i hope people dun start to link gals to my life again...i had enough of troubles....

2ndly...i dun haf a gf now...i not planning to go after anyone...i dunwan to create any kind of stupid shiit now...leave me alone...i so stressed up in work...i got events this week...i got exam coming nex week...i dunwan anymore troubles le....

i blog wat i wan...say wat i wan...no one can stop me...n im not bothered about wat people say about me...e thing is..i dunwan to get my frens into trouble...esp those i haf mentioned in my blog...so at times i dun mention names...

if u are my close fren reading tis post...come to me if u got qns...if you are not someone i noe or i close with..and reading tis post...then i not bothered...i dun care watever u all feel or wan to comment...tis is my life...i live my own life and no one control me...dun act as if u reali noe me then start asking mi qns...i hate asking so mani qns...i dun like to say my things...i getting fedup cos i reali hate to explain wat i blog...cos i dun like to explain wat i blog...i wan to say wat i wan..blog wat i wan...dun stop me...want to noe my life...juz read my blog...dun ask so much...

...mood swing...once in a while....

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3:04 AM
Tuesday, October 31, 2006

i guess...i seriously have a veri big prob...one tat reali no one can help mi...cos alot times my frens had tried to tok to me...but all fail fail fail...seem tat all have gif up on me on tat...i cant agree totally its my fault but...i cant help it...im liddat since poly...its like its in mi for so long...tat kind of mentality...or maybe...more of phobia...

well...u seee...eversince tat breakup in poly...i haf tis mentality tat ALL...ya..i mean i reali tink tat all my relationships will end in tears...im like...kind of having phobia of getting attached...and i do agree tat tis mentality has reali land me in reali serious shit b4...

for afew times after poly...i was like quite close with a number of gals...of cos i cant name them out...my reali close pals will noe...those who had been thru wif me...i agree...tat some of e gals are reali reali gd..reali nice...they make reali gd galfrens or even wife...but e thing is...im scare...when i start to get reali close...or if i noe i might haf a liking for them or they haf some liking for me...i will move away...hide...i will take a step backwards...

i duno hw mani pple will actuli understand wat im tryin to say...im afraid of falling for someone...or start a relationship with anyone...im scare...till now...i still dun dare to do anitin...maybe wat i haf been thru over e yrs reali cast a shadow on mi...hmm...i noe i did hurt afew people b4 with tis stupid thinking of mine but i cant help it...im scare...tats e truth...im like having a phobia...real bad one...can anyone help me with tat? i doubt so...so mani yrs le...so mani scoldings...naggings...im still e same...still e same weird behaviour....

well...i cant believe i actuli blog tis out...cos its in me for soooo long and i seldom tok about it unless wif afew close pals...now im like..making it public....cant believe i actuli did tat...but i was hoping like...maybe someone out there can tok mi out of tis thinking...and also hope tat my frens can understand me abit more better...stop asking me y i dun wanna haf gfs or y i dun go after her etc etc etc...im stuck...dun gif mi more pressure...i hate it...

anyway...enuff of my stupid nonsense...hmmm...i do appreciate people who are there at e rite moment when i reali needed them...ya...and i mean i reali reali appreciate...for me...i seldom open up to anyone now...my probs..everytin..i keep it to myself...have been taking everytin and handling everytin myself since...i tink for at least a year...i seldom complain...nor get angry nor anitin...when im stressed up...i at most say tat im stressed...nutin much...

but...2dae...was different...i msg her...tat im felt so drained by work..n its tearing mi up...and i oso say tat i understand fully how life is etc etc...and tat i seldom complain or gif up or even tok to anione about how stress my life is...i keep to myself...but....in juz 6 smses...i almost break into tears...e one tat touched mi e most was...

"no wories i wil alwaz b here 2 let u my ears n shoulder...although i dun go thru ur certain situation but i do noe hw tough wk can be..."

goohhsss...i seriously almost break down when i see tis msg...im touched..reali touched...i noe tat alot pple say to me b4 sumtin like tis...but nutin beats tis msg...cos i reali wanted comfort at tat moment...and it came juz at e rite moment...reali touched my heart...e feeling...so warm...

e 1st part..."alwaz b here" was enuff to fill my eyes...then...people always say ears...but wat i nid most is a shoulder...cos i dun like to tok much bout my stuffs...and then e 2nd part...she noe tat i cant put to words wat my job is totally about..she noe shes not in my shoes...she cant feel wat i haf gone thru...but...true enuff...i agree tat work can reali reali be v.tough....i reali cant describe wat i felt when i read e msg...but i was like...hapi with tears...

juz when tat moment when i was on my way home after yet another sucky day....there she is...with e rite msg to me...im glad...im reali hapi...e msg makes my day....i reali reali appreciate her presence...i noe she shld not be e one worryin about me at tis moment...but she still manage to squeeze out some concern for me esp wats she goin thru now...i will look after her i promise..i will not bring her anymore trouble or worries...i doubt she read my blog...but still...i wanna thanks her...reali appreciate to have her in my life now...

Thanks..for being there at e rite moment...e concern i have felt..from u to me..its more than enough as compare to anything else...i promise...to give you e best in future...

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2:16 AM
Monday, October 30, 2006

wed 25th oct...off day...went raffles place mit pple to tok about sumtin..haven step into raffles mrt for years liao..haha..then go orchard...went to find eve at toast in taka..she working ther..go kajiao her awhile..lol..quite hard to find wor tat place..didnt noe it exist..haha..eve treat mi drink ice mocha..she made de..haha..duno can drink or not..lol...go study after tat..got revision class...class finish ard 45mins time...went to eat wif clsmates at mos..mi noe a new gal classmate..cos im helpin rose to find pple mah...so go ard asking pple if they wan work..haha..went billard after tat at amk wif meng...then mi kor send mi home..sooo tired...

thur...went changi village to buy things for work..haha...been years since i been there oso..ate nasir lemak...not tat nice wor..lol...no "ah gua" to see on tat dae leh...cos super heavy rain...mi sooo drenched..hmm..went pasir ris farmway to buy other stuffs...saw veri veri veri big fishes..damn scary loh..hahaha...

fri..went to mit peiyin..aia agent...eve's fren...eve noe i lookin ard 4 investment so she intro mi her fren...spend 1hr tokin to e agent..noe more about insurance etc...ohh...da jie came again to fish at nite...tis time she bought mi ice cream mooncake...shiok...da jie..as i intro b4...i noe her cos she always come fishing de...v.nice person...i call her da jie...hahaa...she works in swenson bugis...manager...hehee...she bought mi ice cream mooncake cos i nvr try b4 mah...so nice...hehee...1st time eat...hahaa...yummy...

then ard 12am+...mi go wine fair...a pub..wif meng slow j srong...we go there drink beer and chat loh..hehee...after a day...im so glad to go chill out~~ ...played dice game n drink...played pool oso..lost e 1st game..so sianz...but did manage to win meng n j..hehe...then rch hm...4am le.. slp.....

sat...went work...settle afew things b4 sitting down to rest...nutin much to do at work...evening time went to mit lan...she wanna go out...mi took her to orchard...she was like having a headache when i mit her...so i ask her to rest awhile 1st while i drive..parked at cineleisure...orchard was reali packed...mi long time nvr go orchard le...even longer nvr go wif lan le...tink got 4yrs nvr go shoppin wif her le...sad to say tat oso...haiz...near 2yrs of no contact reali affect alot things betw mi n her wor...aniwae...we went heeren to walk ard...change so much sia....e 1st floor renovate le...so long nvr go ther shop shop le....

went back cineleisure to eat...she nvr eat wor..juz drink...chat wif her while eating...she said sumtin..juz one sentence oni...reali make mi veri hapi liao..heee...shall not disclose...anyway..i didnt realise 2dae was halloween day...alot pple dress up 4 for day wor...so cute...spend an hour chattin wif lan...its been long since we had a gd chat le..hehee...n i realise alot of things...hehee...so sweeettt...

watch movie wif her at 9pm at cineleisure..mi long time no watch at ther le..watched the show D.O.A...actuli quite crap show leh..hhahahaha..alot pple say like C.Angels...tink reali worse than tat loh...heee.....movie end ard 11pm...then lan sis called her...ask her go MOS wor...lan ask if i wanna go...of cos im fine..haha...

drove to MOS..park at liang court...MOS was reali packed...alot pple was dressed up..halloween party..haha...some reali scary...some reali cute...got in after 15min...super packed wor inside...mit up with lan sis n their frens...most of them i noe de...MOS didnt change much fr e last time i been there...lol...e last time im there in july...im drunk...my bdae..haha..

started drinking wif her frens...she stop mi fr drinking too much...cos she noe i luv drinking...but i driving mah...so i juz took a few slips....but her frens open chivas leh...see liao i so gian to drink neh..haha..but lan say stop mean stop de loh...cannot argue one...walk ard...to retro...to R&B...my fav...but reali too packed le...damn sian...nvm lah...haha...inside MOS 2dae like fashion show...we stand there see different costumes...so funnyy...some reali craps loh...lol~~ once a year then can see de...so cute....

hmm...came to realise...i haven go clubbing wif lan for mani years liao wor...e last time i tink 5yrs ago le...wow...time reali flies....tat time im juz 18 wor...she bring mi go club de..i rem...i play pool then...she look after mi like da jie jie...hehee...now...mi grown up le...she no nid to wori so much about mi le...now is i look after her le...heheee....so much fun we had in MOS...of cos cannot disclose too much...wait no privacy le..lol~~ anyway...e best thing is i get to chat wif her...tats enuff le...juz wanna be wat we used to be like...i miz those days....

mi n lan left 1st...ard 2am...took her to jalan kayu..mi abit hungry...and she wanna drink something fr there..so i brought her there lo...order juz one piece of prata..haha...shared afew stuffs with her again...tink we getting back to wat we used to be...reali feel so hapi when chatting wif her...reali enjoyed myself e whole evening...hope she feel e same too...sent her home after tat...3am+ le...so tired le...molo still haf to work...sianz...

sun...went to mum's fren house warming near our place...so big e house...they v.rich sia..alot of expensive stuff...envy...lol...went work....then off to amk to mit dj meng n qx...we wanna settle some impt stuff...hahaa...pa billard wif meng...duno wat hapen...mi lost reali terribly...was totally distracted by my sat outing i tink..haha...meng lah..keep rubbing in...cant tahan...cannot concentrate on my billard sia...lol....lose lo...bo bian...hahaa...wow..2am+ le...so fast...haf to slp le...veri tired...shall cont again...zzzz

Patience paying off...i used to be so impatient...now im changed...
Its not about saying anything...its about doing something...i did...

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2:55 AM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006

yeah...lifes so happening these daes that i hardly got time to blog...hahaa...i actuli started tis post in aug..now end of oct alreadi n im still editing tis post..haha...well...theres ups & downs...tats life...but guess more better stuff are happening rite now...kind of veri hapi with tat..hehee...shall share about e recent things tat hapen in my life...hehee...enjoy~~ welcome to my life~~~

well...i cant reali rem much tat hapen in e past few weeks...hmmm...i rem i went to watch fireworks with zhao n frens on 8th aug..national day eve..hahaa...damn crowded lo...fireworks was great...but was reali too hot..cos reali alot of pple...hahaa..went to catch a show later..."my super ex gf"..a crap show but reali funny..haha..

9th aug..rch workplace at 7am...we having our 1st ever major fishing competition..alot of things to prepare b4 we actuli start...was so busy tat dae...9am sharp, e competition start..hahaa...300+ pple fishing there...reali big crowd...i stil rem i walk thru a crowd...reali alot of pple...i luv e scene...hahaa...took afew pics too...so nice...mi work n work e whole dae...was even drenched due to e rain...well...e thing ends at 5pm...biggest fish was 9.4kg...veri big..haha..then we had e prize presentation b4 we start to clear up...mi tahan till 8pm+ then reali cant tk it liao..i went out to haf dinner n go home slp le..haha...too tired...but nice experience...

mi went to attend a talk on 12th aug at cityhall..a speech prepared by my lecturer..e best part of e talk is e speech given by Marina Bay Sands...they won e Marina Bay IR bid and my lecturer manage to get e manager to gif a speech...im reali impressed by their concept..n the shape of the hotels n shopping centre...im reali cant wait 4 e IR to start...i hope i can work in there someday..haha...then i mit mx to eat at MS...lunch..haha...after 4hrs of talk...reali hungry le...ate reali nice italian food...well...after tat i went back to work lo...busy day~~

hmm...on e 18th, i had a meeting wif my lecturer at his office in suntec..e purpose was like...mi wanting some jobs opportunity from him...n some help...cos i feel tat im reali quite lost in life now..i duno if i shld cont working 4 dad or watever...well...2hrs in his office...im reali convinced by him...he taught mi alot..n now im tryin to work hard...hope i can achieve something big in life...then i had another meeting wif dad n boss at dad's office regarding e stuff my lecturer haf told mi...i ask 4 one mth time...for mi to do all marketing stuff 4 our company...muz work hard~

after meeting..i cont to do my assignment...its my off day n yet i spend 5hrs on meeting...off day like nvr off liddat...sianz...hmm...went back marina sq to mit diana for dinner..mths since i last saw her le..hahaha...she treat mi eat..haha..she owe mi de...cos we make a bet to see whether liverpool or man utd can take 2nd place last season...n of cos..so clear...i won..hahaa...man utd!!

well...i rem on the 19th..sat nite..i do assisgnment till 6am in e morn...then i cont on sun...nvr go work...i do from noon to nite sia...finally complete my assignment...phew...then i went to suntec to submit my assignment on mon...walk ard wif my godsis after tat...lookin 4 a new shirt n shoes...but i reali duno wat to buy leh...sianz...

one of e best moment tat hapen 2 mi tis yr...i mit up wif rose on 22nd aug..tue nite...she date mi out..hahaa..im shocked too...i guess shes feelin down ba...aniwae...i picked her up at esplanade at 11pm..shes asked mi 2 name a place to go...quite testing actuli...well..heng im prepared...i suggest to her Mt Faber n shes so hapi about it..haha..so off we go...

actuli its my 1st time to Mt Faber..haha...23yrs le..1st time...she oso consider 1st time ba..e last time she went was like 10yrs ago..hahaa..aniwae...driving there wasnt tat hard...but findin way up there reali mafan..hahaa...one way road...dark...steep...well..heng mi noe hw drive..haha...on e way..i found why shes so stressed up le...of cos...secret...hehehee...

finali got to e place...i got someone to park mi car..then we walked up...n there we rch...wow...i can say...im amazed...i heard gd stuff about Mt Faber...but i reali didnt noe its soo gd...veri veri nice scenery...we can see sentosa n e world trade centre...e lights..e bridge...e tables n chair..well..rose dun like e chair..haha...n its quite windy too...e whole place reali nice..i luv e atmosphere...hahaa...reali reali attractive to mi...even e toilets is unqiue..haha...n i got a great partner...rose wore a pinkish flowerish shirt with black short skirts...reali match e settings of e place...great...heheee....

yeah...rose took her own sweet ordering her food...n she did request a special order...cant say out..cos now oni i noe..haha...hmmm...i try to do something special 4 her after tat...well...dunwan say much oso le..hahahaa...better to keep things simple betw us...mi n her gone thru so much...fate doesnt like us...always make us miz out on each other...but aniwae...at least we still gd frens...hehee...i always enjoyed toking to her...shes mature...n her tinking is reali diff...so mani yrs le...i still find her amazing...e way she handle her life...her thoughts....heee...didnt realise we sat ther for 3hrs...2am le...e place closing le...we took a walk ard....b4 heading to my car...

driving down is easy...but finding my way after tat reali hard..hahaha..1st time i rch some unknown places in sg...heng..mi not road idiot...manage to get back on track...well...rose...i hopes shes alrite...i realise shes not alrite these daes...thru her conversation on hp wif someone i can reali understand wats shes going thru...i wish her e best...hehee...as 4 my pals reading...pls...dun get it wrong...i haf no intentions on rose...juz a gd fren..hehehee...better clear e air 1st..lalala..well...i reali reali enjoyed e nite....cheersss....

then came zhao bdae...on 26th..haha...i had an event in e morn...then 3pm go home help out...my didi 21st bdae leh...i got him a LCD monitor!! veri exp de hor..haha...my di mah..i dun mind paying...but got pple share de hor...hahahaa...i took a nap...6pm wake...alot pple rch liao sia...mi go ard to entertain..haha..zhao frens all i noe de mah...esp gals..lol~~ bath n style my hair nice nice then start my entertaining..hhahahaa...go ard chat wif pple...hmm...zhao gals frens all i noe de...heheee...reali long time nvr see some of them le...hahaa...

best part is zhao cut cake time...hehee...took pics wif him n parents...of cos im out 4 revenge for my 21st bdae loh...sang e bdae song...after tat i distract him..i offer him a green tea..n he drank e whole pack!! for those who duno mi didi...he dun drink green tea..he will vomit one..haha..its tested n proven...but i force him to...got pics n video..hahaha..power...then i purposely tk pics wif him...then come sen with a cake specially to smash zhao de...whack~~ hahaa..then water splashed on him oso...i put lots n lots of cake on him...hahahaa...sweet revenge...everytin on video...so fun...hahaha..hapi 21st bdae my dear didi...ehehee...after tat i play wif his frens till 5am then slp...n oso see see zhao presents...not bad wor...lol~~ he hapi can le...my didi mah..i super dote on him de...hahaha...

oh ya...someone turn up 4 zhao bdae...my lan lan~~ hehee..i didnt expect her to come de...well..im glad she did...still got janice syi srong meng j sen ph...all my poly grp de...but still e most shocking is lan lan come..hehee..she got mi a gift cos she went biz trip overseas...hee..i noe she dote mi de..sure get mi sumtin..bleah...i luv e gift...white coloured shorts...hehee..chat wif lan meng n j for quite some time...lan lookin at e europe book...haha..joke wif her tats our planned honeymoon place....her response v.sweet...shes cute..i like...hahaa...cannot disclose too much...wait tio aim again..hahaa...change topic liao~~

aniwae..mi played soccer in pasir ris on sun 27th..sen joined mi too...1st ever time i wear my boots in so mani yrs...reali veri veri long nvr try playin in field le..tink e last time i played was like poly times...heng i still can wear my boots..hahaa...hmmm...heng i still manage 2assists..hahaa...but run a hour plus oni then mi cant take it liao...too long nvr exercise le..haha...e last time i played soccer was like 3mths ago le...oh man...i haf to start exercising le...gettin out of shape le...but now...whole body muscle ache...reali jialat..hahaha...

hmm..mit up wif yh on mon 28th..its almost a yr since i last met her...i rem e last time i saw her was like e dae i had my operation..she came to hosp to visit mi...i stil rem im so shocked to see her then...heee..well..she has grown so matured..as in her appearance wise...ya..she gt a bf now...for bout a yr le..so fast...ahahaa...i mit yh at cozway juz nw cos i nid to settle some stuff...then i drove her to prata shop outside mi hse 4 supper...hmmm..i brought her to a place near her hse..its like a park..n she didnt even noe its exist..hahaa...its a reali quiet place...not mani pple noe...n its my 1st time there though i noe e place...lol...had a chat wif her at e park...nice atmosphere and veri clean environment...quite windy there tooo..lol...im oso surprised by tat..hahaa...i like e place....

well..yh is another gal whom im so linked wif in e past...esp poly times...yp super jealous of her back then...lol...tinkin back reali makes mi wanna luff...hahaa...i miz those times in poly...and e time i waiting for army..tat 5mths of holiday..lol..now...things haf change so much le...luckily mi n yh still got things to chat..hahaa...reali miz her as a fren...i rem she used to be wif mi and comfort mi when i broke up wif yp...n i was ther when she broke up too...lol...so nice n sweet then...hehee..i treasure e simple frenship i haf wif her....smilez...

mit j 4 lunch on sat..2nd sept..at cineleisure...we ate sushi buffet..haha..then we went to shop ard in orchard n suntec..duck n liang oso wif us..hmm..e best thing of e day is...mi n j went to mit yp at tcc ard 7pm..tokin bout yp...shes back fr e states...n finali..after one year..we mit up..i didnt expect tat also...i cant believe tat we actuli got back contact...well..i dont see tat happenin a year ago...but im glad...to see her again....hehee...

we sat at tcc at citylink...chat...drink..n surf net using j's laptop...hahaa..we spend 5hrs there wor...soo long...yp tok about her US trip..her frens...its abit weird at 1st...mi n her cant reali chat...but after awhile...things got better le...hmm...went to eat supper at s11 after tat..jayne joined us wif her dog..so cute~~ i held her dog..so nice to hug...hahaa..yp oso touch e dog..she abit scare..hahaa...well...i send yp home after tat...oh mine...e route to her hse...1yr+ nvr send her home liao...e same old route she used over e yrs...i rem e route clearly...used to send her home almost everydae during poly times...times flies...its 4yrs after we broke up le...so mani things had hapen...im juz glad...reali glad tat we get back to contact again..i noe we can be v.gd frens de...i hope tis frenship goes on...juz like wat sen mention in his blog...i do enjoy e moments...

had a interview on mon morn..4th sept..wore formal with tie wor..haha..its a job interview..a chance to work as event coordinator for e upcoming car show...cool~~ liang got mi tis lobang de...mi juz tryin luck oni..haha..well..interview was alrite...tink i over qualified 4 e job...they did ask mi to call them back but i didnt...cos my xam crashed wif e event..no choice..got to gif up..

went to find liang at lido after tat...went liang office..wow...his colleagues noe about mi b4 i rch..muz be liang big mouth..duno say wat le..hahaa..aniwae i so handsome..no prob de lah..haha...went eat jap food wif liang...then i went to cut hair at far east..liang intro de so i try lo..hehe..i went shopping alone after tat at suntec...then mit ah lian jie 4 chat...get to see my godson again...gettin bigger le..so cute...mit meng after tat...super heavy rain...ate at nearby coffeeshop...then went home...soo tired....

oh ya...i dye my hair e nex dae on tue...liang lo..jio mi go dye..i cant take it le..haha..drove to orchard ard 6pm+...mit liang at far east...had a gd chat wif e hair dresser...hahaa..3hr+ leh my hair...liang oso dye...well...cant disclose my colour...muz mit mi then noe..hehehe...

mit lanlan on fri..8th sept..was reali sick actuli...feverish..sore throat...but i still went out to mit her..i noe she sure scold mi de..but im liddat de..i dun care...cos so hard to mit up wif her..muz go mit..hehe...e moment she sit mi car...touch mi forhead...she ask mi go hm le..haha..expected...she dun allow mi to drive..lol~~ but..being song song..mi cfm can tok my way thru de..hehee...went to drink coffee at ser.gardens coffee bean...i not supposed to drink de...but i did..hehee...chat wif lan lan for afew hrs...touch on alot stuffs...hehee...i always feel so hapi chatting wif her de...i feel so at ease wif her...cos maybe she reali dote mi alot...but being her...she always show in another way..hahaa...i juz luv playing wif her...heheee...

then i was like so sick e nex 2days...i slp e whole wkend i tink...cant rem hw long i slp..hahaa...was better on mon...went to tk car 4 yp..drove her car to work...n to sch on tue e 12th..glad to noe tat e whole class pass e assignment...heng arh...hahaa..i hope to do better for e nex assignment...muz jiayou le...

oh~~ watch devil wear prada!!!...i luv e show~~ now..i not so keen about action films..i more keen to watch movies about real life experiences..i juz luv e way e movie goes...it shows how e life of a person changes when gounded by work...i juz crazy about e whole show..i even went to buy e book...haha....

hmm...i went NTU hostel pick yp fr prp....i cant believe i did tat too..aniwae...i nvr been to hostel b4 so no harm gg....went to look ard at her hall...brand new de sia...so power...now i noe how e life is inside a hostel...hahaa...drove ard e campus...yp showed mi ard...wow...reali amazing..so big...lol...i haf nvr been to any local UNI b4...hahaa...went to eat prata after tat wif yp n sen...b4 sending yp home...tired....

oh..so fast...rch 16th sept le..hahaha...went to watch the host wif yp, yl, sen n j....saw sweety at J8..oh mine..i stil rem e last time i saw them...was so totally crazy about yan yan then..now not so siao le..hahaa..aniwae...e show "e host" was quite craps i tink..haha..no meaning one...oni tat yp scare mi alot times lah..lol...she dun reali dare to watch scary show de...haha...

17th sept...slp 4hr oni....got event..vicom company...got nice gal fr e event wor..quite cute...tok to her for awhile...hahaa...but mi work 14hrs sia..sumore got flu...tired....hmmm....i rem on e 21th sept...yp car give up on mi...sad...it broke down when i was driving to work...had to send e car to workshop...n wait 4 mi dad to pick mi...so sianz...then i travel ard wif dad...he go west coast for meeting....e amazing thing is...i saw shirley..sen godsis..walking across e bed when we stop at e traffic light..faint...hahaa..i cant believe that i actuli met her tat way...hahaa..so stunning..i didnt see her for years liao i tink....sg reali reali small...i hapen to see her at west coast juz liddat! faint...

27th sept..went to take yp car..then go beach road..arab street to mit client..i didnt noe e place was so nice wor..hahaha...saw one cafe ther..quite interesting...shall br pple go there in future...after tat go toa payoh mit ah lian jie awhile to take something...then head off to toa payoh central to mit ling ling...was alreadi ard 9pm le...we mit up to eat...so long nvr mit her le...both of us so busy..hahaa..had a reali nice chat wif her...then i haf to go pasir ris to pick people..haf to send some workers to causeway..custom there...faint...reali damn sian..cos i mean driving e whole day le...rch hm...v.tired...ko~~

mit yp at whitesands on thur 28th....we sat down at mac to see her pics she took at the states...haiz...reali envy her...can go states..somemore enjoy so much...go so mani places..took so mani pics...play so mani things...doubt i have e chance to ever go america...sob...im so jealous...hmm...send her to her chalet after tat..then go back work..went geylang pick yp again at nite...duno y i so gd..hahaha..aniwae...we went liquid kitchen at thomson there 4 a drink...and also see her pics again...make mi jealous again....sianz....

29th...went natas in e noon wif yp...walk ard for 2hrs then yp went off...mi cont to look for tours to korea...went off ard 5pm...carpark reali ex...7 bucks for 3hr+..reali sux...mit liang j n duck again at natas at 7pm...tis time to cfm e tour package...yp oso came...but she left after tat...duno wat she tinking oso...travel here n ther..hahaa..aniwae...we book e tour to korea le..in dec...yeah~~ im reali lookin 4ward for e trip!!

30th sept..another packed day...went to watch forbidden city by kit chan wif j duck n liang..v.nice wor..i luv it..hahaa..now im into opera...hahaa..grown up...kit chan voice super power neh..e theatre oso nice...mi 1st time go esplanade theatre..haha..oh..i saw rosemary when gg down fr e escalator...duno y cfm muz knock into her when im there..hahaa..then mi went to watch jackie chan new movie..e baby movie..hahaa..rch hm 3am sia..tired...5hr of sitting..lol..

1st oct...went airport to fetch my parents...they went HK...was waitin 4 them...then i see alot gals...holdin cameras etc...then someone appeared...cant reali see him at 1st...he wore cap n sun glasses..later then i realise he is wang li hong sia..hahaha...aiyo...small world...tink he came to promote his album...cant believe i saw him..hahaa..

3th oct tue...super busy....went bugis to find cheap lanterns 4 e event to be held at pasir ris...then go tamp to get more lanterns...n oso to pasir ris to book mooncake...reali tiring....sianz..cos i in charge of everytin mah...wat to do...manager...ya...full of shiit work...sux..

4th oct...yp came to mi hse...for e 1st time in so mani yrs..haha..she came over to tk her car mah..i wan show her e prob wif her car...mit up wif her at BK at sem. shopping center to eat...reali weird feeling..i used to eat at SSC wif her in poly...e whole place full of memories to mi..hahaa...aniwae...she rch me place more worse wor...esp when she in mi room....years ago shes mine...100%...now...shes wif other guy le n im still single..hahaa...life reali so unpredictable...well....at least she turn 4 e better now le...im glad 4 her....oh...she came to see my mum oso de...she bought mi mum a box of mooncake...something she haven done in a yr...hahaa...hmm...mi showed her e car...n drove her to her cousin shop 4 repairs....went amk mos burger for a drink wif yp...mi waiting 4 mi kor to pick mi ...while she wait 4 her job to start...

