Heavenly World...

3:15 AM
Monday, April 28, 2008

I took ard 6months to finish this post...duno y...suddenli feel like blogging this post out....i shall not disturb e flow of my post...i juz cont from where i stop...

6mths ago, i started this post....

-oct 2007-

~~~ As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility...I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me ~~~~~

Akon - Sorry, Blame It On me

I reali agree with this sentence veri veri much....hmm...so much has hapen over e yrs...for me..i felt tat somehow..i reali do get abit more mature...not much..but still enuff to make mi realise more things..heee...

was tokin to gf few days back...when she suddenli ask mi y i stop blogging..as in..i stop posting le..hmm...well...i did explain to her....maybe is part of growing up in me ba...i juz feel tat...since im attached le...alot of things have bcum so sensitive...

in e past..i used to blog almost everyday about my life..things i do..pple i met or go out with..but now...deb is always in my life...i reali cant blog out everytin about mi n her ba...i feel...so i decide to keep my blog private...and hor...last time i used to blog about gals, guys..anyone i met or i go out with...now...i feel..i cant do it ba...cos...very sensitive wor i feel..later create gossips..or misunderstanding...then its real bad..given my past reputation..i tink i better keep things private...haha...

-somewhere in nov 2007-

hmmm....another topic i wanna say is about poly clinics...i reali cant help but to complain about this...i rem my last post is about sgeans...now is about gov le...lol....i went poly clinic...cos i nid a letter from gov doc about my ankle mah...i injure 1mth ago..now still injure...nid to show to my army camp cos i miss IPPT...

i rch yis poly clinic ard 11am...super heavy rainy day..sux...ok...then wait...wait...wait...2hrs 5mins later!!! then is my turn....go into e rm..a indian doc...he looks reali reali blur...he started by anyhow twist my ankle..ask mi pain here or there....then tell mi.."u have no dislocation or fracture..cos if you have...you would have feel veri pain.."....i reali feel like killing him...even no dislocation or fracture..i still feel pain cos my ligaments hurts~~! i wonder if hes blind..cos he didnt see my ankle so damn swollen loh...and if theres reali dislocation, i wonder how i DRIVE to the polyclinic..or even how i can tahan 1mth b4 i see a doc..zzzz...

then i ask him for letter to excuse army boot...he say he not army medical officer..cannot excuse me..he can only INFORM the army that i nid to go specialist...everytin NO NO NO..reali sux...then still nvm...i see the way he types...'praying mantis' style..dotz...i wasnt reali lookin down on him...but hes a doc...shldnt he be more 'educated' in our modern computers era...i see him keep finding those LETTERing at e keyboard and keep typing wrongly...i guess..most of e time he throws everytin to his nurse to type...now tat his nurse nt ard..he has to do it himself...zzzz.....reali not a veri gd impression of him...

move on...to xray...took le...they say 2hrs later..then can tk...zzzzzzz....i go hm again..then 2hrs later return...and then they have to bandage my ankle...i duno 4 wat...cos they say...'u can take it out anitime u wish'...reali waste of resources sia..they give mi so mani things...bandage etc..everytin done..including collecting medications...near 5pm le...faint..i spend almost like half a day at e poly clinic....i wonder...if tat day, one reali sick...go poly clinic take mc..wait for 4 or 5 hrs...reali waste of time...tat ONE day mc is spend in the poly clinic itself...reali is sux...

-2008-

My 1st posting of e year....hmmm...yet again...cant help it but to ask qns on our gov again....reali feel so pissed by e escape of Mas.Selamat...i appreciate the gov for making SG so safe and strong..but its reali slap in e face for the proud proud pple we have in SG...for once...im reali luffing at the gov......this escape creates so much nonsense...waste pple efforts...pity those police and army pple...who have to 'walk' thru every forest of SG...and those polices standing at e roadside..lookin into the forest....SG police n army force...made to look like clowns loh...

worse of all...the escape...being under investigations...details will be kept away from e public...oni certain details are released....covering up....again...same move...even e investigation team is set up by the very own people who let HIM escape...faint.....no nid to say more le.........in addition...taxi fares up..bus fares up..rice price up...GST up..soon again...will hit 10%...petrol price up...and now...my beloved soccer...KO...singtel won e bid to AIR c.league matches...THANKS...now i nid to apply for singtel mio if i wan watch c.league...heck...i wont pay for it....i doubt many will do so too.....so unfair....dun care about e gov issue le...living in SG is reali so stressful...no wonder so mani pple left..to other countries......

back to my own life....updates...

hmmm...my left ankle..reali KO sia...tink ligament reali jialat...just went for my specialist appt...if u still rem my post at e top..i went poly clinic in NOV 2007...my appt is in APRIL 2008...near 5mths waiting time!!! great rite....i tink my leg gotten worse le loh....reali sux...i wonder...if other pple w broken or fracture limbs...5mths waiting time..i tink they can just CHOP off their limbs lah...if got more worse case hor...tink haven see doc alrdy die le...stupid rite...ask e pple running hosp loh....sianz....mi now waitin for MRI scan...duno when then e scanning....now i cant do anitin..no sports at all..haiz...at most oni swim.....reali sad.......

hmm...my work....gettin more busy le...now im workin at the seafood side le..i still doing events for fishing but not daily operation of e ponds le...i oso doing sales for our bun and dim sum making outlet...hehee...tryin to reali chiong in my job...

sch..as usual...so busy..taking 3 subj again...hope to grad by when of e yr....reali tiring...i have 7 assignments due in the nex 14days....more than 10 000words to write....reali KO sia...

bgr...hmm...hit e rock somehow....i duno how to say nor i reali wish to say it out here....but things still look bright...let see how things go ba....

frens..morel in contact w liang, jason and meng oni...others not reali le...juz feel tat thinking not match leh....i cannot stand pple with their stupid stubborn thinkings...once i have conflicts with them, i will start to walk away le...pointless in arguing...

listening to 933 now...haven done tat for veri long le..seldom listen to FM in my room de...heard alot of old songs...bringing me so many memories.....hmmm.....its time to slp le...gg to chiong my assignment tml le...

will try to update my blog often...but wonder...who actuli read it...haha...doesnt matter lah..lol...its a place for me to vent out my thoughts.....slp......

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2:37 AM
Wednesday, September 26, 2007

i wonder how mani of us actuli bother about small little things..

recently..Singtel has this campaign for charity..anyone just have to cut out the page from TODAY newspaper..fold it into a heart n drop it into any post box...and Singtel will donate $1 for every heart collected..

i reali wonder...how mani of us actuli bother to do so...well..i did..7 pieces of them so far...which mean im doin tat for e past one week...hmm...i not tryin to show off sumtin i did...but i juz wonder...hw mani SGeans actuli reali bother to do sumtin about tat page..

u see..TODAY is a FREE newspaper...e donation is free too as Singtel is e one paying for it...puting into e postbox is also free as well..no stamp needed...but juz how mani of us...reali do sumtin??...

e reason i say this..is tat i saw people..who basically juz skip tat page and read on e other news...and in e end...juz dump away e TODAY...haiz...this is reali so sad....everytin alreadi FOC le yet people dun care about it...WHY? bcos theres no prize money or free gifts to be won...u see how NKF get their donations thru TV shows...they juz offer lots of free gifts...and everyone start calling them...tats reali craps....it reali show e ugly side of life...so sickening...

If u are reading this...its time for u to do sumtin...well...i did my part alreadi...

Small little help goes a long long way...help others...

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11:58 PM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007

for e 1st time in so many months..i feel like making this post public...wonder hows life for most of my frens...most of whom i reali lost contacts these few months...do update me if u got time..hee..

well..wat i busy with? hmm...actuli reali nutin much...school ba....hmmm..im attached le..ya..sure alot have known tat...well..being attached now is reali reali different from e past le...last time i used to play so much..cant even tell whos reali e gal tat i wan...now i found le..and i had settled down so well until that some close frens dun actuli believe...

yes..i reali have been v.guai since e day i decide to settle down with her...gone are e days of free spending, clubbing, hanging out late..and those little bad habits like betting n swearing...change of living styles and habits..and even intake of food...if u ask me...i reali feel tat im reali enjoying this peaceful life...at least i seem to be more healthy in this sense wor...

seriously..at times..i cant believe i had settled down so well...is it juz temp? or long lasting? well..got to let time tell then...for now..i still tink shes e one for me..and im good n hapi with her..will continue this lifestyle..hehee...

as for work...hmm..workin under my dad..make mi realise so much..till e fact tat i reali feel so angry with myself so much...i feel tat im been v.lazy..n i lack alot of skills..in fact..i feel tat im good in nutin...i dun reali have any skills...not even cooking or fishing...haiz...to tink tat im working for a fishing company n restuarant...tats reali sad...ya..i promise my dad to work hard..one day...i juz hope i can make it..wan to show e world tat i can do it...

of cos..i learn e ugly side of life...see e recent court issue...guess most people would have read e news..and of cos..i appear on e newspaper...u see..once again..clearly shown how sg gov works...e gov sector will help one another..push e blame to a commerical company...then put to e news n newspaper..show e whole republic tat e gov has taken action against those "deserving" companies..actuli..im used to it..i reali take it in my stride le..but juz to share with my frens..

yet again..we see how these gov sectors organisations cover their ass so well...but..more amazing is e fact that some gov-operated organisations..are reported by strait times to have missing accounts and more n more gov organisations are being punished by auditing firms due to e lack of proper documents to account for their money...this reali make mi wan to luff..isnt that reali seem to be some kinds of retribution??...

when gov keep telling us to report watever money that we handle..n pay all kinds of taxes...then how come some gov organisations are running away with those unknown $$?? u see e NKF issues..millions involved..years later then discover..tat few people would already have enjoyed their lifes so much already...wats e use then..hmmm..we guys go thru army..we all noe hw crap e system is inside..we guys noe clearly how ugly e army life can get..e abuse..e $$..well..of cos all these all kept at e minium..not to e public...

of cos..i do agree we have a veri gd n organised gov who rule e country so well over e years...setting veri high standards n bringing reali good economic for us..however..all these came with some "sacrifices"...and all these "sacrifices" are deem to make e public feel safe and good while living in sg...craps it may sound but its so true...even one family member of a minister...choose to be a whistle blower in the army..well..some agree on wat he has done...some (including e army) choose to say hes wrong as he nvr go thru e chain of command..u seee..life..welcome to sg policies...

to those who dun understand these few paragraphs..i suggest tat u should start reading up some news to find out wat are e issues happening ard e world..esp in sg..e very country we have been staying in for our whole life...

hmm...life..so simple as it may seem...at times reali gets so hard...have u ever thought of how much have u learnt from e bitter lessons tat u had been thru? how much do we noe? and wat can we do..?

at times..we reali LL have to live it thru...life...it juz gets more complicated with age...to earn $$ to feed ownself alreadi so hard..yet we have to face those ugly sides of life...humans can be kind hearted..but sad to say...humans are still e most cruel creatures in e world...

do u agree with me...or juz tink tat im bull shitting....well..i juz wanna share my thoughts...have to continue to work hard le...jiayou ba all my frens..gd luck to u all in ur careers n love life..do keep in contact k...if u hapen to rem who i am..hahaa...

Life so short..so ugly..so stress..so hard...yet..i will live on..to fight...to find e happy moments..

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2:55 AM
Thursday, April 12, 2007

yo..my 1st post of e year...hehee...well...im reali busy these months...hmmm...alot pple ask mi to blog again...hmm...im waitin 4 a chance to post actuli...now...got chance to do it le...i shall make it a nice n long post...hehee...i try....

well..actuli...mood now abit not reali gd...oni at tis moment ba...duno y...maybe juz abit tired...tired of e things giving mi so much stress...my sch...my job...but who doesnt get stress...duno wat reali bothering mi now...but aniwae....juz make tis post a hapi one....

hmm..i mention i went korea rite...still rem tat last post...i was packing my stuffs...then i blog...juz b4 i fly off e nex dae...hee...time flies...now 4mths over le...hmm...had a reali nice time in korea....can view some pics at my friendster...http://www.friendster.com/prince07 ...i rem mi liang duck j zhao n debbie went 2tgt...hmm...got some news to share...shall slowly blog..hehee...

i rem...we rch airport at nite...then im like e leader there...settling everytin...then go into transit..walk ard...chat...took some pics...then up e plane...reali excited...1st time travelling to such a far country with them...n quite long since i last took e plane le...sat with deb..of cos...hahaa....7hrs to korea...here we go~~~~

quite cold when we rch...e wind is blowing~~korea is nice...quite clean actuli....we went indoor n outdoor theme parks, outdoor zoo, shoppin malls, shops, cafes, restuarants....hehee...food reali nice...esp those roadside stalls...i got pics in friendster...hehe...then korean food reali healthy actuli...veggie arh...though i dun reali eat...kimchi everydae..hehehe...

i rem we did kimchi makings, eat flowers, climb mountains...also went to temples, palaces etc for sight seeing....took alot alot of pics...hahaa...e best is ski ing le...hahaa...fell down alot times but reali nice...1st time try...shiok....1st time see snow oso...1st time been to such low temperature...at one point is minus 10deg~~~ freeezeeeee.....

i rem we walk ard e streets...see how korean live their lifes...their meals, habits etc...i rem e weather reali cold everywher..haha...cos we wear quite afew layers wor...korea reali fun..i recommend my frens to go n enjoy...hehe....hmmm...i still rem how i try to "protect" deb when we were in korea...hee...she always so cold de...yeah...my tactics...tats hw i won her i guess...heeee...

well...those reading most likely alreadi noe im attached now...yesss....after so mani yrs of singlehood...so mani yrs of playing....finally i settle down le...my gf? hahaa...obvious rite....yes...its her...dun ask mi y her...i duno...fate? heee...so...e gal i been tokin about in my posts in nov n dec is her loh...heheee....

for those who duno or 4got who she is...hmm...i reali mention about her alot times in my blog b4 de...shes fr my poly...used to be my godsis...now shes my gf...hehee...rem le mah?? well...i cant xplain e things betw us...its like so amazing...we knew each other since year 2000...about 7yrs later then we got 2tgt...one big round...fate...i believe it....and i reali do...

for these 4mths...my blog bcum private le...hehee...cos i been spending most of my time with her..work...sching...n family...nutin much le...veri guai le...heee...well..i noe she dun read my blog...but still wanna say tat i reali treasure her...i will strive my veri best to give and provide her with e best and also bring her hapiness..heheee...

phew...near 3am le wor...abit tired le...shall do another post again nex time...wan slp le...hmm...will update about all my frens in e nex blog de...hehee..nite...i hope my little post will bring smilesz to everyone who reads it....lifes short...enjoy while u can...jiayou~~

Flooded in Sea of Love~~~~~~~~~

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2:46 AM
Thursday, December 21, 2006

phew...busy day at work...haf to reali settle alot of things b4 flying off....so mani things to settle...my boss lah...give mi so much last min work to do...aiyo...heng i manage to finish all e things...if nt molo reali no nid to fly off liao le...

went off ard 8pm to meet her...we gg 4 movie at tamp....watching jay new show...hmm..walk ard 1st cos stil early...ate bread while we shop...hmmm....show was alrite...afew nice scenes here n there....well...went off after movie...quite tired le...went to her place 1st...she got a pair of boots 4 mi fr her fren...gdgd...juz nice...i wearing tat to korea...

near 3am le...almost done with my packing...packed 4 zhao oso...nice kor hor mi...hehee...zhao went zouk n i pack 4 him loh...so fast...now reali flyin off liao...hmm...so tired...wanna slp le...still long day ahead 2molo...zzz....

holis~~ gonna spend my xmas in korea...hehee..

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11:26 AM
Wednesday, December 20, 2006

mon...went to fetch her ard 8pm...i bringing her n her sis to go macp eat...my dad giving back macp to e owner at e end of e mth liao le...so bring them go eat b4 handover loh...hmm...order crabs and other food 4 them...i didnt eat much cos everyday got to eat..hmm...see e way her sis eat n ask qns reali funny....her sis say seldom get to eat crabs de so she duno hw to eat..haha...

wanted to leave...but super heavy rain...so cold...so wet...drove them back ard 10pm...so big e rain...can hardly see wor...drove slowly to her place....rain stopped when we rch...hmm...we 3 sit in e car n chat...haha..duno y oso...then took pics n send songs in e car...so funny...hmm..went up her place awhile then go pp fetch parents...rain again...haiz...so sux...

tue...rain rain rain...everyday e same...work oso difficult...hmm...noon time went e new ikea wif my kor n mum....reali big...walk ard...my kor nid to buy things 4 work mah...i push e trolley...hahaa..so fun...oh ya...went courts as well...side by side oni...oso veri big wor...but...nutin 4 mi oso...mi juz go ther see see oni de...

hmm...spend e whole day at pasir ris....settle most of e things liao....gg holis soon le...so great feeling...hmm...went her place at 10+...her sis wanna do some renovating works at home so i br my dad go see see loh...

my mum rem her wor...they started chatting...about e pray pray thingy...im shocked...i didnt even noe my mum actuli prayed e same thing as her 20+yrs ago....my mum actuli tell her everytin sia...faint...even me tis son...duno loh....hahaha...so funny...my mum say she thin soo much le...hahaa...ya..gd...she dun believe..now even my mum says tat liao....hehee...left ard 11pm...go home...rain again...aiyo.....rch home...pack bag...i haven touch anitin yet...flyin off reali soon liao wor...hahaa...

pleased....holis coming soon 4 mi....

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2:50 AM
Sunday, December 17, 2006

15th dec..fri..reali nice day wor...went facial at orchard...heehee...foc de..cos i joined a new membership recently mah...e facial place is at e same building as my sch in orchard...hahaa..went in...reali blur at 1st...1st time go facial...went into e room and e lady do e treatment 4 mi...so shiok...but abit pain at times arh..hahaa...hmm...1hr+ wor e facial....after tat face reali reali v.shiok..smooth~~ hahaa..

went body massage after tat...foc oso..at cuppage area...oso 1st time go body massage...duno wat they tokin..i juz go in..and e lady start massaging my whole body...pain sia...hahaha...but after tat reali shiok...skin so nice...cos they got rub oil de...hehee..hmmm...after tat took mrt to work...

left work ard 6pm...took mrt to mit j...we gg novena sq to dye hair...hehee...whole day i relaxing...rch ard 7.30pm...start to dye hair liao...j oso dye....reali tired...wanna wan fall aslp during e hair treatment...phew...done at 9pm...hair diff colour again liao..hehee...went off to amk to eat..wat a day...so fun to try new things..hehee...

16th dec sat...send mi dad to pasir ris...then went her place...she still doin hsework...so i wait at her place...hmm...went to bugis 1st...to pray...cos gg overseas liao mah...pray 4 safetly...then go shop ard...see got any other stuff to buy 4 e trip not...went parco too..manage to see e 2million dollar xmas tree....so big...quite nice wor...veri shiny..haha...

pei her buy hair clips and shampoo...then decide to go vivocity...cos i haven been there yet..hahaa...hmm..wanted to watch show de but reali too packed...so we go eat..carls jr...mi n her shared a meal cos e burger reali too big liao le....hahaa...

shop ard after tat...see see winter stuff again...hoping to find heat pads....hmm..vivo reali reali veri big place wor...can reali get lost inside...haha...walk ard for a hour plus...still cant reali finish...but we decide to go off...went lido...wanna catch show...hmm...manage to get tix for e show.."flyboys"...not bad...quite cute e show..hehee...

went to e newly opened mac at amk for a drink...reali nice place...24hr somemore and oso easy to park cars...hmm...bought drinks and we sit down and read newspaper...hahaa...chat chat awhile...send her home le...near 2am liao...both reali tired liao...mi 9am wake le....cant tk it...wan slp liao...zzzz...so tired...

hard to describe wat im feeling...

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9:06 AM
Friday, December 15, 2006

mit my tamp xiao mei on wed nite...noe tis xiao mei veri veri long liao...hardly got time to mit her these days...since i free i go find her loh...she super violent one...always beat me...hahaa...cos i always like to bully her....hehee...mit her go tamp walk walk n drink loh...went back to pick my parents ard 12am...been raining these days...so sianz...always get wet...reali cold wor...

thur...reali bad day...stupid heavy rain...so big...flood e whole work place...pumps n stuffs all failed to work...haiz...headache...mi got drenched too...haiz...so messy e whole place...reali sux...so mani things to settle cos of tat rain....hate it....

went off to amk to meet meng n slow at nite...ate wif them at s11 amk...played one round of billard then go pick janice...she finished work and wanna eat mah...went her office pick her...then go near kovan there...e HK cafe...eat drink n chat..haha..janice veri funny loh...still e same...always wanna argue wif me...haha...

went home ard 11pm...rch my room..on lights...gooshh!! i saw...a frog on my bed!!!! faint~~~ no idea hw it got into my room...but i reali reali fedup liao...chase it out of my room...then i took out my bedsheet..pillow case..tshirts..blanket...everytin on my bed i throw to wash...arghh...so fedup...so dirty...nex time i cfm close my door liao...so fedup~!! stupid day...so sux...manage to talk to her, slow n sen..if not i cfm blow up de...phew....cool cool...

cant get to slp...haiz...losing slp everyday...

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1:36 AM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006

woke up at 9am on sun 4 soccer..reali tiring...super hot weather...didnt wear shirt to play on sun...30mins oni reali cant tk it liao...sweat like mad...hmm...rch home i KO liao...slp slp slp...4pm wake up...send my parents to pasir ris...

went for my class after tat...then go macp see see...biz still alrite...went back pasir ris again...settle my things then go shawn place...wanna borrow winter stuffs fr him...my trip cuming soon..hehee...hmm...haven been to his place since sec sch wor...lucky i still rem where he stay...hmm...got afew things from him le...tink more or less im done wif e preparation liao...

haiz...went back to pasir ris to fetch my parents...so stupid...rch yishun liao still haf to go back fetch them and then go home again...so fedup...duno y me always haf to be e one doing all tis...reali not fair...well...nvm...dun complain...

mon...work work...my boss sack e day manager already...now my job is 2times liao...sianz...reali bo bian loh...juz do...no matter wat it takes..i gonna work reali reali hard...wan to prove tat i can make it...no complains.....

went to meet her at 7pm+...her sis came down wif her...i driving my kor car...her sis say she nvr sit in M3 b4..haha...oh ya...her sis say tat i looks better now with my hair...hehe...ya loh...alot of my workers n colleagues all say i reali look better in short hair...more yandao...hahaaa..hmm...drop her sis at compass point...then i go bedok...we gg dental appt...

rch ard 8...alot pple...wait loh...chat wif her outside e clinic...30mins later then her turn...went in wif her...my fren oso say i looked gd in my new hair style...diaoo...then she so "proud"~~ hahaa...she says muz tks her...if not where so mani pple say i looked better in tis hair...hahaa...cannot tahan her...of cos..credits to her..if not 4 her..i cfm wont cut short hair one loh~~ hahaa...so hapi wif my hair now liao..heee...

went shop ard after e appt..lookin for some products for e trip....hmm...went her place after tat...still earli so i stay awhile...help her in some research online...then chat wif meng online after tat...i kajiao meng..haha...meng almost played me back instead...sweat...hehee..aniwae..i left ard 11pm..wan her to slp mah...mi went back to pick my kor..n go home~~

tue..another busy day at work...rush here n there...so busy...haiz..im tired...but...my holis drawing near liao...so hapi...so faster finish my stuff then can enjoy my holis liao...hehee...oh ya...she called me at 12pm+...im stunned...i haven got her call in sooo mani years...cos we always sms or msn de...hardly call...reali surprised...

she called to share some gd news wif me....can hear tat she reali hapi...im hapi 4 her too....hmmm..i promise not to disclose de...well...so long nvr hear tat she so hapi liao...reali hope tis is e turning pt of her life...hope her life juz get better n better from now on...chat wif her for 20mins+...then she start work..mi oso start work liao...oh ya...evening time got rainbow...she saw n msg mi...i saw e rainbow too...so nice...wat a day 4 her...even e sky treats her so well...mi reali so hapi 4 her wor...

went to mit her at 8+...my boss lend mi his car...jaguar~~! hahaha..so hapi...finali i get to drive his new car...so cool...nvr drove a jaguar b4....reali power...step on accelator...can reali run sia...hehee..oophs...she noe she sure scold me de...lol...but...gd car mah...muz ram ram abit..hee...and 1st time drive..muz try mah...

went to her place 1st...chat wif her sis..cos she wan me to help her in sumtin...hmmm...can see tat shes hapi...cos she mentions afew times...hahaa...so gd...hmm...she "scolds" mi again 4 eating heaty food...haha...as usual lah...hmm...decide to br her go 4 drink...her sis oso go wif us...cos her sis wanna sit jaguar mah...haha...

her sis say jaguar seats not nice to sit wor...haha..drove them to eat -tou hua- at paya lebra area...hmm...she suggest e place de...mi 1st time there...eat n chat wif them...share wif them about my work...about my life...her sis reali funny loh...ask so mani qns de...cos she say i crazy one...cos my hp keep ringing n ringing de..sms arh..call arh...aiya...work mah...bo bian...

phew...duno wat to say...at times reali busy...veri tired...at times i feel hapi about e life i having now...reali mixed feelings...aniwae...lets see how things goes for me in 2007 ba...wish me lucks...hehee....

my prayers are answered...so hapi 4 her 2dae...hope things will cont to get better 4 her..

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4:08 AM
Sunday, December 10, 2006

woke at 7am...haf to go work...got events 2dae...drove to work...rch ard 8am+..then start to prepare everytin...till noon time then stop working....then send my dad to golf club...he goin to play golf mah...

went to her place ard 1pm..she still preparing...drove to rocher road area...her sis in my car oso...they nid to buy sumtin fr there...went far east after tat...eat 1st...ate LJS...then cut hair wif her...at THat's salon in far east..her sis recommend de..

mi promise to cut mi hair reali short if i go wif her...n tat she will decide my hair style...she wan me to cut my hair short n neat...faint...mi so long no short hair liao le...but shes hapi wif it wor...even her sis says gd...cos i look neat...hmm...nvm lah...new hairstyle...cooling wor...hehe..

left far east ard 5pm...e carpark so exp loh...near $7 for 2hrs...faint...hmm..went to fetch her cousin at toa payoh..then drop her cousin n sis to hougang cos they nid to do sumtin...mi n her went back to her place...she nid to pray...mi clean up myself at her place...wash face..style my hair nice nice..haha...she cannot tahan...cos i reali too vain liao le...heee...

went back to pick her cousin n sis...and then go to her auntie hse..she ask mi go in sit sit..mi 1st time go there wor..private housing in hougang area...she intro mi ard...some of them i noe de..ohh..hapen to be her cousin bdae...they cut cake n tk pics...so cute...hehee..mi eat wif her after cutting cake..we sit at kitchen area to eat..then she tells mi..."tis is my family"...hmm...noe more n more about her things le...shes reali cute...heee....

hmm...we decide not to go MOS..though zhao got free tix 4 mi..but i guess shld be reali packed...so we dun wan go...haha...heng zhao nvr scold me...hmm..went movie wif her after tat at J8...buy tix 1st..we watching "The holidays"...

walk ard in J8..hoping to find some useful stuff 4 e korea trip...hmm...went coffee bean 4 drink cos reali still early 4 e show...she treat mi..then chat wif her...hmmm...realise i reali noe alot bout her le...n she noe it too...so gd...