5th oct thurs...went mandarin hotel 4 a talk...tis time is a talk on gaming and casino mgmt..oso done by my lecturer..went there to listen lo...veri interesting topic...aniwae...e ballrm was great...hahaa...went to eat at coffee xpress wif liang after e talk...then i go prp wif shirt n pants...looks reali cool..hahaa....alot gals saw mi...say i look handsome!! yeah...lol~~

oct 6th...mooncake festival day...e lanterns were all lighted up..alot pple holding lanterns..playin candles...we gif out alot gifts too...so nice e whole place...alot lanterns and candles lights...so sweet...oh ya..mi go kelong oso..at ard 5pm..hahaa..go tk fish...e boat we took reali power wor...damn fast...aniwae...e kelong reali cute...so mani fishes...veri shaky oso..haha...had lots of fun there while e others do e work..hahaa...went amk to find meng n j 4 billard after my work...slow join us too...haha...i call her to come de...then we went to a place near slow place 4 a chat...rch hm 3am le..tired....ko again..hahaa..

oct 7th sat...went eat wif sen ph n j at chong pang...then go bugis...j drive..power sia...went sim lim...then to bugis...we park at shaw tower....went icons...saw sumtin 4 yp...bought it in an instance...so hapi to get such a cute gift 4 yp..hahaha...then we went parco bugis...bought a jacket from S&K...hahaha...go korea can use ba...went eat fish n co...yp joined us...power sia e foood.....gif yp e gift...shes so hapi...all went home after tat...oni tat mi n j go occ to play billard...cos mi 4got to bring keys..cant go home...haf to wait 4 pple to rch home...so go billard to kill time...hahaa....

oct 8th sun...do some things 4 my room...room change again le....hahaa...dunwan say much...shift here n there so mani times in a year...reali cant get used to e new arrangement...but bo bian wor...fengshui...no complaint~~

oct 11th...wed morn...got shock sms...earli in e morn...make mi cant slp...haiz...j lah...no lah...cant blame him...hes gd to tell mi...mi whole day cant do my things...at nite time go wif meng...reali cfm...she lost her mum..haiz...1st sight i see her...reali wan break down...shes so weak...small shoulder of hers like so tired....she hang on so much...been thru so much..when she saw mi n meng...she reali like wan to break down le...mi oso cant take it...fighting hard to hold mi tears...cos i noe i haf to control my feelings...

thur nite go again...did my best to help out her...haiz...my heart reali felt 4 her...cant take it to see her liddat...reali hurts....fri...mi do assignment at home during e day...then mit j eat LJS...v.long nvr eat le...then tk cab down to lan place...to help her again...then lan's fren sent us home...his car reali v.power....1st time i sit in such a heavily "mod" car..power...

sat morn...mit meng n slow eat...then go lan there again...sat...last day le...help her abit...then "walked" with them....took bus to guang ming san...took bus back...help lan in packing up...then go lan hse...pei her till 6pm then we go off...cos i nid to pick mi mum fr pasir ris...meng n slow came mi hse...i bath...then go eat dinner and watch movie after tat.."e departed"....another cock show lah...so sianz...waste of mi $$.....

sun..15th oct...mi was sick...reali sick...but still manage to finish my assignemnet..woke up at 7am e nex day to go submit assignment..then go prp...work whole day...even haf to go down water...work till nite then free...reali veri veri tired...bad weather too...but...my mind is about her...i cant concentrate on anitin...though i was sick..was v.tired...but i dun feel anitin...reali v.worried about her...hope shes fine...i noe i cannot disclose too much about wat hapen...but im just so worried about her...haiz...my mood was reali down for mani days...

thur...oct 19th...haiz...its over betw me n yp...i duno y e frenship betw us cant be kept...i duno hw to save...duno wat to do...maybe...its better 4 us not to contact...cant take it animore...argh..i juz hate it...duno y we argue again...but reali v.stupid...about e same old shiit tat hapen last yr...reali fuk...damn fuk up...i had enuff of all e nonsenses...better not contact with her animore...reali waste of time n efforts...i juz gif up...no regrets...pissed....

fri...oct 20th...nite time...mi car break down near j place...so fedup..haf to push car...heng got j n meng to help...then went occ for billard and eat at prata shop...haiz...mood wasnt tat gd...but nvm lah...at least got them to pei mi...im glad...

sat..21 oct..played soccer in e morn...then noon time i went to lan place..bought some herbal tea 4 her...hmm...went her place juz to pei her lo...chat wif her...watch tv wif her...then she slept awhile cos she not feeling well...had dinner at her place too..its been a week..im still v.worried about her...cant imagine i spend near 9hrs at her place juz to pei her...but as long as shes alrite..i dun mind de...juz wanna make sure shes ok....cos i noe she wan pple to pei her de...

mi left ard 11pm..sen picked mi up..we went j8 to watch death note...quite an interesting show...but i tink reali 4 guys de...gals hardly interested ba..hahaa...rch home ard 3am...super tired...then sun..22 oct...woke up early again...went to eat wif e whole family...cos mi mum bdae on 23th...went to eat crystal jade...super full sia...tink veri expensive sia tat meal..hahaah...order alot of food...but nvm lah..mum enjoy can le...oh ya...mx bdae same as mi mum...hapi bdae to both of them...hahaha...

mon...23rd oct...rch workplace ard 12pm...saw da jie jie~~...i noe her at pasir ris de...she luv fishing...always come wif her bf...hahaa..shes 5yrs older than mi....chat wif her for quite awhile...loading fish tat time she joined mi...hahaa...mi gave her free fishes lo...hahaa...shhh...later tio complaint..hahaa....then rain!!...faint...all drenched...so damn sianz lo....but nvm lah...da jie jie took mi to white sand...she treat mi eat swenson...curry chicken baked rice~~~ sooooo nice...hahaha...da jie jie works in swenson at bugis...shes a manager...hahaha...she buy got staff discount....so nice of her...treat mi eat...hahaa...e funny thing is...she said to her frens in whitesands swenson is tat..she fishing cute boi boi at fishing area...n im e new one...lol~~ so cute...hahaha...so nice...got another da jie jie to care 4 mi le...yeah...im so hapi...lalalala....

went back to eat e baked rice...oso ask mum to try...her fav too..hahaha...enjoy~~ ...but e bad thing is....haiz..i 4got its ph eve...faint...at nite not enuff pple work arhh...even mi haf to help out...reali tired...work till 2am leh~~ faint...rch home 3am ko le...zzzzz....

wow...finally i rch 2dae date le..tue 24th oct..hahaa...after work..i went to mit lanlan...picked her up at her place....1st thing i did when she in my car is tat i check if she got fever not...tis gal hor...aiyo...then muz cover her wif mi jacket b4 moving off....aniwae...we go ser.gardens for coffee again..heheee...did parallel parking...faint...i nvr do tat b4 lo...cos i hate it...if not 4 lan lan...i cfm stuck de..hahaha...she luff at mi parking sia...zzz...sian diao....

bought my fav drink...sat down wif her...mi wore jacket...she tot i sick...hahaa...she check mi forehead...we two reali funny de...keep tinking we both like sick sick one...lol...i call tat concern...hahahaa...aniwae...chat wif her loh...cant disclose much...but i juz noe her style....heee...she noe it...maybe those days spend wif her in poly...reali make mi understand her alot...shes e one who taught mi alot of things...cos she been thru alot...reali like a jie jie to me..take care of me...pamper mi...dote mi...so sweeettt...

then i drove her ard in my car...she wanna go 4 a spin...hmm...drove thru some parts of sengkang...even she nvr ever been b4...hahaa...i oso wor...1st time sia...alot unknown places n see those unwanted LRT stations....cool...heheee...

hmmm...we did chat in e car...i told her quite afew things...juz let her noe tat i reali concern about her...cos shes lan lan mah...someone who played an impt role in my life esp in poly times...if not 4 her...my last sem in poly cfm fail de...cos of her then i study...she pulled mi up when i broke off wif yp...she taught mi on how to control my temper...my impatience...n not to shake mi legs when sitting! hahaa..she basically juz pinched n whacked mi when i shake mi legs de loh...pain~~ but it helped lo...mi cured...haha..no more shaking of legs le..lol...bad habit...

she noe i like to be wif her...cos oni infront of her, i can be my true self..like a small boi boi she said..hahaa..i dun need to fake..dun need to act when im wif her...tats y i dote on her soo much..i dun care whether people will misundertook anitin...i will treat her v.well de...i rem those days she took mi to see doc...she pei mi when im injured..cook 4 mi..teach mi study...pei mi play..movie shopping swimming...she was there 4 mi when i was down...yet we lost contact for 2yrs...tat 2yrs she been thru hell...i wasnt there 4 her and i reali blame myself 4 tat...now shes down again..i will make sure im there 4 her...no matter how much it takes...i will be with her de...cos mi reali dote her alot...

well..e best moment today is...i saw her smilez juz now...so sweett...i haven seen her smilez for quite some time...hope to bring her more happyness...im juz so hapi 2dae...its juz like back to e old days when we were v.close...im veri veri glad...i promise i wont lose her again...

my heart felt 4 her...hopes she fine...i will do my very best to make her hapi...

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3:49 AM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006

yeah...yet another well planned bdae surprise...tis time 4 jason..haha...but hor...tink all 9 of them were shocked by wat i did..haha...we all mit up at suntec for dinner...at kushinbo...e jap buffet...food was not bad...10 of us wor...mi sen j meng jan jayne syi srong liang n duck...one of e biggest poly grp gathering since we grad wor...so hapi to see all of them...

then came mi surprise...i walked off...and fetch someone to e buffet...hahahaa...lanlan~~! yeah...all of them shocked...lol~~ see their face reali so fun...yeah...e biggest secret is out...mi n lan lan "silent patch" since march 2006..i been hiding from all of them...yeah..even my gd buddy duno anitin...lol~~ ya..e same old lan lan whom im been complaining soo much bout her presence in my life 4 e past 2 yrs...shes e "most rumoured" gal wif mi after i broke up wif yp...lol...tat time so close wif her till reali like couple sia...but we lost contact 4 2 long yrs...ya...2 freaking long yrs nvr contact....now shes back in my life again....im so hapi...hehee...

dun tok bout mi n lan le...too mani things betw us..haha...aniwae...back to j bdae...slow reali like wan kill mi sia..hahaa...pinch mi..beat mi...lol...shes juz too shocked bout mi being in contact wif lan..haahaaa...i cant stop luffing tat dae...even sen dun spare mi either at nite..haha...he oso damn shocked...he like so "hate" mi 4 not tellin him..hahaa..tis reali is surprise of e year..haha...i hope i can break e ice betw lan & e other poly pals...mi xi shen so big..hehehe..

hmm...went out on sat...off dae mah...go eat wif j sen & yl...at PS pizza...new pizza wor...quite nice e shape..hahaa...watched fast & furious after tat...hmmm...e show alrite oni...at least e style of racing change to drifting liao...went shoppin after tat...then to Hark Cafe...liang's turn to perform..hahah...not bad leh...he sing quite well tat dae....i start to enjoy being at there..listening to pple sing..n we drink n chit chat there....nice place...we went off at 1am...eat..n then pa pool...they go exp place to play pool sia...lol...nice table nice cue...3am then go home...reali tired....but worth it~ haha..cos reali long time nvr go out till so late le...hehee...

well...last week was reali nice & hapi...till sundae! hmm..shall blog again bout wat hapen on sun...not a hapi sun 4 mi...kind of tired now liao...would rather slp than tink thru tat dae again...nitezzzz....

Left 0ne pErs0n stiLL 0ut of my liFe..h0w 2 gEt heR bAcK....

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1:46 AM
Wednesday, July 26, 2006

pheww...yet another busy week...started wif my gd buddy on 19th wed...mi planned wif e others..to gif him a surprise...hahaha...mit up wif them at bugis....we ate in pasta-mania...then wait 4 PH bring sen come in...wif cake ready on e table..haha...there he goess...lol~~ hmm..say i "owe" him ba...lol~~ cos his been planning alot things 4 mi on mi bdae...i stil didnt 4get last yr...reali reali shocked...so tis yr round...my turn to repay him..haha...i purposely act busy when he tell mi afew times b4 his bdae tat he wan us celebrate wif him..lol..juz glad tat his hapi...soo whos next? hahaa...

mit up wif mx on fri at tamp...she passed mi my bdae present..haha...a new black adidas jacket!! hahaa...im shocked at 1st...cos i didnt expect her to buy jacket 4 mi...cos im well-known for my stupid spoilt attitude in choosing clothes or shoes...well...at least her taste not bad wor...choose something i like...i wore e jacket straight away..haha...and hor...she oso passed mi xmas gift wor..long long overdue man...lol...she gave mi a facial thingy n shower gel..quite nice smell..hehe...tks mx...u reali been spoiling mi leh...heee...always buy things 4 mi...reali paiseh..ahahaha...i noe u reali nice gal...tks tks...

went to mit another godsis after tat...went to eat mac..hahaa..ard 11pm then eat my dinner...kelian de wo...heee....return to pasir ris after tat...cos ah lian jie came down mah...of cos..wif my godson~~ her bdae tat dae...22nd~~ sat morn liao mah...haha..i pei her n her family..play wif her elder son..n see see my godson...so cute...so hapi...haha...mi stayed wif her till 4am sia...then she went home....mi stay at pasir ris loh...cos morn got event mah...slp oni 1hr+ oni i tink...then settle e things 4 event loh...tired man....mi stayed till 2pm...reali cmi le...went hm slp slp slp...hahaa....

slp till 7pm wake...then start to find pple pei mi eat...got my little xiao mei of tamp..went to fetch her wif dad's car...haha...then go J8 eat...ajisen again...hahahaa...tink i 1mth eat at least once leh...1 of mi fav jap food place...hehe...then sent my xiao mei home at tamp...then drove back to bishan again...

tis time fetch janice!! lol~~ 1st ever time i pick her up since i noe her years back in poly...hahaa..and she made mi wait 4 30mins sia~~ faint...aniwae..we went liquid kitchen..around Long House area...mi 1st time there too...nice place actuli...didnt noe gt such a place oso...hahaa...colin n jason joined us too...mi reali reali long nvr see colin liao leh..so rare to see him oso...duno if i ever tok bout colin b4 in my blog...hahaa...im juz glad to mit up wif janice n colin...jason i see till sian liao lah..haha...simple chit chat session...reali nice n sweet...hehe..too bad e other poly pals cant make it...aniwae...im hapi enuff le...hahaha..

juz now...as in 25th...is yh bdae...hapi bdae to her hor...hahaa..mi n her hor..aiyo...another long story...hahaa..all e ups & downs wif her...see her luff..see her cry...aiyo...tat time poly time reali close wif her...even yp super jealous of her back then...sen noe hw scary things are..ahaha...now tat yh got bf le...hardly contact le...haha..another wasted fate betw mi & someone...lol...i used to it le...im been so close wif afew gals b4...yet end up..everytime they got bf...bf not mi...lol...not tat they dunwan but..its mi...prob lies in mi...i reali cant settle down...i rather let others haf them..heeheee...im scare to hurt anione wif my playfulness...so i rather remain single...hehee...

hmmm...suddenli haf mixed emotions...suddenli rem things hapen in poly time...phew...duno hw i been thru tat oso...lol~~ i oso dun understand y...too mani things hapen le...better dun raise them here...later create unnecessary prob...but mi veri soft de...i do gif in alot to gals...esp those who had been thru alot wif mi...juz tat she dun realise tis...well...all those are history le...let it continue to be ba...heeheee...slping time~~~

I mss E 0nE fAr fAr aWay...E stAtes..rEally t00 fAr aWay...w0ndEr hoWs lifE f0r hEr...
I mss E 0nE nEaR neAr t0 mi...E n0rth arEa..a plAcE i gRew up..w0ndEr hoWs lifE f0r hEr...
I mss E 0nE wh0 AlwAys SurprIses mi..E r0sEs..rEally sWeet..w0ndEr hoWs lifE f0r hEr...

I mss E eVeRy m0mEnt thAt i hAvE sPenT..wth th0sE whO uSeD t0 bE s0 cl0se t0 mE..

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3:58 AM
Tuesday, July 18, 2006

coool~~~ my bdae celebration like nvr ending..hahaa...went genting for 3days wor....quite a last min decision...actuli my dad n zhao planned tis trip a mth ago...mi last min then decide to join them de...cos i promise zhao to go liao mah..bo bian loh...

watched World Cup Final match at home....so hapi~~ italy won~~ hahaha...zidane send off reali shocking...aniwae im hapi italy won...mi support italy de~~ so now can buy italy jersey liao...hahaahaa...match finish ard 5am...then i start to pack bag n bath....gg genting straight away..lol...and my trip begins~~~

ate at prata shop wif parents zhao n chy...and other dad's frens...total 10 of us...2cars...ard 7am start to go causeway le...not much jam...mi see see e roads in JB..hoping to rem more of e road so nex time i can drive..ard 8am...i reali cant tahan le...mi awake for 20hrs liao...cant take it..haha..slp slp slp...

slp oni 2hr...rch melaka liao...so fast...then my turn to drive...dad slp...haha...didnt drive tat fast...ard 130km/h oni...cos mi haven got much slp yet mah..hehe...drove all e way to K.L then mi dad took over....went KLCC 1st...dad wan show his frens e place mah...at there oni 1hr then we leave le...cos we gg to eat at our fav restaurant...haha..so nice e food~~ yummy....nex stop...sungei wang~~ my fav shoppin place in KL..haha...bought 3tshirts wor...n something else hapen...cannot say lah..hahaha...took pics oso...oni s.l.o.w noe wat hapen...hahaha...shall stop here...cannot disclose anitin else le..hahahaa....

then off to genting...i slp till half of e mountain...eat eat eat...nice food oso...seafood~~ hahaha...then my turn to drive...hmmm...for e 1st time in so mani yrs...i actuli see fog in genting...i always go genting de...lost count liao...tink i been genting over 60 times liao le...hahaa..but reali nvr experience so foggy b4....reali cant see when i drive...tink at most 50m liddat oni...reali scary wor...though not e 1st time i drive up to genting...but tis time so diff...hardly can see...cars tat went past mi juz disappear b4 mi sia...lol~~~ fun actuli...but kind of dangerous to drive at tat condition...hahaha..but to mi hor...1st time experience...shiok~~

even carpark is a killer to mi...soooooo small e place...soooo hard to park...in e end my dad took over...hahaha....actuli we didnt manage to get hotel rooms de...all fully booked...heng my dad noe pple there then got room de...lol~~ genting resort hotel...one of mi fav hotel..haha...dress up le..go walk walk...then go cafe eat...n then casino~~ won rm$200+ at 1st...then throw everytin back...hahaa...im liddat de...wan win..win big big big..lol~~ nvm lah..play 4 fun oni de...hehe...

tue~~ cant reali rem wat i did...but i rem genting was veri veri foggy...e outdoor theme park was closed due to poor weather...zhao reali wanted to play de but too bad...weather spoilt it...took afew pics wor...then went play pool & go shopping...then we oso try e computerised penatly kick...hahaha...so fun...mi try aim for e top corner...quite hard leh..lol~~ but fun~~ haha...make mi so gian to play soccer again...

dinner was reali great...we went to eat mutton~~ hahaha...we ordered lamb leg!! sooo big...near 2kg sia...hahahaha...3 big meat eaters there...cfm everytin finish de...lol~~ still got craypot mutton etc...so nice...yummy~~ off to casino again...went VIP room tis time...so shiok...got free drinks n food..hahaha...then i went to find zhao...we went to take pics outside...n then~~ got to know 2 batam gals...hahahah...they hapen to be taking pics as well n we started tokin...haha..i helped zhao~ make him take pics wif e 2 gals..lol~~ im so gd 2 mi di..haha...then 1 of e gals took my hp num sia...hahaha...

woke up quite early nex dae...cos gtg back sg soon...dad got meeting...dad drove downhill...cant reali see oso...stil so foggy...so nice~ haha...then mi drove from K.L to Yong Peng...2hrs plus sia...tired man...reali tired...then mi dad took over...went JB eat my fav "Bak Ku Teh"~~ hahaha...yummy...ard 3pm rch hm then i slp le~~ hahaa...slp slp slp~~

thurs reali busy...juz 3days out of town then e things so piled up...so busy preparing for events on sat & sun...total 500kg++ of fish and more than 300 people leh..for both events...reali soo busy...so tired...starting to feel tired wif my work load le....

aniwae...went ck hse for bdae celebration...ck n sen bdae mah...ate steamboat wor...da hua preprare de...not bad leh e food...simple n nice..haha...aloy reali scary...eeee...dun tok bout him..hahaa...actuli quite a number of us wor...10 of us leh...too bad qiang not ard...hahaha...hes so far away in aust...reali enjoy e supper...tks da hua for preparing e food..haha...

...frens...nice to haf them....at least im not alone....

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3:57 AM
Monday, July 10, 2006

great great bdae tis yr..haha...woke up wif 10 unread sms...lol~~ took some time to reply...then mit xs 4 lunch at sun plaza...mi had such a poor poor history wif xs..hahaa...but heng we still frens now...drove my kor Madaz 3 for e 1st time...hahaha..nearby oni tats y he let mi drive...xs bought mi a cake & a small cute card...so sweet...hahaa...tks her 4 tat..chat 4 an hour then she go back to work le...mi went home~~

mit xs again after her work...we took mrt to orchard 4 a walk...hahaa...strange thing is..e last time we took mrt 2gether...was 9yrs ago when we were in sec 2~!...tat time we were couple wor...lol~~ puppylove...tat time 2 litte us take mrt go out play...hahaha...so sweet back then...now...both grown up le...tk mrt 2gether again...she stil e same...shy shy de...so cute..hehee...for e 1st time in so mani yrs...i tok to her so much...n for e 1st time in 10yrs...we go shoppin 2gether in orchard...tats so amazing wor~~...hahaa...

shoppin wif her so fun...haha...can tease her..play wif her...and mi oso luv shoppin mah...mi like gal liddat...like to shop...went wisma taka then to far east...then she request mi to buy a litte cute hair clip 4 her wor....aiyoyo...i nvr ever buy anitin 4 anione in my bdae b4 wor...ahaha...so strange feeling...but see her try try e clip reali v.cute..haha...juz like e little xs i noe in e past...then e "thanks you" fr her oso sweet n nice..hahaa..im like so smitten by her for tat moment...lol~~ then we left le...she haf to go for her nite class & i gg PS to mit my poly gang for dinner...took mrt wif her to PS then she drove mi down e train...haha...she dunwan mi pei her go for class cos she scare i late 4 my dinner....heheee....then she send mi a sms...saying e purpose of wanting mi buy e clip...ahaha...of cos cannot disclose out loh~~ hehehe...

mit j & duck at PS...went ajisen eat dinner...mi went off to mit my godsis awhile...so hapen tat shes alone at PS...so i went to pei her awhile loh...lol~~ tis godsis i noe in pasir ris when i started workin de..haha...not tat close de...but so fated...to mit her in PS on my bdae...hahaa...walk ard awhile...then we took pics 2gether...those sticker machine...hahaa...alot pose wor...at 1st we like so shy...lol...but after afew shots...we like alrite liao le...lol~~ make some stupid pose here n ther...hahaha...then after tat can design e photos...so cute...so nice...hahaha...shall post e sticker when i got e chance...hehehee...

tis little godsis v.cute de...reali like mi...hapi-go-lucky..she actuli held my hand to shop ard...hahaa...oophs...later alot gals jealous..lol~~ then she gave mi bdae kiss on my cheek sia~~~ rite in e middle of PS...lol...mi so shocked and so paiseh sia..hahaha...she actuli more open minded than mi...hahaha....mi shy boiboi mah...hehehee....

joined up wif duck n j again...meng n slow n liang oso rch le...showed them e pics...hahaa...slow "scold" mi loh..cos i actuli show pics of mi n other gals to her...lol~~ nvm lah...she used to it le...hahaha...dinner was on mi...i duno y oso..hahaha...nvm lah...bdae mah...shop ard again wif meng n slow...then sit down to eat cake bought by slow...n of cos..wont end w/o a bdae hug by slow...haha...every yr sure haf de hor...lol~~~

ard 9.30pm...we mit up wif sen n ph at mrt to go clarke quay...we gg MOS~! haha..i haf nvr been ther b4 wor...mi 1yr nvr go clubbing liao wor...so excited....cover charge was cheap wor...$15 oni wif a free drink...MOS reali big sia...so mani sections...no wonder so mani pple go there...reali new environment...nice~~ i luv e R&B section..hahaha...

aniwae...we sat down ard 11pm...start to order drinks liao....and hor...within 30mins...oni 1st jug...i vomit le...lol~~ cos dinner too heavy lah...after vomit then real thing start...graveyard...lamo...volka...n jugs jugs jugs...lol~~ cant rem hw much i drink oso...cant rem wat i did or say oso...i oni rem i did took some pics..n rem all of them wan mi dead...hahaha...all wan revenge sia...cos i make all of them drunk on their 21st bdae..and they waited 2yrs for tis man..hahahaa...i rem i lose all e games i play wif them...hahaa...i rem i took alot stupid pics wif them...then drink drink drink...cant rem wat time i start to HIGH...lol....but i rem gg e dancefloor...cant rem wat i do nex oso...lol~~ cant rem wat rubbish i say oso le..hahaha...damn jialat....oh ya~~ i rem shide kiss mi!!! whahaha...got pics sia i rem...lol~~ damn er xin....hahahaa....

well~~! e best part is...rosemary came down wif 5roses for mi...im reali reali reali shocked...reali hapi to see her~~ hehehehe...so sweeett of her to come down after her work...took pics wif her....but maybe i reali too high liao...if not i tink i will be close to tears de wor...lol...im sooo hapi tat she came down...hahaha...reali tks rosemary for e effort...hahhaa...cant rem e last time a gal gif mi flowers liao wor....so touched...so hapi...hahaa....then i ko le...shide send mi into taxi...ask uncle drive mi to pasir ris...haha..on e way i vomit sia...kelian e uncle...haf to entertain mi...lol....then i change my destination to east coast...go find mi boss...

rch le then my boss pay e cab fee...then he luff n luff n luff...luff cos i drunk...luff cos i got flowers...hahaa...he carry mi into e ktv his in...lol....so mani pple sia...i noe afew...but i cant rem much oso...haha...i rem i sing song wif them...i rem got one buddy kiss mi...hahaha...im kissed so mani times on my bdae...hahaa...then my boss send mi downstairs...boon came to fetch mi to pasir ris...lol...boon say im so protective of my flowers wor...hahaa...then boon put mi to slp in office...i rem i hug e flowers to slp...hahahaa....

mi woke up at 7am...cos got event...but e 1st thing is...go toilet vomit again...hahahaa...damn jialat sia mi...reali sux sia e feeling...lol~~ then mi organise everytin liao...ard 9am i left pasir ris...cant tk it liao...go hm slp...lol~~~ i rem i slp till 1pm...then i sit at living room...dreaming...then go back slp again n again...till 6pm...damn tired....heng my boss settle e event 4 mi wor..hahaha...

went out after tat...ate my bfast at 7pm..hahaha...then go Hark Music Cafe...duck got performance ther wor...reali nice place...cosy i feel...gd performance put in by duck as well...n then stupid liang...duno plan wat shiit....mixed up betw mi n another guy bdae thingy...make mi go stage so paiseh sia...hahahaa....duno hw say out e whole thing but reali funny...lol~~ heng nvr get mi go stage sing sia...hahaha...reali enjoyed myself sia...reali hapi~~~

tis yr bdae...im reali hapi...reali reali hapi...all my 4 ex did sumtin each wor...one mit mi go shoppin and buy cake 4 mi...then nex came find mi at MOS wif flowers...e nex sing mi a song attached in a sms...and one more send mi a sms all e way from USA...so swweett wor 4 of them....reali hapi...then my buddies...some came pasir ris find mi wif cake...some go clubbing wif mi...make mi drunk..haha...some bought mi cake at Hark...then sabo mi...hahaha...then still got my god sisters leh...hahaha...then still got others who sms mi...msn mi...all e wishes...so nice...im so hapi...reali reali glad tat im not 4gotten on my bdae...hahaaa...tks..tks all my frens who pei mi thru tis bdae...tks 4 e cakes...tink i ate 10 diff cakes in juz 3days...lol...tks 4 all e gifts...tks for all e wishes....tks tks...cant say tks enuff...hahaa...

Thanks all my frens for their efforts...Song reali appreciate it...thanks~~...hugsss~~! frens forever...i nvr will 4get u all de...tks tks...hehehe...wat a 070706 bdae i had...tks...smilez~~

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3:07 AM
Friday, July 07, 2006

2dae is a special dae...07/07 of every year is special 2 mi..hehee...had dinner at pasir ris with my family...alot seafood...lol~~ goddad gif mi a red packet wor...some sort of "top up" my new hp~~! hehehee..i got a new hp le...LG Chocolate...ahhahaa...nice cool hp...i aim 4 design oni..not functions..hahaha...luv tat hp~~

went over to downtown east wif boon juz nw...my boss's daughter bdae...hahaha...small world...his daughter same bdae as mi!! lol...like tat hor..i alreadi noe 3pple in tis world wif e same bdae as mi le...hahaa...i noe my boss wan take mi as his godson de...hahaa...took pics wif them...so nice...all like bros & sis....nice family they haf...hehehe..aniwae...played pool wif my boss n boon juz now...hahaha...won my boss...won him $40 wor...he say play one ball $10...stresss sia...hahahaha...reali so damn fun leh....

went back pasir ris after tat....sen came to find mi...hahaa...it was meant to be a surprise...but he duno hw lie lah..hahaa...or im juz too smart...hehee...juz tat i duno whos coming wif him...hahaha...they placed e cake at my drinks stall n wait 4 mi to rch...lol~~ sen meng rong & j...tks 4 e cake...n tks 4 coming down..hahaa...n slow too...i noe u felt bad but its alrite lah..lol~~ so big le...bdae no nid so big celebration le...hahaha....

mi & sen did sometin else too....went to PA chalet to find ling ling...my dear xiao mei...lol~~ shes so suprised~~!! n hor..we wore e same colour tshirt yet again!~~ aiyo..happen one too mani times liao leh...always wear e same colour tshirt...even sen oso cant take it...hahaha...we bought a cake 4 her...n took some pics wif her...hmmm...tink 4 e 1st time in so mani yrs...i actuli celebrate my bdae wif her wor....we noe each other since sec1 wor....but nvr ever haf e chance to spend bdae 2gether...hahaha..though juz now haven passed 12am but still i enjoyed tat moment...we blowed candles 2gether...hahaa...reali reali nice...xiao mei..hapi bdae hor...we will always be so special de...hahahahaa....

bdae tis yr...feelings reali different....at least not like last yr so jialat...strange thing is...when im so down last yr during my bdae...its yp who pei mi e whole week...n even my actual dae...its yp who pei mi go out wor...n tis yr...im alrite...im hapi..im fine....yet yp is far far away...out of sg..not even near mi...strange isnt it...i cant explain tis oso....

well..so big le...not reali lookin 4 any celebration etc...juz a dinner wif my grp of pals is enuff le...ahaha...i oso dun reali expect gifts....cos i oso duno wat i wan wor...most of e things i haf le...aniwae...tks sen j meng n rong for cuming down to find mi...tks 4 e gift fr ling ling n sen...n tks for those who wishes mi juz now...tks tat butch qiang in aust..who bother to internet sms mi..haha..tks tat someone 4 singing e bdae song in e MMS...thanks...

~~My Special Day Every Year~~ 7th July~~ 2006~~

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3:02 AM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006

quite an emotional week wor...my gd buddy qiang gg off to aust...so fast...we were like tokin bout tat in may...n now tat hes gone to aust liao wor...but e last few days was quite fun...

started on fri...went qiang hse for gathering..to watch germany vs argentina...quite alot of us leh...tink 12 of us leh...then we order mac to eat..haha...so nice...12 of us eat n watch soccer 2gether...hahaa...but sianz leh...germany win leh...sux...

welll...e nice thingy is tat we took alot pics in qiang rm...some pics reali stupid..lol...even qiang oso act cute..hahaa...n hor...see qiang so gan chiong cos alot pple on his bed...reali fun...cos qiang veri fuk up one...he dun like pple go onto his bed de....stupid bad habit of his...hahaa...but c his face damn funny...lol~~ aniwae we bought him a bag & a card...he like wan to cry liao sia..hahaha...he tis big guy oso will paiseh de...lol...

hmm...went home at 3am...then 9am wake up 4 soccer...we played near qiang hse...mi reali long nvr play there liao...tink got 5yrs liao..haha...even guohao oso join us...since sec sch i nvr play wif him liao sia...miz e teamwork i haf wif him n sen...hehe...but sadly...mi injure my leg...sianz...toe area so swollen...till now still pain...haiz....yyyyy....

evening time went suntec wif qiang sen n ph...eat tony roma again..haha...nice food...damn full sia...walk ard suntec after tat...got midnite shoppin thingy loh...then alot pple sia..cos alot shops got sale thingy mah...quite nice actuli...but i nvr buy anitin wor...somemore mi leg reali pain...so i sat down to watch england match...haiz...so poor they played....then rch home juz in time to watch e penalties....faint...reali sux sia england....so letdown...as usual leh..then cont to watch brazil match...oso sux sia...lose to france...faint..i hate france loh...diaooo....

slept at 5am after e match...then 7am woke up...haf to go pasir ris...cos got events...reali damn tired sia...driving tat time reali hard to concentrate sia...mi work till 10pm then go home...rch home bath liao go out mit qiang they all 4 supper...las time go prata shop wif qiang le...sad...nex time less one buddy 4 supper liao...sianz...mi 3am then go home wor..haha...reali iron man liao...sat morn 5am slp..9am wake go play soccer...then last till sun 5am slp...7am wake go work...then till mon 4am then slp...hahaa...reali hard core liao mi...slp less n less hrs liao...tink gg to sick again soon..hahaha..sure tio scolding again de...lol....

aniwae...mi went KK hosp to see my godson...he sick so was sent to hosp...now he better liao...oni slight cough...hes 6mth old liao...so cute...eyes reali big...got dimple oso...haiyo..nex time reali yandao boi sia..haha....like mi...lol~~ ah lian jie oso sick...aiyo...kelian...aniwae hope both of them get better soon....reali waitiin 4 e dae my godson call mi goddad!! ahahaha...so excited...

well..though im still veri busy wif work...but im still hapi wif my life n e things happening ard mi now...hehee..soccer match time~~~

jiayou~~ jiayou~~

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2:42 AM
Wednesday, June 28, 2006

hmm...i dun get it wor...y i keep on tio summons de...wherever i park...be it 5min or 1hr..i cfm tio one leh...no matter is yis or pasir ris or tamp...cfm tio one leh...even sunday oso tio loh...damn sian leh...i tot sunday no need put carpark coupon but i was wrong leh...faint...tat carpark i park in tamp..happen to be "sunday not included"...wtf....how i noe loh...i nvr park there b4...so fuk one...waste my $$ on tis stupid thingy...countless of summons loh....stupid gov...eat eat eat my $$...damn sianz....dun get it y e carpark auntie likes mi soooo much...everytime mi...sianz...

more worse...my carplate num open 4D on sat! haiz...i buy soooo big on wed nvr open...then sat i 4got buy...it open!!! fuk lah...zhao drive on sat...car tio scratched nvr tell mi...tell mi i cfm rem to buy one...haiz....and tat stupid kfc auntie at Lido there...i buy food liao...she tell mi e total is $15.15...then say v.nice num...buy sure tio 4D...i see time...6pm..i tell her i no time buy liao..cannot tio....n reali zhun....carplate num open nvr tio!! haiz...im tokin bout thousands if i tio leh...sianz!!!! there goes one free holiday trip...suxxx....

well...e 4D thingy is on sat...then carpark thing was on sun...monday working time oso sianz...i juz rch pasir ris not long...alot things to be done...then e motorboat broke down...faint...haf to drive to tuas to buy e spare parts...reali sianz...45mins of PIE from one end to the other end...buy liao drove back...tis time go by AYE n ECP...jammed...cos evening time..all off work liao...faint...1hr+ then rch pasir ris....so damn tired...plus driving fr home to pasir ris n back home..totally i spend 3hrs driving....so sian!! 3hrs leh..i can even rch K.L loh...fuk...drive till i so sian...everytime i drive...sux...tats y at times i reali dunwan to drive...so tiring...

well...at least tue better...went to play soccer in e evening...reali nice feeling...score afew...but got one reali v.nice..hahaha...sen oso hapi wif hw i play sia...he actuli tks mi 4 tat...lol~~ n hor..i even got applause from others for one gd move...hahaha...qiang cfm dun agree one...but heck..tats veri nice move loh..hahaha...ok lah...play is play...but i cannot play like last time so rough liao...cos haf to protect myself...now i play 4 fun oni...not to win...reali juz 4 laughters oni..hehehe...i juz simply enjoyed my soccer 2dae..hahaha....

hmmm...one more thing troubling me...theres someone who reali make mi wori...everytin oso dun tell mi...haiz...how how how...how to make her tell mi everytin leh??? hmmm...tinking hard...tryin hard....aniwae...juz hope shes alrite...

lifes short...do treasure it...