show started at 11.20pm...quite nice show..i like cos its reali about lifes experiences...oh..halfway thru meng msg mi..haha..Dlb O full hse...MOS oso full hse..heng i nvr go sia...cfm queue up till veri sian one..hehee....after tat...we went 4 drink n chat...b4 gg home...mi rch home 3.30am sia...one whole day outside le...somemore oni slp 4hr...later morn still playin soccer...reali power liao mi...wau...4am le...cant tk it liao...wanna orh orh le....

Growing up 2gether....

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2:22 AM
Saturday, December 09, 2006

thur noon...went to mit rose at orchard...she ask mi go mit her de...pei her shopping loh...since i able to take out some time so i went...mit her at taka ard 12pm...shop ard...she wanna look 4 xmas gifts mah...and she oni wan to shop ard in taka...aiyoo...

shop ard awhile...nutin much...decide to sit down 4 snacks...we went to a cafe in taka...cant rem e name of e cafe le...hmm...had a chat wif rose...tink i abit lost leh...duno y...maybe too stressed up by work le...haiz...abit not myself on tat day...so sux...hmm...near 2pm rose went off to work...

mi go find eve...she workin in taka mah..i always go kajiao her when im in taka de..heee...then went to find yh...she oso workin in orchard...at wheellock there...went into Zara to mit her..she workin inside...long time no see her le..she thin liao...hmm...went to find liang after tat..haha..he workin at lido...gd sia...go orchard can find so mani pple...heee...chat wif liang awhile then i go work liao le...oh ya...da jie jie came fishing...soo long nvr see her...but im there late so nvr go eat wif her..but still veri hapi to see her....heee...

fri...mit her at 8pm...i pei her go dentist..my fren's clinic...hmm...so fast e appt...still early..so we went tamp mall shop shop...she wanna look 4 sumtin for e trip...hmm..wanted to buy heat packs de...but cant reali find leh....then she choose a new facial foam 4 mi...cos i complain my face too oily these days...reali hate oily face...cos more pimples liao...soobbb...

went off at 9.30pm...send her to cousin hse at toa payoh...she needs to settle sumtin 4 her cousin...i rem i sent her to tat place b4...afew years back...she oso rem sia...time flies...rch there ard 10...she ask mi go up wif her....so i pei her loh..

things settled in afew mins oni...then chat her cousin..i noe her cousin de...but im stunned tat she noe my full name sia...her cousin reali veri funi...veri blur blur type...haha...reali same as her...see e way they two talk reali funny...

12am liddat left her cousin place...send her home...then i go pasir ris fetch my parents...saw ah qi..my godsis at pasir ris....she came down to buy rods mah...chat wif her awhile then i go off le..wauu...2am+ le...molo 7am haf to wake...sianz....

Let nature takes its course...peace...

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1:04 AM
Wednesday, December 06, 2006

tiring day at work...under e stupid hot sun again...went c.town to pay e balance of e trip...heavy rain loh...big till hard to see e road...so sian...went back work again...jam somemore..reali super tired...

went to her place again 2day at 8pm....she say she cook sumtin 4 mi to eat...hee...cos i always eat e wrong food at work...sumore i still not well....she abit "fedup" liao...she say she cook healthy food 4 mi...hehee...hmm..she prepare 4 mi e food when i rch...i guai guai eat loh...she sit beside mi n watch me eat...then she oso prepare red bean soup...diaooo...she noe i dun like de...but..she still put infront of me...i haf to finish it loh~~ heee...i noe its gd 4 mi...

pei her chat..update her my work thingy...chat wif her sis oso...n play with their hamster...so cute...hee...hmm...discuss wif her about e preparation for e korea trip...trip drawing near le...mi like haven reali buy all e necessary thingy wor...too busy le...hmm...pei her watch tv after tat...then i left ard 11pm...same thing mah..i wan her go slp...heee...mi went pasir ris to fetch my parents n go hm...

feel so hapi...cant rem e last time got pple cook 4 mi to eat when im sick...other than my mum..heee...after a day of work...i juz wan a place to relax...hmm...small little things is enuff to make mi hapi le...simple....heee....im glad....tks her alot....

enjoyed e peaceful time...

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1:18 AM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006

phew..sun reali busy..soccer in e morn...work after tat..5pm got briefing for e korea trip in town...mit up wif j n duck 4 e briefing...noe quite afew things le..hmm...went to eat after tat...then go macp look look...biz not bad wor...then i went to pasir ris...so tired..wasnt reali feeling well le...rch home...12am+...vomit...faint...reali sick le...so terrible feeling...haiz...took pills then ko liao le..

mon morn..wake up for work...reali dun feel like workin but no choice...haiz...under e sun again...super dry...hmm...msg her...got her reply...glad shes back safely le...went to her place at 9pm+..tk sumtin fr her...

she saw mi..1st qns ask mi if im sick...i told her everytin...she ask mi go home straight...but i cant..cos need to fetch my parents at 12am+...so she ask mi rest at her place 1st...hmm...she poured water 4 mi..n we started chatting n watch tv loh~~

she ask mi if i eaten...ya~~ 5pm i last ate...reali no appetite...but she insist i muz eat sumtin..so she make bread 4 mi to eat...bo bian de...she say eat...cfm haf to eat de...mi look at her as she prepare e bread...she ask if i wanna add sugar to e butter, i say..."its sweet enuff cos its u prepare de"...heee...she cant stand my words...

she got mi a cap fr her trip...i gg korea mah...she got mi a cap 4 korea...hee...white coloured de...veri cute...she noe i v.mafan one...heng she got sumtin i like..hehee...hmm..mi reali stress up e whole wkend...she ask y i nvr sms her wor...hmm...duno y oso...dun wan disturb her ba...aniwae...nvm lah...i still can tk it...hmm...left ard 11pm+...mi wan her to go slp mah..n i haf to go pick my parents le....so tired...wan slp liao le....

sick..yet hapi...felt so sweettt...

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3:29 AM
Sunday, December 03, 2006

fri..work work work..busy preparing for an event on sat...evening time went expo wif zhao..go sitex see see...saw meng there too..nutin much there wor..quite boring...left after an hour...went pa pool again at amk at nite...win win win..hehee..

sat..work..got event...so tired...manage to settle everytin quick n fast...fell aslp awhile on e sofa in office...too tired le...wake up...work again...went off ard 8pm...go ala bdae party 1st..zhao's fren...mi go there show face...cos he oso been to my bdae b4 mah...

went to ck hse after tat...got steamboat session...prepare to welcome qiang back de...mi soo hungry..didnt eat much e whole day...food reali nice...hmm...took pics wif them...n had cake too...cos jing n eunice bdae drawing near le..

played board games..left ard 2am...mi send qiang eunice n sen home...about to rch qiang hse...tio road block...mi faster put on safety belt...abit late i tink..haha..still tio police check...then all alight e car..police wan our IC n oso check my car...faint...cant rem if i ever tio police check b4 loh...stupid qiang...so suai...tink muz buy my car num le..hahaa...

hmm..so tired now...but still cant get to slp....been tinkin of afew things...i might appear hapi at times...but..deep now..i not reali tat hapi...wan say out...but duno how...duno wats reali affecting me too...so stressed up...i need a break.....can i..??~~

dun wanna fall further....vexed....

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11:41 AM
Friday, December 01, 2006

my boss bdae..28th nov...bought a cake 4 him...hes so hapi..heee...cake not i buy de..e accountant did it...i juz be there oni..hahaa...hmm...work whole day again...so tired...mi whole body muscle ache...

got a call from my godsis..ah qi..reali reali shocked to get her call...mi haven heard from her since last yr july...she say she suddenli tink of me so she try callin me..hahaa...mi so hapi to hear fr her...i rem..i noe her when im 16...n shes 15yrs old...tats like..7 or 8yrs ago le...faint...sooo long ago...i rem tat time i studyin for O levels when i get to noe her...haahaa..shes actuli my fren's sis...so small world...

was veri free...so decide to mit up wif ah qi..went to toa payoh..cant believe she stay juz opp e block where my grandma used to stay...i stood at e carpark n look at e block..e very block tat i used to go often when im like 5 or 6yrs old...faint...10+ yrs nvr go there le me...reali old liao...

went toa payoh central...manage to intro ah qi to ah lian jie..hehe..oh ya..ah qi got a kid le..a gal..4mths old...so cute...i show to ah lian jie..hahaa...mi manage to see my godson too...so hapi...hmm...went to find ah qi sis..shes workin at central too...i noe her since pri 5....faint...yrs nvr see her le...hahaa...

went to eat MOS burger....chat wif e two sis...aiyo...elder one i noe in Pri 5...then sec sch get to noe e younger one...i more closer to e younger de...cos shes my godsis..hehee...both of them married liao loh..so fast..aiyo...so mani old memories...feel old liao le....

went prata shop after tat...qiang back fr aust mah...mit e whole grp of sec sch frens...qiang hair so long liao sia...so thick oso...hahaa..nvr see him in tat kind of stupid hair style since sec sch le wor...lol....qiang got us a gift each..haha..he still e same crappy shit...we chat n eat..till ard 2am then hm...tired...out whole day le....

wed...work...spend 4hrs under e freaking hot sun...reali cant tk it..at times reali tired...but still haf to work...no matter wat kind of weather oso haf to work..."hao lei wor"..hmm..went to her place to tk sumtin at 9pm...she packin her bag...hmm...chat wif her, her sis n her cousin...she say i dark le...sobb...juz afew days no see her oni...i dark even more...sianz...i dun like..hmm...chat awhile...then i went off le...

went to mit meng at liquid kitchen...drove quite fast..hee...oophs...later she noe sure scold mi de...hee...meng n daniel alreadi rch there le...drink beer n haf snacks...got some updates fr meng..hahaa..useful info...hmm...had reali gd luff there...so nice to relax after a day at work..rch home near 3am le...slp slp slp....

thur...try to avoid e hot sun at work...drove to hougang to buy things oso..so sianz..every drive to buy things..reali tired...hmm...then 9pm...went amk to pa pool..wif meng j duck..hmm..lose at 1st...lucky manage to win alot after tat..i dun like to lose de...esp at things which i do best in...hee...tats me....hmm...eat after tat...hungry le...home ard 1am...slp....

my life...so tied up with work now...so tired...so stress...cannot imagine when i start sch in jan..haiz...can anyone understand??...i duno hw i wan things to be in my life now...l0st...wat to i wan...wo bu zhi dao le....

shes not ard...feel so empty tis wkend...nothing to look 4ward to...

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2:57 AM
Monday, November 27, 2006

work work work...so tiring...been workin for more than 12hrs a day for mon n tue...tue even stay till 2am...so tiring...sumore e weather reali bad...super hot....mi reali burnt...so dry...but no choice...my work is outdoor de...tired...

wed 22th nov..went work 1st...then go orchard mit bin..she ask mi go watch movie...hahaa..shes zhao godsis...i noe her for mani yrs le...treat her as my small small sis...she wan pple pei her watch movie...since im free i go loh....walk ard 1st...then eat dinner at another Hong Kong Cafe at cineleisure...so mani different types of HK cafe ard now....not bad...i got to eat wat i wan..pork chop noodles...heheee...

chat wif bin..hmm..she noe afew things bout zhao...now i noe zhao oso talks about me..haha..my xiao di...muz teach him more things le...hmm...went lvl 9 for e show...movie end at 9pm...disgusting show...oni bin likes it.....haha...walk to taka after tat...when on way...3 jap gals approach me...they ask mi 4 directions..haha...mi showed them e way...they so hapi...so cute..hahaa...

drop bin at yck mrt....then i go pick her...at town...she got dinner...shes shocked to see i drive a different car...heee...i told her tat i got lots of cars to drive...juz tat none is mine...hehee...chat wif her about afew things...hmm...cant disclose much...heee....rch her place...then i send her up...shes looked so tired...hope she can get some gd rest....

me go ser.gardens after sending her home...miting some frens...at a pub there...rch ard 11.30pm...quite packed....was intro to some other frens...they all heard my names b4 i noe them sia...scary...played pool n drink abit...hmm..was smsing wif her all e way...i promise her tat i drink abit oni...cos i driving mah...heee...hmm...left ard 1am...went to mit sen at prata shop..chit chat awhile and oso tk sumtin fr him...rch 2am plus le...tired...

thur 23 nov..mit slow to tk sumtin...decide to go haf a drink..we went liquid kitchen at thomson area...order some snacks n drinks...tok alot things wif slow..hee..we always tok about poly times de...at times tok about mi n her..heee...slow reaction reali funny whenever i tok about her..haha...was sms-ing wif her all e times...slow cant tk it...haha..hmm...oni mi n slow noe wat hapen...dunwan to say much..heheee...

fri 24th nov...went work 1st...then 4pm+ i went expo alone...cos i heard fr sen got adidas sales...hmm..rch le..reali packed..walk ard see see..wanted to buy shoes de...but no size le..e clothings not veri nice wor..so sianz...left ard an hour later....went to mit meng at amk for billard at 8pm...zhao oso went...hahaa..i won most of e games..so shiok..one of my fav past times~~

left ard 11pm...mi n zhao temple...my dad ask mi go tk sumtin...then decide to go ktv after tat...mi zhao sen n pi..haha..rch yis safra ard 11pm+...sing sing sing..so shiok..long time no sing le...heee...rch home 2am+ le...wat a day...heee...

sat 25th nov....mi n her..whole day outing....mi woke ard 12pm...went to pick her fr her place...hmm...gg to kaki butik to buy e winter clothings again...cos tat time oni go check prices...now cfm le..so go e cheapest place to buy...we bought thermal wear, gloves n caps...mi oso got 4 zhao...my di mah...cfm help him de...hee...

went off tat time...rain...faint...mi ran to car...drove to shelter to pick her...shes sick mah..cannot let her tio rain de...hmm..she wanted to eat congee...so we went J8 to eat....mi haven eat anitin...alreadi 3pm...kena "scold" by her loh...expected...heee...park car le...we go food court eat...bought congee 4 her...she almost finish e whole bowl sia...hmm...i tot she will waste food de...heeheee...heng she guai guai eat...