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1:46 AM
Monday, June 26, 2006

well...for e 1st ever time...i go airport to pick someone up other than my family members....hmmm...did went airport afew times to pick my family...but 1st time picking up fren..mi go alone somemore..hehehee...hmm...of cos cannot say who i pick lah~ haha..but quite special feeling...waiting for someone...see her slowly walk out...lol~~ ok..cannot say more le...later alot pple start to jealous liao..hahaha...

been working these daes...as usual...but did more than tat at times...went to e middle of e big pond wif my workers...they mending the net...i go see see n help n learn loh...see hw much i can learn...then rain....faint....stupid weather...rain then hot sun...afew times more guess i will ko man...but so far im strong..haha...im getting darker le...even darker than jason...faint....haiz...i dunwan get so dark de....nvm....can become beach boyz..haha..

so hapi...got to see my godson last week...hes near 5mths old liao wor...so cute...got dimple...hope to get to see him more often...but reali too busy to go find him...even ah lian jie complain liao...say i now v.long then go find her once....haiz...bo bian arh...workin mah...

went 4 hair cut on sat...1hr sia...so long...juz 2 cut one hair...hmm...new hair cut hor..alot pple say i look even more younger leh...gdgd...i like to be boiboi de..hahaha....oh ya...mi ate sushi buffet after haircut!! shiok sia...cheap n gd..haha...went shoppin after tat...sad to say...i dun find anitin nice leh...reali wanted to spend $$ de...but nutin interests mi yet...or shld i say...i dun nid anitin now ba....hahaha...most of e things i haf le...so shop 4 fun oni wor...but still hope to get some new tshirts..hahaha...siao liao mi...earn liao wan spend oni...

times flies so fast...now near 2am liao...wan slp le...been watching too much soccer liao...still v.tired...slp afew hrs..then work 10hrs...aiyo...scare fall sick...i cant afford to fall sick wor...tink better go rest now le...but i oso feel like watchin soccer wor...vexed...hahaha...crazy mi...oh ya..england won~! nice nice...beckham score freekick...make mi so gian to play soccer liao...hahaa...okok~~ end le...rest 1st...later got match....zzzz....

..y people keep asking me to get a gf..?? do i really need one now??....

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4:21 AM
Sunday, June 18, 2006

aiya...miz e chance to blog on rose bdae...anyway...still haf to wish her hapi bdae here..."hapi belated bdae rose"...hehe...cos mi veri gd one de..i been wishing my frens in my blog so rose oso haf to wish her....no matter if she reads or not...hahaa...haf to be fair to her....esp of our close relationship in e past...hahaa....cannot mention too much on tat....well...i can only say mi n her reali no fate...lol~~~ anyway i did sms her n call her...so glad to hear her voice again after our last meeting during chinese new year period...hmmm...tink i will go down find her one of these daes...reali miz tis gd fren of mine...hahaa....

went shopping for e past two sats....sg having sales now mah...didnt reali buy much cos i duno wat i wan oso...hmmm...juz feel like goin out walk walk...relax...cos im soo busy wif work...hardly haf time to mit up wif frens nowadays...but heng still got mit up wif meng 4 billard on fri..n sat go shoppin wif j n sen...so nice...hahaha...

hmmm...my ankles still got problems...left one old injury not alrite yet...then rite one overworked....faint...go see chi doc rub...so pain....sianz...i already start to learn to tk care of myself liao mah...y still got prob one....haiz...so sian leh....nvm loh...live wif it...try my best loh...but i duno hw to walk less during work...my job reali needs mi to walk ard mah...sianz....haiz...duno wat i wanna say oso le....sumtin still not alrite wif mi...shall blog again when i got e mood ba....nitez....

i cant tink of wats so great of being me & myself...

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2:44 AM
Monday, June 12, 2006

well...kind of sad...i miz e chance to blog on 060606...wanted to de...but i totally haf no time 4 tat...i juz feel...special? i mean its reali so rare to see tis kind of date...like 050505..now is 060606...its like once in our lifetime thingy...i reali lookin 4ward to nex yr..070707...coool man...my fav!! hahaha...

went 2 watch e omen on 060606...juz wanna feel special...muz watch those anti christ thingy on tis date...ahhahaa...actuli i not anti christ lah...juz wan watch 4 fun...not scary e show...so sianz...stupid ending...i hate tis kind of bo ending movie de leh...sux...those ending means tat they can do part 2 loh...hate tat...

aniwae...heck it..i juz watch movie 4 fun de..lol~~ well...sad to say...my ankle like injured again wor...felt pain on mon...so went chi doc on tue...e doc say my left ankle is old injury..haf to rest...then e scary thingy is...he say my rite ankle is overworked! lol~~ i was like luffing at 1st...then he say i overuse my rite ankle le...like walk too much...exercise too much...haiz...wif my current work..how dun walk sia...even e doc noe my job...so he ask mi 2 cycle more instead of walk...aiyo...sound like so serious liddat...okok..i try more rest then...but reali hard lah..haha..dun walk how can do work sia...lol~~~

hmmmm...as 4 work...busy i can say....alot of things to do...i even stayed at there b4...i rem last fri...i work whole dae liao...go home bath...then go back pasir ris again...do work...check everytin...teach e other manager...till 6am then i slp...8am wake up 4 event...power!! lol~~ actuli no gd lah..i work till 5pm on sat..reali cant take it liao...go home slp...driving home was reali reali hard...reali wan fall aslp...so i called others to chat chat...cant take it...rch home i jitao ko on my bed....but i still can wake at 11pm to eat n pa game...hahaa...then nex dae i play soccer at 9am...then go work again till nite time...reali power leh...now i like iron man liao...work non stop...

well...i noe myself de lah..i dun tk care of myself...i dun care much oso...then alot pple start nagging n nagging...some say me till sian le...some say me till they angry...some even ignore mi now le...but...im liddat de mah...if u noe hw capture mi...then i sure listen de...hahaha...i not so hard to understand actually...lol...hmmm...im juz a simple guy after all...heee...

hmmm...waitin 4 match...another match soon...world cup is here..reali no need to slp one leh...haha....watch "devil by the side" by rainie juz nw...reali nice cute show...some of e scene reali sweet wor....make mi tink back of e past sia...esp sec sch time...so nice...so innocent tat time...even tat time poly oso nice...18th bdae etc etc....miz those days~~ well...every happy moments has its ending....now haf to work hard 4 my future liao le~~~ jiayou~~~

even e devil can be tamed...y not song...i not tat hard to handle....

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2:09 AM
Friday, June 02, 2006

haiz...my mood been bad...real bad...i juz feel tat alot pple dun understand me at all...since ydae...i hear almost the same things fr my pals...make mi feel so moody.....

starting fr mi gd pal...he quotes....."duno if its u bz or wat...i feel tat theres a distance betw u n mi..u n e rest..."

then i cont to tok to another sec sch fren.....she mentions...."ya i do feel theres a gap betw u n us...u shld try to do something mah...i feel tat u nvr put in effort..u shld make effort n try let e other party feel it...in a grp..u muz try to tok to all of them mah..."

2dae noon time...another close gal pal sms 2 mi sayin..."im nt hapi wif u n v.disappointed in u...cos is always so hard to communicate wif u...cant even haf 10 sentences in a few mins in msn..i noe u r busy..so i rather dun disturb you.."

later evening...my godsis complains too...."y are u always so busy...y u keep sayin u busy...when can u mit mi...y always u haf alot of things to do...how bout e others? y cant ask e others to do...y my work like endless one..yyyyy..."

why liddat??...it seem like alot of my frens dun understand e job tat im doin now...haiz....its family biz...i can say...tat theres no working hrs...not 8 to 5pm or 12 to 9pm etc etc...normal i start work ard 12pm...but fr there on...its endless...alot of things to do..to settle...esp e biz is 24hr..7days a week...non stop running....

every morn i wake up...i haf to online to check mails...oni afew mins available to chat on msn...then im off to work...and from ard 12pm+ start..till 8pm liddat...i reali reali busy...i haf to gif instructions..do accounts...do inspections..do ordering...handle calls...handle events..handle complaints...non stop i can say....at times i hardly got time to eat...or drink..or even go toilet...dun even nid to mention contacting my frens...

everydae rch home..i nid to do quotations for clients cos i dun haf internet in office...then fri i haf to preapre all e things 4 events...weekend mostly is taken up by events....off days are hard n rare 4 mi...cos at times other than fishing area..i still haf to help out at seafood n drinks side...n even macpherson...how u all wan me 2 dig out time?? ya..i noe things can be arranged...but i nid time to settle down in tis new job..new environment...esp i veri veri new to tis line...somemore my dad juz took over the biz...so things seem endless 4 mi....cos if i dun help...who would help my dad then?

i hope my frens can understand e fact tat im workin in family biz...something no one around me is doin...my workin hrs doesnt juz stop at 5pm then can go home or go out...nooo...mine is not fixed...at times i can spend more than 14hrs at prp...things haf to be done....who would wan to work non stop? who doesnt wan an off day? who dunwan to relax n enjoy?? or go holis?? not mi...i wish to relax..to enjoy...to play...to go shopping..to go overseas....but now..i cant...i need time u see...cos i promise myself b4 to chiong all e way 4 my future...plus my studies...i haf alot of goals in life...and i feel i at least can hit one by end of tis year....

my best pal probably understand tis when he read my blog...so distance betw mi n him soon waived i guess...as 4 e other sec sch pals...i reali dun get it...y shld i be e one doin things esp when im so busy?? those who always so free...nutin to do...dun even contact mi...i so busy...yet still expect me to take e 1st step...im not using BUSY as excuse but to tink logically..i not wrong...some people reali doesnt haf things to tok to me...so no matter who take e 1st step oso no use wat....

as 4 e other close pal...i noe her temper...her mindset...but juz hope she realise tat im oni free at nite to chat at msn...noon time i reali not free to chat...esp i nid to prepare to go work...but im free to sms mah...y dun try sms ing mi??

my dear little godsis...i noe u been tryin hard to mit up wif mi...i apologise 4 some last min changes but i do hope u understand my job...i nid to get things done 1st b4 i go off...gif mi some time to settle down ba...aniwae...i met up wif u afew times liao wor...more than some of mi gd pals liao leh...so dun angry le hor.....

i not tryin to argue anitin...i noe at times i reali busy...but i do haf time 4 sms...n even chattin on phone...juz ask shuyi...i chat wif her afew times on phone...juz make sure u get mi at e rite time can le...my sms reply might be slow at times...cos at times i 4get to reply...but i still do reply mah...if sms no use...then juz call mi loh...aiyo...but hor...i still contact afew pple 1st de wor...u noe who u are...well...tis post like gg no where liddat....juz hope some frens can understand my job better and my lifestyle now better....

seriously...i reali cant stand people who use lame reasons to argue wif mi...like..."u so busy..no nid call u mah...u so busy..dunwan to disturb u mah...u u u u u...." craps....i got time to watch 3movies for e past 3weeks...i can even play soccer on sun morn n wed evening...i can go out dinner wif afew frens...go play billard n pool afew times...wats about mi being so busy??....stop using ME so busy as an excuse to cover watever stupid reasons about cant getting me to go out or do anitin...

no offence to anyone in tis post...juz wan ask for more understanding and more time for mi to settle down in tis new job...i juz tryin to do my best for my future...those who wanna fly high wif mi...i sure help...but those who dunwan do anitin yet complain all sort of things bout mi...sry..i dun wish to entertain...be it selfish or anitin...im doin for my future...i dunwan to be lazy like i used to be...its time 4 mi to do something for my own future le...

More understanding of me life n job pls...thanks....

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2:09 AM
Friday, May 26, 2006

i discover tat....how irony some things can be...juz 2 persons in my life..enuff to see e diff...one is i haven seen for so long...e other is here wif mi all e while...one is i haven tok to in 2yrs...e other haf been tokin to me all these while...yet both almost bring me to tears....

1st one...i felt touched...to see tat person after so long...reali makes my day...e feeling of lookin at the person for e very 1st time in years was reali hard to put to words...at least i noe i haf one more fren back 2 mi again...though i was lost 4 words at 1st when we met up, im still glad..hmm...i did felt guilty for not doin more over e yrs....but at least things start goin well now...hope things will get better for us from now on....

as 4 other...i cant believe tat in e end...its tis person...who haf been wif me all tis while...tat bring mi all e trouble instead...reali feel v.fedup at times...2yrs of time not enuff to understand a person?? sad to say...it did hapen...stupid excuses of "im liddat".."i try to change" etc etc...so sick of tat....im simple...if u wan lie to me...go ahead...but then make sure tat i dont ever find out...cos i agree tat pple do lie alot...but dun gif stupid excuses....some reali brainless..make mi wanna luff...im sick of tat...i rather live w/o tis kind of pple in my life...wasting my time n effort...worse still...make my life more sux...so i rather do w/o those nonsense maker in my life...

ok..i agree...tats life...nvr fair...nvr gd...so unpredictable...one who nvr contact mi 4 so long can still rem wat i like or dun like..or even my temper...e other whos involved in my life for tis 2 yrs..doesnt noe even a simple thing about mi...doesnt even noe how to handle me when i get angry...then wats e use of stayin close to mi when 2yrs of time isnt enuff to understand mi...haiz...reali veri disappointing...seem to me tat some pple juz take things 4 granted...dun even wan to make a effort to try...haiz....

aniwae...i make up my mind...i will get those nonsense pple out of my life...pple who oni make mi fedup are out of mi life from now on...one of them is out....i oni wan treasure those...who rem mi all tis while...who dote mi all tis while...one of them is back...new lease of life starts now...

E one who hurts me e most..actually is e one closest to me...taking things 4 granted...
E one who dotes me e most...actually is e one furthest from me...watching over mi fr far...

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1:50 AM
Wednesday, May 17, 2006

i suppose to haf alot to say...but once i start to type...my mind like so empty...maybe its my job tat stressing mi out...juz started workin 4 my dad..offically 4 a mth or so...so mani stuffs to handle...so mani things to settle...plus e long workin hrs...reali draining my morale..my strength..

over e past few weeks...i realised...that fren reali comes n goes...those who can be close to u 4 tat period of time...can juz be stranger e nex moment...so fake...kind of hate tat situation...i been stuck in afew of tis crappy thingy...reali sux..its useless no matter wat i say or do...

on e bright side..i did sumtin nice in May...i did help to organise a bdae gathering 4 s.l.o.w..hope shes hapi bout tat...not tat i did alot but one dinner probably brighten up her mood i guess...sori tat i didnt blog on ya bdae slow~ hehee...another thing is...i bought a cake 4 my mum on Mother's Day...well..to others..it might be a reali common thing to do but 4 mi..it reali cum fr my heart...my own...not my kor or di or whoever ask mi to..useless bros i haf...i did it out of my own...i juz feel hapi when i c e expression on my mum's face when i passed her e cake...oh ya..i gif $$ to my parents too on tat dae...my 1st ever pay since i finish army...will cont to do tat to repay them 4 bringing mi up....

i realise...tat i haf changed abit...duno hw define out...but at least its 4 e better i guess....

tell mi wher can i find a fren to confide in now...

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3:56 AM
Sunday, April 30, 2006

2weeks passed again...so fast...hardly rem e last time i go out shoppin le...sad...been busy workin n workin...sobbb...miz those gg out daes...esp duck bdae..hahaha...22nd April..duck bdae...tis year reali special...he fork out soo much $$ sia...but we buy hp 4 him nor...

duck bdae started wif ktv at orchard on fri nite...hehee..11guys wor...so mani sia...so long nvr see e whole grp of poly guy frens le..hahaa..after tat i went billard wif meng...haiz...lost...sad sad...nvm lah...long time lose once...hehehe...

sat..duck bdae..best...we went tuas..cos we book yatch~!! hahaa...take yatch go out sea...reali e 1st time ever 4 most of us...rch there ard 1pm..took pics~~~!! hahaa...reali v.nice view wor...pics will be uploaded soon...hehee...e yatch not tat big but still can fit we 9guys in..hehe...we all siao siao one...once on board le we start takin pics pics pics..lol~~

hmmm...e captain bring us ard..to woodland checkpoint...sight-seeing..hehee...then to "kelong"...shiok sia..i nvr been 2 one b4...rear fish...so nice....scenery etc...i oso gt chance to feed e fish...hahaa....so cute....then we anchor at a deserted place for....Swim~! hahaa...throwing duck into e water is e best part...lol~~ everytin recorded...he so small size..kena bully sia..haha..oso cut cake 4 him loh...then play wif cake...fuk sia..i smell of cream...so sux...haha..still can rem we 8guys jump into e sea 2gether...so shiok...oni tat wenjie nvr...duno hw swim...ahahahaa...reali hapi sia...so fun out at sea...sing, tk pics, eat, run about, swim,sun tan..n e scenery...shiok~~ hahaa...hope nex yr still got....hahahaa...

well...i tink i nid a rest...reali a gd break...but still haf to work now...sianz...suddenli realise tat my freedom like eaten up le...long time nvr mit up wif anione liao...sad...i wan to go out~~ haiz..nvm arh...tahan afew more years...my car~~~ hahaa...

hmm...2dae is someone bdae...hapi bdae 2 her...duno if she read my blog...kind of sad to lose her tis gd fren but...lifes nvr fair...always nvr fair 2 mi...cos i reali feel innocent in tis case...well...no matter wat i say oso no use de....cos i alreadi did wat i shld...maybe more than tat already...theres a limit to everytin..4get it...let things be liddat then....

people comes n goes in my life...but..so wat if they hapen 2 stay in my life for a period of time..they still leave in e end...wats e point of treasuring then...tell mi...i dun understand y am i in e wrong...

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3:38 PM
Sunday, April 16, 2006

hmm..i didnt tk a mth to blog tis time round..hehee...been gg billard wif j..now quite standard le..every fri nite haf to play billard..haha..i wan 2 improve on tat mah...sen joined us too...we went someplace after tat...cannot say out...lol~~ no lah...went prata shop drink lah..hahaha..long time nvr go le...tok tok tok..rch home near 4am liao sia...hehee...

went bugis on sat...mit liang n sen 1st...hahaa..sat is april fool wor...i mit liang le..1st thing we do is to plan to sabo j..hahaa...april fool mah...muz fool pple...so of cos choose mr j loh..lol~~ we went 2 eat e famous wanton mee..hehee...last time always eat wif zhao de...yummy~~
makan le..go walk walk loh...went 2 see see e new shoppin area call ICONS...once i saw e layout of e shops..i noe they follow Hong Kong style de~~ ICONS layout is different from heeren, edge or far east...e layout is more like HK wor...hahaa..small small shops wif oni 1 staff inside...hmm...most of e thingys are 4 gals loh...then e guys Tshirt are like those i saw in HK wor....didnt reali interest mi...cos i juz back fr tat shoppin spree...heheee...but quite gd concept i feel..they even haf a rooftop care...tink i will try out e cafe one dae if im free...

juz tat i realise...e 1st 2 paragraphs like so long ago le..haha..2weeks liao sia..aiyo...i been reali reali busy...started workin 4 my dad now...now he enter e new mgmt...n haf taken over e whole fishing area...veri big..alot of things to do...dad ask mi work 4 him till i start studyin...family biz..i duno hw reject...aniwae i oso nutin to do mah...

hmm...since my 1st dae work at fishing area..i been spendin alot time there..sometimes up to 14hrs sia...reali damn tired...like losing touch wif alot pple now...so sian...haiz...but no choice mah..to learn sumtin..i haf to xi shen my leisure le...

did learn quite afew stuffs these daes...its amazing how they load e fishes to e pond...so nice view....hahaa...hmmm...startin reali quite hard 4 mi...reali make mi so tired...hardly tok 2 my pals these daes...no time wor...alot things to settle..paperwork..accounts etc...hope to pick up afew more things b4 i actuli look 4 another job...

feel so strange...juz one week nvr contact few of my close pals..suddenli like nutin to tok to them le...maybe i too tired le..join them oso sian sian liddat wor...hmmm..i oso like..duno alot things sia...okiez...i duno wat e hell i tokin about...hmmm...kind of feel letdown by 2 person ba...1 is someone i reali wori bout her cos of her health...e other is aiya..her stubborness..im used to it le...but both used to be so close to me...now both ignore mi 4 some reali reali stupid reasons...kind of sad....hw can a person tat im used to be so closed wif..suddenli bcum so cold...humans are so unpredictable...esp gals...duno wat they tinkin de...sux...i hate tat...

Y shld we treasure frenship when it always bring mi trouble...so sux...

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3:27 AM
Wednesday, March 29, 2006

oh gosh...its been a mth since i last blog...my life has been filled up wif activities since feb...honestly..i been v.hapi these weeks...though i feel tired at e end of e dae...but i reali enjoy e time i had...e things i did...heeee...as compared 2 last yr...tis yr has been reali great so far...hope tis gd time will go on & on..smilez~~~

hmm...my busy schedule started off wif a chalet...tks 2 e 4 organisers..hua jing eunice n ck...well..yet again..im abit disappointed wif myself 4 not helpin much in terms of planning or buying...but then again..im sure they wont blame mi rite..haha...i noe they juz wan mi there can le rite...my presence means e most rite..hahahaa...its always been liddat mah...any events..i juz make sure i turn up can le..heheee...okok..i promise to organise sumtin soon hor..hehe...

i rem i went chalet wif de sen qiang n audrey...at pasir ris park...oh ya..guess wat...e last time i had an outing there...was my 18th bdae~!!! oh man...tats like years ago wor...hahaa...i saw e bbq pit...e beach...oh man...tats where i had alot of nice memories...well i stil rem yp planned everytin n setup everytin 4 mi tat bdae wor...i didnt even pay 4 anitin...juz go there...alot pple cum 4 e bbq...haha...so sweetttt...i miz some of e pple wor...some whom i dun even tok to now...haiz...so sad....aniwae...lifes goes on~~~

hmm..i rem its was fri nite when i rch...9 of us..then we start to play games...hahahaa...tats wher e fun comes in~~ shiok....play cards...punishment is to drink e mixture of acohol..lol~~~ i wasnt tat suai...still got more punishment but cannot say out lah..haha..wait tio scold..hehehe..i rem qiang e worst...always tio him...he like so drunk liao...then im like so sian so i start drinkin too loh..hahaa...long time nvr touch alcohol liao wor...hehee...super high after tat...drink abit too much...ehehehee....all like so drunk n KO loh...oni sen e best...tk care of us..ahahaa...reali enjoyed tat nite...e fun & laughter...e stupid moments & punishment...hahaa...i rem someone say...watever hapen 2nite..let it hapen n 4get bout it..lol~~~ so i shall not disclose anitin le..hahaha...all v.hapi can le...heeeEEEeee....

went beach e nex dae...mi touch soccer ball 4 e 1st time wor...play ball wif sen they all...do some stupid tricks n flips...arghhh...how much i miz soccer...soobbbb....i reali reali hope to play soccer again...reali reali wan....soon soon soon!!! hmmm...evening we had bbq...shiok man e food..hahaha...eat eat eat...oh ya..danny came...my "mentor"...hahaa...my gay buddy in sec 3...i tink i mention bout danny b4 in my blog...lol~~ too bad some of our sec sch pals cant make it 4 e bbq...but we all still enjoy e whole thingy...hahaa...went home after tat..my dad pick mi up mah...reali tired...but im reali glad tat e 4 of them organise e chalet...nice gathering...hope to haf tis every yr~~ hehehee...of cos not i plan hor...bleahhh~~

a week after chalet..i went overseas~~ hahaha...i went Hong Kong~~ lalalaa...yeah im sure those who duno tat i went would ask mi who i go wif rite..lol~~ slowli go find out hor...hahaa...reali had soooo much fun there!!...went pray at e famous temple e 1st dae..2nd dae i went Victoria Peak...e view reali nice wor...then disneyland on e 3rd dae...hahaha..so fun..alot cute cute thingy at D.land..took alot alot pics loh...i took 700pics 4 tis HK trip leh..hahaa...will try to upload some pics here soon de..hehe...HK reali is shoppin heaven wor...shop non stop de leh...cant finish shoppin de loh...4days like sooo short liddat..hehee...i luv e weather there...10+ deg oni wor...cooler than my air con leh....shop oso wont sweat...hehee...but i still bought jacket there...wear le can mix in wif e pple ther mah..haha...e pple ther reali noe hw dress up..esp e gals...so cute sia..hehee...im so hapi wif tis trip...cos im e tour guide 4 tis trip..lol~~ prove to my kor tat i can be tour guide 4 HK hor...not juz him..lalala...actuli HK n SG reali alike...shoppin...eat...entertainment...even e mrt..oh..there is call mtr..oso v.easy to take wor...but HK win us in weather i feel...damn shiok...i miz HK~~~ wan go stay there longer..hehehee...hope 2 go ther shoppin again soon~~~

okok..back fr my dreamland...hahaa...after i back fr HK...haf to mit up wif close pals...update them...show them pics..hehee...show off my yandao pics...hahaa..4 those who miz e chance to see my pics...well...u haf to cum my place 2 see le loh..hahaha...

oh ya..i went sentosa over e wkend...wif liang duck sen qiang n j..hahaha...go beach on sat...shiok...play soccer again...coool~~~ actuli not cool loh...e sun so bright...sand damn hot sia...hahaha..reali reali damn hot tat dae...but beach soccer stil e best..haha..reali tough to play at e beach...went swim too...n bury duck in sand..hahaa...fun fun fun...esp when we juggle wif e ball as we walk back to resort..haha...then at nite we walk ard..went dragon trail...reali reali damn dark loh...n i got bite by spider leh..fuk~~ e bite like still on my leg loh...sux~~ hmm...went back to beach again...tis time we went up 2 e tower...nice view there wor...oh...saw snake when we cumin down..eee...so er xin leh....hahaa...time flies...1dae gone le...haha..sun go back tat time reali tired..i slp 3hr oni...rch home still haf to go pray...cos "ching ming jie" mah...wau...reali so damn hot...im sooo burned now...but i hope im darker nw le..hehehe...

wat else haf i been doin leh...ehhh...ohh..play billard...hahaa...every fri nite is billard nite...wif j duck meng...hehee...of cos i win e most nor..lol~~~ j arh j...when wan qie mi again...hehehee...hmm...i oso mit up wif ling mei mei...go ktv..hahaha...j gonna scold mi again le...mit up wif xs 4 lunch too...been years since i last see her wor....she stil like little kid..haha...everytime see her...its reminds mi of sec 2..lol~~ zip zip~~~ lalala...n oso at times mit sen n qiang 4 drink loh...hehee...

well..i not everydae play de hor...i still help out at e 2shops loh...at times see my dad work so hard...i feel bad mah...so sure help him if he nid mi to....im lookin ard 4 jobs oso le...anione got nice lobangs pls pls pls contact mi hor...yaya...im doin my resume now...kind of sux...i duno hw to write...sad man...hope to finish my resume soon....hmmm....i got more motivated when i see my kor buyin car...been accompanying him to Madaz HQ to do all e paperworks...he is gettin a red Madaz 3...haiz...so envy....even went test drive wif him n my dad...my kor duno much bout car de nor..i help him ask de...im reali sooooo envy...hw i wish to own a car...tats y i got more motivated...dunwan to lose to him mah..hehee...shall get a job soon...3years plan starts now..hehehe...

hmm...duno if i miz out on anitin...but tats about wat i haf been doin these daes wor...reali busy leh...hahaa...aniwae...i hope to get a job soon...plus my studies...so its gonna be a reali packed year 4 mi...well...i promise to work hard de...4 my dream~~ hehee...lets all work hard 2gether hor...hehee...oh ya...i will try to upload some pics here...if not...can check out my friendster...http://www.friendster.com/profiles/prince07...i alreadi upload some pics ther alreadi..hehee...wow...3am+ le...gonna slp le...zzzzz...

im reali v.hapi now..veri veri.. :)

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3:52 AM
Monday, February 27, 2006

juz watch man u match...so hapi they won~~ 4-0 sia..hahaa...finally man utd win sumtin le..mani yrs no see them win anitin liao wor...but e most touching thing is all man utd players won t-shirt during e ceremony for alan smith wor...cos of e horrible injury he suffered...reali touched wor...at least they nvr 4get him sia...nice n sweett...tats y i so in luv wif soccer...hehee...

went godson 1mth bdae at toa payoh on wed...im reali hapi to see him wor...sooo cute...sen went wif mi tooo...e food is alrite..actuli e food is made by my shop...hahaa...ah lian jie ask 4 catering mah..so i suggest my own de loh...my kor took e food down from pasir ris...but he like not reali do properly e thingy wor....haiyo...dun say him...hmmm...im juz hapi to be there....tok 2 ah lian jie husband...manage to intro sen to ah lian jie godbro...hope sen can noe more bout design..haha...

hmm..watch Final Des. 3 ydae...reali v.er xin leh e show...hahaa...but tats wat i like loh..lol~~ more gross than e 1st 2series...hahaa...all watch le feel like vomiting sia..lol~~~ went 4 drink wif qiang n sen after tat....same old place...hehee...

well...seem tat times arent so gd 4 one of my close pals...i understand wats he is gg thru now...i duno wat to do to help him...cos i rem when i was so down tat time...no matter wat pple say or do oso cant reali help much....juz hope hes alrite can le...haiz....hearing wat he said remind mi of my sad past...still can feel e pain n agony i gone thru tat time...take care my fren...

...y always haf to end up hurting each other....

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6:09 PM
Wednesday, February 22, 2006

yeah yeah yeah..i finally got to see my godson le~~!!!...went KK hosp to mit ah lian jie...godson at hosp checkup mah...soo long nvr see ah lian jie le...bought her a bottle of wine...mum pass 2 mi de...say gd 4 her..haha...

mi n jie went eat 1st..then go up...aiiiiiyyoooooo...hes sooooooo small oni...ahahhaa..i like "mountain turtle"...nvr see baby b4...hahaha...i reali duno baby soooo small oni leh..hehee...hes soooo cute...eyes big big...hahaa...he see mi tat time like soo innocent wor...ah lian say i heng...normally pple come see him..he always slp...but i go..he awake n sumore look back at mi...soo swweeetttt....he got dimple too~!! ..haha..i oso got...lol~~ nex time he sure be yandao de...lol~~ aiyo...when i see him...suddenli tink of mi mum...she like so xin ku bring us up wor...tat time sooo small oni...hahaa...aiyo...touched....cant say out e feelings when i c my little godson wor...so cute...ahhh...melts my heart....haha...i gg his 1mth bdae buffet 2dae...gtg prepare le...shall blog on again...hehee....

hes sooooo cute~~

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1:17 AM
Monday, February 20, 2006

vdae over le...heee...hmm...read someone's blog juz now...certain things she mention i reali agree wor...y vdae oni 4 couple? isnt vdae frenship dae as well? y haf to tink so hard to tink of wat 2 buy? y haf to spend soo much on vdae? lol~~ reali e same tinkin as mi ba..haha...maybe cos mi n tat fren both single so tink e same ba..haha...cos last time attached tat time...vdae is a MUST spend $$ dae..lol~~ but tats yrs ago le...haha..mi single 4 some time le..reali used to my life now...hard to settle down de..hahaha...

actuli im quite hapi tis vdae...went out eat wif mx..she treat mi eat..hahaa..as a vdae gift 4 her "bf"..tats mi~!!..hahaha...cant rem how tis "1dae bf" thingy came about le..but..e playful mi..cfm keep on kajiao-ing her de..haha...oh ya..wheres my xmas gift?~~ lol~~ went macp after tat...dad alone ther so i go down see see loh...oh ya...1 more xiao mei mei gif mi chocolate wor..haha..e sis of e "1993" gal tat i noe...so sweet...e 2sis reali cute..hahaa..i treat them like my mei mei...cos both soo young...been more stunning is tat 1 of e auntie actuli gif mi a handphone chain thingy..hahahaa..so paiseh...1st time got auntie gif mi thingy 4 Vdae..lol~~

well...i offically finish army le!!!! went camp to take my IC on fri...yeah my pink IC...2yrs+ nvr see it le..lol~~ so hapi sia...whahaa...went macp to eat wif sen they all...then off to amk 4 billard again...hahaa...use my pick IC..hahaa...tat dae play quite badly leh..but nvm la...got IC le..hahaha....soo hapi....heee..

oh..spend e whole sat wif slow n gang...watch "marry e mafia" at yis gv...hmmm...v.nice show...sweett...funnyy...touching too wor...oh ya..tks slow 4 e show...she paid 4 it de wor...hahaa...after watchin e show...i feel tat...for now...i reali can oni be a veri gd fren but not a veri gd bf...juz feel tat certain areas i still not fit 2 be a gd bf ba...maybe im juz too used to my singlehood...wif my lifestyle now..im reali hard to settle down i feel...certain things tat i can xi shen in e past 4 my ex gf..now..i reali cant do le...dun haf e heart to do oso...those sacrifice make mi scare...i dunwan to do too much 4 anione now...ehhh...wat am i tokin...duno wat got into mi oso...tink too tired le..hahaa...been workin n workin...too stresss...workin not tat easy wor...better go slp le...zzzzz...heeee....

...i juz cant settle down...

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3:36 AM
Tuesday, February 14, 2006

phew...so fast...chinese new year end le...now Vdae le~!!....beeen soo busy..hardly haf time to rest...im sooo tired...been so busy gg ard to "pai nian" n help dad work loh..new yr mean gd biz!!..hahaa...i did learn alot during tis CNY...esp fr my dad...had alot of heart to heart talks wif him...im glad..heee....aniwae..mi juz rch home...was actuli veri tired...but suddenli feel like blogging wor...shall spend some time on a long long post 2dae..heheee...cos i promise pple to blog v.long v.long de..hahaha...

CNY Eve (Sat)..same as every yr...mi zhao n xian will help out in deco n cleaning e whole hse at noon time...chi new yr mah..at least muz guai guai help parents...hehee...my relatives all rch ard 6pm..veri big group..every yr e same...reunion dinner at our place...hehee..e steamboat reali shiok man~! eat till soo full sia..hahaa....then we went "He Pan"..quite small actuli...but we ther more for e fireworks!! ahaahaa..i luv fireworks!! hmm...rushed down to chinatown at 1am..still alot pple wor...my dad wanna buy a "Golden Dog"...mi saw one n intro him..he reali buy sia!! hahaa..im so hapi...cos i choose de mah..hehee...rch home 3am...haf to pray..by e time i slp hor...6am le wor...faint...but..new yr mah!! who cares bout slping...hapi can le~~ hehee...

CNY (Sun)..woke up 1pm...still slpy..but haf to go pray..same temple at toa payoh..every yr go ther de...wanted to go find ah lian jie but reali no time...went to relatives hse..take hong bao~~! hahaa..oh ya..i bought 4D tat dae! cos of e "doggie" my dad bought mah..i feel heng heng so go buy system roll...but e 4D auntie say e num cant buy in..sian!! cos e number reali opened~! saded..few hundred bucks gone~!!!! :( nvm lah..hahaa..suan le...hmm..went to watch "fearless" wif my family at 1am wor..lol~~ whole dae go ard le..then watch movie at nite...my dad n mum watch movie once a yr leh!~! hahaa..every CNY we 3bros sure bring parents go movie de..hehee....so sweeetttt hor....my dad so proud of his "1yr 1movie" record leh..hahaa..b4 movie i went ck,ty,qiang n de place..haahaa..go take hongbao..n gamble abit..win le i siam liao..lol~~

CNY Day 2 (Mon)..Lion Dance at my place!!! every yr sure haf de...hahaa..i did took pics n video..if wan see then ask fr mi loh..hehee..e lion dance came at 9am leh..so earli...we e 1st house mah..gd omen they say..hahaa..got lion dance n dragon..sumore got climb stick leh..so high sia..haha..then whole family n relatives go eat at prata shop..e shop which i always go 4 supper de..haha..30 of us leh..ordered 50eggs prata!! e prata uncle tot i bluff him sia..lol~~ noon time we went jurong..my dad's fren place...every yr my dad n his fren rotate..1yr we go their place..1yr they cum our place...so cute..hahaa...e uncle got 3daugthers sia!! totally opposite of us..haha..but none i interested la..lol~~~ oh ya..god dad n god mum came over 4 dinner at mi place..e oni 2nd time i see godmum wor i tink...dun reali dare to tok to her leh.hahaa..shy mah mi..lol~~ at nite..i went eunice place..1st time go sia...go ther gamble~! hahaa...win some $$..stay until 3am then go home wor...nan de got gathering..all sec sch pals there...miz them soo much..hahahaa...

CNY Day 3 (Tue)..eh..seriously i cant rem wat i did e whole dae wor..lol~~ i oni rem zhao book in oni..hahaa..wau..mental block sia...reali cant rem wat i did liao le..hahaha...hmmm...reali reali cant tink of wat i did wor...4get it la..haha..shall blog if i hapen to recall again...heheee...

CNY Day 4 (Wed)..1 of e happiest dae!! cos i get to "date" rosemary out..lol~~ we set e date in jan 06!! i was tinkin if she will put plane e last min..haha...aniwae i did mention bout her afew times in my blog b4...my reali gd fren in sec sch...shes actuli free during CNY period n we get to go out..for e 1st time in 8yrs ba!! haha..tats e last time i rem gg out wif her alone..lol~~~ tis gal so busy workin..off oni once a yr during CNY loh..faint...haha..went to catch a show wif her..some lame chi show loh..haha..movie wif her oso 1st time in mani yrs le..lost count sia..hahaa...went shop ard after tat...she long time no shop ard le so pei her loh..help her choose her bf gift too...then we go mache eat dinner...soo nice e place...hahaa...so rare rose like it..cos she v.mafan in eatin de lah..muz eat gd food one...lol~~ then we went "balcony" 4 drink...its a new place at orchard..veri nice place...1st time i go ther but heard alot pple tok bout e place le...v.nice atmosphere too...hahaa..chat wif rose...she now more n more open-minded le...enjoy tokin to her..1st time she dun find mi childish..haha..aiya..i grow up le more...now muz touch on my future my career le..heee...went to rose rented place 4 awhile...she wan take her stuff mah...so nice..stay on her own...haha...then we go sen place sit sit...so rare rose appear loh..lol~~ sen soo "jealous" of mi gg out wif rose...chey...sen u oso can ask her out de mah..lol~~ peace sen!!

CNY Day 7 (Sat)..i skip day 5 n 6 cos i cant rem wat i did oso..haha..tink go shop help out ba...lol~~ reali cant rem soo much le..brain full liao...hehee...ohh ya i rem gg hosp appt on day 5...my mc extend to ORD daTe~~!! hehehee...hmm...sat noon go sen place again...actuli lazy go de but sen dad "scold' sia..haha..so i rush down loh...went to hua n jing place after tat...oso 1yr go once sia..hahaha..most sec sch pals place reali one yr go once sia..lol~~ but some family members of e sec sch grp still rem mi sia..lol~~ soo hapi...hahaa...saw alot pics at hua place...aiyooo..im sooooo thin n dark durin sec sch...soobbbb....muz jiayou le...hahaa..aniwae e biggest gathering is at mi place at nite!! hahaa...i got poly frens like colin syi srong jason meng..then sec sch frens like qiang sen de aloy jing eunice hua ck ph plus zhao frens...ard 30 pple at my place wor..lol~~ all gamble sia..hahaa...chy shiok lah..he won e most loh..hahaha...played till 5am then all go hm sia..lol...by e time i slp 6am liao le...haha...reali ko~!! but reali hapi..every yr e biggest gathering cfm at mi place de..heee...sumore tat Sat is Ren Ri..haha..everyone's bdae~~!!! heeEEEee..

haha..tats 1whole week of CNY 4 mi..after tat i started helpin dad le..work work work..hardly got time to rest...day time haf to go hosp 4 gym session...noon i go jogging..or go out walkwalk awhile...oso went swim wif sen once...then nite haf to work...i nvr touch gaming for 3weeks le wor...sooo rare leh...haha...alot things haf waitin 4 mi to settle..my army stuff..my studies..my job etc....aiyo..gonna be reali busy again...hope got time to blog..if not pple scold..hahaa...

Best Wishes~~~ To diana..hapi belated bdae..hee..i stil rem..tat dae msg u le hor...aniwae man u beat liverpool!! hahaa..To rx...yo!! Hapi Bdae hor..haha..i rem okiez! by e time u read tis..i tink i sms u le ba..lol~~ i blog liao hor...v.long hor...nice not..hehee...To mx..nice dinner wif u tat dae..lol~~ i noe u been v.nice to mi...but wheres my xmas gift?!! hahaa...To huan..got bf dun tell mi hor~~ sad..To fong..go aust muz take gd care hor...keep in contact my "future"..haha..To ling mei mei..when u wan cum mit ur kor kor huh? haha..To ah lian jie..jie i cfm go find u n godson soon de!!! To honghui..tks 4 askin mi out..sry i cant make it..will mit up wif u soon de..hee...To carmen n carine..nice knowing u two~~! hehe...To jidan mei..now pple's wife le..muz behave hor! hehe..To x.shi..when u wan mit mi huh? haha...To slow..nvr 4get u hor~~! smilez..i noe u always read my blog de..i save e last slot 4 u loh..special le hor..hahaa..guys..sry arh..i dun entertain guys de..haha...i dunwan be so gayish...hahaaa....hope i no miz out anione impt..lol..shall blog again if i hapen 2 rem...hehehee..dun blame mi hor...heeeee.....

oh man...reali super long blog..took mi 2hrs plus leh...reali so long nvr blog...haha...been v.hapi tis 2mths of 2006...cos i get to mit up wif alot pple...some reali old pals whom i haven met in yrs..will keep on contacting back those old pals de..hope to see alot more frens soon...esp ah lian jie..reali miz her wor...tis yr reali impt..haf to choose my study n job properli cos tats reali my future le...i wil jiayou de..hope all my frens jiayou too..heheee...

oh ya..mit up wif meng n daniel juz now 4 supper at jln kayu..haha...so fun chattin wif them...i share sumtin nice wif them juz now...hmm..i got choco fr sumone juz now..hahaha...was at macp juz now mah...then got 1 xiao mei mei gif mi...i juz got to noe her not long ago..haha..10yrs my junior....lol~~ shes soo cute...i kajiao her ydae then 2dae she reali gif mi 1small choco gift...so paiseh when i took it..hahaa...but its like soo sweeettt loh..lol~~ its Vdae mah...frenship dae too..hahaa...cute gal...dun dare tok 2 mi face 2 face..oni sms n msn dare tok 2 mi..hahaa..reali one little xiao mei mei...nex time kajiao her more...hahaa...

Vdae again le..i rem last yr i went dinner wif my parents n goddad!! hahaa..stunning rite...tis yr arh...hmm...surprisingly..i nvr ask anione out wor...hahaa..i dun feel e need to ba...dunwan cre8 any wrong idea...i been treatin all gals as my frens...2molo if i hapen 2 go out wif anione..i reali hope pple will take mi n her as frens ba...cos i haf enuff trouble over e yrs...scared liao...i dunwan to haf a gf now...i cant settle down...i juz wan to make more frens..heee...aniwae Vdae oso frenship dae mah...hahaa...i will ask my S-Club members to come out de..lol~~! u noe who u are...whahaha..dun hide...nutin to be shy of..as members of my S-club de...hahaha...Aniwae..Happy Vdae To All...hope all couples will be happy n hope all my single frens are hapi as well...dun wori..im single too..n im enjoying my life..hahaa...cheers to our frenship~!! hehehehe...

Hapi Vdae to All~~~ Hapi Frenship Dae~~! Happy Happy...Smilez~~!!

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3:22 AM
Thursday, February 09, 2006

had a drink wif sen juz nw...a week long nvr reali tok 2 him le...hopefully e things we tok about juz now will be gd 4 him...its time 4 us to plan 4 e future le...hmmm...mi myself been so busy...hardly haf time to rest nor blog...hmmm...shall find time molo to blog my whole chi new yr out...heeee....nid to zz le...so tired....All e best sen!~

To try mean theres a chance to make it in life...but w.o having a go at anitin mean total failure...Dun be afraid of failure...be afraid of not tryin.. :)

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4:35 AM
Saturday, January 28, 2006

watched man u match at 5am on thurs morn wor...reali hapi man utd won again...make mi realise my passion 4 soccer haven change in so mani yrs...esp my luv 4 man utd...been supporting them for 10yrs+ le...heee...hope to see them win again...to see them lift cups...reali hope beckham returns to man utd...but reali impossible wor..but nvm..i will continue to support man utd n beckham de...man utd rulez~~!

hmm..cant get to slp after e match..lie on bed an hr plus cant slp...so wake up n start packin room at 7am..lol~~ nvr been so hardworkin 4 so long le...pack all my drawers n cupboard...wipe everytin in my room...soooo dusty lo...so er xin..lol~~ clean up my computer area too...my parents woke at 8+..cant even believe im actully cleaning my rm!! n in e morn too~~! ..ahaha..mi oso dun believe tat i actuli did tat wor...but pack till 12pm liddat i ko le..slp all the way to 5pm wor...heeee...

i didnt go shop help...wanna rest..so mit mx 4 dinner instead...we tok bout sec sch life...ohh man...tok soo much..bout teachers n frens...e life back in sec sch reali relax...mx say our class e most noisy durin sec 4..hahaa..then change teacher tat time..alot pple sure walk in n out of e class de...go toilet arh..go other class disturb..lol~~ play catching sumore..haha..then always kena scold cos reali too noisy...hahahaa...then always play soccer nvr study...recess time 20mins oso muz play..hahaa..then all sweaty go back clsroom de...all those shiity things we do..sooo niceee...

wonder if those sec sch pals reading tis post rem mah...e new block..new classroom..e things we did in ther..haha..e kettle to boil water 4 cup noodles..e extra fan to keep us cool..e gel 4 styling hair..e soccer ball..we dribble n juggle n wack in classrm..e rubbish thrown here n ther..e teacher's drawer we used to keep our things n lock it...aiyyoo...i still rem e lab lesson..play water...mi qiang de n danny..4 of us in lab are reali horrible de...heee...then 4 of us always nvr do hmwrk...books kena throw out of classroom..muz go pick up...like so kelian sia..hahaa...rem mah guys?? soo sweetttt....qiang rem e most de la..i same class wif him 4yrs sia..damn fukin suai..hahaa...i still rem his "pao yu pi"..skin dig fr his fingers...he call tat "abalone skin"...er xin nor..haha..still now he still doin..lol~~~~

memories...soo sweettt n nice...bring smilez back to my hectic life...haiz...i miz those daes...its gone n nvr be back...gonna treasure my happy moments now...b4 they turn to memories wor...heeee...wats got into mi?? i reali duno wor...suddenli like so emotional...tink sickk too mani daes le...start to anihw tink le..hahaa...gone crazy liao le~~~ bleaahhhzz....

hmm..mit up wif qiang n sen on thur nite 4 drink...same whole shiit again..haha..but i juz luv them...mit them chat sure luff de....luff luff luff..esp qiang...he reali can make pple luff sia..lol~~ hes e joker...hehee...oh ya..drove nissan lorry wor...my dad lo..suddenli drop mi at his office..ask mi drive tat lorry home...scary sia...though i drive b4 but 1st time drive lorry alone wor...on e way like sooo slow sia...maybe im scare...haaha..but real fun leh...different experience wor...different view..different way of driving...hahaa...fun fun fun..i like...heee...

hmm...to end tis post...juz wanna remind pple...to reali treasure things or pple ard u...dun lose le..or over le...then regret wor...e feeling sux...my msn nick says it all... "l00king bAck..i rEali mz oUt on cErtaIn Pe0ple..ReGr3t..." ...i guess alot pple haf seen it...i reali feel sad bout some things..n pple tat i reali miz out in life...too mani to mention...like wat qiang latest blog say....pls...dun take anitin 4 granted...its time 4 us to wake up n start treasuring e things tat we haf...e pple e frens n even e family ard us...i hope its not too late 4 u all...take tis CNY as e best chance to make out wif e pple ard u...jiayou...mi too...heeheee....

i will treasure wat i haf..and e pple ard mi..

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2:31 AM
Wednesday, January 25, 2006

wat a dae for mi...mix wif pain n happiness wor...hmm...duno wat hapen 2 mi actuli...suddenli fell sick...haiz...was okiez in e morn when i go hosp 4 physio...then noon time i send my car to repair..dad came to fetch mi n we went to eat 2gether...then i go ard wif dad to his different job sites b4 rchin home at 3pm+

then slp awhile till 5pm...woke up..n started vomitting...then i start to feel pain in my gastric...reali wan scream sia...reali damn pain wor...my whole family not at home wor..then mi uncle drove 2 my place to fetch mi go see doc...doc say i got food poisoning plus gastric pain wor...then fever oso...faint...suddenli liddat sia..then he gif mi a jab...wau...after tat i reali wan faint liao...rch hm i ko at mi bed till 12am wor...haiz..now stomach still abit pain..arm oso..tat injection area...haiz...y liddat....reali duno y suddenli bcum so sick...soobbbb....

but well..e hapi news is tat ah lian jie has given birth~~~ hahaaa..suppose to mit her 4 lunch..after her KK appt...then suddenli she call say cant mit cos she gg to gif birth...lol~~ scare mi sia...but im sooo hapi..i promise to take her son as my godson de..heee...too bad i cant go see her tis evening cos im sick..haiz...but nvm...hope to see them soon..heheee...so hapi~~ wau..2+ le..better go rest...still haven fully recover yet....hope for a better 2molo.. :)

pain pain pain~~ my stomach n gastric...haiz...but....hapi hapi hapi~~ my godson..hehee...

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4:37 AM
Monday, January 23, 2006

wowo!~~~~ im sooo hapi..man utd won..hahaha..finally beat liverpool le..heheee...im reali soo hapi...after beatin chelsea...tis is another match i reali hope man u will win...they didnt let mi down..hahaa..first one to msg is diana le..tat super anti man u fan...lol~~~ i nvr dislike any team but i duno y some pple reali hate man u soo much leh...haiz...but nvm..diff pple got diff view..i accept tat..i juz continue support man u can le..hehee...

aniwae...i reali had a veri gd sat...lol...went out wif meng j sen colin syi srong...we guys all wear long sleeve shirt...ahaha...duno why...suddenli all wan dress up 4 dinner mah..hehee...i wore my new black long sleeve shirt..soooo coooolll...so yandao..hahaa...mi went to marina sq wif sen 1st...walk ard lo...act cool mah we both..lol~~~ went to a shop called fourskin...hehee..shall not disclose much...later invite trouble...hahahaa...

oh ya..saw duck n liang..hahaa..e 2 bad eggs..lol~~ always bully jason...hahaa..duck hair colour keep changing one sia...so nice..haha...slow almost jump when she saw mi..cos 1st time she see my hair..hahaa..of cos she say i look nice lo..lol~~ well...duck n liang no join us lo...hahaa..mi n e rest went to eat jap food at Waruka....so nice e place...we 7pax..so gif us one small room...sooo sweeettt...we ordered reali lots of food leh...aiyoo...soooo full..tink sen got tk pics...hahaa..we spend ard $200 ther wor..scary....hehee...

walk ard...then find one place 4 drink...meng treat..hahaa...cos we treat him eat mah...reali hapi to see colin back at our grp...soo long nvr see him le...tis grp of poly frens..i reali like..heee...chat till 11pm+ then we all go amk...play billard..hahaa..all wear shirt play...so cooolll...oh ya..janice came over to find us...aiyo....short hair janice! i haf nvr see her hair so short b4 wor...reali stunning...ahahaa...but she still look quite nice..hehee...

hmmm..went 4 a bite after billard...1st time sit janice car wor...so long i noe her but 1st time sit..hahaa...lucky she not those lousy female drivers...hahaa...no offence..at least sit her car i still feel safe..lol~~~ rch home alreadi near 3am+ sia...so tired...but reali so hapi..e whole grp poly frens gathering...so nice...shall make more of tis in future...all muz dress up one..haha...shall post some pics at friendster..hahaa...

im getting more n more yandao le~~ lol~~~

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2:25 AM
Friday, January 20, 2006

was watchin show juz nw..about hospital..doctors tryin to save lifes...a reali touching show i feel...e cast actuli went to kenya to shoot e drama series...reali sad to see pple suffering at other parts of e world while im enjoyin e peaceful life here...make mi realise...tat actuli we are v.fortunate but yet we are taking things 4 granted...haiz...reali motivate mi 2 be a better person...new dae molo...will do sumtin meaningful de...smilez....

been joggin few daes..reali wan build up my stamina le...hope can reali get better soon...e main thing is to get thinner b4 CNY..hehee...keepin my fingers crossed~~ CNY rchin le...sooo hapi..can get hongbao le...yeah...went to bugis wif meng to shop 2dae...went sim lim 1st...meng buy hardware thingy...then to pray...ya..finali i got chance to go pray...new yr le mah..muz pray pray...then went parco to shop...j oso join us...i bought a new shirt...hahaaa...black long sleeve...sooo nice...kind of ex i tink but duno y still buy..lol~~ but haven get anitin 4 new yr yet leh..hahaha...nvm la...got alot clothes liao le~~

hmm....meng bdae on wed...went to amk to mit him...j n sen too...mit to eat...then played pool...hahaa..as usual..i rule e table..at least 10straight wins..lol~~ but eventually lose to sen...duno y leh..always lose to sen sumhow de...gaming oso will lose him at times...tink he always got tat extra motivation when playin against mi..haha..nice..i like tat...hmmm...saw tis gal...she reali familiar worr...j n mi keep lookin at her..lol~~ then rem shes e levi sales gal tat i tease b4 at bugis...tink she oso rem us..cos she looked at our table afew times too..lol~~~ sg reali small..go wher oso can see familiar faces wor..lol~~

ooh ya..played one round billard wif meng n j after tat...im 1st n meng 2nd...pooor jason..lose again...he paid 4 tat billard set..lol~~ he set e gamble himself de..i nvr force him nor..lol~~ but aniwae..all these are juz 4 fun...meng bdae mah..come out gather gather lo...pei him play..hehee..im juz glad tat mi j n meng are maintaining e frenship well...last time during poly oso we 3guys always 2gether de...hope to keep tis poly grp intact :)

Hope 2 slim down more~~ heeeeeEEEeee

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4:28 AM
Tuesday, January 17, 2006

pheww...went out to play on sat again..heee...went orchard 1st..shop shop shop...aiyyooo..been tryin 2 get some new clothes...but nutin reali catch my attention leh..sianz...tink will shop ard more see got nice clothes not..hehee...

went dinner at amk s11...soo long nvr eat at ther le...reali miz e western food wor...hehee...went to play billard at e usual place..wif j n meng...suddenli mi reali gian billard again...lol~~ j lo...make mi so gian...hahaa...i won e 1st round...but lost e nex 2...sad...but j lose all la..hahaa..ke lian...zhao & frens there too..they played pool...felt bad tat i nvr join them...but i reali more keen in playin billard mah..billard more exciting..pool no kick 2 mi..hehee...

meng drove us 2 jln kayu after tat...oni mi j n meng...e others all went hm le...sooo long nvr go out 2gether le we 3...ate drink n chat lo..we sit ther reali reali reali long wor...tink ard 3hrs leh...tok bout lots of stuff...hahaa..so hapi...guys nite...guys tok..haha...so mani things hapen...heng at least tis grp of poly frens still not reali affected...hope no more internal conflicts animore again...prayz~~~

rch hm ard 3am..then zz le...hmmmm...went to help out at shop on sun lo...play enuff le..so muz help help...been spending more time at macph these daes...cos i dun reali like gg pasir ris nowadays...everyone there like no mood..always like to backstab n complain tis n tat..i dun like..i prefer gg macph..more peaceful wor...

stupid xian..argue wif mi on sun...reali pissed...haiz...duno y these daes mum n xian reali pissed mi off alot...reali make mi dun feel like tokin 2 them lo...haiz...well...hope things are better soon...hmmm...saw ting 2dae..came to noe bout her prob...make mi tink of e past sia..reali e same..e things she faced now n wat i faced in poly...reali e same wor...gave her some advice...hope can help her abit...

"may fate br us 2gether soon.........dated back to july 24 2002"

im still abit affected...haiz....

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4:43 AM
Saturday, January 14, 2006

haiz..at times i wonder whether its my temper coming back or my frens are juz simply too ridiculous at times...kind of fedup wif afew of mi frens tis daes...theres afew things i dun reali like but i dun get it why they still do tat to irritate mi...hope for better time to come...

aniwae..i did went amk fr macpherson...mit j..he called mi n tok 2 mi...ok..i understand le so i went down..i told him bout wat hapen too..nvm..im fine liao tat time...so we mit up to play billard..hehee..i won both sets...1st set i win 43-0! lol~~ i trashed him leh...so hapi...haha..last time mi j n meng used to play every fri de...now left mi n j oni wor..but still we 2 guys reali enjoy juz now wor..hehee...n e amazing thing is tat j actuli take my car to pasir ris..i fetch my parents n go back home..lol~~ free ride 4 him...chat wif him quite alot juz nw...nw hes so busy wif work..hardly haf time to chat wif him...one fren settled...now e next...

browsing thru my pics in my com juz nw...aiyoo..reali alot pics sia..so messy...actuli tat dae qiang they all miz alot pics..lol~~ tats lucky 4 mi...heee...sent j afew pics tooo...guess he oso cant rem when n wher we took de...lol~~ lookin at those pics reali make mi more relax..hahaa...some of them reali cute..esp my 21st bdae pics...i took wif soo mani gals..lol~~~ shiok~~

hmm...i shld haf gone slp earlier juz now...bout to slp at 3am liao..then i go clear my hotmail...i hapen to read sumtin..send from someone in 2002 n 2003...well..tat person shld be easy to guess ba..ya..i didnt i got mails kept tat long...i read thru e contents...reali make mi feell sooo...argghh...pain i guesss...i can feel e pain...exactly e same pain i felt yrs ago...e few emails reali touched mi...reali make mi close to tears...haiz..e emails remind mi of e past yrs ago...at tat point of time..i reali wanted out yet she reali wanted mi back...she dun realise hw much she nid mi till i left her...and i dun realise hw much she wanted mi back till years later...fate...so cruel...well..its all over...gone..finished...i should not haf check e mails...now im in a mess...

1 of e quote fr e emails wrote :::
"The worst way to miss someone...is to be sitting right beside them...knowing that you can't have them..."

haiz..im deeply affected now..time to rest...

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4:02 AM
Friday, January 13, 2006

went ktv on wed at amk..hehee..miz singing soooo much...reali haf alot fun in kbox wif hua eunice ck n ty...jokin ard...screaming..lol~~ oh ya..mi sang jay's new song, "Shan Hu Hai", wif da hua..hahaa...hua request de...of cos sing wif her lo..lol~~~ maybe i sing e best among e 3guys ther..hahaha..oh mine..im reali so proud...hmm...1st time sing tat song at ktv wor...nid more prac i guess..not reali sure yet..but still can pass lo..hua say de..hahahaa...

we sang fr 2 to 7pm wor...soo long...quite cheap..15bucks each...went amk hawker to eat...ty n ck lo...insist on gg ther...qiang joined us wor...he drove ther...we sit ther 2hr sia...chat chat chat...left at 9+...qiang went to fetch gf..so nice..hahaa...n soo suai lo...rch yis..big rain...mi rch sem. shop tat time...super big rain...i juz ran lo..all e way up e slope back home...rch home sooo wettt sia...haiz...my jacket..my bag..all weeetttt...sooobbbb....

hahaa..qiang they all came mi hse ard 12am....we reali miz each other too much..lol~~ went prata shop 2 eat...mi qiang hua eunice sen n ck...all like sooo hungry...order soo much food lo...e prata uncle oso shocked...haha...but he always charge us cheap de...cos mi qiang sen always go ther...since grad fr poly wor..tats like 3yr liao wor...our fav "La Teh" place..hehee..

all came over 2 my place after tat...its reali v.long since we liddat gather wor...all squeeze into my cosy room...hehee...cool weather cos raining mah...then i on air con n fan...shiok..hehee..then tat stupid qiang...look thru my com 4 pics...wau...seriously im reali reali scare lo...cos got "mi mi" in my com mah..lol~~ heng he control himself...if nt i reali faint le..hahaa..so mani pple lookin at mi com..reali make mi sweat sia...

hua n eunice always like to update mi their stories...wif their idols de...lol...we 3 sit on my bed n chat...tok bout idols n look thru magazine...i bcum their "sisiters" le..lol~~ gossip n gossip...then e other 3guys join us..hahaa...reali fun man...see sen tok bout his anti christ thingy...then qiang tok bout ty...make fun of ck "no temper" character..hahaa...reali miz these moments...soo sweeetttt.. n hor..i noe tis grp of pals for ard 9yrs liao wor...soooo old le mi...sad...but nvm la...as long we still in contact wif each other can le...heheee...they at mi place till 5am wor...then i watch soccer till 6am then slp..man u draw again...sian nor~~

haiz...sen showed mi yingli's korea trip pics juz nw...reali envy...korea looks soo nice...haiz...im jealous...i wan go holi b4 i start studyin...but its likes soo hard...cos duno ask who to go...some no $$..some working...haiz...so sad...i reali wan go overseas~~~ sooobbbb...

i..rEaLi...rEaLi...mIzz....