walk ard after tat...she wanna shop 4 present...so i pei her walk walk loh...in e end she shortlist 3items and ask mi to choose sia...aiyo...i hate tis kind of testing qns...hahaa...but then in e end she no buy anitin...hmm...we went off to find clinic...shes not feeling well since thur..see her so pale...mi reali xin tong arh...so i insist she muz see doc...for once...shes allow mi to br her see doc...manage to find one clinic at bis area...tink she went ther b4 de...finali got pills 4 her to eat..if not i cant stop worrying bout her....

drove her home after tat...she needs to pray mah...hmm...she asked me go her place since mi nutin to do...so i went up wif her...her sis at home watchin vcd...at times they two reali veri cute loh...e way they argue...haha...mi juz sit there watch them...lol....started watching vcd wif her...e korea show "gong"....she so crazy over e show...and lucky i manage to get e vcd to lend her...

ard 8pm...we go off..to toa payoh...she wanna go her sis bf's shop to look for gifts...while driving..i discover sumtin...hmmm...i observe so long le...and im rite...lucky im smart enuff...but...hmm...nvm...dun touch on tat topic...heee...

rch toa payoh...she say wanna watch show...so we go buy tix 1st...e andy lau new movie..."A Battle of Wits"...went to eat...mi hungry loh~~ ate LJS...soo long nvr eat le...she no eat wor...aiyoo...aniwae....mi bypass ah lian jie shop...too bad she not tat...wanna intro her..ah lian jie n my godson de...heee...hmm...went to her sis bf's shop...he intro her afew items...e bluetooth set not bad..i oso like it...hahaa...

bought bread 4 her to eat....n oso water 4 her to tk her pills....then we went movie...2hrs show...11pm+ finish...show alrite oni wor....war show...hahaa...drove her back....on e way to her place...we decide to go 4 drinks...so i turn in to jalan kayu...carpark full...all e prata shops veri packed...hmm...then she say she wanna go upper thomson there de...e prata place...

i stil rem e last time i go there...oso wif her...then i tio summon...$70...for illegal parking...she oso rem...tats was like 3, 4yrs ago le...hmm...manage to park car nicely at e private estate...cfm wont tio summon one..hahaa...hmm..e prata place expand le wor...bigger place...more seatings...we ordered drinks n one prata to share...hahaa...e prata still e same...veri crispy....

chat wif her after tat...start to noe more n more things about her...hmm..actuli most of her things i alreadi noe le loh...lol...juz tat...tat 1yr of no contact...affect abit...but...everytin still gg well...im smart...i haf my ways de...heee...we reali tok about alot of things...so glad to see her in relax mood....we at ther for nearly 3hrs wor...2am liddat then went off...sent her home..mi rch home 3am le...slp~~

sun 27th nov..9am wake...play soccer..heee...so long nvr play le...heng still manage to score some goals..and of cos got miss alot chances too..hahaa...went home n slp for awhile...then wake...to go work...mi n dad 2gether...went to dad fren hse 1st to tk winter clothings..dad borrow fr his fren mah....his fren stay veri near our hse de...veri rich...got BM 7 series n 3 series...so shiok...

rch work place ard 5pm...see see look look awhile...then 6pm go off le....dropby her place 1st...take sumtin fr her mah...went into her hse....1st qns she shoot me le.."haf u eaten?"...hehee..heng i eat wif my family at p.ris le...if not sure kena fr her de...heee...then mi pei her watch vcd awhile...make sure she eats dinner n medi...then i went off 4 my music cls...so hapi tat shes alrite...heee....wow...3am le...tired...better slp le...dunwan cont le...hehee..nitez...

someone says...my "xin lin zhan shu" veri strong...hmm..tink about it...wats e real meaning..

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1:47 AM
Tuesday, November 21, 2006

sun 19th nov...woke up at 7am...got events...dad sent mi there and he went to play golf...mi started to host everytin loh...prepare everytin 4 e organisers..9am+ start le..mi more relax...tahan till 12pm...cant tk it...weather reali super hot...mi fell aslp awhile on e chairs...

woke up 30mins later...sweating...reali hot...hmm..start to close e events...cos e family day of e company oni half day..till 1pm...everytin done at 2pm...went home wif my dad...rch home...cant tk it...my head reali wan burst le...super bad headache....slp~~

5pm wake..go back pasir ris again...to check everytin is alrite...hmm...got "scolding" from her..hmm..i understand wat shes tryin to say...but im good...im old enuff to tink...if i dun even noe hw to tk care of myself..how can i tk care of others...heee...but...juz tat im still human after all...at times oso nid some pampering de...hehehee....

hmmm..at times..reali feel like saying out sumtin...but...some context reali too...i duno hw say...juz cant say out too much de...haf to consider alot other factors as well...hmm...so far...im still hapi..heee...

mon...20th....got a sms fr rose at 3am...faint...read e msg at 5am...then at 11am...cfm tat sms not 4 mi de...mi called her to ask her...hahaa...im rite...she send to someone else..and oso forward to me...cos she oso wanna let mi noe tat she sms e other person...hmm..chat wif her for 30mins...told her my stuffs...she say fate always play tricks on me...faint...she still can luff...not funny nor~~ diao....aniwae...i juz dunwan to feel regret in future...so i did it...heee...

lifes so fragile...duno wat will hapen nex...do treasure life..

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1:38 AM
Sunday, November 19, 2006

woke at 12pm...hmm...went to mit her...pick her at her place...we go look ard to look for cheap winter clothings...1st stop...kaki bukit...its a warehouse...things are quite cheap...mi play ard while she ask e staff afew qns...haha...hmm..try glooves...see jackets...duno wat to buy...in e end..we go another place...at macpherson...another sales gg on...manage to buy socks..wool de...she say gd de...and its cheap...mi get 4 my didi too...

went to my "bun" shop after tat...mi haf to pass sumtin to e staff...1st time she been there...so now...she been to all my dad biz place le...shall show her more n more in future...hmm...went to chinatown...she say got shops there oso...

park near people's park complex...stupid loh...fatimah!! e carpark attendance...ya..i call them all by e name of "fatimah"...so stupid...they always there to AIM my car...no matter where n when i park...they juz simply love giving me summons....told her everytin about my past experiences...she luff loh...faint...aniwae...i put carpark coupons nice nice le loh for tat fatimah to see...heng i saw her 1st...if not i cfm tio one...haha...hmm..walked into people's park complex...walk ard for winter clothings...hmm...nutin much...

went to buy sugar cane juice...cos i reali reali damn thirsty...sumtin hapen wor....she said to e staff...about dun add sweetner into e juice cos she dunwan too sweet stuff...n e staff said sumtin back...say their juice is 100% pure n no other etc etc things added...i pulled her away...i noe she dun like it de..and i entertain e staff wor...lol~~ ya..its reali amazing...if its mi in e past..i would haf walk away le...cos i hate tat kind of attitude...but nw..i actuli pulled her away 1st...then i tok..n even joke wif e staff...e auntie staff so hapi loh...she say i handsome boi..she wan treat mi drink free juice..and ask mi go back to her stall again..lol~~ damn funny...didnt expect myself to have such nice temper n patience..if e old me hor..i sure curse n swear n walked off w.o buying fr e stall de loh..hahahaa...

aniwae...went into OG for a walk..nutin much oso...quite exp in there...mi reali reali veri long nvr go chinatown le..so much changes wor...walk ard awhile...b4 heading back to car...she says go queensway there...got one more big warehouse...drove again...fr c.town to queensway area...

hmm...discover tat...she oso will lose abit of way at times..hee...cos she cant rem where i park my car..i rem~~ hehee..shes e oni gal i noe so far whos not a road idiot...and noe alot alot places n roads...she says i noe alot too...ya but at times i act blur de..heee...juz let her lead e way loh..i noe she likes it...oophs...say out le duno gd or not wor...haha..nvm lah...

rch e warehse at queensway area...reali big...we started to look around again...tried afew jackets...she looks cute in one of those big big jacket..haha..so small frame of hers in e big jacket...mi oso tried...reali gian to buy...but..still abit exp wor...hmm..see how ba...aniwae we got e pricing le...shall decide again...send her home ard 6pm+...she got to pray...hmm...she fell aslp in my car again...see her so tired...cant take it...hope she can get some gd slp at nite..i noe shes been thru alot...hope her life can be better....

mi went pasir ris after tat....ate wif family...then settle abit of work issues...ard 9pm+ i went home le...drove again...soo tired...10pm+ rch home le...so early...so long nvr so early rch hm le...watched man u match...then zhao frens came...ate sumtin wif them...hmm...sooo tired...i blogging wif my eyes half closed le...molo still got events...7am+ haf to wake...haiz...sianz...sometimes im reali stressed up...better go slp le...zzzz.....

"..i dunwan u to be alone.."...one of e sms tat touched my heart 2dae...im affected...

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5:07 AM
Saturday, November 18, 2006

fri...work work..super hot day...haiz...work till reali wan slp sia...mi slp oni 6hrs...cos been busy preparing things 4 her...her bdae...hmm...went home after work...i did something amazing..i washed my car...sumtin i nvr did for mths le..lol...duno leh...cos maybe wanna br her out then dunwan car to be so dirty...so i clean e car up loh...fell aslp awhile on my bed..maybe reali too tired..woke up when she msg mi..tink im late~~ rush~~

picked her up at her place...she looks great...so mature...hmm...bring her to...mount faber...yeah...after afew months of selection...i chose mount faber as e place...i even went up alone for a site inspection...everytin..i alreadi planned nicely le...shall slowli disclose everytin...

rch ard...8.45pm..juz rite e timing...parked my car wif e valet...and went up...sat down at e table i haf chosen..heee...then start to browse thru e menu...after ordering...started tokin to her...got live band there...i noe she enjoys it...hmm...food arrived shortly...started eating...hmm...tink food oni alrite oni wor...tats wat she felt..but anyway...food isnt e main thing i brought her there wor...

at 9.30pm...theres some small performance...theres man-made "snow" blown out by e machine and some lightings show...veri nice...hee...she oso find it nice...mi alreadi noe about e thing...wasnt part of me plan till i went 4 e site inspection...then e manager told mi about it..haha...lucky i went up to meet e manager...

after e small performance...e manager passed mi my guitar...yeah..i brought my own guitar...kept in my car boot..e manager took 4 mi de...heee...part of my plan...actuli e manager wanted me to sing on stage de..wif e live band..but i decline...cos i noe she wont like it de..she wan sumtin simple...hmm...wanted to sing a bdae song 4 her...but she dunwan..i understand....but lucky i came prepared...hehee..pluck n sang part of e song.."~~cant help falling in love~~" ...reali reali lucky i have prepared an additional song...i didnt wanted to sing tis song de..hahaa..but nvm..it helps...tink she reali touched wor...hee...duno...oni she herself noe de...

passed e guitar to e manager...and i started tokin to her...alot things i said...from e planning to e actual day of her bdae..from wat i said to her b4 in msn...reali alot...and then came e cake..another special planning...hehee..e cake is a heart-shaped cake with her name n my name on it...e cake is specially made de..i told them i dunwan to see a similiar one in e market...so it means tat e cake is one n only one in tis world...heee...took pics of e cake n e wordings...will upload to friendster soon..slowly she cut e cake..n we started eating...

chat wif her again while we eat...i realise more things le..and oso made known alot of things to her...i tink she clearly understands...in e meanwhile..e manager passed mi e flowers secretly...yup..one more small surprise..heee..and i passed it to her...tink she reali shocked le..one thing followed by another...i gave her..3 blue roses with other small flowers....veri nice...i like e flowers...i tell her...tat...i noe she not tat interested in flowers...but i still gif her cos...blue means her...n roses mean my sincerity...heee...

chat wif her again...i reali mean everytin i said...hope she will tink thru...i understand wat shes tryin to tell mi too...will keep those things in mind de....ard 11.30pm...got e snow thingy again...hahaa...so nice n sweet...then we went off ard 11.45pm...ya...her bdae over soon le...

drove downhill tat time..i stopped awhile...went to my car boot...took a bag out...one last surprise 4 her....its a bear...wif a necklaces on it...i put e necklaces on e bear bear de...heee...e necklaces and e bear cannot be bought fr anywhere de...esp e necklaces...heee...i got tis 2 gd gifts somehow...hehee...cannot say..lala...hmm...e necklaces come with 2 pendants and chain...e pendants is like...one ring on e other layer...and a heart-shaped one in e inner layer...supposed to be 2 chains...e ring is 4 e guy...e heart-shaped is 4 e gal...veri nice de..cannot buy fr outside retail shop de hor....hehee..and....she looks so cute when holding e bear bear...saw her smilez...heee...so sweettt...oh ya...still got a bdae card n a "magic" wallet 4 her...ya..tats e wallet which i shop ard for 4hrs+ in orchard alone on wed noon de...phew...my job is done...

mi dropped her at harbour front at 12am+...she miting her fren...mi hor...went MOS...hahaa..find zhao n his frens...not much queue...but...still super packed in e R&B....dance ard awhile...then went to drink..didnt drink much cos she ask mi dun drink too much cos i driving de...oh...then hapen to see sen's sis..lingna...and one more gal call yiling...hahaa..i noe them de...started tokin to them...hmm...mi went off at 2.30am to eat...wif sen sis n her frenz..so hungry...after eating..i sent sen sis home...cos zhao wanna cont to play...so i went off 1st...mi reali veri tired le mah...

hmmm....tink shes hapi...im reali glad tat everytin turns up well...ya...im hapi...heee...after all e planning and preparation and everytin...juz hope tat she enjoys herself...hope to have bring some happyness into her life....wow...5am+ le...mi reali super tired le...slping time...zzz...

shes hapi...im hapi...hope she has a nice bdae...