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4:09 AM
Wednesday, January 11, 2006

yeahh...went see S.H.E at marina square on mon~~! hmm...mit up wif zhao 1st...go play pool...cos still earli mah..sumore j they all cant mit us so earli...so hapi...finali can play pool le...though still cant do break but at least can play le..heee...hope can play billard soon...miz playin billard...zhao's pool skills oso i teach de hor..hehee...cos dote him so much of cos sure teach him hw play lo...hahaa..

went to eat carl's jr..j chy sen all rch le...cool sia e burger...reali soo damn big wor...eat till v.full...sumore free flow drinks..heee..suit us..all big eaters~! oh ya...jayne came to mit us...aiyo...oso another long time no mit fren...hmmm...been miting alot old frens these daes...reali so hapi...starting of e yr oni get to see alot diff frens le...heeee....

aiyoo...marina sq reali full of pple sia...full of S.H.E fans...see liao wan faint sia...hahaha..ke lian de jayne..shortie cant reali see e stage...whahaha...she better dun read tis lo..heee...S.H.E came out tat time reali scary sia...alot pple scream...hahaa...got to see my fav EllA~~~ like sooo thin liao wor her...aniwae..j n chy go Q up...we went to walk ard...oh ya...then sen n jayne go "steal" sumtin 4 j lo~! hahaa...they took e signboard..wif SHE poster de..n ran off...so daring sia..lol~~ j muz be v.hapi lo...hahaa...j n chy Q 2hr+ sia...mi n e others went play pool again...of cos i win lo..lol~~~ im e pro..bleah~~

reali fun dae...enjoyed soo much..esp e playin pool tat time..all ther luffin n luffing...chy reali lame sia...he can reali make pple luff...hahaha...we play till lost track of time...then all run to mrt...hahaa..mi chy zhao n sen jumped into e train...j n jayne cant make it..lol~~ heng they still got e last train to catch...we juz one train earlier..lol~~~ nvm la..let them enjoy themselves...hahaa...rch hm reali sooo tired...aiyoo...wat a dae...reali miz tis kind of fun..heee...still like kids wor mi...heheee...play play play~~~

ReAli mIss my hp thngy~~ rEali cAnt fInD le~~~ s000bbb~~~

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5:24 AM
Tuesday, January 10, 2006

haiz...i tot i wont blow my temper so fast into e new yr...but sad to say..i alreadi did...im reali reali soooo fedup wif my mum n kor on sundae...reali reali fedup..scolded them as well...reali ridiculous lo...alreadi told them wat i wan le..but they juz dun listen...then y should i be gd 2 them..y shld i keep listening to them...keep givin in to them...arggghhh..tinkin back bout e incident reali make mi boil boil boil arh....better stop...if nt i pekcek again...

aniwae...reali tks slow 4 listening 2 mi...was reali soo fedup tat dae...so i called her...she juz listen as i keep on complaining...soo glad..i did feel better after tat...she even send mi a sms...calming mi down n ask mi drive carefully...so nice of her...reali appreciate her soo much as a fren...but i was felt rather letdown by someone else...reali disappointed wif her...dunwan comment much animore...juz soo fedup...not gonna tell her anitin again le...its useless i feel...

well...heck those unhapi issues...met up wif diana on sun at J8...oh mine...shes oso another gal whom i haven met in yrs le...super big rain tat dae wor...aiyo....aniwae...we chose to eat cartel lo...i ordered steak to eat...hmm..she treat mi wor..lol~~ i cant rem e deal but she say she owe mi...welll...she wanna treat then i dun push le..hahahaa..had a reali long chat wif her wor..4hr i guess...heeeheeee...cos reali reali long no chat wif her le...we tok alot bout our sec sch frens...n update our life lo...found out alot new stuffs fr her wor...hehee...some reali shocking news wor...but cant blog out la..haha...later she scold mi....

im juz glad tat shes doin well tis few yrs...i noe tis reali been tough 4 her...given e problems tat she faced...oh ya...i rem shes a liverpool fan...fan of jamie rednapp...she tinks hes sooo handsome...n she super anti man u lo...n extremely dislike beckham~~! sooobbbb..i still rem she always curse man u n beckham de...always like to go against mi de...sadd...but im reali shocked tat she actuli noe alot of teams n players wor...n she always wake up to watch liverpool match..even at 3am wor...wau...reali power...even mi cant wake to watch all man u match leh...wat a rare gal football fan... hahaha..i reali enjoy tokin to her~~ :)

send her home after tat...aiyoo..i can stilll rem e route 2 her old house...i sent her home once b4..tink 5yrs ago ba...hahaa..soo long ago le...but tat time tk bus..now diff le..nw is drive le...she move further in liao wor...reali sooo far sia...aiyoo..so hard to go...but no worriess...i wont get lost when i drive de..hehee...

hmmm...had another busy dae 2dae..as in...monday 8th Jan...shall continue blogging molo...nw 5am+ le..reali v.tired liao...wan orh orh le...heeee...oh ya...i update my friendster le...got time go see see hor..heehee...wan an~~~

l0st 0ne of my hp thngy...feLt rEali sAd & d0Wn..fEEl liKe cRyInG~~ :.(

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3:42 AM
Sunday, January 08, 2006

yeah...sooo hapi 2dae...went shoppin wif j n sen...mi n sen woke late...3pm then rch town..haha..poor j wait us soo long...ate KFC...i oni eat cheese fries..like so fattening sia..lol~~ but reali miz all tis junk food leh...cos v.long no eat le...after op i tio ban mah~~~ sad....played wif j hp at KFC...took afew stupid pics but haven get fr him yet..hahaa...molo muz rem to tk le...

walk ard suntec...sen say wan buy clothes..in e end he bought nutin fr ther...then to marina sq...hmmm..j wan buy shirt 4 office wear...make mi oso gian leh..lol~~ duno y...after attendin jidan dinner..i oso feel like wearin shirt again wor...i even see leather shoe nor..aiyo...maybe time to scrap my boi boi image..haha...hmmm...we 3 were in G2000...then bout to go off...gooosshhh...we saw shurong..haha...wif a guy wor...she so paiseh..lol~~~ then we "scold" her lo...so bo xin..nvr find us de..heee....

2dae marina sq reali alot nice lookin gals leh...saw reali afew 2dae..i stil rem e choco gal..sen n j like so stun..lol...mi more attracted to PureMilk de..heeeheee...well..j finali got his shirt..quite cheap wor...i saw jacket again...reali wan buy :( sooooo tempted......how how how...

aniwae...we walk over to esplandae...see rose~~~ our main purpose..hahaha...countdown tat dae nvr get to see her...2dae go over see see lo....reali hapi..took pic wif rose..lol~~~ oni mi haf...cos she lose bet mah...she say if i can rch her shop b4 her then she will tk pic wif mi...heeee...soooo swwweeeeettttt e pic...muz post it soon...hehee...i so yandao...whahahaa...cant rem when e last time i tk pic wif her le..hahaa..sen arh..owe u "$300!!!" lol~~~

went in rose shop to haf some snacks...sen order cake..mi n j haf drinks...aiyooo...actuli reali ex leh e thingy ther but one yr once lo..hahaha...reali miz rose sia...miz chatting wif her...used to be my listening ear...hahaa...stupid sen...almost make mi sweat sia...anihw say things...aiyoo..lol~~~

oohh..rong join us too...she feel bad after we say her..hehee...hmmm...actuli e place reali nice 4 relaxing...sit ther 2hr i tink....reali nice place...tink would go again...but not soo soon ba i guess..heheehe..oh ya...mi bought a box of cookies...wanna gif mi mum 4 CNY..hehee...see i sooo gd son...i rem tat time rose gif mi cookies then my mum reali like...so i promise rose to buy 1more 4 mi mum de...but i paid le haven tk yet...i gg shop..dunwan let mum noe i buy le mah...take fr rose nex time...heeheee...gif mi mum surprise~~~

went shop after tat...wau..mrt reali reali long lo...sianz...biz quite ok...would be better if no rain lo...aiyoo..2dae tiger gal not bad wor..i see her afew times b4 le..hahaa...left ard 1am...soo tired le..out whole dae...hmmm...another full dae molo...gg slp liao le...zzzzZZzzzzz....

heeheee....im so hapi wif e pic..lol~~

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3:23 PM
Friday, January 06, 2006

hmm..mit mx go cozway ydae...mi nid to check hp 4 mi dad mah...dad treats mi soo well so i help him lo...my dad wan motorola v3 wor..haha..now i tinking which operator leh..singtel m1 or starhub?? hmm..duno which is gd~~

oh ya..saw kai zhi at mrt when we gg back...aiyo...yrs since i last see her leh...hahaa..still e same small frame...but she holding quite a gd job nw leh..pay quite gd..envy sia..i still in army...sianz...aniwae...heard she got lots prob to handle..aiyo..kelian...muz contact her more in future le...oh ya..she still rem ah sen...lol~~~ sen arh..gd hor her...lol~~

mit up wif ling mei 4 supper...sen slpin so no join us..i oso duno qiang dd wat..call mi le then nvr cum...aniwae...miz mei mei sooo much...since sept nvr see her le...so mani things to chat wif her...she arh..single le..kelian...so mani yrs 2gether wor...aiyoo...aniwae she dd fine now can le...

aiyo..as usual..see mi ask mi bout yp..faint...duno muz update hw mani pple sia...aiyo...all ask mi bout her...n afew more...standard de..like rose arh..then mx arh...cos all noe each other since sec sch mah...n hor..pple oso like to ask mi if i gt gf le mah...aiyooo...like no gf cannot sia...hahaa...we still tok bout marriage thingy wor..cos i tell her tat dae go wedding dinner mah...i noe she always TAT special date de...but doubt in time le..lol~~ she ask mi get married faster..aiyo...hard lo..hahaa..i cant even settled down yet...lol~~

oh ya..ling reali gifted in playin music...she say wanna teach mi sing n play keyboard wor...went home after tat to take car mah..then she goes to my room to play keyboard n show mi abit...envy arh mi...reali envy...she soo hardworkin..practise n practise..mi too lazy le...lol~~ ling say wan train mi n ask mi join superstars tis yr!! she say i got looks wor..lol~~~ maybe juz make mi feel hapi oni..haha..but my vocals cant make it sia...she use keyboard test mi..reali fail badly arh...duno if she reali will train mi not..hahaa...hope so...i wan learn keyboard again...dun wan lose to ling..lol~~~ xiao mei u watch out..i go prac now le~~~~ :P

Hope t0 master keyboard n singing~~~

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3:37 AM
Thursday, January 05, 2006

cooollll..few daes into e new yr alreadi...been occupied wif my physio lo...reali gettin better le my hand...molo still haf wor...muz train hard..i reali reali wan play soccer again...hmmm..went macp on tue noon..1st time noon time go wor...go ther see see e crowd...hmm..like not v.gd durin e dae wor...muz tink of some ways le...

went nyp after tat..mit sen n qiang go back ther eat...mi so long nvr go back ther eat le...went FJ to mit them..shirley oso ther...hahaa..tink 1yr+ nvr see her le..and my oni 2nd time seeing her wor...aniwae..e FJ reali bring mi alot memories wor...it used to be my hangout place for 3yrs in sch wor...n oso remind mi of yp sia...aiyo..faint...yp involved in mi life too much le...heng now no contact her...gd 4 mi n her i tink...at least things wont be messy ba...i miz nyp sooo much..miz sch daes...miz alot alot pple whom used to be part of mi life 4 tat 3yrs wor...haiz..all tis bcum memories liao le...cant repeat de...saddd....

well...went my xiao mei..jidan..wedding dinner 2dae...at orchid country club...hmm..wore formal 2dae wor...hahaa...1st time in mani mani yrs wor...last time poly times haf to wear cos presentation...reali smart man i feel..heee...long sleeve shirt..pants..shoes...cool~~ spent alot time findin tis whole set leh...hahaa...rch ther ard 7.30pm..alot pple ther le wor...mi n j go counter reg lo...we gif her hongbao..hehee...oh ya..yuanda oso ther..he sat wif us at e same table...saw afew frens too..and mich lo..see mi ask mi bout yp le...aiyo...

went up to jidan rm to see her...i nvr see her since my 21st bdae leh..tats like..1yr+ liao lo..haha..she reali grow up le wor...gettin more n more pretty le...she looks reali reali nice in her gown..faint...hahaa...aniwae..e food is alrite...but i reali like e atmosphere wor..e lightings..e deco...alot pretty babes too..hahaa..all dressed up so nicely...i reali enjoyed e whole dinner...reali sweeeetttt...ard 11pm end...as usual e couple n family will be at e door shaking hands mah...mi jumped Q..straight to e last..cos jidan ther mah..heee...shook hand wif her...but she dun let go..hhhaaha..then she "cried" out say "no hug?!" ahaha...she like wan cry sia..still e same old kid i noe since poly..lol~~ mi gave her a reali tight hug...aiyo...my xiao mei grow up le..nw bcum pple's wife le wor...so hapi 4 her leh..hee..oh ya..she gg honeymoon molo le...hope she enjoy herself..all e best to her lo... :)

arrr...reali sooo sweeeetttt when i tink of e dinner juz nw...duno whens mine~~~ lol...well...duno my blog got reader these daes not..cos i stop bloggin 4 a mth le mah...hmmm..now will start to blog again de...oh no~~ near 4am le..better slp..molo got appt...nite to all~~~ zzzzZZZZzzzzz..

-Best Wishes To Jidan Xiao Mei-...Kor still wan u de..Dun Wori..hehe...

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2:05 AM
Tuesday, January 03, 2006

ohhh man~~ im back to my bloggin le..heee...got pple complain bout my lack of bloggin wor..actuli..at times reail busy..then too tired to blog mah..hehe...will try to blog more n more de...new yr le~~~ sooo hapi...

went countdown at esplanade...b4 tat..i went macp 1st..help awhile...then ard 9pm i went marina square wif zhao...heng we found parkin space at shaw tower wor...so packed sia...oh ya..i played pool wif zhao..yeah..i won 4-3..haha..sooo hapi..finali can play pool le..will try billard soon liao..heee...miz playin billard sooo much...

zhao frens came n we walked over to esplanade...reali reali reali crowded...everywher oso pple wor...ther reali sooo hot n stuffy~~ we were like an hr earli lo..stupid zhao..kaisu...haha...but i went out to fetch jason lo..he decide to join us at e last min..haha..great...i sure he wont regret de...hahaha...then countdown begin~~~ 2oo6 le~~~ haha..we like siao pple...scream n push..j try recording e fireworks..duno ok not..i haven see e clips yet...hehee..

gg hm reali sux lo...soooooo packed..all rushed to mrt..heng i drive...but cant send all home wor..so afew tk mrt lo...but b4 tat we took pics..hehe..sooo coooll...shall paste in my blog soon...aniwae i reali like my new hairdo~~ still got lot pple haven see yet..i dunwan say hw my hair now..hehehe...hmmm..e oni sad thingy is i cant get to see rosemary..reali too crowded le wor...we try callin n callin each other on hp..but e network reali jammed...we oni manage to get thru when i rch my car...sad...nvm...will go find her again soon~~ heee...

well..reali nice countdown wor..haha..enjoyed myself~~ heng i no join meng..he went MOS n Q ard 3hr+ n nvr get in wor..aiyo....so long man..hahaa...nvm la..he still enjoy himself..tats gd~~ hmm..suddenli feel like meeting alot alot pple wor...2oo6 le..haf to start to mit up wif old frens again le...hehee...will start contacting all of them liao le...show them my yandao face..hahaa...reali miz alot pple wor...cant wait to mit up wif them soon...

aiyaaa...juz saw e pics my kor took at HK..he went HK for countdown wif his gf wor...reali sooo swwweeeettt lo...envy..i oso wan...sooobbb....hmmm...decide liao...i wan go overseas trip...ani gals who willing to go wif mi i sure make her my gal de..hahaha...make her e happiest gal tis yr...hahaha...crapz...aiya..reali wan go holi lo~~~ sianz...crrrryyyy.... :.(

well...new year new beginning new hopes new challenges...i wanna make 2oo6 a reali nice n hapi yr 4 mi, family n frens...best wishes~~ jiayou le~~ smilez...heee..my blog up n running again...juz like mi...its time 4 mi to 4get 2oo5 le...now for my future... :)

Getting better & better~~~

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6:36 PM
Saturday, December 31, 2005

phhheeeewwwww....reali soooo long no blog...been reali reali busy...actuli oso duno busy wif wat lo..hahaa..juz suddenli feel so lost...duno wat to blog oso....heee...aiyoo...time reali flies...2dae e last dae of 2005 le...hmm..hws life gonna be like in 2oo6 wor? i wait n see~~~ hmm...let mi update abit of mi life these daes lo..heee~~~

hmm..my hand reali gettin better le...as compare to e 1st mth lo...still haf to go physio for quite some time but now alot things i can do le..can do light joggin le...so hapi...i reali reali reali miz soccer alot...miz swimming...aiya..alot sports i reali miz...i wan play sports again...soobbbb.....

as 4 my family..everytin gg well lo...biz of e 2shop gettin better n better le...esp e end yr..so busy...aiyo...my parents always busyin workin at e shop lo..my kor oso...he n his gf can get married liao la..haha..tats wat i keep sayin..lol..aniwae he went overseas till 1st jan..so gd...then i muz help more at shop..aiyo...mi always haf to drive ard...so sian..sometimes reali sick of driving le wor...tired..my xiao di still e same lo..in army now...so relax...more relax than my army life leh..aiyo..haha...my di reali noe hw dress up le...after wat i taught him..heee...now noe hw style hair all tat b4 gg out le..lol~~~

friends leh...hmm..sec sch side gettin closer le..esp after jing bdae gathering...now got contact hua n eunice more le...feel tat i always left out e 2 little gals..hehee...n ck oso..sumore now ck play maple wif us...can go out n tok more le..hehe...hmm..sen qiang n de no nid say la...always ther de..lol~~ we 4 guys noe each other till rotten liao la..lol...oh ya..1more..rosemary~ though we hardly contact cos shes reali busy but shes reali special 2 mi..heee..she called mi on xams dae..oh man..reali miz her..my reali gd fren 4 so mani yrs le..heee...as 4 poly side...hmm..left mi slow j meng liang n duck oni...e others like lan janice rong colin all missing le..haiz...my poly side grp like gettin smaller wor...nvm...juz hope tis grp of frens wont lose contact can le..heeee...

move on to my god jie jie le..heee...so glad tat mi n my 1st god jie jie come into contact again after 4yrs wor...reali hapi..lost contact for 4yrs before knockin into each other at town...so hapi..now mit up more wif her le..heee..n my ah lian jie...always ther 4 mi de..heehee...she gonna gif birth le wor...so hapi...haha..my godson~~~ :X hmm...now my whole bunch of godsis..."egg" gettin married in jan le..gg her wedding dinner...hehee...then heard fr amy..e other 2godsis oso gif birth le wor...aiyo...sooo fast...i so outdated le..haha..i still rem tat 3little xiao mei i knew durin sec sch...now all grown up n got family le wor...so sweeetttt...still got my tamp mei mei...i mit her once a yr oni wor..haha..tis yr special..we met up twice..lol~~ oh ya..still got e same dae same mth same yr ling ling~~ heeheee...cant 4get her de...got tis special feelin when i tok 2 her...lol~~ cant imagine our D.O.B exactly e same..hehee...i dote her alot de..hope shes doin well.. :)

as 4 others...hmmm..did mit up wif mx daes ago..felt so bad...her bdae gift was like 2mths late..sry~~i went op mah..cant go out..heee...mx oso one nice gal..always care alot 4 mi de...xie xie ni le :) ...ohhh..xiao eve too...got into contact wif her again tis yr...she gif mi pooh bear towel as xmas gift wor..faint..hahaha...she still like small kid lo..aiyo...oh..ah ting arh..single but no available..lol~~ reserved 4 who leh? mi arh? heee...ting is e only bedok fren i got..haha..shocking leh...sg so small oni..but oni she stay bedok..lol~~ stil got sam~~~ my part time..lol...shes reali cute..still young la her..lol~~ nice 2 noe her tis yr..hehe...actuli still got 1more bear n swing de..but something reali stupid hapen lo..then i better not keep in contact wif them too much le...tink of it reali feel pissed leh...nvm...diam diam :X

To yp..i duno hw long u tk 2 realise tat e tinking of urs reali is childish lo...after soo much tat hapen..i tot u noe mi best...i tot u haf grown up le...but yyy spoil our new grown frenship?? i tot tis yr when we start contact...everytin gonna be alrite le...aniwae...when u tink thru then tell mi lo...cos i always treat u as my reali gd fren de...its up 2 u to decide e things betw us ba...tk care..

To her...i say b4 le ba...i reali duno hw to react when u contact mi...im dun even noe wat i wan or expect fr u animore...juz feel tat e trip reali wasted...my efforts too...make mi feel so tired...now i reali dun feel like dd anitin 4 u animore le...all e things i leave it 2 u le...wat u wanna do..u do ba...i duno hw things gg 2 be 4 u n mi...but i guess..its not gonna be e same ever again...

hmmm..theres sumtin tat i decided to put it blank...cos watever i nid to say..i haf said alreadi...dun feel like repeatin myself...hmm..hope i didnt miz out on anione hor..if got i sure blog again de..hehe..nw cant reali rem le..aniwae...2005 reali been a bad yr 4 mi..lost my dear cousin in march..haiz..i still miz her...i noe shes far away le..hope she can rest in peace..then i lost one gd fren cos of some reali stupid matter...n oso lost someone else...its nt my fault at all...my heart aches sooo mani times tis yr...haiz...reali hope for a better 2oo6...i wan 2 be hapi hapi hapi...hmm...wanna wish all those i noe...a veri Happy New Year...hope all of u enjoy e veri last dae of 2005...heeee...countdown begin~~~~

I wan..I wish..I crave..i hope..I pray..4 haPPiness f0r all mY fReNs..and f0r mYsElf..i rEaLLi mz my sMilez aot..i wAnnA bE rEallY hApi AgaIn...

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3:14 AM
Friday, November 25, 2005

tot ydae can slp earli..cos tis morn gt appt..but end up..again morn then slp wor..hahaa..i rem after my ydae post..i went to shop to help out..ard 12.30am then i go home..on way hm sen ask mi go out eat wor..i sure ok de mah..hehe...

i rch hm bath..then sen pick mi up n meng too..oh..shall not name e 4th person to protect e identity of tat person..hahaa..by e time we rch chomp chomp alreadi 2am liao sia..ya lo..chomp chomp again..for 2straight nites..lol~~ sen lo..wanna eat ther..but rch ther most shops close le..left 1food stall oni..mi nvr eat wor..heee..diet~~

hmm..e 4th person say i "white" le..sad...yyyy..haiz...i nvr go under e sun for a mth plus le..reali miz those "sweaty" daes...sob...i wan be darker...reali so sian lo liddat...i dunwan to be "white" de..yucks...

we sit till 3.30am sia..then send one hm 1st..then we go meng place...sit under his blk n chat..aiyo..time flies sia...reali gettin old le~~ ard 5am then leave amk...by e time i slp..alreadi 6am liao wor...aiyo...

8am wake up go physio..late again...hahaa..im nvr earli de..cos woke up late mah..then anihw eat abit then rush down to hosp le...another gym session...ko~~ so tired...sumore i lack of slp sia...driving back tat time reali soo tired...almost feel like slpin...then mi slp all e way fr 12 to 5pm then wakie wor...too tired le...same lo..after tat prepare liao go macpherson help out 1st...biz not bad 2dae...stand v.long sia...then go pasir ris...xian alone 2dae mah..cos dad n mum went temple..help xian lo...he oso overwork...

wau..im sooo tired..legs tired cos stand reali long when workin..hands oso tired cos of gym session...tink i fallin sick le..duno y wor...can feel tat i kind of not feeling well le...better go rest le..scare i fall sick....zzzzzz.........

some pple are juz so ridiculous...

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5:22 PM
Wednesday, November 23, 2005

finali e rain has stopped...but now still abit cold wor...been raining for so long sia...hmm...met up wif fong ydae at J8..haha..J8 again wor..been ther duno hw mani times for e past few daes liao sia...aniwae tink e last time i mit fong is last yr wor..so long ago sia...she la..so bo xin..heeheee..wait she scold mi again...haahaa..

went to eat yoshinoya...my bfast,lunch,dinner..hehe...nowadays i been eatin 3meals 2gether wor..hahaa..oni sometimes go out 4 supper...aiyo...i noe no gd arh slow..dun nag mi again le hor..hehee..will try 2 change de la..hehe...hmm...fong like grow up le...bcum more mature liao..haha..not "xiao mei mei" liao le...hmm...after chattin wif her then realise so much happen to mi n her in tis few mths when we no contact...both "get hurt" then mit up again..hahaa..we even joke tat if tat time we 2 get 2gether then we wont be unhapi le..lol~~ so cute...

fong say she leaving nex yr feb to aust to study...for 2years wor..so long..sad...less one fren to play wif le...but nvm...she n mi fix a "future deal" liao le..haha...promise her to keep tis low de..lol~~ but tink i sure say out de..whaha..not big mouth la mi..juz 4 laughter so sure share wif mi close pals de..haha...shop ard after tat...we bought e keychain each..a pair de..haha..as a token for our "future deal"..lol~~ so fun...aiya..tink i gonna miz tis playmate le..sobbb...heee....

fong went hm after tat...mi went macpherson help lo..then 9pm+ i went off to mit meng..we went chomp chomp for drink...long time no mit meng to chat too..haha..tio scolding sia..regarding e movie...felt bad..but reali not mi organise de wor..i was at ktv then mah..hee..paiseh arh meng...sen n j join us after tat...j nvr drink b4 tat "super big" sugar cane drink sia..mean last time we no jio him go chomp chomp de..aiyo...haha..sen arh..nvr go pick sumone to join us..so bad..we all support u de hor.. :X

then all decide to play mahjong at mi place after tat..pack fried dumplings to eat..shiok sia...oh ya...finali win le mi..haha..after 2losses finali win le..lol~~ now can use 2hand to play mj liao hor...my rite hand reali getting better le...went to eat prata after mj..near 4am liao sia...sumore rain so big..so cold sia...promise slow wont go into e rain..whaha..but still kena abit oni la.. :P hmm...watch 1st half of man u match at e prata place...then all rush home after tat..sen send meng home..tks sen..hehee...rch home bath wor..sooooo bloody cold man...aiyo...shiver~~ hmm..then watch e rest of man u match...so letdown..draw...haiz...maybe they will be out of champions league wor...sad...my dad oso watch..he anti man u de...he sure hapi de lo~~ then mi online awhile..6am+ then slp..lol~~ so "earli"..

oh ya..wanna make clear sumtin...tat dae i say sam wear shorts 4 ktv..not those super duper v.short shorts hor..juz normal shorts hor...lol~~ cos slow call n "complain" mah..lol..mi not pervert wor..hahaa...hope my blog nvr mislead anitin leh..lol~~ so funny..slow msg mi "hubby" song...tis goes back so long ago when i start callin myself beckham..n she start callin herself victoria..hahaa..at times she msg mi "hubby" song..so cute..but hor..so mani yrs..oni she declare tat "relationship"..i haf nvr msg her "wife" wor..but we still play tis 4 so long liao sia..lol~~ meng they all oso noe..haha..so complicated hor...tat time got lan lan more worse..hahaa..but more fun tat time..cos i bcum so "wanted"..lol~~ aiya..soooo miz those daes wor...sobb...our grp shrinking le wor...reali dunwan tis 2 hapen 2 e rest of us wor...pray~~

oh ya..1more thingy..hapi bdae to shawn n florence..hehee..shawn used to be my gaymate during sec 1 n 2..lol~~ still in contact wif him at times...now he high flyer in army n studies sia..power...hmm..florence is my kor reali gd fren...tat dae i go pass her sumtin cos mi kor not free mah...wow..she bcum so pretty liao sia..hehee...my kor reali noe some babes lo..cos some i noe..some they noe mi..but too bad..none i reali got contact wif de..kor la..got gf liao but still dun intro mi some...so waste..lol~~ jokin oni..wait xian noe he scold mi arh..heeheee...aiyo...5+ le..haf to prepare n go work le...aiyo..stil so cold...nvm..can wear jacket again..more handsome..haaha..

enjoying my life now..though busy but still fun~~

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4:16 AM
Tuesday, November 22, 2005

ohoh..was outside for 14hrs 2dae wor..heee...woke up at 8am to go physio...raining so heavy tis morn..n im late again..haha..rain mah..haf to drive reali slow...sumore still went top up petrol n get sumtin 4 ah lian jie fr yis..was late for 20mins wor..heeee...physio 2dae reali tough..now change to gym session liao..use all those high tech machine to strengthen my muscle..some reali so hard to do sia..reali feel e strain...so tired..

ard 10.30am end..went to fetch ah lian jie..then went to hougang to pick up sam, e gal ah lian jie intro mi last time...we gg ktv mah then since stil earli so i go pick them up lo..hehe..1st time reali see sam's face..still can passed..haha..sumore she so young oni wor..haha..wat am i tokin sia..lol~~ ah lian sure kill mi if she reads tis..hahaa..went toa payoh eat 1st then go sing at kbox...

was amazed tat sam can sing so mani canto songs..envy..juz like my kor..can sing so mani canto songs..mi hor..oni noe one full twins canto song..sad..muz learn more le..haha..sing e twins song wif sam lo..heng nvr sing badly..wait throw face..haha..was reali cold in ther..sam wearin shorts so i offer her my jacket 2 wear lo...aiyo...she wear 2,3 layers liao still say cold..mi wear oni one tshirt..was like shivering liao lo...heng she still got heart..see mi so kelian..gif mi back my jacket cos she noe bout my shoulder too...my shoulder "take" too much cold air no gd mah..haha..then hor..my jacket full of her perfume smell sia..aiyo..cannot tahan...long time nvr offer pple my jacket le..abit not used to having other pple perfume on my jacket..heee...

we sing fr 12+ to 5pm wor...so long...hahaha...went over 2 ah lian jie's shop..see her son..so cute..hehe..then chat wif her husband awhile lo...then i gg bishan 4 movie..ah lian n sam wanna go ther shop so i send them over lo...on e way ther liang called..sam ans 4 mi sia..haha..cos mi hp in my bag behind mah..then she say she wan ans 4 mi...heng its liang..if gal i sure die..lol~~ tat stupid liang..as usual so jian..noe gt gals in my car then start to ask so mani qns..haha..i noe i rch bishan sure kena fr him de..sam not paiseh sia..entertain 4 mi wor..lol~~ so cute..

was late for 30mins..haha..liang see mi scold mi liao..n keep askin bout who in my car..lol~~ as usual de la him...i heck him..pull him 2 eat...cos i reali hungry le..hahaa..i treat liang eat sia..duno leh..feel tat he treat mi alot times liao mah..j n duck came later...eat liao faster chiong to movie..starting le..hahaha..we watchin Harry Pot. hahaa..one of mi fav movie..hehe..2hr+ sia..sit till ass pain leh..haha...then send them to mrt then i go hm le..so tired...

bath liao..watch tv awhile..went out again at 12am..heee..hungry wor..ate at 6pm mah..mit sen 4 supper at yis..chat wif him awhile too...then 1+ go home..wanna play game..haha..now 4am le..mean we gaming till now lo..lol~~ wau..4more hr i awake for 24hr wif 3hr of slp oni leh..reali can bcum god liao..hahaha...oh ya hor..i can wear tshirt now liao! haha..so hapi..mean i can go out soon liao le...hmmm...hao tired le wor mi..wanna go rest le..hope can get 2 slp..another busy dae molo..haf to work le...zzzzz....

someone still owe mi sumtin...