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2:15 AM
Friday, November 17, 2006

~~Happy BdaY to U~~

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12:54 AM

sat 11th nov...went work..rain again...so sux...almost everydae rain...hmm...evening time..went liang bdae dinner at paradiz centre...eat jap steamboat..e food all comes in boat one...super big wor...quite cheap actuli e food...but liang pay mah...so nvm lah..hahaa...eat eat eat...

went off to chy bdae at katib after liang bdae..manage to rch in time to pei him cut cake...phew...heng loh...cos last time i nvr turn up for his sis 21st bdae...now at least manage to turn up 4 his...haa...to tink tat i actuli noe his sis but i turn up 4 his bdae instead..lol~~ did chat wif his sis awhile if nt she reali will kill mi nor~~ hahaa...

went to mit her...she wanna go seletar...she looks so diff...she went dinner with her colleagues b4 tat...hmm...tink im a class diff...pressure? tink im ............well nvm arh...dunwan say much...juz see how things go...--keep everytin to myself--

mon..da jie come again...she treat mi eat swenson again wor..ate new flavour thingy...she so nice..treat mi eat everytin she comes fishing...hahaa...my new found da jie jie...shall treat her e nex time round....

evening time mit her..took her go dental checkup..mi army officer...mi went in 1st..then her..found out afew things...actuli i reali dental expert wor..juz tat i dun say out oni..hee....walk ard..shop in seng siong...she buy groceries...hmm...learn afew things too...seriously...i reali dun see myself walking in a supermarket if not 4 her...hahaa...

took her to siglap area after tat...she wanna intro a new place to me..call hkcafe..nice food..shocked to noe theres such a place...nice food...veri unqiue place...she reali noe alot places wor...mi so paiseh....muz learn more diff places le....drove her back after e meal..she fell aslp in my car...see her so tired...mi felt pain wor...zzz...

tue..drove to loyang..to changi...drove to c.town...settle things..back to pasir ris...haiz..drive drive drive...sometimes reali get veri tired n oso sick of driving...so sux...but at times reali no choice...

wed...mit liang n sen for lunch..went taka to eat...then i shop alone..cos they both went back to work...as 4 mi..duno wor...juz suddenli feel like shoppin alone..shop fr taka to wisma to far east and hereen...tink hundreds of dollars i spent wor..haha...mi buy 3tees..2jeans...and also glad tat i got sumtin 4 her le..other things all i prepared le..left one small things to complete e whole set..hehe...went pasir ris work...

nite time...went to mit rose n sen go "lao ba sa" to eat..crabs...rose treat...chat chat chat..rose comment afew things about me n sen..haha..of cos more affected is sen nor..lalala..rose went off to mit her fren..mi n sen went off too...hmm...went to prata shop wif sen to tok about some issues..realise alot things too...--tink positively-- tats wat i rem wat rose says..and i felt tat it reali make sense...

thur..work again...hmm...went off at 7pm...to mit up wif my clsmates...they having a bbq session at one of my clsmates house...he stay near ser.gardens...i tell u...im reali reali shocked when i rch his place...super super big...its like a apartment...veri traditional....its 3 storey high...e design reali veri nice...veri unqiue.....

i went up to e top level...most of them rch le...im still shocked to see how big his place is...he told mi tat they have 23rooms...faint...23~! oh my god...so big..e whole place...his carpark can park at least 10cars loh...hmm...went into his room...reali power...his bed...super big...juz like those ancient days where e Emperor slp...his toilet floor...make of stones and tiles...u have to step onto e stones de...n always dry...got bathtub..n e toilet bowl is special design too...so amazing...he uses super thin and big plasma tv as his pc monitor...faint...its like twice e size of e monitor im using now loh...

started eatin n chatting wif them...then started drinking...beer wine etc...everytin he has wor...played games with them awhile...took pics...and went off at 10.30pm...went to toa payoh to mit ah lian jie awhile...saw my godson~~ so cute...he bigger n bigger le...3mths nvr see him liao...manage to carry him...reali veri cute...heee...hope he will call mi soon..haha..chat wif ah lian jie awhile...send her to toa payoh central....then i went home le...tired....

...Hapi Bdae to u...Bless u...

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2:58 AM
Saturday, November 11, 2006

woke at 12pm...went work...alot things to settle...my lecturer, whom also e chairman of my deg sch, coming down with his department..around 12pax...done wif my preparations..4pm..they rch...intro myself to them...one of me clsmate oso came wor..she working under my lecturer mah..e tour agency...

showed them ard e place...then start to get them involved in fishing and prawning...30mins later...gooosshh...heavy rain...faint...i faster run to get umbrellas 4 them...diao..realise tat rain getting too big..they stopped...but me super drenched liao loh...my jeans wet all e way to my knee loh...sux~~ shoes oso wet...so sian...summore i wearing jersey...so colddd man...shivers~~ my hair style gone...faint..i wanted to go out de...sux...wat a stupid day...

anyway..they chose to haf dinner 1st...after they ordered e food..i sat down wif them...afew qns are being directed at me...e best one is..."song, are u attached??" faint.."nope..im single"...i ans them...then all like start to luff and say who who who at table also single loh...faint...so stresss...theres 7gals there loh...i cant tk it sia...so paiseh..hahaa..

had chit chat session with them over dinner...tink tis visit reali helps mi alot...guess Robin, my lecturer reali can do alot 4 my place...gdgd...started fishing again after dinner..took some pics too..and chat ard with e people...mi made afew new frens again le..heee..ard 8.30pm end...mi reali damn tired le...after tat...start to haf my dinner...or lunch? cant rem le...felt so tired n dizzy...tink maybe e stupid rain lah~~ aiyo..

aniwae..my day juz doesnt get better...msg her at 8pm...she no reply...till 9.30pm then i realise e sms didnt got thru...msg her again...got her reply...haiz...mi a step too late...she juz agree to go out wif her fren...argghhhh...tats when i got reali reali reali fedup...not wif her...but wif myself...haiz...im so disappointed cos we suppose to mit de...but i screw everytin up...

i curse and swear e whole nite...e thing is...with my standard and experience...i SHOULD NOT be making tis kind of stupid mistake~~!!...arghh...shiit...wat e fuk is e msg not sent...y didnt i check...tats reali craps loh...i cant ever believe i make tat stupid mistake...reali fedup wif myself...im not being proud..but e thing is..i set a standard..a protocol 4 myself..juz like an indicator..i expect myself to perform up to tat very level that i shld be performing from my own standard..i ask alot of from myself..i always wan to perform at e highest lvl if i can...but...for once...im way way way too disappointed wif me..in making such a ridiculous small silly stupid mistake...arghh..i reali feel like slapping myself for tat...even some of mi frens admit its stupid..ya...so craps...im reali fedup wif myself for tat...

i was so bloody angry wif myself...went off wif my kor...he drop me off at katib and i took mrt to amk to mit zhao sen n chy...cant help but i cont to blame myself again...its like..after such a sucky day...i juz expect to mit her n relax...but...didnt expect me to be so careless in tat...arghh..i juz keep boiling n boiling...was sms-ing wif her all along...she dun blame me but i do blame myself...haiz..i duno wat to say...juz so sux...to people...might be a small issue...but to me..nooo..i expect myself to meet my very own expectation of my performance which i didnt...so tats reali reali bad 4 me...hate it...ya...luckily she understands...but still...points drop in my performance...haf to work hard again..haiz...a mountain to climb again...

im juz so disappointed in myself...so stupid of me...arghh...

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2:23 AM
Friday, November 10, 2006

mon...study at sem. shoppin centre BK alone...cant believe i did tat loh..heee...then at nite eat at home wif zhao..mum prepare mini steamboat 4 us..heee....then i online chat wif her..awhile later..i cont to study till 2am then slp...so tired..

tue..7th nov...exam day...6am wake...left home at 7.30am...sooo early...took bus to sem mrt..aiyo..i super long nvr take bus at tis timing le..mrt oso..haha..got onto e train..all reading TODAY...reali remind mi when im in poly...tk mrt to sch earli in e morn...haha...those were e days le...bypass nyp...cant control but took a look at e sch..3yrs of my life there...ups n downs..so mani twists of my lifes hapen there...

8.30am rch sch..got her msg..."give you all my good luck"..see le i so hapi...heee..i waited so long...mi was so nervous loh~~ 1st time exam since poly...lucky got her other smses to calm mi down..hehehee...2hr paper...tink i can pass ba..hahaa...11.3am finish...msg her le..hee...

after exam...chat ard wif my clsmates...then go swenson to eat wif them...my clsmates..reali super on one..way b4 exam alreadi plan 4 e lunch thingy..scary sia..alot go wor..tink ard 17 sia..haha..after tat..left 6 of us...we go pa pool...one of e gal damn gd..lost e 1st round to her...she left handed and veri zhun wor...scare mi sia...but of cos after tat i start winning le lo..hahaa..give face oni me...heheheee...play 3hrs liddat...then all go off le...

mi went to find eve..she treat mi drink again...hahaa...walk to project shop..e sales gal rem me sia..hehee...chat wif her 4 awhile...then i go off le...mi lookin ard 4 a gift...shop ard taka..wisma..nutin wor...went off...went yishun to find new specs...took bus to 200+...to do new specs...and mit danny awhile about bank issues...took bus back to yis interchange n change bus home...cant imagine i did tat..took public transport e whole day...all alone sumore..fell aslp in bus..and fell aslp awhile when i rch home...

woke up and started chatting wif her...ya...im glad..i open my mouth le...cant imagine i did tat...but at least i did...had a veri long chat wif her...i hope she understand...i reali reali hope she understand my words...its impt to me...took pills after tat...didnt tell her i wasnt tat well..reali sleepy...went to slp at ard 2am...

wed 8th nov....sux sux sux...got drenched when i left home...rch work there...hot sun...faint...fell aslp awhile at e table..then go macp...slp again...was reali reali weak...fever i tink..5pm+..drove to raffles place...then to china town to settle e trip...everytin was done le..e trip...drove back to pasir ris...settle everytin...haiz..."understand me pls...my work reali veri veri stressful"...tats e cry in me....drove again...to pick my dad fr macp to pasir ris...

was smsing wif her e whole day...i noe shes wori..but im reali too held up at work...still im glad to noe tat she wori about me soo much...she did sms sumtin veri "fierce" wor..haha..i luff cos i find it veri sweeet but she show it e other way de..im reali hapi..hee...went home after seeing tat sms of hers...rch home...chat wif her at msn...heee...i juz simply enjoyed chatting wif her...took pills and went to slp b4 she offline...cos she say whole day ask mi slp le but nvr once i did..haa..so i faster go slp...aiya..wan pei her mah...but aniwae...she promise me sumtin so i faster go slp de..hehee..

9th nov...thur..mit her...drove mi kor car..ya..so hard to get car from him nor..hmm...she in skirt 2dae...so cutee...she bring barley water n a coconut 4 me to drink..hee...she say mi body heaty..gif mi drink de..so touched...i like e feeling of being looked after when im sick..e barley she made ydae de but i was too sicked to mit her le..so she pass me 2dae lo cos she promise to meet mi if i recovered 2day..so sweettt...n of cos..i got well 2dae...hehee..if not she sure "scold" mi de..

while driving...something nice hapen again..heee...mi burnt a cd 4 her days ago...so we started tokin about jay new song...tok awhile..suddenli..e radio air tat song~~ peng...wat a timing...mi so stunned...then she say e radio can feel wat we chatting..haha..cant take it..sometimes in my life..alot of these incidents..reali lost at words wat to say...at times reali too coincidence le..

bring her go hougang mall...she need to shop ard for gifts...so long nvr walk ard with her le...my 1st time to hougang mall sia...hahaa..so jialat...hmm...see her shop 4 things veri funny wor...shop shop ard..then pei her go supermarket...she choose bananas...i tell u arh..i seriously no idea how to choose lo...e way she look at e bananas..so cute..i juz stand there n watch her loh...then she oso wan buy rice..i carried 4 her...heee..duno y i feel so funi oso...i seldom go supermarket de loh..to tink tat i pei her...aiyo...hmm...share carrot cake wif her after tat...cos i say if she dun eat..i dun eat too..heee...i win~~

chat wif her when eating...i told everytin about my work n family...i hope she understand my life...at times...i cant control..esp in terms of working...send her home...hmm..rch her place downstair...we tok again in car...update her further...so relax toking to her...heee...oh..got her e vcd le...hope she likes it..hee...send her up after tat...then i went pasir ris...settle my things at there can go hm wif parents...rch home...chat wif her at msn...some parts of e conversation reali makes mi so hapi..heee...cant disclose much arh...hehee...wow..didnt realise so fast 2am+ le...muz orh orh le..another busy day 2molo...nite nite...

i call for more understanding..and i tink im getting it...like to be understood...actions speak louder than words...

my msn nick...--i'll be there to lead u-- ...who do u tink e U can be...heee...

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11:32 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006

wed 31th oct..mi went to pray alone at bugis..drove there....super heavy rain...can hardly seee....after pray...i went to orchard for hair cut...trim abit...too messy liao...heee...quite pleased with e new hair cut....mit mx at tamp to eat..eat ajisen again..hehee..my fav...treat her eat...cos i didnt buy any gift 4 her bdae mah...hmm...mit my tamp god sis after tat for drink...chat wif her for 2hrs...finali she realise hw stressful my job is..haha..

anway...sometimes amazing things do hapen...i do believe in fate...its like...hmm..theres a moment i had afew days back...suddenli feel like msging someone...so i smsed her..n at e same time i got a sms fr her...telling mi wat i juz ask her....faint...so zhun wor...i was like wanting to ask her sumtin...then she was sending me e ans at e same time...heeee...sooo sweeetttt~~~

thur...drove toyota camry to macp..haha..fren's car...took it 4 a spin since i nid to go take sumtin...shiok man...went seletar at nite...mit meng n syi chat...alot things was mentioned wor...shhh...top secrets...hahaa..poly group de..careful hor...all names are mentioned...hahaha...rch home...then ah ting msg mi at msn...wow...reali reali veri long nvr chat wif her le...used to rem e time we spend at pasir ris...now she attached le...bf veri jialat...now not much contact wif her le..aniwae...she msn mi tis... "" i lend u my shoulder to rest..lend u my ears to listen...lend u my mouth to argue..lend u my hand to beat ..lend u my head to help u think...lend u my leg to walk around... "" ....faint man...tink she read my previous post...so she send mi tat...hahaha....veri funny...

fri...meng drove...eat wif him..special food..haha...then i choose to drive though meng came down to pick mi..cos i wanted to pick her...go ser.gardens...drink coffee...she suddenli left halfway..diaoo...im sooo stunned...hmmm..dun say much le...heng she got msg mi after tat...realise wat hapen le...so mi quite hapi..hehee...then i drove back to pasir ris to leave car 4 my parents...j drove his kangoo...follow mi there...then fetch me to seletar...seriously...j nid more driving experience...sit his car reali reali super scary loh...oh ya...to me close pals...i wan say sumtin..."" pls...try to understand mi..dun scold mi...sori to trouble u all at times... but e thing is...sometimes i cant help it...im hopeless i tink...haiz...i hope u all understand....""

sat...slept oni 3hrs...rch work at 8am...got event...wat a day....work until 7pm then drove home to bath....went to pick her at 8pm...took her to a nice cafe at Arab Street...its call blu jaz...a place i came across when i went there to mit client...i did mention b4 tat i wan to bring someone go de...n i did...heheee...i noe her style de..always wan people to take e 1st step...n suggest places to her...phew...lucky i was prepared...heheee...passed e test tis time...lala~~

anyway...we took seats outside e cafe...veri nice atmosphere...e deco..e settings..even she agree its quite a nice place...ohh...got live band as well...so shiok...she enjoys live band de..hehee..lucky i br her to a gd place...hmm...then we chat n eat for ard 2hrs...

she wanted to watch show...so we decide to go M.Square to see still got movie slots not...parked at pan pac...she chose to watch sinking of japan...walked ard ms 1st...since we got time to spare...actuli all e shops are closed le..but we juz walk ard lo...then i took her outside to see see..veri nice wor...sg scenery at nite..hehee...we tok about something..haha...cannot disclose...but im so hapi about it...cos i reali meant it de...i will prove to her de...hmph...

went into e cinema 10mins early...e show quite dragging..but was quite emotional at some parts..i scare she cant take it..but still alrite..reali super cold inside..somemore oni afew pple watching...lucky i got my jacket 4 her...she was like so tightly tug under e jacket...so cute...mi was like freezing liao loh...reali trembling sia...but of cos i nvr say anitin arh...let her use e jacket can le..hehe..after e show...she say i veri stubborn cos i dunwan to use e jacket...diao...its 4 her then i do it de nor...faint...hmm...2am+ e show finish...town was reali windy loh...send her home after tat...mi rch home bath...near 4am le...faint...i been awake for 24hrs liao...cant take it sia....soooo tired....

5th nov...sun...spend whole afternoon preparing notes....then send mi dad to pasir ris...rainy day again...went to sengkang to pass something...then...decide not to go home...so anyhow find one macdonald...sit down...study!! ya...study...i noe i cant study at home de...and with alot frens ard de...so i find one mac...sit down alone to do my things...cant imagine i actuli did tat...i haven study for years liao wor...for 4 long hours i sit there...lucky still got some fruitful results...heee...drove back alone...listening to cao ge new song...e peaceful moment...reali enjoy...hehehe...im juz a simple boi after all...smilez...

..u're not a burden...u're a treasure i wanna safeguard...sound familiar??...ya..tis sentence is for u...u noe who u are de....

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2:29 AM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006

ehhh...my previous post...is it too confusing?? or too misunderstanding..?? i tink create some sort of unnecessary attention which i reali dun wan...i got afew people contacting me to ask mi about my blog...well....i wish to clear some misunderstanding...

1stly...i dun disclose e people who are close to me does not mean EVERY gal close to me is involved...im just talking about one or two person in my life oni...i hope people dun start to link gals to my life again...i had enough of troubles....

2ndly...i dun haf a gf now...i not planning to go after anyone...i dunwan to create any kind of stupid shiit now...leave me alone...i so stressed up in work...i got events this week...i got exam coming nex week...i dunwan anymore troubles le....

i blog wat i wan...say wat i wan...no one can stop me...n im not bothered about wat people say about me...e thing is..i dunwan to get my frens into trouble...esp those i haf mentioned in my blog...so at times i dun mention names...

if u are my close fren reading tis post...come to me if u got qns...if you are not someone i noe or i close with..and reading tis post...then i not bothered...i dun care watever u all feel or wan to comment...tis is my life...i live my own life and no one control me...dun act as if u reali noe me then start asking mi qns...i hate asking so mani qns...i dun like to say my things...i getting fedup cos i reali hate to explain wat i blog...cos i dun like to explain wat i blog...i wan to say wat i wan..blog wat i wan...dun stop me...want to noe my life...juz read my blog...dun ask so much...

...mood swing...once in a while....

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3:04 AM
Tuesday, October 31, 2006

i guess...i seriously have a veri big prob...one tat reali no one can help mi...cos alot times my frens had tried to tok to me...but all fail fail fail...seem tat all have gif up on me on tat...i cant agree totally its my fault but...i cant help it...im liddat since poly...its like its in mi for so long...tat kind of mentality...or maybe...more of phobia...

well...u seee...eversince tat breakup in poly...i haf tis mentality tat ALL...ya..i mean i reali tink tat all my relationships will end in tears...im like...kind of having phobia of getting attached...and i do agree tat tis mentality has reali land me in reali serious shit b4...

for afew times after poly...i was like quite close with a number of gals...of cos i cant name them out...my reali close pals will noe...those who had been thru wif me...i agree...tat some of e gals are reali reali gd..reali nice...they make reali gd galfrens or even wife...but e thing is...im scare...when i start to get reali close...or if i noe i might haf a liking for them or they haf some liking for me...i will move away...hide...i will take a step backwards...

i duno hw mani pple will actuli understand wat im tryin to say...im afraid of falling for someone...or start a relationship with anyone...im scare...till now...i still dun dare to do anitin...maybe wat i haf been thru over e yrs reali cast a shadow on mi...hmm...i noe i did hurt afew people b4 with tis stupid thinking of mine but i cant help it...im scare...tats e truth...im like having a phobia...real bad one...can anyone help me with tat? i doubt so...so mani yrs le...so mani scoldings...naggings...im still e same...still e same weird behaviour....

well...i cant believe i actuli blog tis out...cos its in me for soooo long and i seldom tok about it unless wif afew close pals...now im like..making it public....cant believe i actuli did tat...but i was hoping like...maybe someone out there can tok mi out of tis thinking...and also hope tat my frens can understand me abit more better...stop asking me y i dun wanna haf gfs or y i dun go after her etc etc etc...im stuck...dun gif mi more pressure...i hate it...

anyway...enuff of my stupid nonsense...hmmm...i do appreciate people who are there at e rite moment when i reali needed them...ya...and i mean i reali reali appreciate...for me...i seldom open up to anyone now...my probs..everytin..i keep it to myself...have been taking everytin and handling everytin myself since...i tink for at least a year...i seldom complain...nor get angry nor anitin...when im stressed up...i at most say tat im stressed...nutin much...

but...2dae...was different...i msg her...tat im felt so drained by work..n its tearing mi up...and i oso say tat i understand fully how life is etc etc...and tat i seldom complain or gif up or even tok to anione about how stress my life is...i keep to myself...but....in juz 6 smses...i almost break into tears...e one tat touched mi e most was...

"no wories i wil alwaz b here 2 let u my ears n shoulder...although i dun go thru ur certain situation but i do noe hw tough wk can be..."

goohhsss...i seriously almost break down when i see tis msg...im touched..reali touched...i noe tat alot pple say to me b4 sumtin like tis...but nutin beats tis msg...cos i reali wanted comfort at tat moment...and it came juz at e rite moment...reali touched my heart...e feeling...so warm...

e 1st part..."alwaz b here" was enuff to fill my eyes...then...people always say ears...but wat i nid most is a shoulder...cos i dun like to tok much bout my stuffs...and then e 2nd part...she noe tat i cant put to words wat my job is totally about..she noe shes not in my shoes...she cant feel wat i haf gone thru...but...true enuff...i agree tat work can reali reali be v.tough....i reali cant describe wat i felt when i read e msg...but i was like...hapi with tears...

juz when tat moment when i was on my way home after yet another sucky day....there she is...with e rite msg to me...im glad...im reali hapi...e msg makes my day....i reali reali appreciate her presence...i noe she shld not be e one worryin about me at tis moment...but she still manage to squeeze out some concern for me esp wats she goin thru now...i will look after her i promise..i will not bring her anymore trouble or worries...i doubt she read my blog...but still...i wanna thanks her...reali appreciate to have her in my life now...

Thanks..for being there at e rite moment...e concern i have felt..from u to me..its more than enough as compare to anything else...i promise...to give you e best in future...

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2:16 AM
Monday, October 30, 2006

wed 25th oct...off day...went raffles place mit pple to tok about sumtin..haven step into raffles mrt for years liao..haha..then go orchard...went to find eve at toast in taka..she working ther..go kajiao her awhile..lol..quite hard to find wor tat place..didnt noe it exist..haha..eve treat mi drink ice mocha..she made de..haha..duno can drink or not..lol...go study after tat..got revision class...class finish ard 45mins time...went to eat wif clsmates at mos..mi noe a new gal classmate..cos im helpin rose to find pple mah...so go ard asking pple if they wan work..haha..went billard after tat at amk wif meng...then mi kor send mi home..sooo tired...

thur...went changi village to buy things for work..haha...been years since i been there oso..ate nasir lemak...not tat nice wor..lol...no "ah gua" to see on tat dae leh...cos super heavy rain...mi sooo drenched..hmm..went pasir ris farmway to buy other stuffs...saw veri veri veri big fishes..damn scary loh..hahaha...

fri..went to mit peiyin..aia agent...eve's fren...eve noe i lookin ard 4 investment so she intro mi her fren...spend 1hr tokin to e agent..noe more about insurance etc...ohh...da jie came again to fish at nite...tis time she bought mi ice cream mooncake...shiok...da jie..as i intro b4...i noe her cos she always come fishing de...v.nice person...i call her da jie...hahaa...she works in swenson bugis...manager...hehee...she bought mi ice cream mooncake cos i nvr try b4 mah...so nice...hehee...1st time eat...hahaa...yummy...

then ard 12am+...mi go wine fair...a pub..wif meng slow j srong...we go there drink beer and chat loh..hehee...after a day...im so glad to go chill out~~ ...played dice game n drink...played pool oso..lost e 1st game..so sianz...but did manage to win meng n j..hehe...then rch hm...4am le.. slp.....

sat...went work...settle afew things b4 sitting down to rest...nutin much to do at work...evening time went to mit lan...she wanna go out...mi took her to orchard...she was like having a headache when i mit her...so i ask her to rest awhile 1st while i drive..parked at cineleisure...orchard was reali packed...mi long time nvr go orchard le...even longer nvr go wif lan le...tink got 4yrs nvr go shoppin wif her le...sad to say tat oso...haiz...near 2yrs of no contact reali affect alot things betw mi n her wor...aniwae...we went heeren to walk ard...change so much sia....e 1st floor renovate le...so long nvr go ther shop shop le....

went back cineleisure to eat...she nvr eat wor..juz drink...chat wif her while eating...she said sumtin..juz one sentence oni...reali make mi veri hapi liao..heee...shall not disclose...anyway..i didnt realise 2dae was halloween day...alot pple dress up 4 for day wor...so cute...spend an hour chattin wif lan...its been long since we had a gd chat le..hehee...n i realise alot of things...hehee...so sweeettt...

watch movie wif her at 9pm at cineleisure..mi long time no watch at ther le..watched the show D.O.A...actuli quite crap show leh..hhahahaha..alot pple say like C.Angels...tink reali worse than tat loh...heee.....movie end ard 11pm...then lan sis called her...ask her go MOS wor...lan ask if i wanna go...of cos im fine..haha...

drove to MOS..park at liang court...MOS was reali packed...alot pple was dressed up..halloween party..haha...some reali scary...some reali cute...got in after 15min...super packed wor inside...mit up with lan sis n their frens...most of them i noe de...MOS didnt change much fr e last time i been there...lol...e last time im there in july...im drunk...my bdae..haha..

started drinking wif her frens...she stop mi fr drinking too much...cos she noe i luv drinking...but i driving mah...so i juz took a few slips....but her frens open chivas leh...see liao i so gian to drink neh..haha..but lan say stop mean stop de loh...cannot argue one...walk ard...to retro...to R&B...my fav...but reali too packed le...damn sian...nvm lah...haha...inside MOS 2dae like fashion show...we stand there see different costumes...so funnyy...some reali craps loh...lol~~ once a year then can see de...so cute....

hmm...came to realise...i haven go clubbing wif lan for mani years liao wor...e last time i tink 5yrs ago le...wow...time reali flies....tat time im juz 18 wor...she bring mi go club de..i rem...i play pool then...she look after mi like da jie jie...hehee...now...mi grown up le...she no nid to wori so much about mi le...now is i look after her le...heheee....so much fun we had in MOS...of cos cannot disclose too much...wait no privacy le..lol~~ anyway...e best thing is i get to chat wif her...tats enuff le...juz wanna be wat we used to be like...i miz those days....

mi n lan left 1st...ard 2am...took her to jalan kayu..mi abit hungry...and she wanna drink something fr there..so i brought her there lo...order juz one piece of prata..haha...shared afew stuffs with her again...tink we getting back to wat we used to be...reali feel so hapi when chatting wif her...reali enjoyed myself e whole evening...hope she feel e same too...sent her home after tat...3am+ le...so tired le...molo still haf to work...sianz...