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5:18 PM
Sunday, November 20, 2005

seriously i reali miz poly daes..met up wif s.yi s.rong j meng sen on fri at J8 4 dinner..i didnt tok much tat dae..kind of feelin tired after working...but hor one grp liddat sit down chat n eat n tk pics..reali make mi miz poly daes soo much..though study wasnt tat easy but reali enjoy my daes at NYP..esp e last yr during our final year proj...so fun back then..tat time even bigger grp..lan lan, colin, janice n some others all gone le..now oni left we 6 oni wor..though reali alot things hapen among us but at least we stil gather 2gether..so glad i still haf tis poly grp of frens..hope we still remain close e nex few yrs.. :)

drove down to bugis ydae noon..sen lo..wan buy present..walk ard..shop..so long nvr shoppin le..heee..actuli i saw afew things tat i feel like buyin but duno leh..no devil ard mi..heee...nex time ba...ate yoshinoya 4 dinner..so nice..then we go pa game..haahaaa..go bugis sure haf to go arcade de..i lost track of time..dad call mi so mani times sia..ask mi y i haven go shop..haha..then i rush down lo..do agree tat when i drive alone..i do speed abit de...tink slow will say mi again..hahaa..

mi help out at macpherson till 10pm then go pasir ris...rush down watch man u match lo..man u won again ydae..yeah~~ so hapi..but chelsea oso win..sianz...duno hw man u can catch them lo..drink wine wif goddad again..tis time drink white wine..heee...cos tat dae his bdae nvr drink wif him mah..drink quite alot wor...feel so tired after tat...ard 2am then go off..had a litte "race" wif kor..i drive dad's Lexus..he drive e red one..hahaa..we cut here n there...i wasnt gg tat fast but tink xian reali fast lo..heeee...but i still win..lol~~ not recommended hor my frens..haha..i juz playin wif my kor oni..i noe he wan to be fast de..so i play wif him awhile..hehee..well e most amazing thing is tat...mi n him went supper 2gether at prata shop...in my 22yrs..i dun tink i ever go supper wif him wor..haahaaa..juz e 2 of us...cos i always go out wif zhao de..till sian liao..haha..but xian i nvr wor..haha..cant imgaine i actuli eat supper wif him...gd mah..though our characters reali alot diff..but at e end of e dae..mi n him still brothers leh....heheee...

confused...duno wat i wan actuli...

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5:38 AM
Friday, November 18, 2005

another tiring dae...went physio in e morn..woke at 7am..3hr of slp again..raining so heavily tis morn...went eat wif dad n mum at 8am..late again 4 appt wor..heee...hmm..after physio i still haf appt wif my Dr...he say can dun use sling le..n can try wear tshirt le...phew..my shoulder reali better as compare to 1mth ago..reali feel like cryin at times wor when i tink back~~ so tough back then..now at least most of e things i can do le..jia you ah song! hee...took mrt back to sem alone wor..haha..so rare...but i enjoy e ride..cos long time tk mrt once..feelin reali diff..hahaa..

rch hm slp till 3pm then wake..then hor..mi travel ard sg again wor..1st i went to payar lebar..nid to go ther 2 collect sumtin lo..my cousin fetch mi ther..1st time i step into e SG Post Head Branch leh..e buildin juz nex 2 e mrt..reali nice inside wor..haha..didnt noe inside so special de..duno hw say wor..muz go see then noe lo..haha..tink of gg ther again 2 see e 3rd floor..duno wats ther wor..like cafe leh~~ hahaha...reali make myself so "kampong"..like alot places nvr been to liddat..heehehee..to tink tat i stay in sg..hahaha...

then my cousin went to fetch his sis near macpherson..then to amk..then back to sem..my cousin place..cos he wanna pass mi his car..hes gg china for 10daes n wan mi look after his car 4 him lo..whaha..of cos can man..auto car i can drive mah..free use of car for 10daes leh..i more than hapi to haf e car lo..hahaha...

i went back macpherson area 2 help out lo...nutin much oso..eat lo..haha..mi 8.30pm then eat e nex meal...bout 12hrs later after my bfast wor..lol~~ liddat go on hor..my "gd fren" gastric cuming back 2 visit mi soon..heee...ok la..i noe not gd 4 my body..but at time reali not rite lo my eating timing..duno leh..hope to change it..will try de~

oh ya..jason back in sg le! haha..he go aust for a mth..so fast sia..went supper wif him n sen juz now..chat for 2hr i tink..haha..j like so outcast now liao..duno wat mi n sen tokin bout..haha..tink he nid some time to adjust himself ba..lol~~

i noe u tryin..but i still waitin 4 u to reply sumtin...u noe de...i mention it e previous time...one chance one ans..can or cant..juz say out...i dun like 2 play a waiting game...btw..tks 4 e gift...

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3:14 AM
Thursday, November 17, 2005

was having a gd dae till ard 12am ba..bout to go hm tat time..haiz..argue wif mum again in car..mi driving..sendin her home cos dad stay at shop longer...mum reali stubborn at times..no matter hw much i say she oso liddat..complain non stop...mi argue wif her 4 an hr plus lo..argh..reali spoil my mood 2dae..so pissed....haiz...y always liddat....

well..on a brighter side..went JB 2dae..heee...duno if i can go in not cos of my MC status but goddad bdae mah..go in eat...aniwae goddad ard sure can go in de la..haha..mi zhao xian parents n goddad go 2gether lo...go "sentosa" eat "Ba Tuk Teh"..hee..ate at e same place tat mi j n jane went e previous time..heng i nvr 4get e road...hehee..went city square to shop after eating...i intro xian e place after i been ther e 1st time..now intro zhao..hehee..mi went ard shopping wif zhao lo..as usual de..of we 2 more close mah..haha..n i intro him all e fashion..

zhao reali like to copy mi..nw he wan to wear accessories le..haahaa..so i br him into a shop 2 look 4 necklaces lo..he lookin ard..mi nutin to do so i oso join in nor..found sumtin like those i wore on my wrist..was tryin e thingy n e only staff of e shop came over 2 serve mi..i start to kajiao her lo..haha..in end i bought one..n she gave mi another for free..lol~~ suppose to be two for RM5 de..in e end i got 2 for RM3...heee...so sweet e gal...still remind mi dun tell anione but im like bloggin out now lo..haha..i still say if e wristband snapped then i go back find her..she stil say ok n wil do 4 mi 4 free sia..hahaa...gd customer service wor..or maybe i too charming le..haha..here i go again..reali mah..she nvr attend 2 zhao..oni mi...haha..zhao oso stunned..then say i cheapo sia..tk free gift nt paiseh..faint..e gal gif mi de lo..zhao juz jealous la..haha..

zhao bought afew stuffs sia..i rem he bought necklaces, shorts, jeans and belt leh...mum pay all sia..so gd..mi oni buy one shorts n a bag..heee..reali like e bag wor..mum oso say nice..haha..too bad we nid to go off soon..cos all haf to go shop mah...so we left ard 3pm+

stupid jam..we rch hm ard 5..rest awhile n go out le..mi went out wif dad..e others go pasir ris lo...mi left aslp in car wor..too tired le..slp 3hr oni...went macpherson lo...raining dae...so not tat crowded lo...sit ther watch tv most of e time...ohh..got a call from...hmmm...dunwan la...dun wanna tok bout her...ehh...went pasir ris at 9+..goddad bdae leh..go pei him eat..n oso cut cake..then i reali too tired le...11pm+ i left wif mum le...then e stupid thingy happen...haiz...spoil my whole dae mood sia...nvm..its over...tink i go rest le..molo 7am nid wake..tired...zzzz...

Dun wanna see unrest betw my family..hurts...

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3:11 AM
Wednesday, November 16, 2005

phew...another busy dae wor...hmm..so hws my long blog ydae? hee..duno slow read le mah..normali she will leave hint 4 mi if she read liao de..haha...oh ya..hapi bdae 2 my goddad n chy!! heee..hope goddad like my present..im reali in a gd mood 2dae..heee..later u all will noe de lo..lol~~

went hosp 2dae at 4pm..pei my uncle go appt lo..mention b4 le..hes reali stubborn..condition gettin worse n still dunwan 2 listen..haiz..duno hw handle him wor..tink i will tell mi dad n ask him settle ba..hmm..was at e hosp 4 an hr+ leh..faint..so long...

went toa payoh after tat..to mit ah lian jie mah..heee..i 1mth+ no see her le..so go down find her since im free lo..went eat dinner wif her..n update her abit bout mi life lo..hahaa..reali miz tokin 2 her..went to her shop 2 see her 1st son lo..so cute~~ heee..ohh ya..finali get to see e gal ah lian jie always wanted to intro mi de...e gal hapen 2 be dying her hair near her shop mah..went in 2 say hi to her lo....gentleman mah...heeheeee..

well well e hapi thingy is tat..i heard fr ah lian jie later on..is tat e gal mention tat i quite nice looking n not fat at all leh..whahaa...hear liao reali make my dae leh..haha..she liddat say reali gif mi e chance to hao lian nor..haha..as usual..my style..i will fly de..heee...n hor..e gal oso say im reali a nice didi..go down juz 2 eat wif ah lian jie..haha..i leave such a gd impression in her sia..lol~~ actuli i more hapi is tat she say i thin..haha..ah lian jie oso say..reali mean i slim down le~ muz jiayou more..hope 2 rch my target weight by e end of yr...jiayou song~~

hmm..left ard 7+..dad ask mi go macpherson help out lo..not tat busy 2dae..but still haf alot other thingy to settle...drank some beer too..heee...they treat mah..ask mi drink abit..hehe..i cant tahan de lo...haha...dad 11pm+ then cum wor...so late..rch home so tired liao...but still play games wif zhao they all till now..hahaa...cont. to play mi game le~~ lalala..ehehehee...

n0t bad lookin? slim? heEEeee..im in dreamland le~~

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3:59 AM
Monday, November 14, 2005

wow...daes nvr blog le..been reali so busy..heee..suddenli reali miz bloggin..guess maybe some pple are waitin 4 mi 2 blog..hor slow? lol~~ i tink no matter wat still got u read my blog de rite? haha..i duno bout others but i noe 4 sure u support mi blog de..heee...hmm..shall update everytin bout wat mi been doin these daes 4 u nor..its gonna be v.long hor..hehee...

hmm..start from...haha..duno wher to start too..last blog on tue morn..cant rem wat i did 4 tue..can oni rem..i been rushin fr pasir ris to macpherson these few daes..esp wed n thur lo..basically i will go pasir ris 1st..then drive to macpherson 2 help out afew hrs then go back pasir ris lo..tiring man..since i on MC so i try 2 help my dad as much as i can lo..settle payment, cash all tat..n some minor thingy tat i can handle lo..hope to gain some experience n learn some new stuff lo~~ heee..

i rem thur i was at macpherson when 1 of mi meimei call mi..i noe her for 5yrs+ liao..oni mit her 4times b4..haha..tats like 1yr once..lol~~ tis heartless mei finali find mi much much more these daes le..i tink i keep scolding her in tat 1hr+ of phone conversation..haha..but did found out more bout her..afew thingy reali shock mi wor..aiyo..mi n her reali live such a different life wor...oh ya..my hp call time for last mth reads...1hr outgoing n 9hr incoming calls!..haha..heng i switch 2 incoming calls free liao..now i dun use my hp to call so much le..i bcum listening ear nw..bcum consultant le..oni listen n gif advise..haha..cos i dun reali wan to tell pple my probs liao..rather bottle them up le..i dun feel like bothering anitin else other than my shoulder..so i juz gif up whoever who dun contact mi lo..i dun care too..those pple who dun wanna contact mi reali is their own biz le..i dun wanna care bout those ridculous pple..hmm..like abit too fierce le..haha..heck care..they liddat treat mi..i oso liddat lo~~~ lalala~

oh ya..i found out tat gals always complain e same thingy wor..reali amazing..tink on wed slow call mi to "complain" sumtin..b4 tat..my mum was complaining bout sumtin as well..then slow call mi n complain almost e same thing leh..faint..whahaa..reali dun understand gals..small thingy oni oso like to gossip..to complain..to nag..lol~~ slow i dun mean anitin bad la..u noe mi de..i explain 2 u on tat dae liao..whaha..guys at times dun reali bother bout wat others say or do de lo..y make urself so unhapi or fedup by wat others do or say leh? heck care la..mi reali liddat de lo..at times i reali dun care de..whoever reali mean so much 2 u wont treat u bad de..n whoever who dun take u as sumone impt then juz dun care lo..since pple dunwan contact mi then i oso heck de lo..haha..like so fierce..well..pple can liddat treat mi..y cant i do e same wor..at times hor..pple muz seperate to go out n experience things..then they noe whos reali impt to them..n whos reali treasure them n treat them gd de..be it frens or luv ones..at times..we haf to let go de..might be gd 4 both parties lo..go tink tink bout tis hor..heee...

went physio on fri morn..slp oni 3hr then..so tired..hmm..saw 1 of zhao frens at hosp..he oso go physio wor..he got into a bike accident..8mths liao wor..still can hardly walk..he showed mi his rite hand..his whole hand like bone sia..no "fresh" de..he say nerves all damaged..now he oni move his rite shoulder n cant feel anitin at all...i reali feel hurt to see him liddat wor..young man...mi gif him some encouragement lo..tink nw he reali nid pple to support him lo..reali hope he can get better soon...jiayou~~~

sumtin hapen after tat reali make mi so pissed off..mi wanna go UOB Card Center to check my mini card lo..tink got prob mah..its located at novena tower B lvl 5..after im done..i went to e lift..mum is wif mi mah..then hapen tat e whole building havin fire alarm drill test..e lift all auto locked..faint..then theres 1 delivery man wif mi..tat guy then went back into e office n 1 of e staff noe him n let him in to use e stairs..then e staff tells mi tat e stairs oni 4 commerical use n i haf to wait 4 e lift..then he shuts e door..mi n mum wait lo..then 15min later..another staff came n ask if she can help..i explain e situation to her n she opens e SAME door 4 mi to use e SAME staircase tat e delivery man used juz nw..argh..im reali so damned pissed lo...y can e staff stop mi fr using e stairs? wat if e drill takes an hr? wat if theres real fire? or wat if my mum goes alone e nex time n she dun understand eng? mean shes gonna wait there? i complain to e security mgmt whos carrying out e drill test...i still so pissed when i bloggin out now..i reali like UOB bank..but i reali reali disappointed by tis kind of service n attitude..i tink i wanna complain to UOB 2molo..n oso call TODAY newspaper hotline liao..reali pissed off..wanna view out my thoughts le..i not gonna let tis hapen to other pple lo..reali unreasonable...argh...

okok..cool down..hmm..went cozway point after tat..wanna get present for mi goddad cos his bdae in a few daes time mah..1st time take mrt after my op wor..haha..n oso v.long nvr go cozway pt le..mi n sen always go ther de..duno do wat oso..haha..e place still e same..so crowded..mi bought a black windbreaker 4 goddad lo..after tat i went home le..reali tired..felt aslp once i hit my bed..mum woke mi up at 3pm cos gt phone call..my camp called de wor..my mdm say she cuming to visit mi wif my officers wor..wau..heng i at home leh..faint..hmm..they brought mi alot snacks wor..so paiseh...aiyo...

oh ya..i didnt go shop tat fri..cos mi gastric pain mah..reali pain till wanna scream le arh..heng now better le..went sem. shop tat evening to buy dinner lo..went cd shop 1st..to return $$ mah..haha..2wks liao haven return her...chat wif her 4 an hr lo...she like so hapi 2 see mi sia..cos she reali v.bored..not mani pple mah..she suai arh..post to an outlet where e crowd so little de..she still e same nor..see me wan shake mi hand..tis time still wan mi squeeze her hand lo..mi rite hand not much strength de lo..aiyo..she say testing my hand..faint...haha..shes reali cute..then she start to "examine" my hair..she wan to intro mi wat hair style lo..cos my hair gettin long liao..haha..reali like little kid..well..at least she brighten up my dae..cos i reali in so pekcek mood cos of mi gastric lo..reali killing mi tat dae arh...

phew..tiring fri..sat oso e same lo..went pasir ris 1st at ard 4pm..to help pack 250packs of food leh..aiyo..then went over to macpherson wif dad during evening..help out till 9+ then go back pasir ris again..pasir ris like having war sia..so mani pple...sumore now we open 24hrs le..my uncle works till morn lo..hard on him sia...mi busy till 12.30am arh..then eat sumtin..tio nag lo..as usual..but reali busy wor mi..oh..watch eng match after tat..eng won! haha..reali hapi..too bad beckham nvr score arh...mi 3am then go home leh..mean i out 4 ard 12hrs sia..faint...

2dae sun oso wor..my cousin fetch mi down 2dae..went marine parade 1st cos he wanna settle sumtin..we were near parkway parade..1 of sg reali big shoppin centre but i haven been ther b4..sad..i reali wan to go in walk walk de..muz find time to go..i dun care..haha..rch shop ard 7pm..then mi straight away drive to macpherson..i go along wor..sad...then help out n settle things till 9pm then rush back to pasir ris..work again...till 12am+ then stop..faint..reali tired sia..i reali busy wif work these daes lo..tats y no time to contact my frens...tink nex week i will take a break n go out relax le..heee...hope i can~~

hmm..sumone comment mi bout mi wearin shirt 2dae wor..say i look smart n i shld button up all my buttons lo..haha..cos when i wear shirt hor..basically i oni buttoned up 2 buttons oni..looks more cool mah..but oso like looks more "bad"..heee...make mi rem last time..whenever i wear shirt n go out wif lan lan..she sees mi..she sure cum up 2 mi n buttoned up my buttons de..haha..she dun like mi to unbutton de..lol~~ but i will keep unbuttoning..n she keep buttoning back..so funny..n at times she reali will scold de arh..haha..scary..lol~~ so sweeettt tat time..hee..

oh ya..i agree on wat sen blog wor..i read e news too..i oso say b4..i blog wat i wan..wat i like..i dun care wat others tink of my blog..im stating out my point of view..my feelings..my thoughts n my life mah..y others haf to comment leh...now blogging news is so hot now lo..newspaper everydae haf de..sg pple reali nutin to do arh..everytin wanna comment de..reali sux lo..blog oni wat..not illegal mah...so stupid...

wau i took 1hr+ to blog tis leh..haha..near 4am le..hmm..i tink i would go play game after tis..cos i doubt i can slp wor..cos i still v.awake leh..duno y...reali losing alot slp le..well well..oh..nvr see zhao tis wkend wor..too busy le..tink he got prob leh..im wori bout him..tink i haf to tok 2 him soon le ba..hope hes ok now..haha..i still dote my di alot de...heee...aiyo..i spend 2hr to blog tis..guess takes oni 5min to finish reading..reali like reality...muz works so hard for mani yrs juz for tat few mins of glory..life..so tough..haha...aiyo..i sound so mature le..lol~~ clap clap..my game load le..gg gaming liao..heee...

some decisions alreadi made..left afew more..

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5:41 AM
Tuesday, November 08, 2005

hmm..tink for 3days in a row..im slpin at 6am+ wor..duno wat haf i been doin leh..duno y slp so "earli"..went out 4 drink juz now wif sen..we chat for 4hr leh~! hahaa..so long...so long nvr tok 2 him..duno wat we 2 busy doin as well..aniwae..we touch on alot stuff juz nw..e past, present, future...hmm...so much had hapen le wor..grow up le...sen arh..u "owe" mi a gf hor..haha..i will rem de..lol~~ juz discover actuli i still tat bit of "charm"..heee...cos most of my prob cum fr gals gals gals...hahaha..headache..tats y im still single..tink singlehood suit mi better wor~~ heee...

ohya..ydae went tamp. mall...been yrs since i last been there le..e shoppin mall didnt change much wor...i rem i used to go ther wif yp n sen durin poly daes...go ther shop n pa game..n at times go ther wait 4 yp 2 finish her floorball training...aiyo...so long ago sia...didnt noe i so hardworkin then..go tamp juz 2 wait 4 yp 2 finish her training..then br her go eat n send her hm..lol~~ tats soo "history" le..haha..

aniwae..stupid liang n duck so late...mi, sen n meng wait an hr leh..liang bdae mah..he treat us eat "Pariss"..its like an international buffet lo..haahaa..liang clever liao..treat buffet cheaper..haha..we gif him a "Guess" watch..nice wor..i oso like tat watch..hmm..e food is okiez oni wor..nt tat reali nice taste...normal lo...i ate some seafood..heee...actuli cant de..but i cant tk e temptation..lol~~ not gd arh..but of cos i didnt tell mi mum i took some..lol~~ sure tio nag de..heee...drove 2 macpherson after tat wif parents..go ther check check then rush home watch man u match!!~~

miz e 1st 5min late..sianz..aniwae..some pple juz dun understand my passion 4 soccer..my passion for man u...im been playin soccer since pri sch..been supportin man u as earli as 1992~~ tats like earn 14yrs liao lo...so long..soccer like floods in my blood de lo...then my mum always make mi miz my soccer match cos of delay in e shop...duno wat she dd..nutin much oso dun wan go home...if not she will nag say late liao muz slp..or tv volume too high will disturb neighbour lo..faint..our hse so isolated..disturb who sia...cant take it...reali pissed at times...she juz dun understand mi~~

lucky man u win..make mi feel better abit...support them soo long..these 2yrs+ reali suffer...see my fav idol beckham left e club and oso see man u played so bad..win nutin...haiz..reali veri sad...now at least they beat chelsea...sumtin 2 cheer about for so long...hope they cont. their gd performance...will support them all e way de...once again i wan say..i reali luv soccer alot..im gonna play soccer again once my hand recover..and i will support man u all e way de...no one stop mi fr playin or watchin de..if those who cant understand my passion 4 soccer pls go far away fr mi..i simply go crazy over soccer..oh ya..yp..if u hapen 2 be reading tis..last time when i haf u..i did sacrific watchin man u match 4 u lo..if u did realise..u probably e oni one tat i almost stop watchin man u match for hor..im not scoldin u la..haha..juz wanna tell u tat u reali an impt person of my life b4 ..till now still is if u still realise :) ..aniwae i still treasure u as a fren lo..up 2 u to decide e rest le..wonder when we will start tokin again..aniwae..take care hor u..i heard tat u nt feelin well..

which do i reali wan...frens or strangers??..hard to decide..

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6:29 AM
Sunday, November 06, 2005

yeah yeah~! i drove 2dae...hahahaa...so hapi..i reali reali miz driving...hmm...follow dad to 1 of e shop at macpherson..then i ask him if i can drive..n he allow lo..he say drive auto car sure no prob de...use 1hand lo..rite hand still can grab e below part of e steering wheel mah..haha...so after tat..i drove fr macpherson to pasir ris lo..hee...

rch shop ard 8..wasnt too busy then..maybe dinner crowd over le...oh ya..e "tiger" gal 2dae damn pretty sia..droools~~..even my goddad say she looks great..haha..didnt get a chance to tok to her..cos i in rush to go out..cos mi frens ask mi go find them..cos they last nite at sg le..then hapen tat mi dad wanna go back macpherson 2 take sumtin..so i drove again..haha..mum nag at 1st but i still go lo...dad drove 2 e place he wanted then i drove to town..dad taught mi hw go to town fr macpherson..i learnt some new roads again..haha..travel to new places again tis time..nw i noe e shortcut fr macpherson to town le...oni tk 15min wor..hee...

went esplanade 2 find them...park my car at Pan Pacific Hotel then walk over lo..by pass marina sq..aiyo..change again wor e place..more shops opened le..n e renovation oso done le..muz go ther walk walk again soon le..hee..hmm..rch esplanade..1st thing is..to find rosemary..haha..go ther muz find her de..sumore her shop is at e entrance...

rose so shocked 2 see mi..sumore i alone...she slim down le..nw reali nice figure liao..haha..told her bout my op..she like so stunned..she ask if i got nutin to tok to her le..cos everytime we like chat bout e same topic..sad...mi n her like becuming more n more distance liao wor..i rem we used to tok so much to each other de...hmm..tink muz contact her more le~~

met my frens outside esplanade..nice scenery wor..i luv gg esplanade cos e place reali v.nice n romantic..haha..sat down at a cafe 4 drink n chat wif them lo...they ask 4 my full name..haha..reali funny..cos most of them oni noe i call "ah song"..hee...oh ya..then they comment tat i look v.nice when i wear shirt..cos i cant wear tshirt mah..so everytime go out sure wear shirt de..sumore 2dae i wore a blue "ah beng" shirt..haha..yp n ah lian jie say i wear shirt look like "bad" boi de..aniwae im reali so hapi..cos they say mi thin le..then say mi gettin more yandao...aiyo..lol~~ liddat go on i will fly de..haha..had a reali nice chat wif them..tok bout alot of things wor..even my own "private" life..aiyo..all wan mi 2 settle down de...sianz...as if i dunwan..i juz cant lo..duno y..heee...

i left an hr later..cos nid 2 fetch mi dad..hmm..my frens leaving molo le..hope they enjoy themselves in sg...i promise them nex time they cum i sure drive them ard de..heee..so glad..get to see them..and oso make new frens as well..heee..i juz luv e feeling of having pple cumin 2 visit sg...sg reali nice place..i enjoy showing pple ard sg de..heee...oh ya..i saw 1 of mi kor fren when im on way to get car...last time always go clubbing wif him de...he ask mi go zouk...sad..i cant go club yet..soon ba..dec~ heeee...tats wat i told him...i oso miz clubbing wor....sad~

blast music in car when gg 2 pick dad...so shiok e feeling..then speed abit..hahaa..as usual..i always do tat when alone driving de...reali reali miz driving soo much...now aiming to drive tat manual car le~~ heee...rch shop ard 12am wor..so late le..then discover tat after i left..alot pple wor..soo busy..haha..so paiseh..i left at e wrong timing...aniwae..so rare my frens cum sg wor..go find them awhile ok de mah..haha...wau...now 6am le..so fast...played dota juz nw..godlike! hahaa..miz tat feeling..nw i play online game again liao..so hapi...heee...

long post wor...duno leh..juz feel like sayin out...cos i wanna keep reminding myself to work hard..cos..hmm...had a reali heart to heart chat wif my dad in his car 2dae...consult him bout my future plans like study, work etc...he explain 2 mi alot of things...fr wat dad says..reali can feel tat he experience sooo much le...wat he said 2 mi reali make sense...esp e working part...he say in any workin line..theres pple who do well...theres pple who fail..its up 2 tat person if he/she wanna put in effort to do e job or not...oni those who keep tryin n tryin will make it in life...ya..guess im still abit lazy...guess my dad wan mi to help him in his another workplace..he also tok bout our family..his job..relatives..soo much...so rare tat he speak so much...my dad reali amazing i feel..even e roads in sg..he like noe every place...most of e roads he taught mi de...dad make mi realise alot of things after tis talk..reali wan my dad 2 enjoy life in future...i reali haf to work hard le..song ar song...jiayou hor...for my parents..wo yao work hard le~~~

aiyo..raining again..its been raining at 5, 6am in e morn these daes...cos normali i haven slp yet..reali v.cold wor...liddat later morn zhao no nid go play bball le..haha..soo cold...hope all my frens had covered themselves real tight now..hee...hmm...i better try 2 slp le..another busy dae 2molo....zzzzz...

dad reali great...my true idol...smilez...

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12:47 AM
Saturday, November 05, 2005

i reali can b god liao le...slp oni 1hr then go physio 2dae...im soo tired when i rch hosp..late again...die arh..tink 1more time late again, they will scold mi le..cos gt red marks on my appt card...felt abit pain after physio but at least can stretch more le...rch hm at 10am+ n straight away hit 4 my bed...zzzzz...

woke at 2pm...gg out..heee..so hapi...1st time gg out on my own after op...gg orchard to mit some overseas frens..heee...so rare they cum sg...feel tat i too long nvr tk mrt liao...miz mrt ride...im like so hapi 2 go out again...haha...went taka 2 find my 2 frens...chat awhile then br them ard lo...tis oni my 2nd time miting them...heng gt things to tok..to joke..hehee..nice~~ oh ya..1st thing they say is i thin le~!! hahaha..so hapi 2 hear tis wor...e previous time i mit them was like 6mths ago...so hapi..say i thin le..lol~~ they ask mi dun thin liao..i dunwan..i wan thin sumore..hahaha..these daes alot pple say i thin..so hapi..hope its real..heeeEEeee..

show them ard taka wisma n far east..haha...my fav...then br them 2 chinatown..faint...nt i suggest de wor...they wanna go ther mit pple then wan mi br them go lo...normally i oni go chinatown once a yr..n tats during Chi. New Yr lo..1st time mi tk train to chinatown mrt...so paiseh..they 1st time..i oso 1st time..heee..kind of "lost" at e mrt station..duno which exit to go to..cos i oni noe e road outside..nt in e mrt station mah..haha...

hmm..i reali reali nvr expect chinatown 2 be so crowded during normal days wor..i oni go during CNY mah..haha..e shops..e stalls..all haf wor...change soo much...sumore we went to a newly setup hawker at e middle of e street...reali nice..sumore got performance 2dae...i saw Mark Lee..haha..hmm..then sit n chat wif them while waitin 4 their fren nor...im reali hapi 2 see them...reali enjoyed myself 2dae..heee...too bad nvr tk pics wif them...hope another time got chance...i felt abit bad cos my hand liddat cant drive...if nt can bring them ard at nite..they like not much to do at nite leh..hmm..hope nex time they cum..they still rem mi n find mi then i drive them ard..heheee...

went shop after tat...reali feelin tired le..sumore i haven eat anitin since 8am...was reali sooo hungry...rch shop at 9pm+ then eat my lunch lo....then fell aslp awhile on e table..then fell aslp in e car again..1st time i reali feel so tired..4hr of slp plus one whole dae of walking..reali taking toll on my body..die le..tink now gastric pain le...can feel it...tink later no nid slp liao...pray...hope not gastric pain...save mi pls....

lack of slp plus gastric pain..reali KO le~~

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2:25 AM
Friday, November 04, 2005

juz finishin watchin tv..im addicted to 1 of e jap show by hideaki...hope i spell correctly wor...hmm...hes reali handsome~~...no harm lookin at guys rite..heee...after beckham n brad pitt..guess hes e other guy whom i regard as handsome ba...oh..still got one more..tats mi!..myself!..lol~~

went shop 2dae....took e bbq section as well...guess im ready to tk over tat place liao..cos e usual worker gg 2 another of dad workplace to help out liao mah...2dae reali busy wor...mayb cos of holi lo...at least im doin sumtin...hmmm..drink beer 4 e 1st time in a month..mum let mi drink one glass de...then god dad open red wine ask mi drink wif him lo...tink i drink most of tat bottle lo..goddad like drink abit oni...maybe i too long nvr drink liao...tats y head abit heavy le...

hmm..ting call mi ydae wor...finali she g0t heart 2 call mi le..heee...shes so busy wif her new job...aniwae im still glad to hear fr her...1st thing she ask mi is bout e bear liao...haha..still wif mi lo...beside my bed...sweat...like spotcheck sia..haha...

so tired...slept at 7am in e morn wor...haiz..watch man u match la..haiz...lose yet again...i reali dun dare to see sun match when man u vs chelsea...i scare man u tio thrashed arh...reali v.disappointed by man u standards these daes...duno wat hapen 2 them...sianz...im tired le..molo 7am haf to wake...hope i can wake up...tink i go try slp le~~

about to say out le...but i pulled out at e last moment again...wats wrong wif mi...