sun...went to mum's fren house warming near our place...so big e house...they v.rich sia..alot of expensive stuff...envy...lol...went work....then off to amk to mit dj meng n qx...we wanna settle some impt stuff...hahaa...pa billard wif meng...duno wat hapen...mi lost reali terribly...was totally distracted by my sat outing i tink..haha...meng lah..keep rubbing in...cant tahan...cannot concentrate on my billard sia...lol....lose lo...bo bian...hahaa...wow..2am+ le...so fast...haf to slp le...veri tired...shall cont again...zzzz

Patience paying off...i used to be so impatient...now im changed...
Its not about saying anything...its about doing something...i did...

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2:55 AM
Wednesday, October 25, 2006

yeah...lifes so happening these daes that i hardly got time to blog...hahaa...i actuli started tis post in aug..now end of oct alreadi n im still editing tis post..haha...well...theres ups & downs...tats life...but guess more better stuff are happening rite now...kind of veri hapi with tat..hehee...shall share about e recent things tat hapen in my life...hehee...enjoy~~ welcome to my life~~~

well...i cant reali rem much tat hapen in e past few weeks...hmmm...i rem i went to watch fireworks with zhao n frens on 8th aug..national day eve..hahaa...damn crowded lo...fireworks was great...but was reali too hot..cos reali alot of pple...hahaa..went to catch a show later..."my super ex gf"..a crap show but reali funny..haha..

9th aug..rch workplace at 7am...we having our 1st ever major fishing competition..alot of things to prepare b4 we actuli start...was so busy tat dae...9am sharp, e competition start..hahaa...300+ pple fishing there...reali big crowd...i stil rem i walk thru a crowd...reali alot of pple...i luv e scene...hahaa...took afew pics too...so nice...mi work n work e whole dae...was even drenched due to e rain...well...e thing ends at 5pm...biggest fish was 9.4kg...veri big..haha..then we had e prize presentation b4 we start to clear up...mi tahan till 8pm+ then reali cant tk it liao..i went out to haf dinner n go home slp le..haha...too tired...but nice experience...

mi went to attend a talk on 12th aug at cityhall..a speech prepared by my lecturer..e best part of e talk is e speech given by Marina Bay Sands...they won e Marina Bay IR bid and my lecturer manage to get e manager to gif a speech...im reali impressed by their concept..n the shape of the hotels n shopping centre...im reali cant wait 4 e IR to start...i hope i can work in there someday..haha...then i mit mx to eat at MS...lunch..haha...after 4hrs of talk...reali hungry le...ate reali nice italian food...well...after tat i went back to work lo...busy day~~

hmm...on e 18th, i had a meeting wif my lecturer at his office in suntec..e purpose was like...mi wanting some jobs opportunity from him...n some help...cos i feel tat im reali quite lost in life now..i duno if i shld cont working 4 dad or watever...well...2hrs in his office...im reali convinced by him...he taught mi alot..n now im tryin to work hard...hope i can achieve something big in life...then i had another meeting wif dad n boss at dad's office regarding e stuff my lecturer haf told mi...i ask 4 one mth time...for mi to do all marketing stuff 4 our company...muz work hard~

after meeting..i cont to do my assignment...its my off day n yet i spend 5hrs on meeting...off day like nvr off liddat...sianz...hmm...went back marina sq to mit diana for dinner..mths since i last saw her le..hahaha...she treat mi eat..haha..she owe mi de...cos we make a bet to see whether liverpool or man utd can take 2nd place last season...n of cos..so clear...i won..hahaa...man utd!!

well...i rem on the 19th..sat nite..i do assisgnment till 6am in e morn...then i cont on sun...nvr go work...i do from noon to nite sia...finally complete my assignment...phew...then i went to suntec to submit my assignment on mon...walk ard wif my godsis after tat...lookin 4 a new shirt n shoes...but i reali duno wat to buy leh...sianz...

one of e best moment tat hapen 2 mi tis yr...i mit up wif rose on 22nd aug..tue nite...she date mi out..hahaa..im shocked too...i guess shes feelin down ba...aniwae...i picked her up at esplanade at 11pm..shes asked mi 2 name a place to go...quite testing actuli...well..heng im prepared...i suggest to her Mt Faber n shes so hapi about it..haha..so off we go...

actuli its my 1st time to Mt Faber..haha...23yrs le..1st time...she oso consider 1st time ba..e last time she went was like 10yrs ago..hahaa..aniwae...driving there wasnt tat hard...but findin way up there reali mafan..hahaa...one way road...dark...steep...well..heng mi noe hw drive..haha...on e way..i found why shes so stressed up le...of cos...secret...hehehee...

finali got to e place...i got someone to park mi car..then we walked up...n there we rch...wow...i can say...im amazed...i heard gd stuff about Mt Faber...but i reali didnt noe its soo gd...veri veri nice scenery...we can see sentosa n e world trade centre...e lights..e bridge...e tables n chair..well..rose dun like e chair..haha...n its quite windy too...e whole place reali nice..i luv e atmosphere...hahaa...reali reali attractive to mi...even e toilets is unqiue..haha...n i got a great partner...rose wore a pinkish flowerish shirt with black short skirts...reali match e settings of e place...great...heheee....

yeah...rose took her own sweet ordering her food...n she did request a special order...cant say out..cos now oni i noe..haha...hmmm...i try to do something special 4 her after tat...well...dunwan say much oso le..hahahaa...better to keep things simple betw us...mi n her gone thru so much...fate doesnt like us...always make us miz out on each other...but aniwae...at least we still gd frens...hehee...i always enjoyed toking to her...shes mature...n her tinking is reali diff...so mani yrs le...i still find her amazing...e way she handle her life...her thoughts....heee...didnt realise we sat ther for 3hrs...2am le...e place closing le...we took a walk ard....b4 heading to my car...

driving down is easy...but finding my way after tat reali hard..hahaha..1st time i rch some unknown places in sg...heng..mi not road idiot...manage to get back on track...well...rose...i hopes shes alrite...i realise shes not alrite these daes...thru her conversation on hp wif someone i can reali understand wats shes going thru...i wish her e best...hehee...as 4 my pals reading...pls...dun get it wrong...i haf no intentions on rose...juz a gd fren..hehehee...better clear e air 1st..lalala..well...i reali reali enjoyed e nite....cheersss....

then came zhao bdae...on 26th..haha...i had an event in e morn...then 3pm go home help out...my didi 21st bdae leh...i got him a LCD monitor!! veri exp de hor..haha...my di mah..i dun mind paying...but got pple share de hor...hahahaa...i took a nap...6pm wake...alot pple rch liao sia...mi go ard to entertain..haha..zhao frens all i noe de mah...esp gals..lol~~ bath n style my hair nice nice then start my entertaining..hhahahaa...go ard chat wif pple...hmm...zhao gals frens all i noe de...heheee...reali long time nvr see some of them le...hahaa...

best part is zhao cut cake time...hehee...took pics wif him n parents...of cos im out 4 revenge for my 21st bdae loh...sang e bdae song...after tat i distract him..i offer him a green tea..n he drank e whole pack!! for those who duno mi didi...he dun drink green tea..he will vomit one..haha..its tested n proven...but i force him to...got pics n video..hahaha..power...then i purposely tk pics wif him...then come sen with a cake specially to smash zhao de...whack~~ hahaa..then water splashed on him oso...i put lots n lots of cake on him...hahahaa...sweet revenge...everytin on video...so fun...hahaha..hapi 21st bdae my dear didi...ehehee...after tat i play wif his frens till 5am then slp...n oso see see zhao presents...not bad wor...lol~~ he hapi can le...my didi mah..i super dote on him de...hahaha...

oh ya...someone turn up 4 zhao bdae...my lan lan~~ hehee..i didnt expect her to come de...well..im glad she did...still got janice syi srong meng j sen ph...all my poly grp de...but still e most shocking is lan lan come..hehee..she got mi a gift cos she went biz trip overseas...hee..i noe she dote mi de..sure get mi sumtin..bleah...i luv e gift...white coloured shorts...hehee..chat wif lan meng n j for quite some time...lan lookin at e europe book...haha..joke wif her tats our planned honeymoon place....her response v.sweet...shes cute..i like...hahaa...cannot disclose too much...wait tio aim again..hahaa...change topic liao~~

aniwae..mi played soccer in pasir ris on sun 27th..sen joined mi too...1st ever time i wear my boots in so mani yrs...reali veri veri long nvr try playin in field le..tink e last time i played was like poly times...heng i still can wear my boots..hahaa...hmmm...heng i still manage 2assists..hahaa...but run a hour plus oni then mi cant take it liao...too long nvr exercise le..haha...e last time i played soccer was like 3mths ago le...oh man...i haf to start exercising le...gettin out of shape le...but now...whole body muscle ache...reali jialat..hahaha...

hmm..mit up wif yh on mon 28th..its almost a yr since i last met her...i rem e last time i saw her was like e dae i had my operation..she came to hosp to visit mi...i stil rem im so shocked to see her then...heee..well..she has grown so matured..as in her appearance wise...ya..she gt a bf now...for bout a yr le..so fast...ahahaa...i mit yh at cozway juz nw cos i nid to settle some stuff...then i drove her to prata shop outside mi hse 4 supper...hmmm..i brought her to a place near her hse..its like a park..n she didnt even noe its exist..hahaa...its a reali quiet place...not mani pple noe...n its my 1st time there though i noe e place...lol...had a chat wif her at e park...nice atmosphere and veri clean environment...quite windy there tooo..lol...im oso surprised by tat..hahaa...i like e place....

well..yh is another gal whom im so linked wif in e past...esp poly times...yp super jealous of her back then...lol...tinkin back reali makes mi wanna luff...hahaa...i miz those times in poly...and e time i waiting for army..tat 5mths of holiday..lol..now...things haf change so much le...luckily mi n yh still got things to chat..hahaa...reali miz her as a fren...i rem she used to be wif mi and comfort mi when i broke up wif yp...n i was ther when she broke up too...lol...so nice n sweet then...hehee..i treasure e simple frenship i haf wif her....smilez...

mit j 4 lunch on sat..2nd sept..at cineleisure...we ate sushi buffet..haha..then we went to shop ard in orchard n suntec..duck n liang oso wif us..hmm..e best thing of e day is...mi n j went to mit yp at tcc ard 7pm..tokin bout yp...shes back fr e states...n finali..after one year..we mit up..i didnt expect tat also...i cant believe tat we actuli got back contact...well..i dont see tat happenin a year ago...but im glad...to see her again....hehee...

we sat at tcc at citylink...chat...drink..n surf net using j's laptop...hahaa..we spend 5hrs there wor...soo long...yp tok about her US trip..her frens...its abit weird at 1st...mi n her cant reali chat...but after awhile...things got better le...hmm...went to eat supper at s11 after tat..jayne joined us wif her dog..so cute~~ i held her dog..so nice to hug...hahaa..yp oso touch e dog..she abit scare..hahaa...well...i send yp home after tat...oh mine...e route to her hse...1yr+ nvr send her home liao...e same old route she used over e yrs...i rem e route clearly...used to send her home almost everydae during poly times...times flies...its 4yrs after we broke up le...so mani things had hapen...im juz glad...reali glad tat we get back to contact again..i noe we can be v.gd frens de...i hope tis frenship goes on...juz like wat sen mention in his blog...i do enjoy e moments...

had a interview on mon morn..4th sept..wore formal with tie wor..haha..its a job interview..a chance to work as event coordinator for e upcoming car show...cool~~ liang got mi tis lobang de...mi juz tryin luck oni..haha..well..interview was alrite...tink i over qualified 4 e job...they did ask mi to call them back but i didnt...cos my xam crashed wif e event..no choice..got to gif up..

went to find liang at lido after tat...went liang office..wow...his colleagues noe about mi b4 i rch..muz be liang big mouth..duno say wat le..hahaa..aniwae i so handsome..no prob de lah..haha...went eat jap food wif liang...then i went to cut hair at far east..liang intro de so i try lo..hehe..i went shopping alone after tat at suntec...then mit ah lian jie 4 chat...get to see my godson again...gettin bigger le..so cute...mit meng after tat...super heavy rain...ate at nearby coffeeshop...then went home...soo tired....

oh ya...i dye my hair e nex dae on tue...liang lo..jio mi go dye..i cant take it le..haha..drove to orchard ard 6pm+...mit liang at far east...had a gd chat wif e hair dresser...hahaa..3hr+ leh my hair...liang oso dye...well...cant disclose my colour...muz mit mi then noe..hehehe...

mit lanlan on fri..8th sept..was reali sick actuli...feverish..sore throat...but i still went out to mit her..i noe she sure scold mi de..but im liddat de..i dun care...cos so hard to mit up wif her..muz go mit..hehe...e moment she sit mi car...touch mi forhead...she ask mi go hm le..haha..expected...she dun allow mi to drive..lol~~ but..being song song..mi cfm can tok my way thru de..hehee...went to drink coffee at ser.gardens coffee bean...i not supposed to drink de...but i did..hehee...chat wif lan lan for afew hrs...touch on alot stuffs...hehee...i always feel so hapi chatting wif her de...i feel so at ease wif her...cos maybe she reali dote mi alot...but being her...she always show in another way..hahaa...i juz luv playing wif her...heheee...

then i was like so sick e nex 2days...i slp e whole wkend i tink...cant rem hw long i slp..hahaa...was better on mon...went to tk car 4 yp..drove her car to work...n to sch on tue e 12th..glad to noe tat e whole class pass e assignment...heng arh...hahaa..i hope to do better for e nex assignment...muz jiayou le...

oh~~ watch devil wear prada!!!...i luv e show~~ now..i not so keen about action films..i more keen to watch movies about real life experiences..i juz luv e way e movie goes...it shows how e life of a person changes when gounded by work...i juz crazy about e whole show..i even went to buy e book...haha....

hmm...i went NTU hostel pick yp fr prp....i cant believe i did tat too..aniwae...i nvr been to hostel b4 so no harm gg....went to look ard at her hall...brand new de sia...so power...now i noe how e life is inside a hostel...hahaa...drove ard e campus...yp showed mi ard...wow...reali amazing..so big...lol...i haf nvr been to any local UNI b4...hahaa...went to eat prata after tat wif yp n sen...b4 sending yp home...tired....

oh..so fast...rch 16th sept le..hahaha...went to watch the host wif yp, yl, sen n j....saw sweety at J8..oh mine..i stil rem e last time i saw them...was so totally crazy about yan yan then..now not so siao le..hahaa..aniwae...e show "e host" was quite craps i tink..haha..no meaning one...oni tat yp scare mi alot times lah..lol...she dun reali dare to watch scary show de...haha...

17th sept...slp 4hr oni....got event..vicom company...got nice gal fr e event wor..quite cute...tok to her for awhile...hahaa...but mi work 14hrs sia..sumore got flu...tired....hmmm....i rem on e 21th sept...yp car give up on mi...sad...it broke down when i was driving to work...had to send e car to workshop...n wait 4 mi dad to pick mi...so sianz...then i travel ard wif dad...he go west coast for meeting....e amazing thing is...i saw shirley..sen godsis..walking across e bed when we stop at e traffic light..faint...hahaa..i cant believe that i actuli met her tat way...hahaa..so stunning..i didnt see her for years liao i tink....sg reali reali small...i hapen to see her at west coast juz liddat! faint...

27th sept..went to take yp car..then go beach road..arab street to mit client..i didnt noe e place was so nice wor..hahaha...saw one cafe ther..quite interesting...shall br pple go there in future...after tat go toa payoh mit ah lian jie awhile to take something...then head off to toa payoh central to mit ling ling...was alreadi ard 9pm le...we mit up to eat...so long nvr mit her le...both of us so busy..hahaa..had a reali nice chat wif her...then i haf to go pasir ris to pick people..haf to send some workers to causeway..custom there...faint...reali damn sian..cos i mean driving e whole day le...rch hm...v.tired...ko~~

mit yp at whitesands on thur 28th....we sat down at mac to see her pics she took at the states...haiz...reali envy her...can go states..somemore enjoy so much...go so mani places..took so mani pics...play so mani things...doubt i have e chance to ever go america...sob...im so jealous...hmm...send her to her chalet after tat..then go back work..went geylang pick yp again at nite...duno y i so gd..hahaha..aniwae...we went liquid kitchen at thomson there 4 a drink...and also see her pics again...make mi jealous again....sianz....

29th...went natas in e noon wif yp...walk ard for 2hrs then yp went off...mi cont to look for tours to korea...went off ard 5pm...carpark reali ex...7 bucks for 3hr+..reali sux...mit liang j n duck again at natas at 7pm...tis time to cfm e tour package...yp oso came...but she left after tat...duno wat she tinking oso...travel here n ther..hahaa..aniwae...we book e tour to korea le..in dec...yeah~~ im reali lookin 4ward for e trip!!

30th sept..another packed day...went to watch forbidden city by kit chan wif j duck n liang..v.nice wor..i luv it..hahaa..now im into opera...hahaa..grown up...kit chan voice super power neh..e theatre oso nice...mi 1st time go esplanade theatre..haha..oh..i saw rosemary when gg down fr e escalator...duno y cfm muz knock into her when im there..hahaa..then mi went to watch jackie chan new movie..e baby movie..hahaa..rch hm 3am sia..tired...5hr of sitting..lol..

1st oct...went airport to fetch my parents...they went HK...was waitin 4 them...then i see alot gals...holdin cameras etc...then someone appeared...cant reali see him at 1st...he wore cap n sun glasses..later then i realise he is wang li hong sia..hahaha...aiyo...small world...tink he came to promote his album...cant believe i saw him..hahaa..

3th oct tue...super busy....went bugis to find cheap lanterns 4 e event to be held at pasir ris...then go tamp to get more lanterns...n oso to pasir ris to book mooncake...reali tiring....sianz..cos i in charge of everytin mah...wat to do...manager...ya...full of shiit work...sux..

4th oct...yp came to mi hse...for e 1st time in so mani yrs..haha..she came over to tk her car mah..i wan show her e prob wif her car...mit up wif her at BK at sem. shopping center to eat...reali weird feeling..i used to eat at SSC wif her in poly...e whole place full of memories to mi..hahaa...aniwae...she rch me place more worse wor...esp when she in mi room....years ago shes mine...100%...now...shes wif other guy le n im still single..hahaa...life reali so unpredictable...well....at least she turn 4 e better now le...im glad 4 her....oh...she came to see my mum oso de...she bought mi mum a box of mooncake...something she haven done in a yr...hahaa...hmm...mi showed her e car...n drove her to her cousin shop 4 repairs....went amk mos burger for a drink wif yp...mi waiting 4 mi kor to pick mi ...while she wait 4 her job to start...

5th oct thurs...went mandarin hotel 4 a talk...tis time is a talk on gaming and casino mgmt..oso done by my lecturer..went there to listen lo...veri interesting topic...aniwae...e ballrm was great...hahaa...went to eat at coffee xpress wif liang after e talk...then i go prp wif shirt n pants...looks reali cool..hahaa....alot gals saw mi...say i look handsome!! yeah...lol~~

oct 6th...mooncake festival day...e lanterns were all lighted up..alot pple holding lanterns..playin candles...we gif out alot gifts too...so nice e whole place...alot lanterns and candles lights...so sweet...oh ya..mi go kelong oso..at ard 5pm..hahaa..go tk fish...e boat we took reali power wor...damn fast...aniwae...e kelong reali cute...so mani fishes...veri shaky oso..haha...had lots of fun there while e others do e work..hahaa...went amk to find meng n j 4 billard after my work...slow join us too...haha...i call her to come de...then we went to a place near slow place 4 a chat...rch hm 3am le..tired....ko again..hahaa..

oct 7th sat...went eat wif sen ph n j at chong pang...then go bugis...j drive..power sia...went sim lim...then to bugis...we park at shaw tower....went icons...saw sumtin 4 yp...bought it in an instance...so hapi to get such a cute gift 4 yp..hahaha...then we went parco bugis...bought a jacket from S&K...hahaha...go korea can use ba...went eat fish n co...yp joined us...power sia e foood.....gif yp e gift...shes so hapi...all went home after tat...oni tat mi n j go occ to play billard...cos mi 4got to bring keys..cant go home...haf to wait 4 pple to rch home...so go billard to kill time...hahaa....

oct 8th sun...do some things 4 my room...room change again le....hahaa...dunwan say much...shift here n there so mani times in a year...reali cant get used to e new arrangement...but bo bian wor...fengshui...no complaint~~

oct 11th...wed morn...got shock sms...earli in e morn...make mi cant slp...haiz...j lah...no lah...cant blame him...hes gd to tell mi...mi whole day cant do my things...at nite time go wif meng...reali cfm...she lost her mum..haiz...1st sight i see her...reali wan break down...shes so weak...small shoulder of hers like so tired....she hang on so much...been thru so much..when she saw mi n meng...she reali like wan to break down le...mi oso cant take it...fighting hard to hold mi tears...cos i noe i haf to control my feelings...

thur nite go again...did my best to help out her...haiz...my heart reali felt 4 her...cant take it to see her liddat...reali hurts....fri...mi do assignment at home during e day...then mit j eat LJS...v.long nvr eat le...then tk cab down to lan place...to help her again...then lan's fren sent us home...his car reali v.power....1st time i sit in such a heavily "mod" car..power...

sat morn...mit meng n slow eat...then go lan there again...sat...last day le...help her abit...then "walked" with them....took bus to guang ming san...took bus back...help lan in packing up...then go lan hse...pei her till 6pm then we go off...cos i nid to pick mi mum fr pasir ris...meng n slow came mi hse...i bath...then go eat dinner and watch movie after tat.."e departed"....another cock show lah...so sianz...waste of mi $$.....

sun..15th oct...mi was sick...reali sick...but still manage to finish my assignemnet..woke up at 7am e nex day to go submit assignment..then go prp...work whole day...even haf to go down water...work till nite then free...reali veri veri tired...bad weather too...but...my mind is about her...i cant concentrate on anitin...though i was sick..was v.tired...but i dun feel anitin...reali v.worried about her...hope shes fine...i noe i cannot disclose too much about wat hapen...but im just so worried about her...haiz...my mood was reali down for mani days...

thur...oct 19th...haiz...its over betw me n yp...i duno y e frenship betw us cant be kept...i duno hw to save...duno wat to do...maybe...its better 4 us not to contact...cant take it animore...argh..i juz hate it...duno y we argue again...but reali v.stupid...about e same old shiit tat hapen last yr...reali fuk...damn fuk up...i had enuff of all e nonsenses...better not contact with her animore...reali waste of time n efforts...i juz gif up...no regrets...pissed....

fri...oct 20th...nite time...mi car break down near j place...so fedup..haf to push car...heng got j n meng to help...then went occ for billard and eat at prata shop...haiz...mood wasnt tat gd...but nvm lah...at least got them to pei mi...im glad...

sat..21 oct..played soccer in e morn...then noon time i went to lan place..bought some herbal tea 4 her...hmm...went her place juz to pei her lo...chat wif her...watch tv wif her...then she slept awhile cos she not feeling well...had dinner at her place too..its been a week..im still v.worried about her...cant imagine i spend near 9hrs at her place juz to pei her...but as long as shes alrite..i dun mind de...juz wanna make sure shes ok....cos i noe she wan pple to pei her de...

mi left ard 11pm..sen picked mi up..we went j8 to watch death note...quite an interesting show...but i tink reali 4 guys de...gals hardly interested ba..hahaa...rch home ard 3am...super tired...then sun..22 oct...woke up early again...went to eat wif e whole family...cos mi mum bdae on 23th...went to eat crystal jade...super full sia...tink veri expensive sia tat meal..hahaah...order alot of food...but nvm lah..mum enjoy can le...oh ya...mx bdae same as mi mum...hapi bdae to both of them...hahaha...

mon...23rd oct...rch workplace ard 12pm...saw da jie jie~~...i noe her at pasir ris de...she luv fishing...always come wif her bf...hahaa..shes 5yrs older than mi....chat wif her for quite awhile...loading fish tat time she joined mi...hahaa...mi gave her free fishes lo...hahaa...shhh...later tio complaint..hahaa....then rain!!...faint...all drenched...so damn sianz lo....but nvm lah...da jie jie took mi to white sand...she treat mi eat swenson...curry chicken baked rice~~~ sooooo nice...hahaha...da jie jie works in swenson at bugis...shes a manager...hahaha...she buy got staff discount....so nice of her...treat mi eat...hahaa...e funny thing is...she said to her frens in whitesands swenson is tat..she fishing cute boi boi at fishing area...n im e new one...lol~~ so cute...hahaha...so nice...got another da jie jie to care 4 mi le...yeah...im so hapi...lalalala....

went back to eat e baked rice...oso ask mum to try...her fav too..hahaha...enjoy~~ ...but e bad thing is....haiz..i 4got its ph eve...faint...at nite not enuff pple work arhh...even mi haf to help out...reali tired...work till 2am leh~~ faint...rch home 3am ko le...zzzzz....

wow...finally i rch 2dae date le..tue 24th oct..hahaa...after work..i went to mit lanlan...picked her up at her place....1st thing i did when she in my car is tat i check if she got fever not...tis gal hor...aiyo...then muz cover her wif mi jacket b4 moving off....aniwae...we go ser.gardens for coffee again..heheee...did parallel parking...faint...i nvr do tat b4 lo...cos i hate it...if not 4 lan lan...i cfm stuck de..hahaha...she luff at mi parking sia...zzz...sian diao....

bought my fav drink...sat down wif her...mi wore jacket...she tot i sick...hahaa...she check mi forehead...we two reali funny de...keep tinking we both like sick sick one...lol...i call tat concern...hahahaa...aniwae...chat wif her loh...cant disclose much...but i juz noe her style....heee...she noe it...maybe those days spend wif her in poly...reali make mi understand her alot...shes e one who taught mi alot of things...cos she been thru alot...reali like a jie jie to me..take care of me...pamper mi...dote mi...so sweeettt...

then i drove her ard in my car...she wanna go 4 a spin...hmm...drove thru some parts of sengkang...even she nvr ever been b4...hahaa...i oso wor...1st time sia...alot unknown places n see those unwanted LRT stations....cool...heheee...

hmmm...we did chat in e car...i told her quite afew things...juz let her noe tat i reali concern about her...cos shes lan lan mah...someone who played an impt role in my life esp in poly times...if not 4 her...my last sem in poly cfm fail de...cos of her then i study...she pulled mi up when i broke off wif yp...she taught mi on how to control my temper...my impatience...n not to shake mi legs when sitting! hahaa..she basically juz pinched n whacked mi when i shake mi legs de loh...pain~~ but it helped lo...mi cured...haha..no more shaking of legs le..lol...bad habit...

she noe i like to be wif her...cos oni infront of her, i can be my true self..like a small boi boi she said..hahaa..i dun need to fake..dun need to act when im wif her...tats y i dote on her soo much..i dun care whether people will misundertook anitin...i will treat her v.well de...i rem those days she took mi to see doc...she pei mi when im injured..cook 4 mi..teach mi study...pei mi play..movie shopping swimming...she was there 4 mi when i was down...yet we lost contact for 2yrs...tat 2yrs she been thru hell...i wasnt there 4 her and i reali blame myself 4 tat...now shes down again..i will make sure im there 4 her...no matter how much it takes...i will be with her de...cos mi reali dote her alot...

well..e best moment today is...i saw her smilez juz now...so sweett...i haven seen her smilez for quite some time...hope to bring her more happyness...im juz so hapi 2dae...its juz like back to e old days when we were v.close...im veri veri glad...i promise i wont lose her again...

my heart felt 4 her...hopes she fine...i will do my very best to make her hapi...

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