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6:14 AM
Wednesday, November 02, 2005

nw alreadi 6am+ le wor...raining real heavily outside..reali v.cold wor...sumore i haven off my aircon..b4 i slp wil off de..my usual practice..heee...but hor..stil cant get to slp leh...hmmm....wat haf i been doin tis few daes? reali wonder...i oso not v.clear wat haf i been doin wor...oh ya...gt an sms fr nadine at 3am juz nw...im so shocked...nvr contact her so long she stil rem mi..haha...shes reali one cute gal..n reali sweet lookin...hehe...guess oni j noe bout her...j oso say she reali v.cute..i rem we nickname her "dinedine"...haha...wait 4 j 2 cum back...muz share tis wif him...heee...

ydae i didnt go shop..as in mon lo...went collect jay new album...n oso wan to pack some food back..reali hungry le...duno y i 4got to br $$ wif mi..faint...heng she workin 2dae...she lend mi some $$ cos she noe i lazy 2 go hm take...if go hm sure mean i rather go hungry...heee...get to eat BK again...no other food tat i can eat liao leh...sianzzz...nvm la...gt food 2 eat mean im blessed le...aiyo...sound so holy...heeeee....oh...finali i watch finish "Mr Fighting"...im reali crazy bout yanyan..shes sooo cute...haha...actuli i learn sumtin fr e show wor...shall say more bout tat nex time ba...lazy nw...heeee....

hmmm...2dae..as in tue..went shop...so busy lo...i take e bbq section 2dae...set fire wor mi...haha...didnt noe im gd in tat...i try e satay n otak tat i bbq myself...nt bad...haha...e standard at least still can gif customers eat de...lol...had a chat wif kor gf...she wan mi 2 settle down wor...as in get a gf lo..haha..then i say im waitin 4 her 2 intro 2 mi n she say ok wor..lol...hope she reali mean it..will ask her more 2molo..haha...better try 2 slp if nt sure tio nag de..zzzzz~~

sumtin in mi...reali nid to say out..doubt i can keep it longer..

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6:54 AM
Monday, October 31, 2005

oh mine...nw near 7am le n im still awake...hmmm...qiang they all came over 4 mahjong juz nw mah...sad...i lose again...duno y leh..lose twice in a row le...tink 1hand play nt gd arh...haiz...aniwae...went eat prata again...till 4am+...then mi cant get 2 slp so i online play till nw lo...still cant get 2 slp leh...sianzzzz....

so hapi~~..cos 1st time i get 2 see my godmother 2dae..as in sun evening...she came over to eat at our place mah...heee...she looks sooo young~~ veri friendly...i was like so shy when goddad intro mi 2her...1st time see her mah...duno wat 2 say too..haha...hope i left a gd impression in her...heeee...ohh...goddad n godmum bdae cumin le...duno wat 2 get 4 them leh...goddad wan mi go dinner wif him so i tink i reali haf 2 get present 4 them liao wor...wonder~~

these daes like lost contact wif e outside world...been doin my own stuff lo..kind of miz those "shoppin" daes le...hmmm...tink soon i can go out liao...esp tis week is holidae week wor...cant wait to go out again...heeheee...

Should i or should i n0t?...

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3:27 AM
Friday, October 28, 2005

went physio tis morn...ohh..."tks 4 ur morn call"...appreciate tat...i n0t tat cold blooded...aniwae...physio 2dae was reali painful though i did manage to stretch my shoulder more...i tink i reali nid alot of exercise b4 i can actuli raise my hand...haiz...seem to be a real tough road ahead 4 mi...nid more encouragment n determination 2 do so...

mit up wif slow at bis J8 after my appt...my mum oso wif mi but she walk ard her own..im lookin 4 sumtin but didnt manage 2 get any...sad...so long nvr go out walkwalk le..liang n duck ask mi go suntec...i reali wanted to but its reali impossible 2 go out 2 far places nw...

ate lunch at swenson wif slow...mi can oni order "fish" 2 eat...so sad...but hor...slow say mi thin le..so hapi...duno whether real nt but still feel hapi...heeee...hmm...2weeks+ no mit slow le...she update mi afew things...we tok bout lanlan again..suddenli lanlan bcum hot topic again...hmm..im still v.lost bout wat 2 do betw mi n lanlan..oh ya..my mum joined us halfway thru...ordered curry chicken 4 her...my mum like so enjoyed her food cos she wont go into tis type of place 2 eat de mah...haha...her gd son intro her tat main course de~~ hehee...nex time br her 2 try other type of food...

left ard 1pm..slow gg 4 her appt...hope shes okiez nw...well slow...anitin muz ask mi hor..im an expert in tat area...lol~~~ hope others nvr mizunderstood...haha..aniwae u guaiguai rest hor...rem 2 contact mi over e wkend hor...heee...so glad tat mi n slow can be so gd frens over e yrs...dun wori...i wont 4get u de hor...hugz...

went out wif dad n mum at 4pm...dad wanna go to some place to see a chi. doc intro by frens...his knee reali gt prob mah...hmmm...1st time i travel 2 some unknown place in sg...tink ard tiong bahru area ba...learn some new roads...sg so small yet still so mani places i didnt even step foot b4...aniwae e chi. doc oso noe foot massage...he saw my legs n ask mi lie down...i toooo scared lo..tot he wanna do massage 4 mi..tink i would scream de arh...heng he oni wan see see lo...he say i abit flat foot leh...i didnt noe tis in my 22yrs wor..zhao oso leh cos he currently gg hosp 4 checkup on his leg as well..i did learnt some amazing facts lo..haha...aniwae i saw h0w they do rubbing 4 back n foot massage 4 mi dad..so pain lo~~ i dun dare to try arh..heee...i timid...

rch shop ard 8pm..hmm..was having fun...till e thunderstorm wor...reali so scary...alot lightning n thunder...rain reali v.big...alot area flooded near e shop...lucky kitchen wasnt flooded cos they keep sweeping mah..1st time see e whole shop & fishing area so full of water..everywher flooded wor...i was like so cold lo...n cos of tis i g0t into an "argument" wif sumone...i reali wasnt too pleased bout tat msg lo...i tk soft dun tk hard de lo...i say b4 le mah...haiz...

Losing sleep again...im goin mad if tis continue...

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2:08 AM
Wednesday, October 26, 2005

hmm..1st time in 2weeks+ tat i went out alone 2dae wor..though to sem. shop centre oni...still on my own..heee...cos baiscally everywher i go these daes...ther wil be pple pei mi go lo..i like so "protected"...haiz...actuli i wan my freedom more~~

i didnt go shop 2dae mah...then mum no cook...reali hungry so haf 2 go out buy food lo..lucky e rain stop le..if nt tink i reali dun eat le...hmm...went cd shop 1st lo...zhao lo...call mi so mani times 2 make pre-order 4 jay new album lo...cos pre-order gt free big poster mah..mafan...tell him my fren workin at cd shop he dun believe...he say muz get e poster...aiyo...

heng my fren workin 2dae...cos i cant write anitin mah..she fill in e forms n settle everytin 4 mi lo..but hor e 1st thing she sees mi when i rch is to request to shake my hand...faint...she rem i go op..she juz wan see how my hand liao...i still haf 2 use my left hand 2 support juz 2 shake her hand..she bcum e 1st person 2 shake my rite hand after op..liddat oso hapi..aiyo..she purposeli wan disturb mi de...then she tok 2 my rite hand sia..she tells my rite hand 2 be guaiguai...i almost faint sia..she like little kid...haha...then she grab my hand n like start "playin" lo..n even massage 4 mi...she like so hapi when she sees my face so scared...i feel so "scare" of her lo...scare she 4get cos she nvr stop "touching" my hand lo...aiyo..so i show her my wounds then she scare liao...then i tell her more bout e op she shiver liao...hahaa..so cute...aniwae im hapi cos she did sumtin tat i wish for ydae mah :X...heeee....oh ya...she say i thin le...clap clap~~ heheheee...

oh ya..tink my hand reali thin liao wor...cos juz nw i start 2 wear back those bands tat i used to wear at my left hand...everytin like so loose le wor...no wonder pple say mi thin liao...my face oso wor...so hapi...now hope body oso thin le...heehehehe...but hor i lose e laughters in mi liao meh? duno...hope i thin n0t because my body becum weak le...cos i dunwan 2 fall sick then thin de...

Like e feeling of pple showing extra care 2 mi..esp now...niccceeeee...give mi more encouragment to take gd care of myself....hope i can slp well 2nitez...

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4:19 AM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005

hmm..recentli..afew places i went to...reali br mi alot of memories...like sundae..mum bdae...we went novena square 2 eat fish & co..tink tats my 4th time eatin there..and everytime i eat ther is free de wor...cos everytime i go ther eat is pple treat mi de..heee...i rem i went to tat place wif yp n my godsis b4 lo...so sweeetttt...those were e daes~~

got a shock call fr weixiong 2dae...i nvr hear him for 1yr+ liao wor...suddenli he call mi 2 chat...then duno y we end up tokin bout lanlan lo...1yr nvr tok 2 lanlan liao le...i oso duno hw 2 tok bout e things betw mi n her...i juz noe tat i do miz her at times lo...duno wats holdin mi back 2 contact her again leh...i oso duno wats reali gg on betw mi n her wor...suddenli we bcum liddat lo...sianz...since 1yr liao..let it be ba..

qiang, sen n de came over 4 mahjong juz nw...sian...qiang win again leh...faint...duno y lose 2 him again..haha..he like so lucky at my place...sobbb...i wan win him...muz wait til nex time liao...qiang u watch out...haha...aniwae win lose doesnt matter 2 mi so much..i enjoy those crappy moments n stupid jokes...heeeheee...so fun...

cant get 2 slp again...haiz...hand pain...sob...wan pple sayang mi...sob...

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2:58 AM
Sunday, October 23, 2005

im sooo tired...duno y wor...maybe these daes go shop move too much lo..so body feel more tired...but duno y i cant get 2 slp when i lie on my bed...fri i 6am then fell aslp...cos..nah..better dun say...aiya...i duno...suddenli feel so messy...nid afew daes to sort myself out...

hmm...2dae meng came down pasir ris 2 find mi wor...he br his gf..whaha...gonna get killed by him...heee...no la...he came wif daniel zhiwei n 1gal i duno de...im surprise tat they cum wor...i nt tat close wif e others mah...but still hapi tat they cum lo...gt pple pei mi chat chat mah...they went ktv after tat...sobbb...i wan go out too~~

2dae 1 of mi cousin go shake my shoulder sia...make mi scream arh...lucky my shoulder is alrite...1st time i almost lose my temper in mths...phew...nw my shoulder condition reali impt 2 mi..so if anione disturb mi then i reali haf to show my temper le...i cant allow anitin 2 hapen 2 my shoulder nw...dun force mi...

oh ya...wan wish my mum hapi bdae~ hapi bade mum~~ im fair de..muz wish all my family members de...2dae 23rd is my great mum's bdae mah..hehee...oh...still got...2dae oso mx n 1 of mi godsis bdae...hapi bdae 2 them too..heee...same bdae as mi mum...tats y i wont 4get de..haha...be happy hor!!~~ bdae muz be hapi de hor...cos i oso wish 2 be hapi on my bdae de...hmm...i stop here..dun spoil pple bdae mood when they hapen 2 read tis...heee...all e best to them~~ hapi bade~~

i dun believe words fr a drunk person...even its true...prove 2 mi ba...

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4:01 AM
Friday, October 21, 2005

went hosp 4 appt tis morn...i ate in e morn 2dae hor...reali scare of faintin again liao..so i eat 1st lo...heee...and i kena nag by pple cos tat dae go physio nvr eat...so 2dae muz guai guai eat bfast lo...hmmm...e doc showed mi pics of my shoulder when they did e op wor...sooo scary lo...i see liao wan vomit sia...eeeee...though is my own shoulder but i dun reali dare see wor...then e nurse remove my stitches..pain sia...cos gt skin cover le mah...faint...

like so scary hor...but i kind of used to it le...nw haf 2 concentrate on gettin strength back 4 my hand le...oh...saw my uncle at hosp after my appt..he gg 4 eye check...he hor...so stubborn de...everytime dunwan listen 2 e doc...aiyo...he always go alone 4 his appt de...then no one actuli noe wat hapen...lucky im ther 2dae 2 tok 2 e doc...aiyo...fr nw on...i will go hosp wif him 4 his appt le..if nt like no one in e family actuli noe wat hapen 2 him...liddat my uncle will start 2 listen...heeeheeeee...

went toa payoh after tat wif mum...walk ard lo...long time since i last pei my mum go shop ard le...2dae free n since i can move ard better le so go toa payoh central lo...wanted 2 find ah lian jie de but she nt at her shop...hmmm..well at least i got 2 walk walk ard...

mit lingling juz nw...mths since i last saw her wor...sen joined us too 4 drink at prata shop...hmmm...1st time mi n ling shared so much things...though she tryin 2 find out more bout my life...but i feel tat she oso wan 2 share her things wif mi too...if nt she wont ask mi out de...hope she more clear of wat 2 do nw...i dote on her alot de...dunwan see her so troubled..hope she get well soon too...jiayou my dear meimei...anitin muz find mi hor...smilez...

shld things be tis way? ..am i handling e rite way? ..is tis wat i wan?...i shldnt be feeling tis way rite? no?...i duno...prove 2 mi hao mah...

some things cant say 4get mean reali can 4get...not juz pain...even feelings too...juz like pain...feelings cum easily but so hard to go away....confused??..im beaten by tis too...

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12:25 PM
Wednesday, October 19, 2005

phew..slp oni 3hr+...reali tired...went physio juz nw at TTSH...pain...when e doc turn my hand juz nw....i almost blackout ar...felt so giddy...then he asked mi sit down n gif mi warm water...i was so scared then...tot i reali fainted...maybe bcos i nvr eat anitin at all n sumore lack of slp lo...e doc say nex time muz eat sumtin then i go physio...if nt wher gt strength 4 exercise...aiyo...

juz nw e session so tiring...awhile oni my hand no strength le..haiz..nw then i realise hw weak my hand is...cant even lift it up...haiz...duno nid hw long of training...tink i haf 2 go physio every week...i reali haf to work v.hard le...nid reali big determination & encouragment to go on...

went novena square food court wif my mum 2 eat sumtin nor...tat place br mi memories wor...i rem last time durin e last yr of poly...im havin final yr project...then i always haf 2 go hosp 4 physio...after physio...i always will mit yp 4 lunch at tat food court...so everyweek yp will cum down fr yck fr her attachment place juz 2 mit mi 4 lunch...after tat we both tk mrt back 2 yck lo..i go sch she goes back work..though tat time mi n her alreadi ended...but still v.gd frens lo...miz those daes...those are moments $$ cant buy..those are reali true feelings...rite nw mi n her like enemies lo..haiz...i nvr treat her as one..shes e one avoiding mi cos of some reali stupid reasons...duno when she will realise tat i haf been treatin her so well all e while...shes reali 1 of those few pple tat i reali wan 2 keep contact wif all my life...hope she will understand one dae...

oh ya...sen j n qiang came over 4 mahjong ydae nite...stupid qiang...win so much...heng he treat us drinks arh...haha...i muz win back nex time...oh ya..sen bought mi BK ydae~~ ..yeah...but 11pm then he rch...tat time i reali hungry till wan faint liao lo...i like..swallow e whole burger lo...haha...too hungry le...hmmm...duno 2nite my mum gt cook not wor...

im so tired nw...wan rest le...zzzzz

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7:21 PM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005

faint...juz as i say rain stop le...e rain starts to pour so heavily again...aiyoo...tink my mouth suai...whahaha...pple who kena caught in e rain pls dun blame mi hor...lol...

duno izzit i reali bring unluckyness leh...sometimes things i mention hor...e "heaven up there" sure go against mi de leh...like i say i like e air after rain stop...it starts 2 rain again leh...faint...some of my close pals oso say i br suai to their relationship sia...cos my luv life oso so damn messy...but reali liddat de meh...hahahaha...no la...i dun tink so hor~ lol...u all faster go get gfs leh...then at least oni i myself unlucky then i dun feel so bad ba...heheee...

aniwae mi will keep fighting on de...no matter hw tough things are...heeeheee...im a pest...will keep on pester n pester non stop...lol...see hw e "heaven up there" can do 2 mi...haha...aiyo...y i use pest as example for myself...lol...siao le mi 2dae...heeheeeheeeee....

hmmmm...im hungry wor...sen they all 10pm+ then cum...nw oni 7+...2dae mum go shop earli...no food 2 eat...hungry le...muz wait...like so kelian...sumore rain...i cant go out...sianz...later gastric pain then cfm will tio nagging again...ke lian....soobbb....hungry~~~~

Go~ Go~ jiayou jiayou~~

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6:47 PM

wau..juz nw reali reali scary...thunderstorm here wor...lightning everywher...thunder so loud...i faster turn off my tv & com...cos my house always blackout in tis kind of storm de...then i stay at livin rm read papers lo..

suddenli e lightning like hit my garden sia..so brighttt..thunder so loud...tat moment i reali stunned wor....dun dare move..sumore hse so big n quiet juz nw...and im alone...1st time i dun feel safe stayin at hm leh...n hor slow ar..i nt dreaming hor...juz nw here reali thunderstorm mah...no blufff....sobb...juz nw i reali so scare u still can say i dreaming...haiz...no wonder last time my mum used 2 call mi during thunderstorm...tink she alone at hm feel scare ba...aiyo...nw then i realise...stupid mi....seee...human...learn oni when he experience e bad things himself...nex time i will call my mum to ensure tat shes feeling ok de...heeee...

feelin reali refresh 2dae...1st time i slp earli leh...ydae b4 1am i fell aslp le...though 6am+ wake awhile but still get to slp again...heeee...tink ydae go shop move too much...reali tired so can fall aslp ba...haha...duno ydae wat i blog too..like rubbish sia..heee...hope nvr offend anione...but i so cute...wont offend anione de hor...hahaa...nw rain stop le..air so cooling...reali makes one's mood gd...long since i feel so relaxed le...gosh i luv tis feeling man~ heheheheehehee...

i felt "it" once again...so hapi... :x

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12:48 AM

juz rch hm...went shop...my 1st time gg out after my op wor...tink too long nvr sit car liao...felt abit dizzy when i rch pasir ris...haha...aniwae...e air like so diff wor...at least better than e air at hm lo...hmmm..walked ard e area afew times...nutin much has changed wor....

some pple ther say i thin le...some say i lost e laugther in mi le...like a diff person liao...no smiles on my face...didnt realise tat wor mi...duno...mayb mi reali tired these daes...its actuli quite tough 4 mi lo...tis recovery period...haiz...sianz...sumore yade i tink 5 or 6am liddat then fell aslp...so mayb look weak 2dae...wellwell..muz slowli recover lo....oh ya...my god dad is back fr his trip..went 2 airport 2 pick him up wif dad juz nw...hehe...wonder wat he buys 4 mi tis time round...lol~~ molo will get gifts le~~

hmm...so is everytin clear 2 u now..?? i hope it is...mayb my tone wasnt tat gd when i tok to u...but at least i said most of e things out liao...im tired...dun wish 2 tok bout all tis animore...cos everytin when we tok bout e past...i feel real sad n angry...to earn tat respect back...u reali haf to put in alot efforts..maybe double e efforts tat i haf put in...i haf state everytin nice n clear liao...if u dun get it then ask mi again lo...if u reali understand then e rest is up 2 u le...im tired...i wan go rest le....to everyone...juz for 2nite...dun disturb mi...i reali wan 2 haf a gd slp....

actions speaks louder than words...do i haf 2 keep repeating??...words dun mean anitin 2 mi...

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2:12 AM
Monday, October 17, 2005

feel tat e greatest n most impt woman in my life is....my mum....heeEEEEeeee...so glad 2 haf her in my life...was craving for "long john silver" so much since op...n she pack 4 mi tat ydae noon...haha..didnt blog out ydae cos i was like so l0st about another matter...so 2dae muz hao hao de tks my mum...heee...i duno hw she noe tat i reali wan eat LJS de but im soooo hapi tat she bought it 4 mi ydae 4 lunch...though i oni can eat fish but im still veri hapi...

feel tat at times i dun reali appreciate my mum enuff lo...i find her naggy etc etc...but cant deny e fact tat my mum is so impt 2 mi...esp after my op...she has 2 take extra care in mi...do more things 4 mi when shes alreadi so busy...every morn she would wake earli 2 do hsework...then would go pack lunch 4 her darling sons..tats mi n my kor...heee...after tat she haf 2 get ready 2 go shop...b4 gg shop she still haf 2 cook sumtin 4 mi 4 dinner...she always make sure i wont go hungry mah...then she will help mi clean my shoulder area wif a wet towel...cos some area i cant reach..sumore near my wound mah..after tat she goes shop 2 work...tats nt e end wor...when she cum home...she still haf 2 clean up n wash clothes...then nag mi awhile then go slp...by tat time alreadi 1 or 2am le~ aiyooo...

everydae i see my mum keep doin work non stop de wor...cos i at home whole dae...can reali see wat she does everydae wor...she no off daes de wor...aiyo...muz clean, cook, wash, work..at times still haf 2 face e "political" issues fr my relatives...then still haf 2 nag e 4 big guys at home...tats e 3princes(3sons) plus king(dad)...haha...aiyo...reali kelian my mum...she reali has 2 work non stop...like no nid rest de wor....so 2dae wan hao hao de tks her mah...heee...her bdae cumin le...tink of buyin sumtin 4 her...any suggestions frens??...hmmm...but i still cant go out...duno hw 2 buy leh...sian...aniwae...tks mum...hugzz...heeheeeee...

these daes i try 2 reduce my mum's work load lo...then stil haf 2 tk care of myself n my di lo..he hor..aiyo..tats y some of my own things i haf 2 put aside 1st...i hope some pple will understand...my family cum 1st...i dun feel at ease if 1 of my family member is not alrite...so i will help my family 1st b4 i start 2 bother bout my own private life...is tis clear enuff??

im e sort of guy who do things quietly...n every thing i do...i sure haf my reasons...n at times i dun bother 2 explain myself...i juz do my things quietly...even it means tat e other party will leave mi or hate mi or watever...u got 2 haf patience in mi to noe mi..to understand mi..to noe why im doin e particular things in tat way...if u haf no patience in mi..then juz leave...i wont beg anione to stay in my life...i might be doin my things quietly but doesnt mean im nt listening...n im NOT those pple who will hide or run away when theres sumtin not settled yet...clear enuff?? by sayin all tis...it shows tat some pple ard mi reali dun understand mi...n some so called "close" ones arent even tryin 2 noe mi better n even start to walk off...tats reali disappointing...

i haf my reasons for doin things...be patient...wait n ask...and i sure will explain myself after im done wif my stuffs...
see things not by using eyes but by using heart...theres always 2sides to a story...hw much u noe?? Make clear of everytin 1st b4 deciding wat 2 do...

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5:58 AM
Sunday, October 16, 2005

6am le...still cant get 2 slp...my slpin time gettin worse...i slp v.less oni but still nt tired...haiz...hmmm...troubled over sumtin...i duno wat i wan fr tat situation...been tinkin over tis few daes...cant figure out wat do i wan...tats y i been keepin quiet...is it so hard 2 understand mi? i tot e things i say out is so clear...so obvious....l0st...

once bitten twice shy...dun u get it..???

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4:05 AM
Saturday, October 15, 2005

finali~~ i get 2 breathe fresh air outside...e air reali so nice at nite...my beloved nite life~~ mum allow mi 2 go prata shop wif sen they all..so hapi...hehehe...like little boi...get 2 go out i veri veri hapi le...abit paiseh cos i wore oni a jacket..no choice...still cant reali wear tshirt mah...nvm..i tink i looked cool in tat jacket n cap juz nw...so hip hop...whahaha.....i reali reali miz my nite life...cant wait 2 go out again...sssooobbbb....

mit qiang n j 1st...ate 2 plain prata cos cant eat eggs mah...nvm...get 2 eat prata i hapi le..no complaint...heheheheee...reali nt like mi wor...i used to eat those "gd" food when i go out...nw i dun complain bout outside food le...get 2 eat outside food nw is like heaven liao wor...

mi did changed abit fr tis 1week at home wor...i hardly complain bout anitin...hardly lose my temper...i learn 2 be more independent le...cos im always alone at home after 5pm everydae...alot things i haf 2 do myself...sumore wif 1hand...hahaha...i actuli start doin some hsework wor..lol...its time 4 tis lazy boi 2 learn sumtin wor...heee...im still learning...so do haf some patience in mi hor my frens...i nid time...hehee...

oh ya...so nice of qiang n j 2 cut e prata 4 mi...hahaha...mi oni 1hand mah...no choice...tks~ no gay shiit rite qiang...hahahaha...i juz luv disturbing qiang wif abit of gayness...i noe he cant take it but i simply enjoy doin tat...lol~~~ see his expression i will reali luff de...hahaa...but dont wori...im nt gay man~ though i like 2 look at handsome idols like beckham...look oni..no harm mah...i still like gals....hahahaha...

hw well u can understand e nex sentence...?
"e best way 2 stop crying or being sad is to stop seeing e things or come in contact with e things tat will bring u sadness n tears...ignore it...close ur eyes...take a deep breath...and get on with life..."

another dae has gone....at least its peaceful.....

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1:11 AM
Friday, October 14, 2005

hmmm....tink i start 2 bcum dumber each dae leh..duno izzit bcos tat i stay hm too long liao...nvr use brain these daes...each dae like so long...everydae do e same thing...slp wake eat tv com...like nutin else...reali gettin bored liao le...i doubt i can tahan 1more week leh...im gg crazy le wor...

saw my kor playin online game tis noon..aiyo...i see e way he play...i reali feel like strangling him leh...hahaha...duno y...i feel i can play better wif tat character he usin mah...hmmm...oni then i discover tat i reali miz gaming wor...duno when then play online game again...haiz...

was chattin wif sen at msn juz nw...he say sumtin so gay lo~~! 1st time i cant tk it sia...haha...he mention sumtin like "even if i have a gf now, the gf also wont understand me as much as song does.." aiyoyoyoyoyo...er xin nor...hahah...didnt noe sen can be more gayish than mi lo..lol~~

hmmm..didnt noe my previous post affect him so much...was quite emotional tat nite so i posted 3posts...tinkin back bout tat post...ya its true tat...its reali hard 2 find sumone who understand u n accept who u are...e trust n everytin tat adds up 2gether...so nice n sweet...but when its over...things will reali changed...even feelings...i rem sumone told mi sumtin b4..reali hurts mi.."when things had gone bad...its useless to do anitin..no matter hw u try to save it..to shape it..there will always be a crack..nvr ever can be mended...nvr can it be e same ever again.." rem tis?? if u hapen 2 b reading...its been months but i still rem...words can reali be so hurtful at times...i haf grown up...certain things i alreadi got over n let go...n my temper is alreadi under control..so pls dun keep on tryin to provoke mi...im tryin my best to get on wif my life..but certain matters i can oni take it till a certain extent i guess...

im giving both of them up...future is wat i look 4ward to..nutin else....certainly not relationships...

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4:34 AM
Wednesday, October 12, 2005

near 5am le...still cant get 2 slp...

one thing i feel its unfair...is tat...pple can get 2 noe more bout mi..hw im like...my family...my frens...my life thru my blog...but i cant do tat 2 certain pple...pple wil get 2 noe more bout mi..understand mi..my tinkin...my behaviour...but i cant...

i duno e other person life...whether things said were real..duno wat hapen over ther...tat person life...character...tat person's frens..family etc...hw much i noe is e truth...hw much things i actuli noe...hw much things i was kept in e dark..i reali duno...theres no way 2 find out....are e rumours true? are e things i heard are true? hw true everytin i noe is? suddenli all seem to be so faked...cant take it...y pple juz like to disturb my life?...its been so long since i haf some peaceful daes 2 myself...let mi live my own life k.....

dun bluff mi...cant br myself 2 trust all tis again...

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3:25 AM

cant get 2 slp...hmmm...its so hard to understand a person...esp e distance apart..e time allowed..hw 2 fully noe wat kind of person he/she is...takes time..takes efforts...haf 2 reali get close...haf to reali tok...to go out...to feel...

its amazing when 2pple get 2gether...hw they can trust each other so much...things tat each does 4 e other..things tat they sacrifice 4 e other half.....w/o being force to..w/o being ask to...automatic...tis feeling...is so hard to find...swweeetttt...

but when things goes wrong..its goes terribly scary...quarrel..argument...fights...ended up in breakup...then wat is to follow?...deep hatred...constant hurts...unbearable heartache..deep lying sadness..slpless nite...free flowing tears...scars...wheres e trust? e promises? e lovely words?...4gotten n discarded to one side...hw can a beautiful story suddenli filled wif torturing moments...pain...

why...cant one realise e importance of e other half...till e other is gone...then feels e loss...regrets...n starts tryin e best to get e other back...its so hard 2 build up tat trust again..4give & 4get? so easy said than done...might take years of efforts...but if one reali wants a 2nd chance...fights 4 it...dun gif up..all is not lost yet..do sumtin to touch e other half...doesnt matter hw hard it is...hw long it takes...one dae...might be juz one dae...e other party will gif in.....afterall...human is e most unpredictable creatures in e world...can be so gd...can be so bad...heaven wont be so cruel 4ever...being good will pay off one dae...

To u...wan mi...show mi tat u treasure mi...
Luv...tats life at its best n worst...smilez n tears...

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1:18 AM

haven a week at hm...im gettin restless le...to tink tat tis playful boi haf 2 be confined at hm 4 so long...haiz...cant tk it man...i wan go out 4 fresh air....help~~~~~~~~

sen n qiang came over at 10pm ydae...they packed MAC 4 mi..fish burger meal wor~~ drools...didnt noe MAC can taste so gd...whaha..human arh...always duno hw treasure things...muz tk away fr them then they noe they missing it...haha..mi reali cant tahan liao...i wan eat some "unhealthy" food...heeee...too heathly food dun suit mi...but i stil haf 2 stop eatin alot thingy like chicken n seafood...duno when then can eat wor....sad....

woke up wif a running nose 2dae..haiz...everytime i sneeze i feel so painful...reali cant tk it..mood was so bad then..gd thing tat sen n meng came over during evening time...pei mi chat awhile lo..tis time i eat duck rice...heeee...reali miz eating gd food again wor...

hmmm...over tis few daes...alot things hapen again...had a chat wif sen...i dun get it...y pple are so fan jian...for countless of times...i started treatin e pple i dote so gd yet things end up in quarrel..in sadness..then i start to heck care...n duno 4 watever reason...pple juz start 2 cum back into my life...n im scared of it...i reali dun get it...i used 2 say alot of "white lies" n i dun get scolded...4 once i being so honest then i was scolded like shiit n even lost a gd fren...faint...y things haf 2 be tis way...

tis world is so fake...so cruel...why being a nice boi would end up gettin hurt...why by hecking care would sumhow "wake" e other party up...had enuff of tis kind of shiit happenin 2 mi n my frens...if e other party cant explain clearly 2 mi..cant gif 2 mi wat i wan...guess...i would rather gif e other party up...remain as strangers n get on wif my own life...if u wan mi 2 listen...1st thing is...tell mi clearly wat hapen 1st...i dun like to tok when i duno wat has hapen...if u are nt prepared to tell mi everytin clearly then dun contact mi...u are makin things more worse nw...i dunwan 2 bother bout tis things...dun contact mi till u are ready...

leave mi alone....sumthings can nvr be e same again....

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7:05 PM
Monday, October 10, 2005

3daes has passed..been stayin at home wor...rest rest n rest...tink at most i tahan 1week..after tat i reali feel like gg out liao wor...

went yis polyclinic tis morn 2 change dressing...hmm..saw 2cuts at e front n 1 at e back...e wound stil open wor...nid afew daes more to heal i guess...hmm..change dressing tat time so damn pain...i didnt noe haf 2 tk painkillers b4 hand...rch hm reali wan scream sia...aiyo...tk painkiller n like fainted on bed sia....slp duno hw long wor...nw stil abit painful...haiz...sian...

hmm..been eatin plain food 4 afew daes liao...getting sick of it....im wan 2 eat fries!~~~ hmmm...which gal who appears at my doorstep wif a pack of fries now, i would hug n kiss her...hahaha...or ani gal who cum n take care of mi 4 afew daes, i would marry her after i get well...lol~~~ jokin de...wait i scare too mani pple queue up after i post my blog..hahaha..later jammed e road outside my hse...heeee...

wellwell..tink sen cumin over later...would ask him pack mac 4 mi...heee..i cant tahan liao..i wan eat fast food~~ im gettin sick of e "healthy" food im eatin these daes...n i haven touch cold drinks for mani daes liao wor...miracle arh...ssoobbb...3 daes oni i cant tk it liao...my kor ask mi go JB nex week~! sobbb...i hope i can go~~

haf to bear wif it...at least for 2weeks....

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2:49 AM
Sunday, October 09, 2005

finally..my op is over...pain i stil feel...but stil can tk it...spend e whole dae at home wor..resting..

hmm..wait 2hrs ydae morn 4 my op...reali nervous ydae morn...afew pple msg mi b4 my op...i noe alot pple concern bout mi..sumone cal mi too...she wil noe who she is..i ignore her these few mths but duno y..i stil reply to her ydae...

was pushed into e operating room at 12.30pm..then they start 2 gif mi injections...1stupid trainee miz 2times b4 e doc take over e injections..aiyo..i rem those daes when im on medic course..so painful...aniwae..they ask mi 2 breathe in something fr e mask..by e 3rd breathe i ko liao sia...so fast wor...

woke up at 4pm..stil v.dizzy...tink 6pm then i more awake...cos ah lian jie cum mah...she e 1st 2 c mi wor..other than my parents...tks ah lian jie ...she brought mi tonics too wor...aiyo..so paiseh..she reali guan xin wo wor...so glad 2 haf her as my jiejie...heee..sen n qiang came nex..ah lian jie left le wor..cos she gt 2 work..my parents left too..they haf to go shop...

my 2 gd pals pei mi toktok lo..then e night shift nurse keep askin them 2 go off..haha..my nurse reali v.cute...keep callin mi Mr Phua..so paiseh...i so young leh...but she reali v.gd..keep checkin on mi...hmm..s.yi, s.rong n meng came too...gt choco 4 mi..haha..mi like little kid...hmmm...i chat wif them outside lo...cos my wards special de..oni 4beds then scare disturb others mah..oh ya..i gt a special guest ydae...yh lo!~ sen they all stunned..mi too leh..i reali didnt expect her 2 cum de leh...tks 4 cuming yh..im reali shocked tat u actuli came alone..so late sumore..ard 9pm..she chat wif mi awhile then she goes off liao...so paiseh...she cum alone liddat..aiyo...

sen told mi some shocking news leh...tink hes rite..he make e rite choice by tellin mi last cos i tink i wil reali go "confront" sumone de...hmmm..shall nt comment much...wait 4 sen to tel mi more 1st..aniwae 9pm sharp my nurse cum 2 "invite" mi back to bed..haha...she reali v.strict in her job wor...hmm...tks sen qiang meng s.yi s.rong 4 cuming..all tis yrs i haf u all..im reali glad...no matter hw..u all haf stand by mi all tis while..xie xie..will treat u all when i get e green light to go out...heeheeee....

1st ever time i overnite at hosp...nt tat scary la..haha..but i cant get to slp...too used to sleepin late liao mah...sumone pei mi thru my nite...tis paragraph is to her..i noe u been tryin ur best...ur care..ur concern..but certain things i reali still cant 4get...e pain, e disappointment..tats y at times i duno hw react to ur call or sms...but 1 thing is...i oni let certain pple pamper mi...n u are 1 of them...hope u realise tat ydae nite..i appreciate tat u cal mi at 12am+ n pei mi all e way til i fall aslp...i noe u are nt feelin well too..pls take care...i didnt say all tis out when i chat wif u...i oni dare to post it out...i duno hw things gonna be like betw u n mi in future...but i guess i haf stated 2 u clearly my stand in friendster...rem e 2 things by heart...aniwae...thanks 4 being ther when i nid sumone to tok to...

one nite so hard to pass in hosp..keep wakin..hardly slp wor...woke up at 4am+..then barely slp le...e food in hosp sux man..ahhaha..didnt eat..oni drink milo e whole dae ydae...e nurse take out e drip at 5am wor...hmm...tink i lost alot blood durin op...so muz b on drip lo..no wonder i feel so dizzy after op...aiyo...muz rest afew daes at home...1 dae gone oni wor....fight on~~!

i dun say out doesnt mean i dun care...i dun react doesnt mean i dun bother...i take soft..not hard...i mention b4...im still a kid at times...

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4:46 AM
Friday, October 07, 2005

wau..near 5am le...hmmm...gaming wif sen till now...mi n sen teamwork stil e best in gaming...pairs game we sure win one..hahaha...i noe mi n sen stil best of buddies...guess he reali got things to tell mi ba...tink he will find mi if he reali wan say out de...

hrs more to op liao wor...nervous...hmmm..sumone msg mi fr msn at 3am+ juz nw...my old fren who went KL lo..hahaa..she heng lo..mi hapen to alt tab out fr game then saw her msn msg...she at fren hse in K.L...so fast...i juz saw her on wed...then now she at KL...chat wif her awhile...heee...stil feel hapi tat mi n her bcum "chatting" frens again wor...i always wan pple as frens de...will feel sad if pple actuli "hate" or "ignore" mi...will make mi feel bad de...glad tat i "found" back one fren..after "losing" one...hahaha..chim hor...guess my close pals will understand tis de...hmmm...i nid to get some rest le...feeling reali thirsty nw wor..cant drink...sad....hope i can get to slp later wor......

stayin 1nite at hosp...who will lai pei wo leh? lol~~~ im still a kid...nid to be pampered at times...heeEEEeeee....

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12:46 AM

hmm...a reali peaceful dae...clean up my room e whole noon..dinner wif family...then stay at shop awhile..b4 miting qiang they all 4 drink...after all..i stil enjoy gg out drink wif qiang sen n j..reali wanted to drink teh ice b4 12am...cos after 12am nid to "fast" liao..cannot drink or eat le...

so fast...2mths past liao..now op dae le...molo morn 10 30am nid to rch hosp le...duno wat time will be my op...getting reali nervous liao...hows it gonna like? my life after tat? haf to use one hand after op wor..haf to stop eatin alot alot things wor...cannot go out...cannot tis n tat..faint..soobbb...my life not gonna be e same..at least for a mth...

i promise myself...tat i can play all i wan..till my op..after my op..i will fully concentrate on recovery...then i will start to learn e basics of some issues which i discuss wif qiang b4...then i will start to look for job...and then e deg. i wan to study...no more playin le..time to grow up liao...i hope i can do it...will nid encouragment at times..do hope some nice words will cum sumwher sumhow...pray...4 myself now...im getting ready....

keep fighting..keep believing...keep praying..keep hoping...at one point in life...i will get wat i wan...

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3:43 AM
Thursday, October 06, 2005

been gaming since 11pm...long time since i last game till so late le..been so busy gg out...zhao bk out 2dae mah..then ask mi pei him play game wif his fren, ala..cos ala gg army on fri le..n mi gg op le...so at least 2wks no gaming wor..wonder if i can tahan no gaming in my life....

went to mit my 1st god jie jie 2dae...heee...i noe her for 6yrs liao wor...so fast...everytime mit her..sure tink of those daes when we work 2gether...reali miz those daes wor...aniwae..every happy moments has to end sumhow...juz glad tat it hapen..heee...ate at Swensen at J8...hmm..suddenli rem..yp likes to treat mi go Swensen eat de...too bad...guess its not gonna hapen ever again....well...shall not comment much betw mi n her...hmm...chat wif my god sis for 3hrs wor...she oso hope i faster grow up..then can buy car n bring her ard..and can go overseas wif her..haha...she dote mi alot de...so i sure bring her ard to play in future de..hee...i sent her to work after eating....so long nvr drive to orchard liao wor...didnt noe noon time stil so mani cars in town de...even though e ERP so exp...aiyoo...everytin in sg is reali reali so exp lo~~ faint...

went to cut hair after tat at sem. shop center...hmmm..went to sem. cd shop to find "one old fren" 1st...chat wif her 4 an hour wor..haha..strange lo..last time we cannot chat liddat de...now like...grow up le...can start to joke bout old times..heee...i show her my hair after cutting..shes e 1st one 2 see wor...lol~~ then she start to comment on hw shld i style my hair sia...aiyo...times haf reali changed le wor....its nt liddat in e past de wor....strange~~

mi fell aslp after bathing..lucky wasnt too late 4 movie wif qiang sen n j...we watch "corpse bride"..e show i reali wanted to watch..haha...qiang duno hw appreciate it...keep complaining to mi...but i start to like those shows abit like opera de...got singing de..heee...went eat after tat at 925...aiyo..j lo..ask mi eat so much...faint...hmmm...duno y leh...suddenli nutin to tok to sen...cos i feel tat sumtin has hapen n i duno bout it...and suddenli afew frens ard mi stop contacting mi 4 some unknown reasons...well..im affected in some ways but i not interested to noe anitin more liao le...so i putting all these aside...i juz wan concentrate on my op le...1more dae.....

went to sem. shop again when on way back home...tat old fren nor...she wan see see how i style my hair..haha...so i juz go ther show face lo...hmm...she gd lo...gg K.L to play...sad...mi oso wan go play...but cant wor...muz prepare myself for op le...reali reali cuming le...gooossh...im gettin nervous...hws it gonna like? well...2molo cannot slp so late le...so 2dae muz stay up till late abit..hahaha...suddenli feel so lost at tis hr...like...hmmm....juz find tat pple in tis world are so damn fake...even e best of frens can turn on u sumhow...beginning to doubt e frens ard mi...who actuli will stay when im in nid of help...well...time will tell.....

its not like mi these daes...i start to bother..to tink..to explain..and to actually wan fight hard for my future... ....struggling to face e reality...

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3:29 AM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005

phew...juz home...feel giddy wor...drank alot at shop juz now....

hmm...went out wif ting 2dae...shop n eat..at town again..hahaha..ting bcum so mature liao wor..her dressing...aiyo..make mi feel like little boi gg out wif da jiejie wor...hmm..to tink tat she 2yrs younger than mi leh..faint..haha...tink i reali haf to grow up soon liao...

shop ard orchard again..haha..again orchard..hmm...went far east walk walk lo..n go puremilk too..haha..standard de..lol~~...went eat wif ting at paragon..gd food wor...gg op le mah..after op cant anihw eat seafood liao..so better eat sumtin nice 1st..ehehehe....oh ya..ting gif mi 1gift wor..a teddy bear wif e name "prince" on it...im real touched...she say cos i say i scare lonely then she bought a bear to pei mi thru out e nite when im in hosp...aiyo...reali nice of her...so long no one gif mi those bear bear thingy liao wor..summore she goes to find e bear wif e name "prince" on it...im reali touched...she oni noe mi for 3mths liddat n she reali noe alot bout mi...tks ting...reali reali appreciate tat...nice 2 haf u ard...smilez...

hmmm...guess who i met when im on my way to mit ting 2dae...hmmm...1yr since i last mit n tok 2 her...e sem. music center gal!~ hahaha...oni sen wil noe her....gooshh..1full yr nvr contact or see her liao leh..aiyo...then i hapen 2 c her when im on bus to sem. mrt wor...fate...reali fate..cos i chose to take e shuttle bus to sem. instead of takin bus to yis...i reali believe in fate..cos its reali so rare tat i actuli wait 4 e shuttle bus...chat wif her on e bus...haha..n hor..i found out tat she save my name as "beckham" in her hp wor..whaha..so paiseh...so rare pple actuli save my name under tat wor..lol~~ tink shes e 1st one ba...heee...n hor..she say i thin liao...n bcum more handsome liao leh..whahaha..duno real or not..but hear liao oso hapi leh..heee..hmm..nw mi n her both grow up liao wor...so tinking diff fr last time liao..so nw can chat more easily..more freely..not like last time when we both stil so childish..hahaah...im glad..tat after so long...mi n her stil can b like frens..heee.....im so hapi...

eeehhh...tink i abit drunk le..lol~~ then blog bcum so weird...cos i went to shop after miting ting mah...had a chat wif my dad bout my future plans...then i stayed behind cos "an zai'..1 of e pple workin at my shop, asked mi to stay behind to drink mah...he oso dote mi alot de...juz tat he use another way to show his concern...hahaah..by scoldin n sayin mi nor..lol~~ hahaah..cos his godsis here 2dae mah..so he ask mi stay to drink wif him n e others...aiyo...tink we order 10+ jugs of beer leh..they siao one lo...drink beer like free flow de..half mug full mug half mug full mug..aiyoyoyoyo..till an zai like abit high liao..start to say e real words liao..whahaha..so funny nor him..heee...aiyo..hope an lian jie duno tat i drink so much arh..op so near le..she gonna scold mi one nor..hahaha...aniway...once in a while drink mah mi...wau...juz realise beer so easy to get drunk de wor..haha..heng i no drunk...but tink 2 more jugs i cfm KO de..lol~~ wau..i reali damn tired le...go orh orh 1st...heee.....

fate...i always believe in fate...n i always believe tat if i keep changing to be at better person...one dae..one dae...all gd things will hapen 2 mi de...i always believe in being gd will reali touched heaven's heart one dae...n im waitin 4 tat one dae to cum...

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2:38 AM
Tuesday, October 04, 2005

well well..another fruitful dae 4 mi i guess...i been spending e last weekdaes b4 my op to e fullest wor...heeeee....

mit mx at town 2dae...went 4 show...b4 walkin ard...then dinner...reali had a nice chat wif her...she make mi realise alot things...admire her 4 being able to be so indepentent over e years..sumtin which im stil lacking...will work hard de mi...heee...mx...i noe u haf been thru so much over e yrs..tks 4 sharing ur exp wif mi...pls find mi if u nid help in future...at times..sayin things out reali help :) reali tks 4 ur concern...

nex to ah lian jie..ur e nex closest jie i haf since lanlan...u mean alot to mi..same as hw much lan means 2 mi...i nvr biased de..heee...both my reali gd jiejie...juz tat now i oni haf u wor...so i wil treasure u more de..heee...u been guiding mi these daes...tks..4 lettin mi noe which things are more impt at e moment..do tk care of ur body hor..i waitin 2 c my "godson" hor..haha...

last..oh qiang~~ my dearest fren since sec 1...yeah man..reali been thru alot shiit tis yr wif u...i guess..at e end of e dae..u probably one of those i treasure...everytime we chat..we clear alot of misunderstandings wor...i reali like tat..at least...after each 1on1 chat wif u..everytin comes to light...i didnt noe so much haf hapen behind my back..glad tat u tell mi wor...at least i noe now...sry 4 any misunderstandings betw u n mi..haha..i noe u hate tis kind of "ruo ma" shiit but i stil wan say out wor..lol~~ i reali enjoy e chat wif u juz nw...at least..other than those "stupid" issues about our frens..we stil touch on our future...i wil rem wat we mention juz now de hor...let u win mi by 9% 1st...i wil catch up wif u soon..hahaha...watch mi..when i got e motivation..reali nutin can stop mi de hor...lets fight 4 our future 2gether...see who work 4 who in future hor...hahaa...i wan u to call mi "boss" de..lol~~~ cheers to our frenship~!

hey...sry pals..i haf reali changed alot now...now..i lookin to fight 4 my future...for those frens who i actuli offer help...my help probably stop at where it is...i not gonna care 4 those stupid nonsense animore...if u nid help...feel free to cum 2 mi...be it tat im selfish or wat..i juz gonna concentrate on building my career..i haf lots to things to learn...im not gonna bother so much bout gals guys relationship or frenship wise matters...i guess i haf alreadi make things v.clear and i haf done enuff...those reali gd pals will noe mi so i nid not explain to them...as 4 those normal frens..i dun reali wan care hw u tink of mi..i will stop putting in extra efforts into pulling bonds...i haf no time...i nid to work hard fr now on..i promise my dad gd life 4 him...n im gonna prove it to him..action speaks louder than words....

after talks wif j meng mx qiang n jie...i realise tat i reali shld watch my behaviour in future...cos at times...things tat i find it alrite..might not be acceptable to pple ard me..i apologise 4 tat..i didnt mean anitin...no intention of creating troubles or any misunderstandings...i noe each of us haf their own point of view...i will look into my behaviour in future...some things i will reali tink thru 1st b4 i do...tks 4 making mi realise tis...i shld haf noe tis earlier...i nid time to learn...i will keep upgrading myself de...tks..

frens are still impt...i still treasure all those close pals i haf...

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5:31 PM
Sunday, October 02, 2005

hmm...suddenli feel like sayin out some feelings...

...welll...tis few daes...i discover tat some of my frens arent reali hapi wif their lives...some reali feeling sad, down and angry...they didnt tell mi...but i came to noe fr their expressions..their blogs..their msn nick or by news i heard fr others...hmm...i juz wonder wat can i do...they didnt find mi to confide in mi...maybe they found a listening ear elsewhere...but shld i make e 1st approach? i tink i did for some...but not 4 all....some did reply...some didnt...

tats make mi reali confused...shld i approach all those whom i noe they arent feeling alrite now? or juz keep quiet n wait 4 them 2 find mi? i duno...guess i choose e latter...tats y im keepin quiet now...if anione nid my help..im more than willing to do so...if not...i wont say anitin...i reali dunwan to do more 4 any particular person...juz in case others might get e wrong idea...or maybe some of them dun actuli nid mi..so i dun make e 1st approach ba....

recently...im findin hard to confide in some of my frens...oni certain pple i reali feel more at ease tokin to...tis is reali a serious prob leh...i not liddat in e past wor...now i find hard tokin to certain pple wor..goossh...guess i nid some "waking up calls"....

everyone is selfish....not juz u....e oni difference is how much they willing to gif others...

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3:32 PM

slept at 5am wor..so tired...hey...i wake up v.earli liao hor...till now then blog de so dun tink tat i slp till 3pm hor..hahaa...duno y explain leh...cos sumone keep sayin mi tat i slp till v.late de...hee....went dlb o ydae~! hehe..6mths since i last club at dlb o liao...not much has changed wor e place...drinks as usual...so cheap~~ haha..

ydae was retro retro all e way wor...shiok sia...hahaa...i like retro or R&B mah...heeee...rch ard 11pm...warm up 1st...chat n order jugs...e party reali start at 12am wor..lol~~ e "one 4 one drinks"...my kor fren came too mah...treat mi drink again...aiyo...so paiseh..everytime he treat mi de...drank 2 "test tubes" n 2 "sex on e pool table"...new drinks wor..nvr try b4...haha..my stomach feel hot later tis 4shots cos stomach quite empty mah...

got 2 noe afew gals thru meng's army fren...oni 1 reali catch my attention wor...nice long dyed hair...cute n nice figure~~ heee...she reali popular sia..so mani guys surround her...manage to chat wif her 4 awhile...shes like so innocent nor..haha..but i went off after tat...dunwan to fight wif those guys...all wan 2 treat her drinks n ask her to dance..like wanna act class sia..haha..i dun care cos i nt interested to continue e frenship after party...cos some frens are reali "one nite" fren oni...lol~~ after party all 4get each other one...juz make frens 4 e sake of partying oni...bleahhh....welcum to e world of clubbing..hahaa...at times things can be so fake de nor...oh ya..meng arh...not i didnt ask "yn" 4 u hor...i msg le she no reply de hor..dun say i nvr ask her 2 cum leh..haha..got mi pei u still wan mi ask gals out 4 u..so bad nor u...heeeeEEeeeee...

dance awhile oni then i shag liao..haha..old le..no stamina to play liao le..lol~~ nw grow up liao..nvr anihow drink or anihw play le...nt like last yr so wild le...more guai liao...chan le...mean i more mature le...sob..i dunwan to grow up wor..heheeee....i stil wan b boiboi.. :P ..mit up wif ah pi after tat..he at O bar..so small place..haa..went to eat wif him n dj b4 gg home nor...so tired...4am+ then rch home wor...one nice party nite... :)

hmm...to e person who ate dinner wif mi ydae evening...nice chat wif u...though we mit up once in awhile...i noe u are 1 of those who reali care 4 mi all tis while..i noe at times we didnt mit up but u still concern bout my well-being...juz wanna say tks to u...im reali glad 2 haf u ard...and hor..i told u b4 tat im reali quite useless in catching hidden hints in words tat gals said...i noe u say afew sentences but u say nutin nutin...i noe theres sumtin tat i miz out wor..lol~~ so if u reali haf things to tell mi...be it gd or bad..juz tell mi abit straight to e point hor..heee...cos at times i reali haf problem understanding gals words...heheee...dun wori..im v.open minded de...can tk gd or bad comments de..heee....hope to c u again soon...take care hor...

miz those wild partying daes...wish to haf those feelings again...smilez...

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4:33 AM
Saturday, October 01, 2005

hmm...i better stop...better stop everytin...better stop everytin b4 i lost control again...concentrating on my future is e 1st priority...well...sry frens..im not crazy...juz wanna 2 remind mi of certain stuffs...

hmm...i tink some of my frens reali noe mi well...they noe e type of gals tat i reali would consider...ya..i agree...i reali "die" at e hands of certain grp of gals..i duno hw describe but seem tat some of my reali close pals can reali tell...soo...i juz wan to remind myself to stop tinking..b4 i create more trouble 4 myself again...

seem like i haf been creating alot probs 4 myself...cos..at times i reali dun bother to explain..i juz let things get worse...hmm...im liddat..i dun care wat pple tink of mi..be it gd or bad..i juz continue to do things if i feel tat im not wrong cos now im single..i juz treat everyone e same...but i realise...tis might not be gd...though i not doin anitin wrong..nor having any intentions...but still...ther are pple out ther who actuli "bother" about my life...

pple haf diff tinking...maybe to mi,im not doin anitin wrong..but there might be pple who might feel offended cos they dun like e way im behaving...start to accept tat pple haf diff point of view...no matter hw hard i explain...wat i doin might seem wrong to them...so how...i duno...

had a chat wif meng juz nw...tink i better stop wat im doin...as in...nah..i cant blog it out...its gonna affect alot of pple...im feelin reali confused...stuck in e middle again...hmm...wat shld i do? i reali duno...but i guess i better stop doin wat im doin now...i reali haf to stop...to continue doin might not bring gd times 2 mi now...wat am i toking...shiiit...so lost...hmmm...better get some slp....molo wil b a better day....

im feeling reali uneasy now....why? it shouldnt be liddat...i shld be focusing on other things...

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5:36 PM
Friday, September 30, 2005

feel so tired..been out playin e whole week liao..hehee..2dae guai guai stay at home...hmm...nex wk fri wil b my op le..so fast...gettin real nervous liao wor...duno hws it gonna like...

aniwae..i went JB ydae..haha..mi ask 1 of e cook working at pasir ris to br mi in lo..so my mum wont nag..heee...j n jayne went in wif mi..ah sheng, e worker name, brought us to "sentosa" to eat nor...haha..jayne nor.."demand" muz go ther eat "Buk Ku Teh" lo..haha..

went to city square to shop...1st time 4 mi n j wor...haha..funny hor..i always go msia de..but hor..city square is e nearest shoppin center in JB yet my 1st time ther...heee..cos i always go KL n genting mah..aniwae..tis quite big in ther wor...alot shops...

actuli my plans is to trim my hair at REDs ther wor..but hor..too mani shops le mah...then no time trim nor..haha...nvm..nex time lo..hehee...aniwae..reali haf a fun time lo...jayne v.funny sia..haha..v.fun to play wif her..haha..mi bought a tshirt n cap...finally got e white cap i wan le...but muz tks to jayne 4 helpin mi get it at a damn cheap price..hehee...j oso bought quite afew things...haaha...he oso gian to go back ther to shop again...mayb nex wk hor j..haha..

gg home time rain wor..lucky got shelter...took bus over e cozway to kranji mrt lo...then mi n j ate at sun plaza...planned to go movie de...but in e end j go jio pple for ktv..haha...in e end oni mi j n sy...sen got held up in camp mah...mi n j nw reali can sing 2gether v.well le...can combine alot of songs..haha...j..nex time we aim 4 duet hor... :P sen drove down wif meng to mit us 4 supper...by tat time..i was like half awake liao...been slpin oni 4hr for e last 3daes liao wor...haha..1st time fell aslp in sen's car when on way back...haha...mean sen driving improve liao..i nvr feel like vomitting..haha... :X

hmmm...ydae morn i was reali affected by sumone's sms wor...eh...cannot say out leh..but did share wif a pal...chan le mi...hmmm...better concentrate on my future...stick wif my future plans 1st...muz fight off all other temptations....

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3:24 AM
Thursday, September 29, 2005

3am le wor..juz home..heee...promise to slp earli de but...hmm...nvm la..reali find e chat wif meng n j veri veri meaningful juz now...

was in camp in e morn..de n danny was ther too...chat wif danny..ok..intro bout danny..my so called mentor..haha..hes my veri veri gd fren in sec3 n 4..we 2 like gays sia..everywher muz go 2gether even toilet..haha...aniwae..reali tks 2 him..hes e one who "wakes" mi...haha..as in..i was like a nerd b4 i noe him..then he teach mi alot..like hw 2 socialise wif pple..hw to doll myself up..hw to make frens wif pple...reali glad tat he opened up my world...now i haf no probs interacting wif pple...tks danny..wont 4get those daes..hehehe...

aniwae..i went out wif him 2 play billard...cant stop tokin 2 him sia..like so long no contact him liao..haha..shiit man..i sound so gay...lol~~ aniwae..i beat him in billard..haha...im lucky..he reali gd player..tink he let mi win de..cos he noe my hand haven fully recover..hehee...

mit up wif j n meng 4 movie after my dinner...watch THE MYTH..ok la e show..ahaha..but i stil wan watch corpse bride nor...hmm...went 4 drink after tat...well..tis time reali diff..we chat about more mature issue tis time round...bout our future all tat...i reali enjoy tat...1st time no nonsense chat..hmm..got la..abit nor..whaha..but more on those mature stuffs...cos all reali grow up le..lookin 4ward to work hard in future..my plans are all in my mind liao le..hehee...

hmmm...im e type who take soft not hard...so if u wan tok 2 mi..can..tok nicely..i will listen...if u try e other approach..nah...4get it..in e past i sure scold u back..but now..i juz ignore whoever who try using e hard way to tok to mi...tis apply 2 anione...esp those 2 in friendster...and whoever wan go after ani gal tat i noe of.. pls go ahead n do so..im reali haf no intention of having a gf..cos i wan 2 concentrate building e foundation for my future le..n i find tat being attached will oni hinder mi..and i will juz ignore those pple if i find tat they are hindering mi...cos i reali wan fight hard 4 my future fr now on...im aiming for a future..my plans..my dreams...

meng..j...as 4 lanlan issue..its not face tat i wan..i told u all b4 tat i do miz her..but..i stil haf my limits..i gif in till a certain extend oni..i explain 2 u guys liao..hope u all understand...but i noe one fine dae..i will be in contact wif lan again..i got confident in her n myself....n 4 my "gd fren"...let it b tis way then..better 4 u n mi...at least we dun owe each other anitin..since u wan ur life tis way..n u r hapi wif it..im fine...but if u wan tok 2 mi..pls wait till u cool down then u msg mi...all e best 2 ur future...n 4 e other one...i haf reply ur msg...gd tat u finali understand wat i wan..e other things depend on u..not mi..i wont be doin anitin 4 u....

finally make myself v.clear...so now on...i will blog as usual...i dun care whos hapi or not wif my blog..i live my own life...im in control of my live...n i will be v.straight forward....i juz wan to concentrate on recovery after op..and then my future..my career....tks all my frens who haf been ther wif mi all along...rem u all in my heart.....

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1:55 AM
Wednesday, September 28, 2005

went out wif meng n j to bugis 2dae...saw 933 DJ Peifen doin recording wor...shes reali cute...heee....hmmm....sen n jayne joined us later...went eat n walk ard lo...bought a S&K jacket...aim v.long le...heeee...

mit up wif ah lian jie 4 dinner juz nw...hmm...everytime i feel vexed i juz go to her...suddenli my life bcum so shiity again...all started cos of tat "gd fren" of mine...oni ah lian jie will actuli hear mi out...reali appreciate tat...

qiang jio us out 4 drink juz nw...hmm..wif de n sen nor..miz those daes we hang out at prata shop..but 2dae session like so diff...duno leh...all of us like hide sumtin fr each other liddat..feel so strange...mayb too long nvr mit up le ba...

argh..im findin myself so fake...im feelin pissed but i stil can type "hehe" and "haha"..see sen face so black whole dae..then ask him he gif some excuse..sad to see my frens feelin down...then sumore dunwan say out...damn sianz...

then plus e 2persons who msg mi in friendster..reali headache...remind mi so much of wat hapen in july..n wat hapen 2weeks ago...reali stupid shiit...y u all juz cant let mi live my life peacefully...tat gd fren la..bullshit so much...stop mentioning things bout her to mi..i gif up on her le...she behaving reali like so crazy tat i did even wan to bother....n 4 e other...stop asking mi qns n start answering my qns...

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